Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Well, it has been a looooooong time since I've last blogged. I don't really blog for anyone to read but this would be a nice keep for all the interesting things that have happened in my life. Maybe one day if I ever have any memory loss, this might be a good place to start? Hmm anyway..
Cool thing that happened. A few weeks ago, I had a dream, a rather normal one. Because the club is organising the school's pageant, it sort of appeared in my dreams. I can remember that I was preparing for it and I realised that I could not bring everything along with me... I even remember the items I couldn't bring along. They were my shoes and make up. I brought my dress along though. Soooo... because I couldn't bring them along, at that time there were two random guys who were with me. I remember knowing that they were going for pageant and that they were at a place where I could leave my stuff with them. So I requested for them to keep the things and pass them to me on the pageant day.
Now here is the weird part. Flash forward to last night, I dreamt that I was preparing for pageant (it is actually this Saturday) and I checked my bag, only to realise I brought only the dress. Then I started panicking and figuring out how to solve this issue... just then, TWO GUYS came in and passed me my shoes and make up.
So... the first weird thing is how uncanny the resemblance of my STM is.. I mean yes I have short term memory but even in dreams too?! Second, my brain somehow managed to remember that I asked those two guys to bring the shoes to me and they did. And now here is the weirdest part. After realising that I dreamt of this a few weeks ago, I became conscious that I was in my dreams... like I knew I was dreaming and somehow I knew I was on the bed. I became conscious in a sense that I knew that was the me in the real world yet I was still in my dreams. WEIRD.
Ok time to go back to studying,
rambled on 2/26/2014 01:42:00 pm
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Friday, April 26, 2013
So... exams just started. How do I feel after the first paper? Well.. all I can say is that good is definitely not a word I can use to describe how I feel about it. Had barely 3 hours of sleep before the paper thanks to extremely bad cramps and just the sudden lack of desire to sleep. Guess I never felt this stressed in my life. It isn't exactly a stressed kind of stressed... I am actually unaware that I am stressed... Hmm how should I put it. It is as if I am underestimating the actual amount of stress I am going through, or more like I am unconsciously immensely stressed. I look perfectly fine but I know that my body is taking the damage quite badly... Never have I had cramps so bad I couldn't sleep for a full 2 hours after rolling around in bed.
Thankfully, it didn't flare up that badly to the extent that I had to writhe in pain at my table while doing the paper. However I was crouching majority of the time just to ease the pains... sigh...
Oh well, my first paper and well, it just had to start with TCM. Actually, I am quite thankful that it is the TCM paper... with that gone, I can finally switch my brain back to English and not worry about memorising weird texts which make no sense to me. But the highlight is one I got home, it got so bad that I was unable to leave my bed for a full 6 hours... I just spent those excruciating 6 hours rolling around in bed trying to suppress the pain. Panadol didn't work... all I had was a heat pack with me. I ended up knocking myself out and slept most of the time, probably from the pain and fatigue. It really sucks, because I still have a hell load more of revision to do and I wasted 6 hours in bed. Oh well, just hope that with whatever time I have left, I can salvage this situation and look forward to my exchange in France! :D Maybe I should try some acupuncture the next time to ease the pain haha!
rambled on 4/26/2013 10:37:00 pm
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Tuesday, March 05, 2013
I think... that human nature is really ugly. The betrayal hurts. The insecurity that society would reject you. The fear of being outcasted. Now, almost any act of kindness seems to be a confirmation of ones place in society rather than ones willingness to help another. If all that was stripped... If one was no longer judged by what he did, would he do that same act of kindness? If one was given the freedom to choose... would what he originally did be the "best" choice? If we were not punished for a crime committed... would we follow the hidden rules society has set?
I fear the day that people build up numerous facades to protect themselves. Those with a unique mind paint themselves to camouflage into society so they would not be ridiculed of. Those with a heart of evil hide their true selves and show only what the world wants/needs to see. As the world progressively fills with pretense, people begin to lose sight of their true self. The revolting thought of needing to morph into one of those mindless sheeps of society really scares me.
Random emo thoughts at 1am in the morning really is the cherry on top that keeps me from studying for midterms...
rambled on 3/05/2013 12:55:00 am
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Monday, February 25, 2013
Haven't been blogging lately... Busy busy busy! Though it is really cool that so many things are happening! I have a summer exchange to France coming up, then it is SBS FOC! Choir is also keeping me busy! And so are my other commitments like Japanese and Piano. I also have my school committee events... Woah... This is really kind of scary! HAHA! Everyone says this course is killer and busy, you won't have time for other stuff but I am still holding on to all of these because it is my passion to do them. Too bad I can't go for the CIP trip this time...
Oh speaking of Japanese, I managed to pass my N2!!! Really shocked and amazed! It definitely wasn't a fantastic pass... but I didn't even expect to meet the passing mark! Oh well... guess my target of reaching N1 before I fly off to Beijing isn't a dream :P YAY!
rambled on 2/25/2013 09:11:00 pm
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Wednesday, December 26, 2012
I am getting older :O what is this?!?!
Haha it is quite scary... this world is getting more complicated and I am starting to see things the way I never could 5 years ago.
I have no idea how things are going to be from now on but whatever! I will just tackle them as they come :)
The year is ending! Time to make those new year resolutions that I usually forget by the following week -.-"
rambled on 12/26/2012 10:58:00 pm
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Thursday, December 06, 2012
Wow! Haha seems like I just completed A levels a while ago and now I am doing my first uni exams. Seems pretty surreal but omg I managed to survive (SO FAR). My next and final paper for this sem will be in about 12 hours and I am definitely excited/nervous. An MCQ paper seems easy, but if it were to contain 12 entirely different topics then I think not :/ Yup 12 topics. I have absolutely no idea which has more weightage and which lecturer is going to set the killer questions. But whatever!!! I am finally going to taste freedom in a while... and best of all, I don't have to do any revision during the holidays! YAY! Okay time to go back to my notes :( Hope I can end on a happy note tomorrow~ :D
rambled on 12/06/2012 12:24:00 am
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Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Here at this ungodly hour, just before I sleep...many different thoughts race through my mind. Tears streaming down my face. It is only then, that I realised...
We, humans, once free from the distractions in our daily lives, do we finally manage to appreciate the little things we have but never noticed.
Then the cycle repeats again. We had that epiphany but it fades away as easily as it appeared.
Why must we torture ourselves like this? Is it worth it? Sometimes ignorance is bliss. But knowing more makes us more informed on our choices. It will be hard indeed, this thing called life.
rambled on 11/28/2012 02:37:00 am
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