Complexity.

In essay writing, I don't seem to hit the level of complexity that I want, which frustrates me and means that I won't be satisfied with my essay. In chess, I still think I'm thinking complicated situations to solve my complex chess puzzles, with calculated variations instead of higher understanding.

In video gaming, they seem not to have complex elements and I can play with much ease. For 2 player board games I can calculate what happens next. However, with multiple players, I seem to do badly. There seems to be too many factors to consider. Perhaps I was thinking complicated solutions for a complex game. Perhaps considering personalities instead of just logic might have helped me in that context?

Now the question is, how do I think with a fluid mindset for complexity? Fluidity includes having little assumptions. But I can't assume that everything is false. So what can I afford to assume?

I guess that's why you need to question the question in the essay. And understand the ideas behind chess variations. I need to observe; much more. My current thinking is too straightforward and does not consider complexities. Moreover, I am not strong-willed enough. If one wants to seek the truth, one must seek hard. Be less satisfied with the conclusions one makes, and continue seeking for answers.

Don't give up just because questions lead to more questions.

And I ask myself...

What is the purpose of a blog?

Some people blog about their interests, such as food, sports, and even celebrities. But majority of blogs are for personal use. So, what is the purpose of a personal blog? I guess for the majority of the ppl, it's to update their friends, especially those whom we have not met in a long while (those whom we neglect due to our busy multi-tasking lives.. but that's for another blog post). So my question is, do you use blogs an avenue to express oneself, or to express what you want others to think of you?

For new media politics, I guess political blogs show all the 'good' stuff. But if you are an individual with no reputation at stake, will you hide what you want to get off your chest badly? Or keep it under lock and key?

Whatever happened to freedom of expression? Are people being too afraid of being judged nowadays?

But I guess I'm not one to talk.

Money!

It is simply the most common means of attaining happiness/self-satisfaction, but it is not the only way.

But of course since it is the most common and easiest way to become attain materialistic happiness, it is highly sought after and is held at great value.

Money itself does not bring happiness,the purchasing power does. Maybe because the happiness that we seek involve money.

If we find happiness that does not involve money.. I guess money won't matter.

ORD

51 weeks and counting.

People say that uni's more stressful than jc.. and each mod test is like studying for A's again.
Some even envy the males that they can 'rest' for 2 years.

But objectively, it's like being retained for 2 years.
It's like going out and working 2 years before going into uni, whereas working after graduating from uni would get you much better pay and greater job satisfaction... not to mention working towards pay rises and promotions.

Seriously. If the girls really do envy the guys, then they can also go on study hiatus for 2 years. Why don't they? Because there is no progress. Fulfilling my aims and goals in life, graduating with a degree and getting a stable job? ... Doesn't help.

Us Singapore males already have a statistically shorter life expectancy (hmmm... maybe because of the lack of slp in NS? Think about it. Not many differences between the things Singaporean males and females do), and yet we must undergo these 2 gruelling years. And after these 2 years, we STILL have to go through the 'cruel' uni exams. Can't you see it's for your own future?

We'll get used to it, we all will... Time-wasting that is. Traveling time, waiting time, and just plain stoning/relaxing at home. I pretty much wasted all my time on this bloc leave.

Need to get my thoughts and weekend goals in order again.

Cheers.

I wonder...

who reads this blog.

Thinking about DDR

DDR = Dance-Dance Revolution.

Definition from wikipedia (because I'm lazy): Players stand on a "dance platform" or stage and hit colored arrows laid out in a cross with their feet to musical and visual cues. Players are judged by how well they time their dance to the patterns presented to them and are allowed to choose more music to play to if they receive a passing score.


Blah blah blah. But just a thought - wouldn't it be cool to compose music just by moving your body?

Maybe something like this.


A giant tenori dancefloor. Which reminds me of this video, also...




Ah, as technology advances, just about anyone can become composers.. at low cost.
Leads to more creativity.. more songs.. more music. =p

Then again, not at low cost. Because there'll be classes, there'll exams... There'll be courses, degrees, qualifications after qualifications.

Bahh.


On a happier note, I bet the Internet will provide free tutorials. So yeah.


References:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dance_Dance_Revolution


P.S.: Wishing that all the ppl I know got into the courses they want. Sometimes you can't have your best choice.. but sometimes it will turn out to be a better choice, so don't lose heart.

There is life outside studies.

Dirty Spectacles.

Ever since enlistment to army on 7 jan 09, my life has undergone drastic changes. From going out with friends every alternate day, to regimental army life. After being away from home for 2+ weeks, being shouted at... I felt demoted, that my value in society was being cheapened. My brain felt under-used and over-stressed. Losing your own confidence... And having a brain that feels devalued... It was really more than what I expected.

After graduation from BMT, got posted to infantry, at bukit panjang camp. Distance doesn't really matter, because travelling to and fro happens only twice a week. But I guess it's a countinued brain devaluing experience. Managed to bring in materials to study this week. Read up in basic driving theory, copy of reader's digest.. now planning to find pharmacy notes to prepare for uni. It's a brain perk for me.

From student to soldier, I can't help but notice that my spectacles are getting dirtier and dirtier.
Some things just don't matter any more.
Some things that mattered for the past 12 years don't matter now.


Have fun in NS, fellow NSFs!

The world is cruel. Men are selfish.

A level results today.

Some people did not get the grades they deserve, despite being consistent all the way.. Did they stumble at the very end.

Isn't life unfair? For ppl who had put in their hard work, I think they deserve more.
It might be due to studying hard but not studying smart. Not getting enough rest before the exam, and falling sick etc. ... But sometimes its not the case. And its unfair.

It seems that we are deluded with the image of a perfect world, and that image depicts fairness and karma.. which in fact does not necessarily exist. This image brings unhappiness.. as we strive for perfection, it forever seems out of reach.

We can forever delude ourselves, that our problems don't exist, that everything's fine.. and simply be happy, in the short run. When this problems accumulate and worsen, that's when the shit hits the fan.

=) Relatively short post, but it's food for thought.