Neuf . La Fille .

Yish||Nicole

Why were you staring at her?
Cause she’s ugly duh.
Okay. Stares.
She’s an ugly bitch and she thinks she's so hot.
Yeaah I know. Do you read her blog?
Yeah it's fuckin emo. Talking about her sister burning in hell.
Laughs.
Yes I know . If her life is so pathetic . Just commit suicide!
I wish she did.
Yeah me too. Life would be much better.
Haha yeah for me and you.
Yeah and for my brother too (:

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You know what? There's this thin line between my humor side, you're-a-fucking-bitch side. So there's people who break that line, and now I've finally found someone who crossed it . She thinks she's so awesome, and that her life is so surreal, it's so beautiful. She can get everything she wants, her dad's some hot-shot guy, and she lives in a beautiful home. But is she happy?

No.

Cause she's stupid. She has a fucking big house to stay in, rich parents to support her education, things that could last a lifetime, and yet she's unhappy? She doesnt deserve this shit. No she doesnt. Her world is as fucked up and damaged as her brain is. Her life is like some rubbish heap you see at dump places. She has a tiny group of friends which she can totally be a bitch to all the time, have FLINGS with a different person every month, finds it fun to rant out her entire personal life and convos on her blogs, types things so emo it makes me laugh everyday to read how sad her life is, and so on.

But she cant let go of one thing, I know. Someone who is so close to me. My best friend, my family. He hates her now. Her weird high pitched shrieks and laughing when he walks past. The odd things she tries to do to catch his attention when he's around. The slutty poses, and weird gestures. Like that would get his attention. I bet she's seen him making weird faces at his friends, and giving her signs that she should stop. And insulting his best friend? Please, that was the worst thing you could come up with. Shit. He's not fucking interested in her anymore. When will she learn to shut it and quit? Give up !

He's taken.

Get it into your head, you fuck-face.

Taken by someone I totally approve of. Someone I know will certainly treat him with the same respect he's treating her. I dont trust that fucking-rubbish-of-a-bitch to not cheat on him. She's trying to pull of this bitchy, I-dont-give-a-fuck look, but fuck man, you look like shit. She thinks she's so awesome, and that everyone hates her cause she's so cool. Well, besides the everyone hates her part, the rest are a pack of fucking lies. She thinks she has friends, but I bet they all just pity her. She thinks some guy loves her, but I bet the guy's as fucked up and ugly as she is. Hell, her ex likes me now.

For someone who can see through that whole I-rock-and-you-dont thing, and see her for what she truly is, I bet that person would find nothing. Not a single fucking crap.

Her life is a bunch of lies. The smoking, the lesbos, the sex, the slutty clothes, the tough act. Shut up. Lies lies lies. You dont have to be an expert to realize that. She's a crappy piece of rubbish who had been born into this world, just to fill up the empty spaces. She has no sense of right or wrong. She's a cheap slut. And she's making the best of it. No one can beat that.

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Nicole (:

Huit . Journée Normale

Mum || Nicole
Girlie , this dress is so nice !
Umm , yeah okay . How about this jumper ? (:
Why dont you try it on huh ?
But it's not me . It's a jeansie dress O_O .
It's okay ! It's only RM45 . It's normally RM299 elsewhere .
*Shrugs* Er , okaaay . *Changes*
Okay , come out !
Ummm . *Comes out* . Is it supposed to look like this ?
No , stupid . The cross is supposed to be at the back !
Oh . *Changes*
Wow it's nice ! Let's get it .

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Ch-ching . There's goes another whole week of pocket money O_O .

I would say today was pretty normal , despite the fact that my mum bought me a jeans floral print short dress in Romp instead of the black and gray striped jumper that I really really wanted :D . I drew a model from the Seed magazine give-away and it looks okay , though the face is very .. er .. funky . Haha . I'll maybe post a picture of it next time (: . Wheee` . This is like a normal blogging day . Haha . I'm itching all over . I dont know why . My brother has really bad rashes and I think it's getting on to me .

I'm wearing the jeansie dress to my cousins birthday tomorrow afternoon :/

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Nicole (:

Sept . Haunte Ecole de Musique .

Chloe||Nicole||Yi Shuen
You know Chloe got tickets to High School Musical
Since when was there High School Musical tickets huh ?
Oh . On Ice.
HAHAHA . Yi Shuen . I loove High School Musical !
Great .
Hahaha . Yeaah me tooo !
It's so fun !
Okaay .
You know my friend said Troy is so old.
Ew, he is.
And she said Corbin Bleu looks better .
My ass. He's the ugliest skater I've ever seen .
Yuck. I know (:

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Once upon a time , there was an ugly , fat witch . One day , she bewitched a girl and the girl worshiped this witch so much , she totally messed up on her friends . Also in this comical world lived a beautiful princess named Nicole . She had a best friend called Yi Shuen , who was the punk rocker chick girl guy thing . So there's this ugly , fat wizard who was disturbing the beautiful princess , and that wizard fell in love with the worshiper .

They had a rocky relationship , cause the witch who had no hand and leg coordination was trying to butt her lesbo nose in they way . So they had a horrible love triangle , the worshiper and the wizard had a baby with eleven toes , the witch and the wizard had an ugly ogre troll hybrid baby , and they had some insanely disgusting group orgasm in the wizard's house toilet . The eleven toed baby eventually grew unlimited amounts of pubic hair and had to shave everyday since she , or he , was 1 .

So much for a normal life .

And the beautiful ice princess and her best rocker chick guy girl friend lived happily ever after . Was I finished ? No . They bought hundreds of wizard and witch tapes and kept them as horror movies to watch every now and then , and the worshiper grew lots of hair and warts all over her skin and had to get them removed , so now she was a zombie .

Okay , now they lived happily ever after (: .
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Nicole (:

Kuusi . Cette Affreuse Fille

Nicole / Yi Shuen

Oh look . There's the girl with no hand and leg coordination and she's playing the drums.
Well , that's interesting .
I didnt know witches had hands and legs.
Yeah ? Me neither . She's ugly and she's a bitch .
Yeaah and that worshipper too .
Dangg .

I added this stupid application on Facebook . I wont say what but ... Shit , there are some ubergoober ugly dudes there . Lucky they arent from KDU , or I'd say I'd rather commit suicide . Dang it (: . I realized I keep using that word . That dang word .

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Nicole (:

Cinq . Moi-Même .

In the world , there are three types of me .

The Good Me .

The Bad Me .

The Just Me .

I think in everyone there are two or three kinds of people . One , to yourself . Two , to your family . And three , to your friends .

You look at yourself in the mirror , and think you're pretty . Everyone does that . They think they're pretty but they just say they're not . You sing to yourself in the room , and act like a dork without knowing it . You scold yourself stupid for jamming the comp , and swear at yourself like crazy . You scream and hit the pillows when you're mad , swearing at your mum . And when you get out , you're the same again .

Then , you see your family . You maybe see your mum , who you're pissed at . You avoid her , and wait for her to apologize to you . It's a mum thing . You see your younger brother and you laugh at him when he does something wrong . You see your older brother and you talk to him deep into the night about your crushes , and your friends , and his girlfriends . You see your dad and you act all goody so that he doesnt scold you . Then , maybe he'd let you out of the house .

You go out with friends . You act differently with your best friends . You can talk to them about almost everything and they'd understand . You can call them bastards and swear at them , knowing that they'd always have a better comeback . You see the popular kids , and you wave at one or two . You see those people who have been talking about you behind your back , but you still smile and wave like nothing's wrong . You see people you dont really know , you just walk by them without saying hello , like they were people you've never mer before .

No one really know you but yourself . You want your boyfriend or girlfriend to cuddle you this way , but you dont tell them cause you're scared they'd think you're a freak and break up with you . You want to tell your parents to stop nagging you , but you dont , in case your parents take it some other way and end up nagging you even more . You want to tell your best friends what was wrong with them , but you dont cause you're scared they might end their friendship with you .

Most humans care about other feelings more than their own . But it sucks . The human mind is the most unpredictable thing in the world . So you can only trust yourself . The rest of the me's just slips between everything .

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Nicole (:

Quatre . Eau .

Water .

I went to swim on a Thursday . by myself . There were no distractions ( hot guys ) or anyone to talk to . I swam and played around by myself . I almost fell asleep by the poolside . And for that moment , I felt like there was no water , just cold cold air . I swam in it again , but this time , I swam a lot faster . Way faster than I did before . It was pretty cool . But then , it's just the law of attraction .

The Secret .

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Nicole (:

Tous . Les Deux Sur Moi .

Haha . Introduction (:
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The Basics
Hair Color:
Black . But it's brown in the light (: . Everyones is . Heee !

Eye Color:
Blackish . Grey a bit in light :D

Height:
Uhh ... 5'4 ?

Profession:
Haha . Ummm , drawing I guess ? (:

Relationship Status:
Umm . Single (:

Religious Views:
Oooh . Umm , nothing . Haha .
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My Favorites
Favorite Color:
PURPLE :D

Favorite Car:
If it was a dream car , I'd say Lambourghini (:

Favorite Movie:
Haha . I think Click . It's so sweet !

Favorite Hobby:
Lols . Drawing . And swimming and soccer and basketball (:

Favorite Song/Singer:
Lols . Ummm , dunno . Too many :D

Favorite School Subject:
Art :9

Favorite Vacation Destination:
Lols . Dream destination would be Hawaii . But I'd just like to be anywhere with my friends (:

Favorite Food:
Really really amazing laksa (:

Favorite Restaurant:
The jap restaurant in Tropicana club :D .

Favorite Animal:
Dogs ! They are adorableee ! :)

Favorite Store:
Lols . Art stuff ? And cheap , nice clothing places (:

Favorite Celebrity :
None . They're all so high in the clouds ! Maybe Johnny Depp (:

Favorite Childhood Friend:
Lols . CHLOE !

Favorite Person In Your Life:
Umm . Yi Shuen and the guys . If it's people . Haha .

Favorite Facebook Application :
LOL . I dunno ...
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This or That
Chocolate or Vanilla:
Both (:

Big Mac or Whopper:
Big Mac ! :D

Coke or Pepsi :
Pepsi !

Beer or Wine:
Wine (:

Apple Juice or O.J.:
Apple juice !

Facebook or MySpace:
Definitely Facebook (:

Summer or Winter:
Winter . I had so many memories ! :D

Windows or Mac:
MAC :9

Cats or Dogs:
Dogs . Definitely dogs (:

Boxers or Briefs:
Boxers . Haha (: On guys anyway .

Morning or Night:
Night . I dont get up from my sleep , I SLEEP :D .

Movie or Play:
Plays ! (:

Walk or Drive:
Drive ! If only I could ! P:

Money or Love:
Love . Haha . It's a stupid decision ! (:

Breakfast or Dinner:
Dinner ! It's normally better than breakfast (:

Forgiveness or Revenge:
Forgiveness . Okay wait , depends :D

Paint or Wallpaper:
Spraypaint ! (:

House or Apartment:
House . Bigger , Better P:
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Do You?
Have Any Pets:
No :/ . I want puppies !

Have Any Children:
Yeah . Sure , about a dozen O_O .

Smoke:
Lols . Nope . It's eww and bimbo (:

Drink:
No . I hate it (: . Unless wine . Haha .

Exercise:
Lols . Duhhh .

Spend Your Life On Facebook:
Okay , I'm not that dumb (:

Play On A Sports Team:
Yeaah .

Belong To Any Organizations:
Yeah . The Play-Facebook-And-Have-No-Life Organization :D These questions are dumb.

Like To Cook:
Yeaah ! (:

Play An Instrument:
Lols . Piano , guitar , drums (:

Sing:
I do duets with my brother .

Dance:
Lols . Ballet ? (:

Speak Multiple Languages:
Lols . Yeaah . It's Malaysia :D

Paint:
YES ! Canvas Acryllic , and sketches (:
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Have You Ever
Been Drunk Before Noon:
No way . Never been drunk in my entire life (:

Had Sex In A Public Place:
WTF O_O . I know ugly witches wish .

Got Caught Telling A Lie:
Yes . So many many many times :D

Got A Speeding Ticket:
I dont drive !

Been Arrested:
O_O . Who makes all these questions ? (:

Littered:
Haha . Okay , it's getting worst .

Fantasized About A Co-Worker:
? WHAAT ?!

Cheated On A Test:
OMGG . WTFF !

Cheated In A Relationship:
Never ever will (:

Failed A Class:
Duh .

Screened Your Phone Calls:
Nope .

Eaten Food Off The Floor:
LOLS . Duhh (:

Stuck Gum Under A Desk:
Yeaah . Bowling desk .

Wished You Were Someone Else:
All the time (:

Cried During A Movie:
Lols . Yeaah a lot :D

Had A One Night Stand:
O_O
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Other
Describe Yourself In One Word:
HYPER

Biggest Fear:
Dragonflies (:

Biggest Mistake:
Lols . Umm , I would have to pass :D

#1 Priority In Your Life:
Lols . Not ever being a witch .

Dream Job:
Lols . Artist ! Interior designer and stuff (:

Causes You Believe In:
Lols . Global warming ?

Special Talents:
Umm , being able to draw on every page of my textbook (:

Where Are You Right Now:
Living room ! (:

Where Would You Rather Be:
Swimming ! :D

Famous Person You Want To Meet:
Lols , Johnny Depp .

Place To Visit Before You Die:
Umm , Christmas Island ? HAWAII ! (:

Song Played At Your Funeral:
LOL . It has got to be a rock song :D
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Random post ! (:

Nicole (:

Un . Petite Fille

I strike ,
The gentle flick of my wrist.
A pretty blue flame forms.
I stare at it.

Lost,
getting lost in the orange.
It fills my eyes.
It is so beautiful and warm.

Soon, it stops.
The world stops spinning.
I am only holding onto a dead match in my hand,
the smoke blowing in the wind.
Thewarmth was gone in an instant,
replaced with a bitter chill.

I decide,
I go,
I follow the breeze and I'm up there.
The orange flame dissipated,
and I am all that's left.
But I rise.

I rise, and rise.
Free is the word,
I am free from this hell-bounded world.
Free from all the pain and sorrows.

But I see a little girl,
and I stop.

She is smiling, but sadly.
Her eyes are closed,
her hair,
billowing in the cold wind.
She was holding a little match stick in her hand.
I smile back at her.
She does not look at me.
I turn away, tears glinting in my eyes.

I think the girl is me.

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Nicole (: