downright fugly

to think i am going to make some sort of skirt out of this. dream on shanny!!! this is just totally so ugly. so different from the design in the book. this just looks like some rotten flower. the knots are like shit and the needle work puts me to shame.

yuck!!!!!!!!

maybe i should try another patch design. if my whole skirt is gonna look like this i can just go hang myself with the thread

out of the window

just took this by putting my cam out of the room window. thought the clouds are nice. i have this thing for a nice set of clouds. they just sooth you... i love my skies dearly like as if it gives me nirvana when i stare into it. didnt know that there was such nice photos that could be taken from the house window.

the sun set.
so pretty aint it???

lastest crochet

i hurled myself into the library to fins these design books. and i think i am no where near perfection. i look at my works and a feel a sense of dissapointment and anguish over how i could not have held a tighter knot. it looks all in a mess.

i am starting a project to make myself a croqueted skirt but the end of the year. to make a single design takes bout 5 hours and to make the whole skirt will take more then a month at the pace i am working.

spent 2 hours doing this thing that does not even look CLOSE to what it is supposed to be.
somehow i have no idea how they get the knots so tight. maybe i should get a thinner needle.

give it up for *salsa*
*said in latin accent*

leave the brain at home and headed on to town to sign up for salsa lessons. see la. spend money again. haizzz.... i have been wanting to do this for quite a very long time now. initially wanted ballroom dancing lessons so that i can wow people at dinner and dance. but since lyn wanted to take on salsa then why not. still can wow people at clubs the next century i go clubbing. but highly unlikely at beginers stage. ha... just think salsa-ing the next time i hit zouk or rogue.

though the place stands uuluu-ated at town area and the dance studio is quite not much of a studio. i will call it dingy. who cares man! for the sake and future of dance. i mean the decendantry of dance lies in my hands. call it a noble deed to take it head on. paid $120 for the dance classes at john and josephine dance creative. $100 for 8 lessons starting in 2+ weeks... i am so gonna start lessons.

wondering where the other $20 bucks went to? they charge a stupid $20 for registration. so i think i am most prob gonna take on other lessons there. since i am currently so into this whole ballroon/latin dance thingy. ill just give one night of my week to the greater good of mankind. one night gurenteed to go to spending time with myself on the dance floor.

i love spending time with myself. as a human being i think that it is most important to spend time with yourself. i mean i totally strive to spend half me life with myself and meself alone. i am not going to deprive my soul of a chance to know what i want in life. it is the time when i am alone that i realise what i want whether in the short term or the long term. and i need more time to go figure what i really want more to do with my current not-so-satisfied life.

maybe dancing is IT.

maybe one day i will grow up to be a champion dancer!!! i mean it COULD very vagely be VERY POSSIBLE!!! i mean maybe i am cut out for this dancing thingy and in 5 years i will be traveling all over the world taking part in international dance competition. people will want my autographs. than i am going to be featured on peoples magazine as the 50 sexiest people. or maybe ill be on business magazine of owning the world's dance studio chain or something.

i am not going to deprive myself of that future.
it COULD HAPPEN!!!

it is more likely i turn professional then meet a potential boyfriend/husband at the studio. i mean i am only 19 and the people (ladies and gentlemen) are going to be at their prime. yup. i can celebrate my youth while i grace the dance studio. and then again the chances of meeting someone rich there is also NIL. coz these potential ATMs would have already engaged in some sort of private lessons somewhere where they pay $500 an hour. so i am very much alone with lynette. i some how have a vision that all the people in my class are all females.

that is still relatively acceptable since i have been raised in all girls
ill rather have an all girls then a one man.

plastic pollution

it is people like me who really make a mess in the kitchen and kill the environment by sending particles into the air. for all you know there may be someone in the neighbourhood to die of breathing in too much pollutant. call myself a geographer... next door lives an old couple. what if anything happens to them???!!!???

do you know how dangerous breathing in plastic fumes are???!!!???

i just caused chaos in the kitchen. and i am so getting screwed over this. i burned an entire pot. and it is daddy's favourite pot... damn it... i was thinking of heating up my heat pack and i ended up totally forgetting i left something on the stove and it was until i smelt burning plastic for 20 mins that i suddenly remembered that i was cooking some form of pollutant in my kitchen... i knew i smelt plastic but i only remembered after 20 mins!!! too late to save the heat pack or the pot.

damn....
now i must go down to robinsons to get daddy a new pot before he decieds to kill me.

i am so screwed... but really... my kitchen window is directly next to the old couple livin next door. what if by any reason she was in the kitchen making food and then they have no ventilation and all the fumes escaped into the kitchen and she faints over the smell and then dies??? it is all an accident. it was the pot!!! no me!!!

the whole house is going to explode when auntie zen or daddy finds out. mean while i think i better go get a new pot!!! damn!!!! pots are so expensive... and daddy bought this one for quite a lot i think. i am so screwed!!!

what am i goin to do now???!!!???
crap!!!!!
sharks!!!!!

wanted to change the skin
too lazy

maybe when i get my mac then ill design something myself
something really me
i am going to get my 80GB superdrive powerbook with accelerated graphic card soon
soon....

Initially Delicious

eye candy
eye candy
and more eye candy

i really dont get it. how do directors and producers frind so many eye candy and put them all in a show. this is the peak of the rojak of the cutiest HK people. i mean you dont go to the theaters every month to find some HK show that packs up that many prominatly cute people. hello???

jau chou -->6 stars
shawn yue --> 7 stars
edison chen --> 9 stars

i mean... just get the engine rolling!!! and hit gear 5!!!
dont you just want to try drifting in the SSDC circuit??? ignore the instructer and bang the acclerator and hope he doesnt fall out the passenger side? better still if he pukes through the window.

but really... dont you think it would be much better if there was a whole more taking off of shirts and some muscles??? but i dont think anyone of the eye candy poses an eye candy under the shirt.

and what is with that STUPID ending!!! it did not end anything close to this in the anime!!! waste of my money to see that nothing came out of it except the guy who won the races!!! so what if his wheels didnt go bust??? it is alwasys the girl that counts in the movie. anyway... there is no need to put the girl in... there will not be any difference to the story line. that is one character that will have nada impact on the show.

but still... 7 out of 10.
i have not seens a worth it movie since last year.

the return of the great flapping things

the first time i am watching the batman on the big screen and it is all not that bad. at least there is no lame villian in weird mask and painted faces. no corny lame evil villain i must rule the world and kill batman line. finally rule out all the poison ivy and joker and pengiun and i have to admit there was a rather good display of weapons. as a movie it is only okay at a 7 on a 10 scale.

i prefer the tv serial they had on tv long ago
call it ancient if you must but it is a classic to me.

lynette thinks the mad phyco guy is cute. i think she has to change her brain and get another pair of eyes. so far, there is not much of an eye candy here. i mean bruce waine is not really that good looking a character to start out with, but the least they can do to te show is to add something that is worth my 7 bucks. christian bale is not that bad. lyn thinks he has a nice bod. but i want more!!! i want a well developed six pack... that is the least there should be if the lead is to take of his shirt!!!

and guess what! it is always in these shows that "singapore" appears in hollywood. everytime they need some high tech country to pin the drug trafficing on the will mention singapore in a one liner. and then everytime they need a country to do mass manufacturing they will mention the name again. we are doomed to be in this state forever since no one in the next ten years will pull a john woo or a stephen wu and put a highly mass produced flim on the charts.

i just think that we need more then a jack neo here. i mean since the whole thing bout unleaching the creavity, there should encourage and maybe fund some big special effect movie made in singapore. if we can pull out another crouching cat hidden dog with me as the lead and put it through to hollywood. we will put ourselfs on hollywood scope. china and hongkong did that!!!

zhang ziyi and michelle yeoh and gong li did just that. they become pretty famous enough.
i would make a better conversionist compared to most of these people.
hollywood will embrace me!

what am i thinking

tatoo on tatoo off



these are the prettiest two lizards i have ever seen. and no... they do not hurt one bit. ARNT they PRETTY???

be a fruitmonger
tie in with the right crowd

head down to the mango near you for the best stuff you can get on your hands on last season. yup. sardined myself together with the rest of the world at mango. everyone is going to look the same on every part of singapore in two weeks. if you have bought mango stuff months ago and have not yet seen anyone much wear the same. fear no more. you will not be wearing the only unique thing ever again.

what is when the stuff there cost so nicely. even though i thought the really nice things are still really expensive. but i finally stocked up on my spec collection. thought the bags there were nice but din really buy.

there were so many stuff okay. last year i went late and there was barely anything to buy. but this year is different. i am free and slightly richer. just hope of getting some more money so i can really shop. besides the GSS is almost over.

he said that i am better then average
BUT i am not patient!!!

what was i supposed to do???!!!???
the number of imediate failure was so great
i knocked into everything

i should just get hit by a car

till death do us part

gagar to watch a night sneak of my Mr and Mrs Smith with nelle. oh moi God!!! i cant tell you how good they look together. and MY BRAD PITT is almost shirtless, with a couple of bullet proff jackets and suits. i want to strip it all off him. and then stuff my fingers up his chest!!! i have had this really big crush on him ever since i was in primary 5. then when he got married i felt all jaded and everything. and then now i think he looks as hot as ever, even without all the floopy hair. HAIZZZ.....

i just want to marry him. just that i am on the other side of earth and that there is no way i will get anywhere 100miles close to him. and angelina jolie looks so hot here. with all the guns and everything... i wish they could just put me into any hollywood movie. maybe even harry potter also can. i dont mind being one of the unseen protraits hangin on the wall.

then again i wish i had guns and a cute hunky costar... brad pitt or keanu reeves or richard gere or maybe nicholes cage... not asking to much...

i want to take up ballroom dancing

where on earth in singapore gives professional ballroom dancing? it will be so exciting to be swinging around the dance floor with a really cute guy in your arms. never mind if he is not dating you but just imagine how nice you will look in a cute dress and pretty shoes? dreaming? yeah i think so...

but really. maybe ill try to take it on. but where so they have it professionally done? like not the CC type where all the ah mahs come together. but the nice dance studios ones that look like some pro is teaching. then maybe ill get hooked up with some cute 20 something... yeah... now that is an idea.

the tale of fortunate unfortunate events

long time now, there was a girl who hated all the extended family on her mother's side. everyone single one of them that she meets over chinese new year was an eyesore. and she was already lucky that she only meets them only once i year. she have always hated chinese new year and all the tiny event in between the year that allows her to meet them. (referable to 2004 Jan 22 archives)

i quote from that post -
7. i am going to comdamn the entire 3th grand aunt family. (main reason why i hate CNY) even if her kid/grandkids are smarter and more bimbotic than me. the enitire family has disgusting chinese names which sounds like some form of shit name. what on earth is huai chi or jia chi (sounds just like jiang shi as in the hop hop hop one) who's daughter (who is 40++) is like some total ah lian who probaly wears a size 24 jeans and 6 inch heals and some really tight and lowtop with her C cup boobs sticking out it like giant fish balls. and whos grandkids looks like a totally nerd and is probally one of the ugliest person possible to walk the face of the earth. who has moley faces. (think thier uglyness runs in the family) who cares if they all have scholerships beacuse the are all so ugly that they will never get attached in like ever!!! at least i'll be so happy that their family line will end right at her precious grand kids hahaha... even she doesnt even deserve to have greatgrand kids as i cant believe who in the world would have married her in the 1920s? still cant forgive her for what she did to me when i was 12. once a bitch now an irritating old hag with no continuation of her family line. she totally deserves it!

anyway. the family that i hated the most is finally on a break down.

yes people... shanny here is gloating all over the place of the unfortunate events that have been happening in my extended family. my third grand aunt's retarded family is finally dying out and disintegrating into thin air. i think my cursing them may have taken a pretty good effect!!! i have always hated them since i was in primary school.

guess what??? heard from mommy talking that there is marital problems in the family. so he is finally decided to leave the family. but come to think of it... i dont see why. i must first let the whole world know that my "dearest" aunt is something like a prostitute okay? she thinks she is some tai tai like her husband prints money. she goes for spas and whatever tai tai do. she never looks after her "genius" children and dumps them at her irritating mother. and guess what? her poor husband is only a taxi driver.

even people who have no brains knows that you dont go spending money like water when your husband is a taxi driver!!!???!!! you dont go for plastic surgery when you dont have the money. and guess she is getting her bao fu now!!! yeah man i am totally gloating at her misfortune. she will have not more money to spend and will have to fight for the custody of her kids.

as much as i hate her, i hate all her three kids too... so i seriously hope that she wins the custody and they can suffer with her... then they can live sour lives for the rest of their lives

it reads...

dear shanny
CONGRATULATIONS!
it is my pleasure to inform you that you have been selected as the recipient of the following award:
JACOB BALLAS BRONZE AWARD for Geography
the award will be presented on our 28th College Day ....... (blah blah)

i have been invited to go back to school for college day to collect an award!!! this is the first time ever that any school have invited me back to collect an award on college/speech DAY. it is such a grand occasion!!! shanny invited to collect something on college day!!??!!

but really even though and however boring such events is to me. as it ever was... how can i refuse this offer!!! i totally dont mind sitting through the boring prensentations and crappy concerts when i get to finally go on the stage to collect something man!!! i will be elated like crazy. i get to take photos too lor...

and guess what? this is the first time i am going to put "Cedar Girls Secondary" on my SAJC yearbook. for the past two years at least... i checked back on the awardees and i didnt see Cedar on anypart of the year books before!!! yes man... time to bring glory to my beloved Cedar...

anyway... i was totally so high when i recieved the letter. gotten my head big. never though i will get the award since i kinda screwed my prelims. but i hope it involves cash in someway or another since i really need the fianances now that i am not working.

cross so not the country

i have decided to make myself look acceptably fat when i return to school in another 2 months. so i am going to put my both feet down into the pair of moudy track shoes and go jogging at least three times a week. i have to get rid of this horrendously lard laden piece of thing i am living in. need to start burning some of those extras i have in this physical shell.

i cant believe i dragged my sorry butt out of bed at 6.30 to prepare to hit the roads before the sun come out. sometimes i really wonder what on earth i am going to my mental health if i carry on like that.

i am so setted my mind on this whole i must loose my fats thingy. i even bought myself a skipping rope so that i can skip away my lard hopefully even week. then my squash racquet and tennis racquets must be put into good use. the problem is that i have to find people to go play with. with on this side of the earth is rather hard.

i have an aim... aim that i can hit a waist 27. and slouch without all the access lumps hanging out of my tummy. i aim
I AIM!!!