♥ Sunday, April 04, 2010
tramp comp '10
Everyone seems to be doing a reflection on comp, so I shall do one too.
Funny thing was that this year's comp passed really fast. It was just stress stress stress and the suspense in waiting for your turn and then poof it just felt like nothing once you have completed your routine and posed your last pose for the comp.
At the beginning it was just rushing from school to henry park and to ccab, worrying about hair, glitter, makeup, comp notes, and wishing well wishes.
then close to tears when nanyang was jumping before us. this part was the hardest, the wait was the longest, for the 30 seconds of my life where i have to do my best, and everything depends on just that 30 seconds. trying not to think about huiru sitting there, trying not to think about the hopes the rest of the team behind us have upon us, trying not to think about how nanyang will do, and trying to visualise my own routine but trying not to think too much about it.
then suddenly nanyang finished and its our turn. and then its warm up. and that passed really quickly too. and suddenly warm up is finished and i have to get ready to jump. i dint dare to look at huiru or i will either start laughing or crying. and then it was only after i posed when i remembered im supposed to smile. and then climbing on the tramp and as i started jumping i realised that this is it, my last b div routine.
only when i finished, when all the nerves have dissolved and im sending the rest of b div good luck looks and them glaring at me cos my turn is over and theirs isnt, when i realised that i could have jumped higher, i shouldnt have traveled for halfturn back, and alot alot more things. but then under the previous circumstances, the routine couldnt be that perfect.
thank you all those who have wished me good luck before comp, thank you for the really sweet and cute writing comp notes that kept me from losing my head, and thank you teo for believing in my calmness that could keep the team calm so you put me first, and thank you etinne and simone for praying for all of us, thanks etinne for giving me the e-card that really comforted me when i wanted to break down in nervousness, thanks simone for the letter in the morning that kept me from breaking down even before we left school, and thanks basically to everyone who were there to support us.
now that comp is over, i realised that my last b div routine is over, my last competitive training for rg gym is over, and i feel like i've graduated from gym. this end makes me feel like i've lost something, but i'll forever treasure all the times that we have trained together. im really glad for such great seniors, juniors, and especially batchmates whom i've walked together in this gym journey.
ppl always say an end is a new beginning, i know we'll still have fun at gym and simone we are so gonna learn the a div routine by the end of this year! who knows if we will join gym in jc and our gym journey will have yet to end (:
and technically it will never end, cos gym has been a great part of our lives and will always be, and like teo says, conditioning is for life xD
well done c div, you guys have been really great and you broke the medal drought! well done too b div, i know you guys have all tried your best under those circumstances. love you guys always (:
good luck arters, jiayou for comp on thursday! <3
9:16 PMGymRocksMyLife
