pot it with everything else HOT
sorry for the damn long post
there were some very big revelations

as much as harry potter looks shaggy in the movie with that ron weasley looking doggy hair. i think he can actually look pretty hot and yummy when posed properly with nice lighting and camera poses. he had very nice features for one very young multi high box office movie star. but it'll be better if he manages to loose some face weight.

for a guy that young... it makes me wonder all the time what the hell am i doing in uni.... i should be home schooled, traveling on a RV, sitting on a chair with my NAME on it and earning millions for every time my face hits the big screen. i should have been doing this like 5 years ago when i was younger.



now is not a bad time either.

will it not be nice if i had the very chance to go play one of the characters on the set. i really dont care who i play on screen. even if it is one of the portraits hanging in dumby's office or even if i was the voice of sirus mother's painting or something. at least i know i can squeal. proven that at fright night.

but making my name in harry potter will be a good start to a good career. too bad i dont do my british accent too good.

another thing. i think that snape has a very good tailor. that uniform makes him look HOT. like come on.... i totally love that character. my favourite character in the book/movie. i really wont even mind if i get to marry him off the screen.

i love my men with magic wands. (dont read too much into this sentence)

and i love my men BAD... very bad... (note book 6)

i dont mind marrying cedric either. too bad he died too early. but you have to admit that he is surely one HOT LOOKING GUY!!!! esp under the cape.

but the biggest hot shot is...

voldermolt is sure one DAMN HOT GUY!!!! why on earth did they get Ralph Fiennes to play that one-who-must-not-be-named???!!!!??? did they really have to fly him down all the way from america to play the baddest man in the movie??? he is so hot it makes voldermolt HOT and THAT IS SO WRONG!!!!!!

Ralph Fiennes is like damn freeking hot la.
mr maid in manhattan.
voice of Rameses in prince of egypt
mr heathcliff in Wuthering Heights

hello??? he was MR HEATHCLIFF!!! the one and only man of the truest love and expression of the truest purest LOVE.... yes... that 1992 production of wuthering heights that sits in the SAJC LIBRARY.... the one which i watch before my A levels. any man on earth that manages to get a role in wuthering heights as mr catherine heathcliff is the epitome of HOT AND GORGEOUS!!!



take laurence oliver for example. he may be one old men (probably dead now) now but he sure was hot in the 1939 version of wuthering heights.

but come on... you cannot deny that Ralph Fiennes was DAMN FREEKING HOT in 1992 Wuthering heights. the character itself just speaks tonnes of how charismatic he is on screen. not ANYONE is qualified to play heathcliff.

how to make voldermot look evil???!!!???
just how to???
ok... maybe it is just the nose. but still...

OTHER THINGS THAT WENT TOTALLY WRONG IN THE MOVIE

1> Viktor Krum is definitely should be more more hairy than ron or potter.
yes good to see that he is big and rather charming. but what happened to the bushy eyebrows?



2> Fleur definitely needs to be prettier
veela??? cant make plain jane play a veela leh.... her tracksuit is damn awlful.

3> What happened to the world cup????? three mins???? what the hell????
i really was looking forward to the flying. i mean even chamber of secret have a way better flying scene.

4> What happened to the cute and very pretty cho chang????
why did she become so big and vagely pretty???? but i got to say that her dress at the yule ball was really pretty.

5> where is the blast-end skewts???
hagdid must have totally forgotten his lesson plans.

6> too rushed.
they finished half the book in half hour... like what the F.

it feels so good

what can be better then finishing your exams.
playing tennis.
and playing dotA all in a single day?

nothing!!!!

shiok man.
i love the feeling of rubbing it in everyone's face.
i love it when the think im disgusting for finishing so early.

and guess what????
harry potter on tomorro.
gonna wat it for 5 bucks on a sat night plus free popcorn.

22 HOURS AND 100 MCQs TO GO!!!!!

this is my slackest exam on the face of the earth

have not been studying since 16th November.
this by the way is one week ago.
i have been slacking throught the past 3 papers.
through this wk have done nothing worth mentioning too.

tmr have a paper.
have been watching vcds since i saw the past year papers few hours back.
too hard to considering doing.
will just screw it anyway.

i am not a greedy person.
will be glad to get a B.
cap of 3 sounds too good to be true.

is this uni life?
i hope so...

think my brain have stopped functioning.
nothing is going in anymore.
nothing seems to be coming out of it either.

two more papers to salvation.
36 hours to go before i am saved from torture
torture??? wat torture???
i just dont know what is going on at all.
just slacking my modules away.

too slack.

guess...
what was i doing yesterday and the day before?

nothing...
just harry potter and the chamber of secrets
talk and chit chat till bout 5am the other day.
go out and do gocery shopping

have been thinking too much bout potter.

has been raining in too long.
maybe that is the reason
too cold for brain to function.
bed looks too good too.

i hate the weather

stupid rain caused me to sleep past two alarm clocks, a breakfast and a tv sitcom.
and i still feel like snogging under my covers and going back to sleep till the sun really comes out.
there just dint feel like there is going to be a paper tmr at all.
or the day after that and the day after the day after that.
in fact ever since wednesday i have already slacked my way through the exams.

i have never been so relaxed during the exam period at all.
i seriously dont have a good feeling over my CAP.
something is just going to happen.

PHILO???!!!????


DONT TALK
BOUT IT
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel depressed

apart from the fact that i have lived this morning against my will by actually waking up. despite the absolutly fantastic weather. there is this other thing that is pulling me towards a purchase of a whole box of Zoloft anti-depression pills.

the rest of the world is enjoying themselves. make that literally the rest of the 1 billion people there is on earth like all 360 degress round the globe/equator. why???? why do i keep thinking bout HARRY POTTER!!!! i am living in denial. there is not a single strand of way i am going to accept that everyone i am meeting on the streets of anywhere else in the world is most likely going to have just finished watching merpeople and dragons.

this is not happening. when i pick up my stupid philo notes (note plus catalyst for Zoloft) the only thing in my mind is to see Viktor Krum or Fleur or Cho Chang. i want to see my RON WEASLEY!!!!!!!

i want
i want

note to the rest of the world:

if you have watched harry potter recently or are going to in the next 216 hours. i have a message for you...
SCREW THE SHIT OFF!!!!!
better if it ends up in Timbattu

the weather spells "sleep in"

no.. it pratically shouts and screams "stay in your F-ing bed" in bright pink neon lights.
it would be so nice to hid under my covers and pretend there is no exam tmr.
that would take a divine intervention

you cant do that when you have not started the worst mod in the sem
so what if it is open book?

the weather cannot lie to you
it clearly states in the clouds
even the bears are hibernating outside my door.

speaking of animals.
a whole swarm of whales can live in the pond outside van's door.
almost fell into it when i was walking blindly to the toilet.

still stuck at japanese business and i want to sleep now

making it real by giving thanks

there i was studying my course pack for jap studies when suddenly the reliasation of thanks hit me. there i was at dinner declaring how stupid i feel after coming in to university. where suddenly i get just average grades with with average things to write on a paper. i was just as average as any other idiot who did worse then me in JC. sometimes i wonder if my version of average if actually less then average. it is only here where i really find out that there are so many smarter people on earth and localised here in singapore.

ARTS IS NOT FOR STUPID PEOPLE ONLY....

then there is this other part which i feel that i must give thanks to. to God and all the people around me esp my parents. i still vividly remember that time when i felt that i could not have gone anywhere after my A levels. those were the horrible days of my life. you mug so hard and then screw up your essays in the worst ways possibally imaginable. then the whole 3 months before cambridge ships back your result you live in fear that you just wasted two years of your life and will end up as some unknown idiot by the road.

at that time you will most probally have already planned the rest of your "loser" life.

but things changed...

Maybe it is due to the friends i had in JC who really pushed me to study and mug in the reading room for hours at a time and spend my breaks hoggin the photocopying machine trying to print out notes. and the times we froze out in the library together. friends who made me have consultation no matter how much i hated seeing the teachers at that point stress.

maybe it was the teachers that gave me the encouragement by letting me love the subjects more. for them who made it more bearable to actually want to do my assignments. for them who gave me this connection with me that allowed me to appreciate them more. sometimes.

maybe it was my parents who said no to the things that was wrong and pathed my way in all the things and values that they have taught me throughout my life. the support they have shown me even in the very little ways of my life. the words of encouragement at the times of my life i felt so down and unaccomplished. even though they nag ALOT!

maybe it was becoz i grew up and learn that important things in life are what you have to gain for yourself. looking back i do think that i have learnt some things that you only realise with age and maturity. some how i got to think for myself and what i really want to achieve in my life here on earth. society is not aways moving your way.

maybe it was my walk with God that had become closer and somewhat clearer. and He has made it a chance given to myself to make myself worthy of Him.

maybe it was just that the time was right for me to do things and learn for reality.

there are so many things that i feel that i must say thank you to before i forget my real worth here on earth. treasure all that you have before that is too late.

my life never spelt "loser" not matter how much i bring up that word

THANK YOU EVERYONE
i made it to uni because of you all

*i hate it when i cry while posting*

it is late and my eyes are crossing by themselves

study
study
STUDY

on and on and on... damn sian... have been reading my notes for ages and my course pack seems to be getting thicker and thicker by the hour. how to finish everything before the papers???? now that is the biggest question to ask and ponder over.

the articles are making less and less sense and the words are getting smaller and smaller. the highlighted sentenses seems to be merging closer and closer to each other. the paper seems to be getting bigger and bigger.

i read until my eye cock already la. just 4 hours into my course pack and i have to force myself to take a half hour break to prevent my eyes from crossing in a million directions. my eyes are so tired. my brain is so saturated. my nerves are so irritated, my wall clock stopped again telling me that i need more time.

every thing seems to be pointing to the fact that i may be closer to getting a CAP of 1.0 in my 1st ever sem. come to think of it i think i will be ever so grateful if it is more then 3. i already screwed my geog and my philo and genes is not smelling good at all after my Mid terms. worst still is that 3.5 of my mods this sem are all freeking MCQ...

arts MCQs are wayyyyyyyy harrrddeer then anything else on earth.
ill write essays anytime

Singapore is in a serious financial debt

this has never happened before. we have gone into deficit before but not to this extent of national debt. went i heard bout this national crisis i thought we will all be dead. how can anyone live with such a phenomenon going on?? there is no money in the coffiers, no money in the bank, no money mint. singapore is so dead mainly due to the one and only reason - ME!!!

i only have one question to ask the whole month.
(notice that it is only half way through. today is only the 13th)
where have all my money gone to???

and i have not started my exams yet. i have not put out my "gone shopping" sign yet. and all i am left is a serious debt. 5 reasons why this is highly called a national crisis

1> i owe so many people so much money.
2> my life savings is deplited to a mere $40.61. from a whole $1000 at the begining of the year.
3> there is no money in the bank. only $3.08
4> mommy is not coughing out anymore for me for the rest of the month.
5> there is nothing left in all my secret hidding places

i am so dead. you cannot live without money in singapore. face it people. shanny may have to resort to some form of stealing and robbing and cheating to stay alive for the rest of the month.

and there is this thing called the after exams and harry potter which i have still yet to watch. and if there is no money then what can i do? go back home and rot for the rest of the 6 days after my exams coz money is not coming in anytime.

my nose if flaking

it hurts, it looks bad and it is flaking badly....

woke up today with my nose flaking off every single piece of skin there is at the side of my nose. there is this whole chunk of white dried skin at the sides of my nose and it itches so bad i have to stratch it. and every time i do it flakes. like snowing in the middle of the equator. it has been flaking and flaking the whole day, now it is just sore and it hurts badly....

it feels like the whole layer of my skin has been scrubbed off with sand paper. it feels so sore and empty... this trobbing pain that keeps coming back. what is wrong with me????

what if my nose drops out due to some uncurable dieases that made some tumor grow on my nose??? what if there was some for on cancer in my nose and it is going to turn black and rot away??? what if i really have to spend all the money on plastic surgery because my nose looks hideous???!?!?!?!?!

i cant live without a nose that looks like it is flaking badly..

lynn gave me some moisturiser and it just itches so bad and i refuse to stratch it now it just is so painful i cant get rid of the pain....

home is not the best place for work

it is obviously the exam period and you obviously have to study... even harder then the rest of the sem right??? but how come somehow that just doesnt happen when you go home for the weekend. yes home sweet home is the best place on earth to be and there is clearly nothing better then home....

you go back home at 2.30pm
laz around till 4pm
decided you are sleepy sleep till 7.30pm
watch tv and SCV till 10pm
decided that there is nothing really much on tv anymore. disturb ur bro till 12pm
sleep till 11am
watch china drama (damn nice) till 1pm
watch desperate housewives old epi till 2pm
drive the car round the estate for fun till 3pm
pick up notes, slam them down, pick up dec issue of cleo till 4pm
decide you are sleepy again. sleep till 7pm
drive down to upp serangoon for food. wait till 9pm
daddy gets damn pissed over slow serving time. complain. get more pissed.
drive to queensway. eat second round till 11pm
drop me off at hall at 11.15pm

yup that is the whole weekend, home is so very much like a hotel. go home and sleep and watch cable then sleep somemore. only get to recharge yourself once a week. a chance so hard to find while you are in hall. you can sleep in AIRCON ROOM without fear of anyone waking you up.

SHIOK!!!

DAMN IT
cant a girl get her beauty sleep????

what is the damn bloody problem with the drilling and knocking at 10am in the morning????!!!!?????
like it is a nice FRIDAY morning and there is construction at such a unhuman hour in the morn...
like half the hall is still sleeping la....

where is the humanity????

URGGHHHHHHH,,,,,

i know we make a lot of noise at night but there is no way you are gg to wake us up at such pathetic hours with drilling and knocking so loud that you can wake the aliens on the moon, i think even those poor neighbours on pluto can hear them... still trying to figure out where they can from... i dont think it is from the construction....

Una noche

this is the stupid retarded song that has been stuck in my head the whole week. i keep humming the tune even though i cant really sing spanish.... i translated this whole song and it sounded really good.....

Andrea:
Después de pensar
Después de ver
A mi dolor andar
Sobre el agua del mar
Tibia claridad
Que vi por mi calle pasar
Sin saber quhacer
Si sentir o pensar
Sólo que aun hoy
Sigo aun, aun hoy
Sigo atándome a ti

Alejandro & andrea:
Aun hoy
Mi amor
Te doy
Mi cuerpo con alma
Se esconde
Del sol
De noche se escapa
Aún hoy
Te doy
Mi cuerpo con alma
Aun hoy
Aun hay

Alejandro:
Quesconde la noche
Va a guardar
Entre nosotros dos
O sentir o pensar
Se me llende luz la noche
Es porque yo vi nadar
Delfines en tu voz
Y sentir sin pensar
Solo
Aun hoy sigo aun
Aun hoy sigo amándote a ti

Alejandro & andrea:
Aun hoy, mi amor
Aun hay
Dos cuerpos con alma
Se esconden del sol
De noche se escapan
De noche se dan
Dos cuerpos, dos almas
Aun hoy
Aun hay

Solo que aun hay sigo a
Aún hoy sigo amándote a ti
Amándote a ti
Aún hoy, mi amor
Aún hay
Dos cuerpos con alma
Se esconden del sol
De noche se escapan
De noche se dan
Los cuerpos, las almas

Aún hoy aun hay
Aún hay...

ABSOLUTELY GREAT!!!!
notice it sounds sour

when i applied for FWOC...
mommy comes telling me that she is planning a family trip to NORWAY!!!
why tell me now????

NORWAY???!?!?!?!
i LONG TO GO THERE...
now i might just have to do something else
GREAT....

getting ready for muggerism

the exams are nearing... what on earth can be done to help shanny do her work???? what is going to help shanny stop thinking bout food and everything that goes on and on????



timetable planner for the month.... start schduelling!!!!




"hey BITCH... STOP THAT STUDY!!!!" yup... that is what it says. and my list of things to study

i closed my eyes and hit the "summit" button

so long for hesitating... that many weeks of indecision...
the question was "to FWOC or not to FWOC"

and now everything is solved in one second. just choose the "FWOC 06/07" option, wait for the page to refresh, choose the "member" option. and then hesitate for the longest 5 mins of your life.

i cant tell you what was going on in my mind at that 5 mins before i hit the button. coz everything was along the line of "did i make the right choice?" or "will i regret it?" well... what done is done...

the worst part of this is the pre interview. get this:

one happy monday evening, grabbed the guys and headed down to src for a game of tennis. stopped by at the JCRC notice board and glanced throught the day's interview list. was looking for FWOC but could not find the option. noticed that welfare interview was at 830. happily went to src....

many hours later.... at src
suddenly...

*ring* spongebob.

me: hello??? mala????
mala: shanny you have a FWOC interview
me: WHAT!!!! freeking shit???? what time???
mala: now... i donno call martin

me: martin!!!!!! I GOT INTERVIEW???
martin: yah... now... where are you???
me: SRC... SHIT!!! (insert more curses here)
martin: relax... hurry back...

*beep beep*
teckie (sms) : Hey you coming for interview?
me (sms): yah... i still at SRC.. ill take a cab down
teckie (sms): Slowly come back, we interview you later

me: teckie ROCKS THE HOUSE!!!!
i dont know what i will do without my dearest and most lovely FWOCker. ill marry him if i have to. you know what??? being in ancas is that best thing that happened to me in hall. it marks to people i know.