#1069#

Volunteered for arwsome kids date ytd and it was really pretty meaningful. I admit I'm not good with kids neither do I like them but I thought I'm pretty patient alr ytd. I did answered the kids qns though some were stupid, I tolerated with some of their tantrums and carried their stuffs like a nanny. I did not flare up though I was irritated and it was raining. I think I did scrape pass as a volunteer haha. But I was really restless and emo at night. Idk why my emotions are just like a coaster ride lately. Maybe I'm too tired. Maybe I hasnt seen bg for too long. I was quite sian but I still accompanied them to play the rides at night. It was a long day indeed.

Bg gave me a pleasant surprise today when he performed for the 6pm show! I was in a state of shock when I saw him out from boh and even nudged yj and asked is that bg. A couple of ent ang moh big shot and the SM were very supportive of him and were ultra high (they snatch pretty lots of attention away from me lol). But am happy to see that everyone was so happy to have him back on the stage. I cannot describe how happy I was as I was smiling non stop throughout the entire 16mins or so. I know many ppl may be complaining about my loud cheering but who cares. I know I mentioned bg many many times after that but sorry its been one whole month. Not happy I also cannot do anything about it. I can smile to myself after tt hahaha. He was so nice to keep waving to me on stage and the thumbs up, I really do miss him badly. He's awesome. To the max. He's got some Philippines friends back in the park too so they took photos w him after show ended. I ran over and volunteered to help them take a group shot and he kept saying thanks a lot steffi. Oh I so love it haha. Even when he was walking back to boh, he turned back and said bye. Aww sweet. Was preshow for my last show and he happen to walk past on the road and wave bye to me! And flying kiss hahahaa. Was a bit disappointed he did not perform last show but I shall not be greedy. It was such a pleasant surprise. Really hope to have him back on Saturday! ^^ Only pity was he came in to watch Monster Rock in the afternoon but I was not on shift yet.

#1067#

Oh I haven updated for ages. Its the end of week 3 alr and we are heading on to week 4 next. At least something proud, I've finished the resume supposed to be due on sunday and readings and tutorials are almost on track, except for stats. that's total crap.

Hasn't gotten back into the mood of school but oh well soon la soon.

Mktg and Econs tutors are nice but stats and OB cmi.

Went to Seafood Paradise and ate crab w meiling, dear and yu jia on cny eve's eve. awesome crab from Tung Lok! But also v ex la haha.

I cant believe I actually worked from CNY day 1 to 4. Only went visiting in the morning till noon on day 1.

And I'm really sick of being nice and helpful, I guess the environment is shaping me into someone heartless. Can't help it.

And I'm pretty sick of living life one-sidedly. Basically that's it.

Humans are still fake, I believe.

Did I mention it was just like a dream come true to me? I'm more than satisfied this way. I'll not ask for more. No expectations, no disappointments.

#1066#

I'm finally brave enough to admit. I just sent an email to sujun and yingfang. I felt bad keeping them in the dark for so long. I guess it's time they know abt it since its the last day of 2010.

Reflecting back on 2010, the first month I was still interning with CX. Was busy with CSIT in Feb. And I started GOP on 01 March. Was rather excited abt work at first. But when I first started in 12March was a bit sian la. Cos don't know anyone yet. So slowly after 1 month, I started to get closer with them and this is really the 1 and only best thing that happened to me in 2010. I've got nice leads like Sham & Elaine. And our ga gi lang: Huijia, Yujia, Audrey, Peiling, Ah ma, Ricky, Meiling, Vanbo etc. I go so attached to my workplace till I worked for 14days straight without rest. Got a positive lead observation from Elaine and motivated me to work harder. So I love going to work till I get v emo in July cos uni is starting. 2010 was a drastic change to my life cos I started coming home real late every night. 12+ seems to be the norm now. Watched my very first sunrise and celebrated mid autumn for the first time. But work at uss also taught me to watch my temper. Sometimes my last warning temper really too uncontrollable and guests really last warning la. But still, there's a need to put on a smile and just roll eyes.

LCA ppl came over to cross train in July and that's how me and dear got to know each other. Actually we only talked more after her training haha. We got draw closer tgt becos of the similarities btwn us and thank god for each other, we survived till now. The strength and mental support we've been giving each other. Reminding each other to stay strong although we are not. Thanks dear for always making so many sacrifices and doing crazy things tgt w me. I really love you and please really take good care of your own health. My heart will pain ok. Must try to kan kai le. You'll eventually get to meet your own Mr Right.

So the other turning point in 2010 was the start of uni. I thank god the ppl I've met in uni are rather nice ppl are we are able to work well. Same pattern. But the stress is really unimaginable. Several times I really wanted to give up, even halfway through exams. But I still pulled through even though I did broke down a few times. I'm really not the study kind and I still prefer to work rather than study. But sighs I don't wanna disappoint my parents la. Staying in hall is another new experience. Gave me a lot of chances to sneak out to meet my dear uss friends and lots of stayovers, behind my parents' back, hahaha.

But reflecting back on 2010, it hasn't been a smooth year for me emotionally. For those who knows, yes I wonder how did I manage to pull through emotionally. It's been more than a coaster ride. Countless ups and downs. Fyi, no change in my status, I'm still single and will still be. Experienced some new situations and realised I can actually pretend to be stronger than what I expected. I am able to put on a mask so well in front of ppl. This entire thing is just a mistake and let it remain in 2010. I don't want to bring it over to 2011. Thanks to those who stayed by my side and gave me mental support. Without you, I wouldn't have been able to pull through. Although the situation now isn't at its best, I wouldn't dare to ask for more. Just let things be. I wanna start everything afresh in 2011. It's been a tiring year. 1 thing I've learnt for sure: I wouldn't allow myself to fall for anyone first anymore. I wouldn't give a damn abt r/s anymore. If it comes, it will come. No point thinking abt it. It's just killing brain cells.

Friendships also took a change in 2010. Even though there are still meetups w Jasper and Cr, it was becos of our effort. I guess we would slowly drift apart if no one bothers in 2011. Apparently we felt that Cr changed a lot ever since he got attached and if that's the case, I'm quite speechless. After graduation, I didn't even keep in contact w my poly friends. This explains how anti social I am in poly. Close friends like sj, yf, ariel ,xt and mf are still my close friends. Even Shawn. I appreciated him for surprising me for my bday and initiated to entertain me when I was bored. Hopefully everyone survives through uni and sj honey to find a full time job soon!

Went taiwan for the second time too and I absolutely love it! Heading to HKG in 2011 (:

Reflecting back on 2010:
New Year Resolution`10:
1) To graduate with minimum GPA of 3.9. Really hopefullyyy please. (becos im very near to 3.9 now..)- NO I didnt managed to. Stuck at 3.89.
2) CHANGE MY TEMPER again. 5th year le la. - got try to control temper lah.
3) Try to not be so snappy towards Mummy. Be more patienttt. Understand why is she so naggy. - got a bit of improvement.
4) Shape a better character. - ???
5) Hope to be accepted by SIN uni and into a course I like and survive well there please. - accepted but aint surviving v well leh.
6) Maintain friendships with close friends. - well i guess so lah.
7) Let things go completely. - yes I have to the previous one.
8) Learn French! (Ariel, we must do it this year! Haha) - oh no i didnt ):
9) Pass BTT on first attempt.- YES (:
10) Attend Jam's Singapore Concert. NO ):

Completed 6/10. I passed lah hahaha. Now time for 2011:

New Year Resolution`11:
1) Hang on there in NTU. Pass every module and get into tourism faculty.
2) Better control over temper, anger management.
3) Be a better person.
4) Being a stronger and optimistic adult.
5) Visit my ah ma more often.
6) Maintain close friendships w my uss loves and close friends.

Okay shall not be greedy for next year. Shall settle with 6.

I can smell that 2011 will be another busy year. I'm working till 1230am for countdown event tmr. 1 Jan 10am to 10pm. 2 Jan 11am to 830pm. 3rd Jan shld be spring. 4th Jan 8am to 6pm. night for meeting then kbox plus sunrise. 5th dear's bday and 6th 8am to 6pm again.

On a side note, I'm flying off to hkg on the 9th! :D

#1065#


I guess no matter how tired I am now, I have to blogged about this. If not the feeling would be gone liao.

To start of the story, it's my first ever Christmas spent at work cos ah ma was short of ppl today. So just decided to help out cos I've got nothing on too. I could have gotten double pay in Spring though. But I chose to help them out even though pay was only 30% more. I believe happiness and love can fill up that 70% of the money I've lost? Well at least I really thought so after today.

But what a day to start with. Was supposed t report at 1030am but I only woke up at 10am and had to call in 1 hour late. Crap. But dearest huijia gave me a cup of starbucks java chip to boost me with strength. With a super sweet card inside. I'm seriously so touched by it. I LOVE YOU MAN! came to watch out last show. It was delayed for 20mins for him? And becos of this we clashed w the v v v heavy downpour. All guests were stuck inside our preshow and we only managed to clear everyone close to 815pm. First time being the last attraction to 10-7 for the day. Everyone freezed from 545 till 815. And I saw all the TMs, plus Doug drenched from top to toe cos they ran in the rain w/o umbrella. Maybe that's what I find the tourism industry amazing. And what's even more amazing, we witnessed the blackout of Mel's from the lighting. Damn scary pls omg.

Went for a quick 30mins break and had to position for pyro. Things really aint going our way. Started raining heavily when we reached our positions. Thank god the rain stopped just before pyro and started pouring again after pyro ended. All of us were stuck at our positions and couldn't get back to pantages. I know everyone was worried for each other based on the frequency we radioed each other. Making sure everyone is in the shelter and I can feel all the love and care we hv for each other. Me and Casey ran over to Huijia's position and all of us hid under the small umbrella. I told them this isn't a safe place as we might be struck from lightning anytime. So we ran all the way to enchanted greeter and to casa del wild. Ace and meiling wanted to come over but we just stopped them over the radio. So lol. In the end Tracy and Ricky came over w umbrellas to fetch us.

As we got back to pantages, its alr close to 10pm i guess. Lots of guests were stuck at Mel's and NY. Without a word, all of us just grabbed an umbrella each and went to shelter guests 2 by 2 to get them out of this place. And yes we were soaking wet from top to bottom. But everyone just worked as a team and we were done at abt 1030. Although all these shit happened on Christmas, I'm v glad to be working w the people I love. Everything was worthwhile. I somewhat think this will bring us closer. Do you think all of us (including those guests services ppl who had to stand in the rain and the danger of getting struck by lighting) went the extra extra mile because we OH SO LOVE OUR JOB? The answer is an upright no. Well at least to us in pantages. Do we think we did all these for the sake of the 45mins OT? How much could we get? Even if there is no OT, we would still have sheltered the guests out. It is really the love we have btwn us. We care for each other and work excellently as a team. So to those ah-hem, please stop arrowing us pantages people and say we are the slackest of all attraction. Some things we've done and sacrificed are those that can't be seen by you people. Including pyro in the rain. Please be nice to us and give us enough staffing during the day, thank you v much.

We could have kaobei abt so many stuffs- our forever existing payroll issue, our only 30mins break when we supposed to have 1 hour, our leaking attraction and i think this list is endless. But all this boils down to the lovable bond we have ppl! <3 I'll remember you guys for life (:

Anyway idk how to go work w a pair of soaking wet shoe tmr. I'm too emotional to sleep now.

#1064#

I wanan dedicate my heartfelt thanks to my dearest dear for arranging everything on my birthday. It is definietely not easy and I really appreciate it and enjoyed myself (:

Was very cui as I jitao overslept and was late in meeting her. Haha went for a v nice classic pedi session and Ivy was nice to throw in free nail art cos its my bday. Was raining too heavily so we cabbed down to vivo for a 3hour plus k session. It was brown guy's last performance tt day so I was kinda a bit distracted. But thank he get to perform as the rain stopped on time. Met the rest at Marche for dinner. My first time here and definitely worth going back there again although it can really burn a big hole in our pockets. Many thanks to huijia, yujia, da jie and cheryl for doing the scrapbook which can see require a lot of effort. Very beautifully done up. After dinner we headed over to St James for steve's concert. Music was good but had to leave at 1030 cos next day got school.

I really appreciate what my friends had done for me. Went for sushi tei dinner w sj, cr, jasper and shawn as mentioned before. Shawn was really the best surprise for that night hopefully we can be in contact. But I cant say how much I'm disappointed w the 2.

Went back to the park w yf on sat morning. Initially plan to leave at 1 but I really wanted to see brown guy perform 1 last time so waited till 320. He was crying quite badly and I really felt it. Took my 1 last pic w him in brown guy costume ): After that we had steamboat dinner w shiyi ariel and xt! Slacked at starbucks, and camwhore. Cabbed home after that.

But I really feel quite crap lately. My brain isnt functioning properly. I feel like the most stupid person in class. I dont feel productive in proj (even though my grp mates said I was). I just feel like crap. very blur nowadays. left my thumbdrive in the lab a few weeks back and luckily i managed to find it back after 2 hours. And i accidentally lose my itouch on tue after blaw lec. i thought im dead alr but i'd never have imagined someone to have returned it to prof. whoever that is, im really very thankful and would love to thank him personally.

Dear came to cwp to fetch me down to northpoint to have dinner w xiao mei ytd. Ate at xing wang and left at like 11plus probably. Went to dapao beancurd for supper and went to xiao mei house to stayover. we chatted till 4am omg. woke up at 6 and dear had to drive me back to hall and rush back home by 7. poor dear. i dont want to do crazy things w u again le la. i feel so bad. anyway thanks for your biscuits. with u arnd, i feel v loved. jiayou dear.

okay off to mug for accounting, spent too much time blogging!

#1063#

wow i didnt realise i didnt blogged for so long. was quite stressed recently cos of FM. i nearly broke down the other day cos i really think i might fail the subject. made a rash comment to my parents saying i might wanna quit school if i fail. but i regretted making such a comment cos i made them quite worried la. i guess i just need to spend more time and effort trying to understand what the heck is the whole subj about. but i really got no time ah stress.

had steamboat with pantages ppl. went overnight kbox w meiling and yu jia and stayed over at yj's house. had several havoc meetings alr and draft 1 is due soon. met dear for dinner too.

finished chioning biz law 2000 words essay ytd. now chionging IT project. later going for interview. going through presentation soon.

FM quiz and accounting test coming up soon. shit i need MORE TIME.

#1062#

I guess this blog will be updated once every fortnightly.

Had a very cosy dinner w yu jia & hui jia last mon at JP. It felt just like a family with the 3 of us, having dinner, talking and continuous talking over at coffee bean. Had my first Havoc meeting and yes as the name suggest, we were being brought to some chinese cemetery for night hikeee. Spooky.. Went east coast park to cycle on wed and had dinner over at bedok 85. We were quite crazy to walk all the way back to bedok inter cos we wanted to exercise lol. Celebrated da jie's 20th birthday at timber on friday night! Cabbed home at 1am and it costs me $25..... and RWS didn't pay me. Shit them. I better get my pay on the 12th if not i sure go kao bei to the top management.

Worked with all the ga gi lang on sat and it was shiok!

Been pretty good at school lately. Didn't go out so often. Stayed in hall for tues and wed. Went down to orchard to meet da jie and yu jia just now for dinner at watami. super full and good. Went over to far east and finally did my pedi! but i feel so incomplete w/o my mani ): gonna wake up and do IT research tml (hopefully im motivated enough). and hopefully i can und FM tml! omg nightmare. goodnights!

#1061#

I haven been doing a proper update for 2 weeks. The week before I was busy with acapella training every night till almost 3am. Tired to the max. The outcome was average only lah. One, I really cannot sing well. Two, the mic sucks. But before acapella I seem to be out of hall meeting up w pantages ppl every night, then rushing back at 11pm lol.

Stayed over at Ivyna's place last monday. Impromptu decision. Had a nice dinner and stayover.

FM's make up class till 930pm on tue and I studied till 4am omg. I must be mad.

Celebrated mid autumn and ricky's birthday in advance on wed at Chinese Garden.

SJ came to hall to look for me on thurs and we went JP and bugis to shop. Didn't wanted to go back early so went down to vivo to slack with the rest. Insisted on slacking on sky garden alone but was prohibited. Was rather unstable lah.

Fri was back to home day.

I seem to be a superwoman today. Woke up at 7plus. Had spring road show from 9plus till 5plus. Rushed down to suntec to meet tasha and settled her stroller and car seat orders. Decided to meet Ivyna and we were back in uss. Not to watch fireworks. But we managed to take nice night pics of the entire park. Satisfied (:

Like what I've said, I'll eventually be fine.

My list of to-do things seems never ending, no matter how hard I'm trying to strike off 1 by 1, there will be new things piling up. Shit it.

#1060#

School officially started ytd with Accounting for my first lecture in 13 months. Can't really stand the lecturer's singlish accent. Judging from my fellow kiasu coursemates, i'll have to start learning how to be a mugger soon. Had business law lec today. I think its probably the first time I paid 95% attention to a full 2 hour lecture. I miss my slack poly life hahaha. Although everything sounds alien to me, i'll have to start learning how to absorb.

After class ytd, dear yu jia came to pick me up at Jurong East then we head down to Bugis together and met da jie there. Had a great time shopping and we had dinner at MOF with hui jia. Food was great but definitely wasn't great for my wallet. Bid goodbye at abt 945pm. Hui jia and me then headed back to pulau NTU together. Reached back hall and had accapella training at from 1115pm to about 130am? Super hard and tiring. But a new experience la.

The sun is really too glaring and I'll auto wake up at 8plus in the morning, which is freaking early cos I think I fell aslp at 4plus. After lec headed down to meet buona vista to meet ricky. Had lunch at crystal jade and xiao long bao was really great. First time down to Holland Village and it shld be a pretty interesting place to explore at night. Had haagen daz for dessert and headed down to uss again. I really wanted to climb amber but I don't dare to do it alone. I need a girl company haha. Seems like I've grown so attached to these lovable people I need to see them everyday lol.

Work tml after for like more than a week. Hopefully everything will be good. And I just wanna lead a peaceful and smooth uni life. I don't need the rah-rah kind. Cross fingers.

#1059#

I can't explain how much I was looking forward to today becos I get to see the lovable pantages clique. Screamed and gave hui jia a big hug when I saw her at Nanyang Audi in the afternoon. We went back together in the evening to meet up w the rest and it just feels like home really. Audrey Cheong! I miss you badly too! Been so long since I last saw you.

You guys are my source of happiness (: