A letter to a friend

Dear Friend,

had a short talk/chat (perhaps only for a few mins) a few days ago, and had always read your blog, it makes me wonder...

what happen to you recently?
or is it over the long period of time not seeing you, somethings had happen? and change you over this period of time?
you used to be a happy girl, and optimistic (or have u been always hiding ur true self? jus that i'm nt sensitive to realise?)
i was a little worry, worry abt what will happen to u in the future. has the society turn u into such a person?
but at the same time i also wonder what i could say/do to cheer u up or change u to a positive one again...
sometimes i feel helpless... helpless because i haven master the skill of cheering one up...
seeing ppl turning negative makes me feel sad.
reminds me of the past. i understand the feeling.

but an advice - no one can really help u (at the most friends can encourage u, but when one is down, seriously, nth much goes into ur brain) other than urself.


Cheers,
Minghui

蝴蝶脱蛹

改变
犹如蝴蝶脱蛹一般
痛苦、挣扎
才能从一只难看的毛毛虫变成一只美丽的花蝴蝶

倘若
有人“帮”它一把
枉死
会是它的下场


蝴蝶若不自己破蛹而出，即使有人帮它离开那茧，它将终究无法展翅高飞。
因为蝴蝶未经历破蛹的过程，一对翅膀尚未受到足够的锻炼，所以根本不够强壮，不能顺利地飞到空中。没有强壮翅膀的蝴蝶，最后终于找不到食物而饿死。

人也一样。
没有亲自去锻炼自己、磨练自己，我们终究无法成长。
改变自己是极为痛苦的。
不过，我相信我行的。
因为那是必须。
因为不是他死，就是我亡。

希望我在28岁前能变成一只花蝴蝶 =）

i have painted a really nice and beautiful picture of the future.
hope it turns out to be that pretty...

I cant believe this...

i cant believe that next week is actually RECESS WEEK already.

man... means mid term tests are coming...

人生将进入转折

今年对我来说，应该会是一个大改革。
很多东西会不一样。

两种心情。

一为好。
人生有所改变是件好事。
有改变才会有提升。

二为担心。
人要改变，即要转。人心，要转。
此时此刻，却有放不下的。
执著着以前，以前的生活方式。
这种想法让自己很担心，担心在这转弯处撞上围墙。

难关过了，就是提升。

我不想知道什么叫难关过不了...

A rather interesting quote

Saw this quote at a website:


We Are Not Human Beings Having A Spiritual Experience
We Are Spiritual Beings Having A Human Experience


give it a thought.

par-a-digm SHIFT!

原来坦白不是这样的

如果说人际关系搞得很差的一次是哪一次，我想一定是这一次了。

我以为有问题可以说出来，
毕竟“大人”或许有办法解决我的问题。
但是，我错了。
我找的人错了。
当局者是看不清状况的。
他们都是觉得自己有理的。

我以为有问题可以坦白地说出来，
毕竟大家都是大人，应该是大人有大量。
但是，我错了。
我对人类的期望太高了。
坦白说出来，只能让对方变得丑陋。
因为人类思想的丑陋丑化了别人。

我以为坦白是明明白白说出来。
我以为只要我觉得他是一个懂人情世故的人应该就可以坦白。

原来坦白不是这样的。
坦白不是什么都能明明白白说出来。
坦白不是我认为他是懂人情世故的人他就是懂人情世故的人。

原来坦白不是这样的。
那么什么才叫坦白？
坦白要怎么做才能圆融？
坦白要怎么做才能不让自己变成一个到最后什么事只能放在心上的人？

这并不是谁的错。
一路上是我转错太多的弯了。
我只能当它是一次惨痛的教训。
而我或许需要付出惨痛的代价。

before 2008 ends....

Wow, the field in front of the khatib MRT station having a countdown celebration!!!
First time. Haha.
Now, the tv is on, and the sound from the field is so loud, i cant really hear anything clearly when both are shouting.

15mins more to 12mn.

Everything is not over yet.
It is a continuation of 2008.
But we can always use a new way to continue our life.
A new and better way.
Improvement, that's what we looking for.



A better future is waiting for us.
Only if u believe =)

12星座宝贝小故事(笑话) 之 双鱼座

爸爸给鱼鱼讲小时候经常挨饿的事。
听完後，鱼鱼两眼含泪，十分同情地问：
“哦，爸爸，你是因为没饭吃才来我们家的吗？”

富含丰富同情心，不分情况、对象的双鱼。



有一点共鸣...
哈哈...

考试回顾

考试结束也有差不多两个星期了。
让我们回顾回顾。


ST3236 Stochastic process - 撞墙篇
最后一题，明明那15分是送给我们的，我却送回给老师... 昏...


MA3236 Nonlinear programming - 糊涂篇
哇，我第一次不知道共有7题！
其实不是我不知道，试卷开始时我知道。
但是就是老师说还剩15分钟的时候，我在第六题，我却下意识以为我是在最后一题了。
伤脑筋。最后一题应该可以拿个4、5分的。


MA3110 Mathematical Analysis II - 骄傲篇
之前我还没考这个paper的时候，我以为我会定为“无奈篇”。
因为每次做这个的assignment都无奈到极点。
那么为什么现在变成骄傲篇呢？
不是我统统都会做。照样的，其实大半部分还是不会做。
所以我还是和上次考midterm一样，觉得时间很多...
那么时间多要怎么样呢？不写东西肯定是没有分的咯，所以我就硬硬写些东西。
那么值得骄傲的是就在这儿。
一、我不会写废话，所以每次碰到这种不会做，我无奈，写不出就写不出。但是这次我却勉强写了一些。
二、我不止写了一些。第二题，我写着写着，还写到那个要prove的 -.- （不管中间有没有对。）
所以我想是值得骄傲的一件事吧...


MA2222 Financial Mathematics - 最长试卷篇
其实也不是最长啦。我的每张试卷都是2小时。
那么为什么最长呢？
我这个paper的座位是靠窗的，然后，5pm开始。当时烈日当空。
时间一分一秒过。渐渐地太阳下山了。7pm试卷完毕。天已暗了。
感觉就像过了一整天。哈哈。


CL1101E Introduction to Chinese Language - 头痛篇
先说说天气。进考场时，一样烈日当空。进场不久就乌云密布，下起雷阵雨，可说是天气变换极快。
最后一个paper了，应当越做越轻松。
哪儿知最后一题要写整整一段的拼音加声调。
我写到最后脑袋空空。头脑混沌。根本不能清楚思考。
勉强写完后，还要回头做那些不会的。
分析层次法简直让我头大，加上时间不多，弄得我头更痛。
最后没有把应该做完的做完，就这样结束我的考试了。


这样的结束不好过。
接下来，我朋友看到我都问我，我不是考完了吗？这么一幅这样不开心的脸。
我无奈啊。
当时确实一点心情都没有。

不过，总算考完了。

下午茶

虽然现在应该是最忙的时候、最应该呆在家念书的时候，
但是有时应该宠宠自己的。
于是，昨天我到novena square的灵芝去喝下午茶。

吃得来S$12。贵不贵？应该算还好吧。
一个下午茶等于我的午餐和晚餐，应该还蛮划算的。哈哈。
不过可惜的是食物一般。
加上我吃过甜食之后，有一种很腻的感觉。
因此我得到的结论是，我还是喜欢吃咸的。哈哈。
甜食吃一点点就好。不过他们的red bean paste roll 是不错的。
而他们服务生的服务也不错。
从我还没有进去，到我要走了，他们都会笑笑地说“请进”、“谢谢”。
当我问服务生，这茶是什么茶，他也很礼貌地回答，回答得很详细也是。（就是我没有很注意听完，呵呵）
我所吃的食物会上载到facebook。不过，有些像，咖喱菜、酸辣汤等我没拍到。
所以我自己看了照片也不觉得我吃了很多。哈哈...


下图是我和一群美食鉴定团用餐过后的合照。

回应

谢谢朋友们的关心。
我没事。
并不是什么大事，虽然小小的事可能会在心灵上留下深刻的印象。

我是个敏感的人。
别人的一个小动作，我可能都会在意。（不过不是每个人都那么好的“优待”）
所以自然的，如果我所作的有违背良心的事，即使是一个小动作，我也会难过。
但我的这个举动或许对其他人来说可能根本在他们的心中不留下一点痕迹。
毕竟导致我这个举动的观念与思想怎么可能会有人知道。
所以我难过的是因为我发现原来我的心是如此不善。
而心痛也不过是因为我觉得我这样做会伤到别人。
当然更糟糕的是如果那人察觉到我的私心，后果不堪设想。
不过放心好了，人往往会放大自己所顾虑的，看到的多是自己，其实别人不会想到像我所想得那么严重与复杂，又或是他们其实根本就不会在意这种事。

但是心念真的很重要。
所谓“万法由心生”。
是在天堂还是在地狱，一切就看心中的一个念。
一个思想就会导致一个行动，然后习惯，接着就是命运。

所以为我能察觉到我错误的心念感到开心与骄傲吧。
而我，不用说，当然要好好反省。

无言

我很傻...
为什么整天做这种傻事...
弄到自己的心一点都不好受。

如果我这样被人对待，我也不好受的。
这道理我又不是不知道。

不过我也感谢上天，让我感受到做了这种违背良心的事之后心痛的感觉。
就像一把刀，狠狠地插在我心上。



我的心现在过意不去到......


心痛不行。



我会记得这次的教训。

兴奋！

在 maths lab 晃了一个小时，终于我要开始读书了 :p
今天10am还真的没有tutorial leh...
不过也okie, 可以在学校念念书什么的。

我好兴奋哦！
下个星期可以去吃buffet！
YES~! wahaha.

现在心情不错的另一个原因，是刚看了某人的部落格。
看她写得那么开心、过得也不错，我也为她高兴。
其实，看到别人幸福也是蛮开心的。

心，有一点重

基于几个因素，我的心有一点儿沉重。
让自己快乐一点的方法有哪一些呢？

我以为和我的“偶像”说话会快乐。
因为他能有让人很开心的感觉。
但是谈到“心”，我的心变得更重了。
不过，值得高兴的是至少我终于把心中的一些些烦恼吐出来，虽然没有解决方案。
况且他能让人开心的魅力依旧（你们可能以为是他会搞笑，可是告诉你们：非也，非也。哈哈！）。

再来，能让自己开心的就是$$.
哈哈，不要觉得意外。
觉得自己富有时是一种快乐，虽然它是短暂的。
不过可惜，我现在没教补习，这几个月没收入。
所以$$是看不到了。

接着，就是食物啦！
哈哈，有的吃感觉真不错！
我在想，我到底是什么时候这么爱吃的... zzz....
其实，也不一定要吃到。
单单是看到我想我以后要光顾的地方吃什么就很开心了。
我想是期待那将到来的美好食物的心情让自己快乐吧。

期待美好就会快乐，
但是期待中带有要求就一点都不好。
我就是因为要求多多才落到今天的下场。

朋友，不要像我一样。
否则想要快乐的时候，用钱买都买不到。

痴人说梦话

那天病了，但是还是到附近的岛屿潜水。

我用我超人能力和朋友飞到那岛屿。



看来岛屿正在进行大工程。
听说以后很多赌鬼会想以那里为家。但是可惜连家都还没建好，在黑名单上的统统一律已被禁止“入境”。

我们飞过了“丽星邮轮”。

上面的泳池看起来不错，但是... 要游泳的话，在那船的周围游不是更自在吗？

终于，到了。
一切就绪，我们开始了我们的潜水之旅。
首先看到的是...

虫子？至今我还是没搞懂这是什么... 海里的生物还真奇怪...
不过到让我想起了芝麻街里的玩具虫... 很像...


虾（是虾吗？）整齐的排列以及换队形的整齐让我质疑他们是不是有经过彩排的...

接下来是

可惜我没拍到它真实的样子... 不过能说的是，我比较喜欢天上的天使。

其他海底生物还有...

蜗牛？而且是很大只的...


巨大的螃蟹！

再来是jelly jelly~

怎么那个最大只的不会发光，就只有身上4条线会发光...
看来越大不见得就越亮。

“哼！你现在才知道这道理？”
“zzz....”

我才懒得理那条鱼...
我走了。往左一看。
哎呀！hammerhead shark??!!
快逃！
往右转！

我的天~！大白鲨??!! =s
没办法... 往前冲！

正好前方有一艘海盗船。
我用一只手驾驶。

不行，太慢了！
用两只！



前方是什么？

时空机器吗？
好，启动！
我们来到了远古时代？

好像很古老的鱼哦...

咦！前面是...

美人鱼耶~


怎么身体这么臃肿... 手这么短... zzz...

终于我们上岸了。

眺望远处还看到了pink dolphin.


接下来我们又起飞了。
这次我们看到了F1赛车道。

向这转...
在向那儿转...
看了都累...

终于一天也过了。
这次游玩还真不错。
对了，还要感谢朋友的妈妈一大早为我煮罗汉果。感动 T.T

好了，时间到了，该醒了。



作者感言：若是小学生的看图作文应该会拿零分吧。哈哈!

To concerned people... like peijia =)

haha, specially delicate to people like peijia =)

i'm currently in maths lab 2 now. (by the way, this week is recess week...)
suppose to come to school to study. heh heh.
but i think perhaps i shall write sth here first.

updates for my past half a sem.
as usual, my line for the day: TIME FLIES...
really.
soon it will be final exam, i cant believe it and i dont want to think abt it.

i realised thurs night is the most stressful night and following fri before 2 is the most stressful period. Know why?
cos at these time, i'll be having headache because of my maths analysis 2.
it is a torture for me to hand in maths analysis 2 homework.
even doing the tutorials i cant help but to feel like vomit...
i jus wonder how am i suppose to survive through my maths analysis2...

okie, enough for the stressful part.
school life is tiring with a free day.
most of the time i will slack at home.
then with 5days workload in 4 days, i practically have no time to do tutorials during my school days. most of the days are packed, from morning to evening...
that's why i feeling tired in school most of the time.
i wanna change! change back to a normal lifestyle!

okie, enough for the school.
my weekends are busy as always. go here go there, go everywhere haha.
although feeling a bit guilty for not speanding my time on homework, these are perhaps the happy time i have. =)

anyway, i shld go and study my financial maths le.
seeyou in my next update =D

updates

It's been a long time.

I realised i have always blog abt my bidding.
This time, 4 cores and a CL module.
Timetable is not that bad.
Finally i got a free day. An offical one. haha.
I used to have free day too during year 1 or 2 i think, but is self declare =D
A funny day which i have lecture at 7-10PM.
My day starts when everyone goes home.

Tonight i'm having a big feast. Well... is nt that big, but i'm excited over it =p
By the way, i went to Deli's Roma again, with the gals.
Peijia! we go again when u are back, ok? heehee. waiting for u... ...

School started but i still having the playing mood....
All the best to me! 2nd last sem!!

Roma's Deli again~

4th time dining at Roma's Deli in this holiday.
each time with different group of people.
there are jc friends, sec sch friends, non school friends and my sis.

yesterday i went with my sis. jus 2 of us. haha.
we ordered a set dinner - mushroom soup, redung curry baked rice, root beer.
we shared the soup and the drink.
my sis had the baked rice while i ordered sambal prawn spaghetti.

and and and, after we had all these, we ordered a regular hot spicy pizza!
hohoho.
all spicy food =)
everything is good.
good food, good environment.
but no good for my wallet T.T
there's a big hole there now i suppose....

okie, some photos!

this is the place we went.

yummy mushroom soup with a toast.

this is my sambal prawn spaghetti.

our hot spicy pizza!

photos were also taken when i went with jc and sec sch friends.
jc one were uploaded in facebook. sec sch friends i lazy to upload haha.

缘份

缘份很奇妙。

朋友与朋友的缘份一般人都并没有真正的放在心上。
说一句老实话，我也不例外。
原因很简单：朋友超过一个。

在众多朋友陪伴下时，谁会觉得朋友与朋友之间的缘是特别的？
最多只会觉得最要好的朋友特别，缘份较深而已。

在电视常看到的剧情：男女主角搭反方向的扶手梯偶遇，相信大家都看过。
若发生在常看到的朋友之间，或许也不觉得怎么样。
但是如果是住在不同国度，就相遇在某个地铁的扶手梯的中间。
这样的相遇，真的不由得让人思考起来。

朋友的缘份原来可以这么深...

你感觉得到吗？

i have been tagged...

Rules of the Taggy Quiz:

A] People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B] Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.


Here are my answers:

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
never want to see that person again.

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
the life i want

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
anywhere that's beautiful, like the big big meadow, by the beach that has a blue blue sea (not brown...) etc

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
i didnt even know what's coming to me...

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
too many to list...

#6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone ?
being loved.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really love?
depends on how much he love me and how much i love him

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
change a new target! haha...

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yes, i suppose... things are not done when they are supposed to be done.

#10. What do you want most in life?
not that really sure...

#11. Is being tagged fun?
nope, it's nt fun. it's boooring.......

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
haha, i'm not a fortune teller

#13. Who is the current most important person to you?
parents

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
a cute one!

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
married but poor? haha

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?
eh, i dont like animals for pet...

#17. What are one of those things which you would prefer not to do?
uh....

#18. What kind of person do u think u are?
okie person...

#19. What do you define as a bad day?
everything goes against my will...

#20. If you have to choose between love (as in boy-girl relationships) and friendship, what would it be?
depends on who i have at that moment? haha.

8 ppl to be tagged:
i think not a lot of ppl reading this, haha, so whoever read this and have the time to do this.
the quiz is kind of bored, so no point tagging.

人生

人生的困难重重，过了一关又一关。
曾以为这一关过了，就永远过关了，却没有想过这一关或许就是一整个人生要"过"的；
也就是要学习的。
所以同一个问题会一直出现。
一直出现到你彻底明白一切为止。

既然都已经经历几次，多一次算什么？
就算伤痕累累，多一刀也不算什么。
所以也不要气馁。
"加油"就是我们一生鼓励自己的话。

人生本来就是让我们学习与克服自己的过程。
所以不要畏惧，也不要嗔恨或讨厌自己的人生。
每个人生可是独一无二的。

cycling at ECP today

yeah, cycling in ECP (erm, there isnt many places fo me to cycle in sg...)
last time in my blog i did blog abt my cycling trip with my 2 juniors,
this time is with my sec1, sec2 friends - jw, hw, von, and my bro =)

okie, photos!
haha, i realise i like to upload photos taken at ecp...



(left) we cant see, we cant see, we are facing the sun!
(right) heehee, now we have become smarter.

Us with the bikes at bedok jetty.



haha, i found 2 trees with "interesting" trunks, such that we can sit on it =D
trunks, of cos that are strong enough, hoho


okie, more photos in facebook and friendster, k? =)

and probably there'll be another cycling session with jc friends soon...

orh, i nearly forgot.
i went NTUC before gg back home.
and on my way back from NTUC,
while crossing the road, i happened to look up into the sky.
have u all see rainbow in the sky before?
it's an arc right?
how abt those 'rainbow' found in the oil spill in the paddle of water?
let's say we call it - a 'mass' of 'rainbow'?
how about a 'mass' of 'rainbow' in the sky?
amazing huh?


can u see the colourful light?

a close up.


it doesnt seem to be clear enough...
maybe i should have used my digi camera instead of my handphone...

it is really very nice when i look at it in the sky...
photos just cant show...

these 13 days after my last paper

Nowadays, the weather has become SO hot that i need not go to the suana
already i can know how it is like...
i sweat in my nap just like i'm having fever.
this makes me really miss a place called LTs, haha.
the school has free air-con everywhere, i just feel like going back there...

Time flies (which might be a good thing cos it shows that i'm doing sth other than slacking)
today is already 20th, erm, nope, 21st may!!
i thought today only 10plus may...
well, exam seems to have just ended last week, and yet the result is coming out next week!
looking forward to it?
nah, not sure. but more looking forward to whether do i need s/u or not.
haha, nv use s/u before.

after 8th may, which is my last paper, i went out for
1 concert, 1 bday party, 1 dental appointment, 1 lunch, 1 trip down to suntec
nth much haha. but more to come...

lazying ard - one week before 1st paper

wahaha, just went facebook-ing.
man, my profile is sooo messy!
need to "tidy" a bit after exam, heehee.
maybe shall upload some long-time-ago-photos also since i never upload any before.
uploading photos is much easier in facebook than in friendster i think.
but it has been so time i didnt update my friendster too, so not sure if the uploading system still the same. hmmmp...

looking forward to nth but HOLIDAYS~
yeah~!

死亡

有时会觉得害怕。

随着一天天的成长，死亡似乎感觉越来越近。
虽然到现在为止，走的走，自杀的自杀，都不是我直接认识的人。
但是每次听朋友讲起都觉得毛毛的。

害怕，因为心虚。
该做的都还没有做，该完成的也还没有完成。
感觉就好像还没准备好就要进考场的那种心虚。

也在想，会不会有人不知道以后要去哪里就这样，走了？
人生无常。
对于自己不知道要去哪里的人也只有无奈吧。
还没想的人，或许是时候花一点时间想想了。

时间太少！

哇，又过了一段时间了。
日子真的，真的过的很快。

一句话：
事情太多，时间太少!!

很快又要大考了...
希望大考后，我的假期会很充实。=）
充实地过!
期待。

不管怎么样，今年我将会为我的人生重新定义。

Update

2 major events happened after the last update of my blog.
One is the CNY.
The other is my birthday.

CNY i went back to malaysia - ipoh and KL to bai nian.
I should say that it hax been a loooong time i have gone back for new year, so kind of special.
Now, i hope i'll be able to for my cousins' weddings (2 coming up for this year) haha.
I realised that i love going out, out to play i suppose, haha.
But before the holidays are coming, think have to go through the tests, reports, project and exams =s
However, i believe that soon it will be over before i realise. =)

As for my birthday, well, each year is getting simple and simple i should say.
On the actual day itself, i only went for lunch with hw, jw and von.
Then walk ard and chit chat awhile.
Then had dinner at home.
That's all.
Simple enough haha.

However, still glad that there are still as many people wishes me (whether is it through sms, msn, friendster or facebook) =)
Touched (as usual) when receiving belated birthday sms, especially more than one day after.
It's because at least they still wish me even it's late.
I dont mind late wishes actually, it's always better than those who never wish me.

Next major event probably will be the mid term tests and report and project's deadline.

My mood still fluctuate.
Up and down, up and down.
It's tiring.
Hope the peaceful mind will remain for a little longer.

First post in 2008

CNY coming soon, meaning my birthday coming soon.
It's really fast.
My 21st year is going to be gone soon, very soon.

But i like my 21st year.
i have experienced a lot.
Ups and downs.
But i'm really happy, whether it is up or it is down.
Because my wish is fulfilled.
My wish for my 21st year is to experience different things and discover a different me, enjoy my life by doing something/anything that are meaningful (and not slacking) and become more mature.
Indeed, i have done that.

In particular, I have enjoyed my holidays.
I went to Sabah. I watched movies. I meet up with friends. The list goes on...
And for once i felt that holiday is just too short!
Too short in such a way that i have too many things to do, but time is running short.
Not like last time, when we complain time is short because we do things at the last minute.
But this time i have made full use of my holiday (for most of the days, haha)
[There's this week i went out everyday, until i fell sick, sadly. No choice, got to stay at home. i wont want it to get so worse that i need to see a doctor. okie, this is a side story]

I felt that i have grown up.
Internally.
心，阔了一点。思想，不那么窄小了。
放下也容易多了。

但是，有一方面还是很需要学习的。
那就是应该怎么与人相处。
尤其是怎么与朋友相处。
还有怎么做出对的反应。
每次我表现出来的，并不是我想要做的，也就是不是我的本意。

话在此总不容易表达。我也不善于表达。

希望以后我每年都会像我今年21岁这样，如此充实，哪怕是快乐还是不快乐，都能心有所得。

What should i called this...

From pH...


Answer the following questions:


List the top 5 presents you want for your birthday:
1. wishes from all my friends
2. get unexpected presents from unexpected people
3. wisdom increase exponentially
4. better relationship with friends perhaps
5. the top 4 listed above is fulfilled


Your Relationship with her is:
her mum and my mum are friends, so are we.


Your impression of her:
crazy, dependent gal


The most memorable thing she did for you:
saying sth that's the most sensible and touching words


If she becomes your lover, you will:
maybe next life ba. haha.


If she becomes your lover, what does she needs to improve on:
more man.


If she becomes your enemy, you will:
forgive her.


Your overall impression of her:
okie okie. young little girl.


How do you think the people around her think about her:
haha, i'm not sure how others think, cos i dunnoe how to read others' mind


The character you love yourself:
once decision is made, no regrets.


On the contrary, the character you hate yourself is:
dislike myself unneccessary and being not sensitive at times


The most ideal person you wanna be:
wiser! more hardworking, get things done faster etc etc (too many to be named)


For people who care and like you, say something to them?
Thank you for showing your care and concern. Thank you for liking me. Hope you will still like me in the future and please do show me your love more obviously cos i'm not sensible enough. I'm sorry about anything i have done that hurt you in the past.


Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel:
probably those who will read my blog, people like, erm,

victoria chuk, shi ting, peijie, xueying, Girl^^ (haha, hope u know who u are), piggy (haha!) , huiyee, kinxing, engteck, pH (they nv say cannot name the person who name you).

hmm... no forcing, cos i think this kind of thing quite fei also, jus do for fun.

Random update

It has been some time that i'm here to blog.

Have been quite busy and yet not much things are accomplished.

Recently been busy editing blog template (but not for my blog, haha) (and is not done yet too)
Editing those java things really remind of the computing module i have taken for last sem.
First, get a template which almost match the idea of the skin ( in my module, i try to get a few ans from other students by 'stealing' their work).
Second, edit the initial template by replacing image that i wan and, trial and error for font size, font style or what-so-ever. ( in school, i tried to change the code with my limited knowledge and, trial and error to get the correct result) (sometimes i think that i'm really 贱)

Jus these 2 simple steps.
But it is really waste of time.
Not saying that doing these things are a waste of time, jus that the method-trial and error is time consuming, never an effective way.
However, sometimes i'm just too lazy to learn the proper way, cos the introduction is always soooo boring, and i always cant understand certain terms.

Obviously, i'm really lack of general knowledge.

I miss those days when 'm free and i will take up a book and read, and able to read with interest easily. As i grew up, things seem to be boring. And i seem to get things done slower -.-
Am i really getting old too fast?