i dont know why. i dont feel like blogging. think it is the new atmosphere or something. there is something wrong with the fengsui. mood just not so good. maybe it is the computer that i dont feel like blogging. there are so many things that i want to say but have no idea how to start. crap.

but i know what i want to say is that the whole bidding thing SUCKS!!!

my kend ridge

i am so happy i manages to connect to the internet here in school. lucky it was one of those fool proof thingys where you just plug the cable and wait for this wonder to work. though it pisses me off that i cant seem to be able to log on to my MSN. at least the internet is working, one day with out the internet and i am as good as dead. seriously. what will you be able to do? rot and die???

this is the 21st century you know.. every girl must have the inernet...

first things first. the hall is rather nice. the only thing i am not too happy with is the fact that the damned bed is rock solid/ ice block hard. i am a sucker for the feathered cushioning and i am welcome with this piece of rock. and they wrapped the god forsaken bed in this layer of plastic with is going to make the weird crankly sound when you sleep. i am one of those people who have to turn a million times when i sleep. this bed is NOT working out. ill really have to get the matteress from home.

i thought i moved a lot of stuff in. i mean... i had to carry 6 big loads down to the void deck all be myself. poor amber was in a state of shock when she sees her owner moves tonnes of stuff out of the house. she walked out to the lift landing and looked puzzeled at me. to think that i was giving the poor dog stress. i hope i return during the weekend to a mentally stable dog.

then back to the story... the room looks so empty. there are so many shelves which i think is so far from half filled. i hope there will be something to put in them eventually... i dont mind if it is some books, at least it is going to make me look intellegent. but the room is kinda growing on to me. it is going to be home for the next 4 months. think there is some things that ill really have to get into this room.

i think plants will do great. maybe ill get a pot or two of money plants from home. and maybe some stuff to thumb tack to the room board. i need to make this place nicer and more homely. but the result is that i will be having a lot of stuff to bring back home when i leave.

moving to timbattu

i packes three whole boxes. BOXES LEH!!! the really BIG ones.

there are still so many things i want to bring. apart from that still have really A LOT OF STUFF. there is one box for half my clothes. one box for oddies. one basket for shoes and toiletries. one plastic bag of pillows and quilt. one bag for my laptop. one bag just to carry. and i am thinking if i have space for one more duffel bag for some other stuff.

it shames me to put it all in janelle's car tomorro. like i going to set up some stall at the flee market. like she said. so much barang barang. i think if i drive daddy's car, all also cannot fit in the boot. to think that janelle is picking me up and she has her own stuff as well. maybe she will get the sensation of driving a pickup truck with all the rubbish at the back seat.

then there is this other fear that the boxes give way at the bottom. how terrible will that be??? the boxes are relatively heavy. just imagine if my bra and panties fall out of it while i move it???

you know what??? DAMN IT... sch is starting

new age novels and proprosing tips for guys
if you are male u should pay more attention to this post

i think that guys should give a try reading trashy romance novels. it is deplorabling to say that guys should have some sense of passion/amourity in their lives if they live in singapore. the least they could do is to be more creative in the romance department.

they could maybe try to adapt to certain characters on paper. and take dating tips from females writers who knows what girls want.

it is okay if you are not the usual 6 foot 2 type of guys with over reaping muscles and good brains type who look masculing without shirt or something. the least you could do is be romantic. every girls yearns for a romantic other half.

it occured to me last night that i want something romantic in my love life (if i had any in the first place) jo agreed with me that the way a guy proposes says alot bout the degree of romance he has in him.

so here is the list of top 5 proposal situations i'll love
(those who wants to date/marry me will have to KIV)

1. one evening at some jazz bar, sipping wine, lights dims and he appears in a top hat and cane in the spot light singing "Quando, quando, quando" (or other jazz song) , dances savly round the whole place. stops at the couch, kneels and then bring out a ring from the pocket and say "marry me"
2. in front of some pond with fountain, with a nice church at the back ground and trees around, where there are nice violing back ground music, kneels and say something in french that is sweet and followed by "marry me" (note that this MUST occur overseas)
3. lovely alphine mountain top where we curl up together at the fireplace after snow bording, sitting on some fur rug and hot coco in our hands. he will just have to say something sweet, and suddenly pop the question. (doesnt have to kneel)
4. christmas in front of a nice big white christmas tree in the middle of some park, it snows, and he declares his everlasting love and how pretty i am to everyone that is there and screams out "marry me" while standing on the garden bench. (note: this could only occur overseas in winter, snow had significance)
5. some nice french open cafe where there is nice jazzy music and the french type of waiters with nice red wine. dressed in a tux, pulls out a bouqet of 12 white roses and a nice ring.
   

must have figured that i love a nice atmosphere. just imagine him proposing to you in a hawker center or at some dinner and dance (yes it is forcely cheezy to do that). and guys who tries that "put the ring in the food" type is not going to work. people like me do not chew what we eat and my 1 caret ring will probally end up coming out from the other side of the body. it will be like

him: *stares hard at the plate*
me: *eating happily, looks up* - "is there anything wrong with my food?"
him: *shakes head, lies* - "no, i thought i say a strand hair"
me: *looks down at the plate, poke the contents* - "no la, where got???"
him: *stares harder at the plate*

me: *burp* - "well, thanks for such a nice dinner!!!"
him: "did you taste anything funny?" *panics*
me: "the cook was good right?" *smiles*
him: *takes deep breaths and get a heart attack*

*ends up in hospital*
*maybe dead*

and i love my food more then anything else. i will most like not notice the ring when it come on the same plate as the the ice cream cake or something. it will be quite sad... tragic actually...

damn it

i have ALOT of things to bring...
and i really mean ALOT!!!

u got hacked

i saddens me to know that hackers exist.
i've never seen the work of one until now.
i mean even if you dont like what it says, you cant hack into it.
everyone has got to have some space.
this is cyber net!!!

i's appalled and shock that such a deranged will do that.
it is not funny at all

it is every bloggers worst nighmare to see that everything they created *poof* into empty htmls.

falls under crime category.
you could be next.

it is so sad...

still tracing steps

one two THREE four
five six SEVEN eight
*repeat a million times*

there were so many thoughts that were craming into my head last night. could barely sleep an eyelid. salsa last night was fun... even as the second youngest in the class, i had to say that the adults have a sense of humor at least. and they are terrible dancers and slow learners. but i dont blame them. ill probally be just as senile and slow twenty years down the road. must learn to sympatise.

so into this thing. if i had all the time and money. ill do everything.

then the hostel moving in thingy. it has been on my mind since i found out that have to move in on the 25th, that is freeking next monday. so soon... i have so many things i want to bring down and there seems like i have not bought all the things that i need to use. i have odd items that are still standing on the store shelves.

think i moving house lor. got so many things to tompand down. like i have enough hands to flag a cab or hop into a car. if you put one bag for my clothes. one bag for shoes and odd items, one bag for house items, one bag for laptop, one pile for pillow. where got enough hands to hold anything??? then so paisae to check in like i karang guni. can open warehouse sale in my room.

you might have noticed already

but seriously... how does the new picture look??? i took quite some time doing this. have to figure out how the new programme works. even for a com literate it was a little hard. but anyway... this pretty little picture is a collage of many pics. see if you can spot your face there. i guess not... got a few of the pics that have given me better memories in the past 3 years and shadowed them on the pic of sunset i took in melbourne. but i dont think you can really see the sun set.

then i figured out that the backfround looks very plain... there is no dividers for my sections anymore. ill try to figure out something for that. maybe ill have to play around with the html codings. with i hate to do coz if i mess something up... i m dead trying to put it back together.

but i really had treasured these photos! there were the times where everything seemed right. birthdays... farewells... quality time...

memories are not sweet for nothing.

If you think SIRIUS BLACK"S death was bad???
think again...

*spoiler* if you have not read it

the whole book was just fine until the end.

sirius black's death was nothing compared to this one...YOU THINK BOOK 5 WAS BAD???!!! THINK HARDER!!! this one simply wrenched my heart out... i actually cried like there is no tomorro. and you know what??? i think there is no tomorro with HIM. how can HE die such a terrible death???!!! how can Rowling write another book without HIM!!!???!!! there is no harry potter without HIM!!!

WHY DID DUMBY DIE!!!???!!! *weeps like there is no tomorro*

my favourite character in the book is prof severus snape. i mean... snape was the one who gave me the best of harry potter. i love my dark men... he is just so smooth... so dark... so into himself... it was so noticifying that he had shown some sense of goodness in him... but NO... why did Rowlings have to make him a murderer???!!!

i mean snape is a pretty fetching character to me... okay... ill admit more then just fetching. if i lived in harry potter world... ill marry him. ill maybe even work for you-know-who and be a death eater myself if i could marry him.

I HAVE LOVED SNAPE BEFORE HE TURNED EVIL...

but really... dont you think severus is so hot... would you rather marry harry or snape??? duhh... snape of course. he is afterall... a genius in occulmency, potions, dark arts, lying, doing evil... killing dumby...

logic goes that if dumby is a power wizard. then snape is better then dumby since he killed him.

snape rocks!!!

i know why they put dumby on the front cover of the book. coz it is sighing a bad oman later when he dies such a terrible death. and you know what? it was a stupid way of dying... someone points his wand, screams "Avada Kedavra" and then you fall dead!!! like get a life man!!!

but really... this book is better then the last. Phoenix is really draggy. but phoenix has more action. it was exciting to imagine the urgency at the hall of prophecy. this one was just mild. not enough action. but at least there were funny things that did happen...

like the match were McLaggen was all over the place
or the part where harry was thinking bout ginny
or the scence where ron was hit with harry new spell

i wonder what happened to the potions book. it did pretty well spicing up the sch term. but then again... i dont think harry will every want to touch that book again since it belong to shanny dearest...

hail lord potter

guess who went insanely insane when the guy showed up at my door? to think that some 19 year old acted like some idiot in front of the damn good looking delivery guy. i think he was embarressed bout it. i was shreking in excitment over the the plastic bag he had in his hands. it looked like heavens rays was shining over it.

it was pratically illuminating from his hands.

hey... i was absolutly looking forward to this day like for ever since the world started. i was harbouring the whole week on this sacred day. i reminded the whole world bout this day...

my maid was the one who opened the door and she had to call out "Shanny... your boyfriend at the door!!!" which firstly i dont have anything close to close to a boyfriend. then i was also so embrasses over the way i acted that i simply just signed the paper. and grabbed the plastic bag like it was gold

harry potter rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

powerbook on the roll

hey there world... you are reading the first entry of shanny that is typed from her brand new notebook. she has gotten herself a nice powerbook after so many years. my pretty notebook shouts "magnificent" all the time. seriously... it is a really pretty piece of chips. there is nothing better then having a mac.

now that leaves me getting myself a wireless mouse. it will be much easier using a rat then the trackpad.

P plate on the roll

yes people... the ever so GREAT SHANNY has passed her driving test first time with the record of 4 points. 4 points for heavens' sake. for two mistakes i never did. think the tester just didnt want to let me off with the perfect score. for mistake number 52. which reads "fail to check mirror" which i totally did all the time coz i was so paraniod that some idiot taxi will come bumping into the way.

mr Asis was asking me if he had tested me before. and like how can anyone being tested the first time ever know him? then he asked how many lessons i have had so far. then he asked how many test i have had before today. i know it is hard to come by a talented first time driver, but no matter how rare it is... people like me exist okay?!?!!

he even praised me for my driving... my checklist was "alomst" empty!!! the other girl who passed had her whole second page ticked... and mine was empty!!! i wonder if it is safe letting people like her pass.

oooohh... ego getting big!

i must say that i prayed really hard before the whole thing started. i spent last night praying like mad that everything will go well and then the whole 15 mins before the test for excellent weather, good car, and less car on the road, and not route 7. then i prayed double that i will never strike the curb or do horrible lane changing.

and guess what? God was GOOD TO ME.

route 9 was the best route ever!!!

• there was lots of time to change lane coz the road is the not busy one.
  
• there was no slope to stall your car over.
  
• there is no obstruction
• the traffic lights are nice to me today

i am so getting my P plate soon. hopefully tonight i can drive over to somewhere. maybe to auntie joy's place to collect my powerbook. i am getting two things today... a licence and a note book.

and guess what???

it is ALL MINE!!!!

i am really looking forward to ferrying myself all over the island. maybe malaysia!!!!

google ur name

it can be so amusing when you do a search on your own name on the search engine. i mean just type "shanny" into yahoo or google and you just are so amuse with the stuff you find online. with such a unique name i have. the searches are weird...

this is what i got from yahoo.

1. Sparkle and Shine (www.shanny.blogspot.com) - on shanny the DOG!!???!!! spare me... i am degraded to level of a white fluffy DOG!!!
   
2. to eat is human, to stuff DIVINE (www.wildfirest.blogspot.com) - yes. my blog on number two. didnt really expect to find it here.
   
3. The Shanny Monster (www.shannymonster.com) - on shanny the DOG who has written a book!!!???!! yup how amusing can it get? his next book is called "shanny gets her licence" great... a dog who has got a driving licence...
   
4. Revolução de Pétalas - some weird language blog from some person call Shanny Parker
5. .
6. .
7. .
8. .
   
9. sheba2u2's Xanga Site - some girl call shanny from st nicks.
   
10. Shanny (www.******.com) - a porn site. yayh... they have a porn site in my name. that is so grose degrade moi name
    

then on number 20... there is this thing call a Artic Shanny. guess what? i happen to also resemble a fish found on the Arctic and circumpolar, from Greenland to northern Siberia and the Arctic Coast of America


defination of "shanny" found on find number 21 as: Shanny (n.) The European smooth blenny (Blennius pholis). It is olive-green with irregular black spots, and without appendages on the head. what is this supposed to be? a plant or animal or what?

on number 24 is this artist called Shanny Lott who showcases her artwork on her flash site. at least this is something that lives up to my name

dress smart"ly in your mother's clothes" days

i could tell you how happy i was to see alecia there. she was like an angel to my eyes i tell you, all white and familar. when i stepped into the AVA then i figured that dispite how SMART i was... i did not fit into the people with distinctions. i was so alone... the OCEAN of science ppl there were overwhelming.(note that i dint even refer it to SEA) i guess that people who get 5 distinctions will by default know other people with 5 distinctions. and ppl like me who only have one distinction will NEVER know people with even 3 distinction.

birds of the same number of As flock together.

God's law of distinctions.

that makes me think if i will ever know a law or medical student??? if the law of distinctions moves as steadly and surely like the law of gravity. then chances are close to NIL no matter which ways i approach the matter. i should just face it.

other then the rare "gentle to the eyes" few. there were so many other people (girls) who cannot dress for nuts. and i mean the look so horribally horrible that they CMI even if you pay them a million dollars or put a gun to their head. i mean... dont they even know how to comb their hair or at least put on a LITTLE makeup. the least you could do for a formal day is that if you cant even dress up. i mean there are cameras and you dont want to regret how ugly you look in the year book when you show them to your kids ten years down the road. every girl want to look pretty.

really sad to say. but dont you at least own a set of formal wear? how hard is it to own a nice skirt and a collared shirt?

and as much as it says "court shoes" on the letter it also says "principle of SAJC" and "10 distinctions" you dont have to wear court shoes.

court shoes are the UGLEST wearable items there are on earth and probally the rest of the the next ten galexies. i dont even call them fashion or even shoes.

it's simply a fashion disaster to even consider wearing one of those chunky piece of shit. that is not the worse if you can dress up. just imagine wearing your mother's clothes and court shoes. i mean you look just like your mother. like pllleasssse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dont ever wear your mother's clothes unless your mother is young and fashionable. like lyn's or matt's. you will just end up looking like them. and in this century and generation the world lives in... there is most likly a BIG PROBLEM with the way your mother dresses. how can you... a 19 year old... face up to the world by dressing like a 30's plus woman wearing 90s clothes in the 21st century...

at least look presentable... not mumsy...

bad to bad. at least guys dont have much of a problem. i mean. every guy will own black pants and a nice shirt and tie. and thankfully guys will never look wrong. in fact, formal wear simply just makes everything look nicer on them.

i mean just in that one evening i have already turn heads of a few members on the male population that once recided in SAJC. on a normal day with sch uniform already i dont turn head. just on yesterday... the head just have to turn... guess that army does do things to a guy.

impelly-ing back to school

when was the last time you take a good look at the four walls you once spent the torturous tribulated two years studying for the thing we all do not miss (A levels). as much as we hated the place then... now looking back at it is not as bad as it ever was. there is always this panged up emotion when you are reminiscing the times that you had. no matter how screwed up it always was.

tomorro is the blessed time where i am going back to school as a form of rememberance. longly awaited moment that i am going to endure in the midst of the boring-ness of it all. i am stepping into school as a medium of praise.

it is an honor...

if only my boyfriend is type B

dont you think he is cute??? my little heavenly king... already crashed 3 of his drama serials into my brain and then now add one more movie to my heart. Here is my Lee Dong-gun and Han Ji-hye back together again after "sweet 18" i tell you ar... they really have the chemistry lor.

i totally think he is another bae yong jun. just the much younger version. MUCH MUCH younger version. like he is ONYL 25 in real life... if i was korean, ill go stalk him and make him marry me... will make him say "i do" at some church even at gunpoint. and he has such a nice voice... if any guy with a voice like his sang to me with a guitar outside my balcony (which i dont have) i promise ill fall in love with him... there are so many little tactics in the show to win a girls heart... i think singaporean guys should watch more of these kind of show and get A HINT!!!

there is this stupid thing of blood type being able to tell the personality of a guy. but if this was really true it will be really cool. i'll really want to marry a type B guy... come on...

however

1. selfish
2. arrogant
3. vain
4. sulky
5. conceited
6. capricious
7. insensitive
   

he will always be

1. romantic
2. good looking
3. creative
4. generous
5. funny
6. charasmatic
   

i totally dont mind... but really... i think that guys should at least learn to treat their girlfriends well. singaporeans males should do something that brings up the namesake of the Y chorosomes.

i want a TYPE B!!!

show gets 6 out 10
but he gets 11 out of 10

@moulmien high???

when was the last time he was on tv? who cares... no matter how toot he looks here. i assure you that he is HOT... and really CUTE... as in really REALLY HOTLY CUTE...

was at cine for the movie.. and the on the way down i saw a glance of this hot guy with girlfriend. take closer look and then i saw someone familar... think think think... still cannot put face into memory... still though i saw him from SA... then jo tell me why he so shou...

suddenly!!!
ta da!!!

from TV wad... of course so familar la. and such a CUTE guy... i cannot believe i cannot remember him.

WHO APPLIED FOR HOSTEL???

drop me a tag. i just want to know

HIT THE AIR FORCE

yup... she is the most interesting friend i have had the pleasure to meet on the streets! there has been so many million seconds have passed since the last time i met most of you people. and it was so exciting to hear from my dearest chang li hui after so long. leading an exciting life. it really brought back so much memories when i was in reign.

many of you would have been already wondering where the last of cedar tennis went to. yup... i thought it was rather hard to keep track of the activites after so long. being captain after cedar life is not for me. so i have not much idea where most of the world dissapeared to. but i kinda got some info

• me? - went to SAJC. graduated and entering NUS FASS
• joanne? - went to TJ, worked at CPF and heading to material engine at cant remember where
• ziyuan? - went to NYJC, and heading off somewhere
• marie? - went to VJC, slacked around with me and bounded for the same patch of turf at FASS
• Dharma? - hit RJC and flew off to some place.
• Wendy? - NYJC and donno
• Kerrie? - NAP and still there
• Li Hui? - bound for AJ, and in SAF, hitting the planes and alitude

yup our dearest chang li hui gotten herself a SAF schoolarship. just came out from 9 weeks BMT and OCS and is hitting the AIR FORCE. lady pilot leh... don pray pray... she looks so fit *smirk when i look into the mirror*

come on la. i dont mind being pilot, image pays. but no way am i going to put this delicate frame of mine through BMT!!! have to chop off hair, then put self in long sweaty army uniform and then thrown into the sun to melt for all the military care. just imagine the amount of push ups you have to do and the miles you have to run... IEW... *shrugs*

but i can totally see her in uniform. she'll look smart.

but i think i can see myself in uniform too.
so smart...

ezlink my foot card

who on earth knows that the stupid card expires on the 30th june????
how would ANYONE know that their card gives off the red light when tapped????

waste my time and money getting another card.
nus got concession card still take so long to comfirm!!!

what is the transport minister doing????
and how come you have to pay $5 for the darn card for no good reason???!!!

one month to the start of a new begining

我想要搬出房子!!!

mommy still dont let me stay in the hostel. i have almost broken tooth and dripped blood just talking to her bout letting me stay in the school. i am have already drained every inch of energy in me trying to persuade her when she was in singapore and now over the bloody email. and she still just refuses to!!!????!!!

@@##$%%%^^&**

so many people are staying in the hostel whether in whichever university. honestly... i feel a pang of jealousy when i heard siting and dan are sharing a room at NTU. i have known them for so long and then they are going to spend i longer time together without me. something in which i dont think i can ever share with them. something i am left out of. all these time together and they will have something closer among themselves leaving me out. then lyn is applying for kent ridge. i do want to spend some time with the people i do care bout. even if i do get my allocation on room. i am still very sure that mommy will not relent and let me move out. even for a sem.

i dont know, but i kinda think that this hostel thing is somehow of a great importance for me taking this step into my new placing in society. i mean how am i to get any friends from both fass and the other facuities? every uni life is not complete without moving out even for a while and i am not even getting anywhere closer to doing this. i COULD get a really to know a potential husband in the time i am in hostel in the first sem!!!! and what are my chances of getting to know i law or medicine person if i only stay at home!!!???!!!!

FASS is a million years away from these people

as much as i know i would rather be back home, i still do want to experience my freshman in the hostel. i really dont know why mommy cant understand it. she doesnt mind me spending my second and third year there. but doesnt she know how difficult it is to get a place there in later part of uni? compete???!!!??? like i have the time to keep up my CCA records!!!

and every part of me just wants to have my own room. just for once even if there is no aircon in it. i have never have the luxury of having my own room even for a week in my life. there are so many people i know that have had their very own rooms for so long and i keep yearning of this chance where i can be the master of my own four walls.


i mean...

• from since i was born to i was 16. i shared room with louis.
• then from 16 to now, i shared from with jo.
• and this is most likey going to remain till i get married, in which i will share room with my husband!!!!!!!!!

see???!!!!??? i am doomed to share room with everyone except myself. i truly want to have some time in my life where i can get to get some time with myself every night without someone snoring beside me. even if it is not as comfortable as stayin at home. i really do want to sleep among four wall i can call me own room.

mommy has her reasons. bout savin money and going to Norway next year. but i also have my 苦中. i just want to do what every body does. like 跟随趋向.