woah.almost a year since i came back to this place.
feels different.im different i guess.better,less hurt and definitely stronger.
what in the world possessed me to come back here? memories i guess.
i want to move on and being able to come back is a sign that its working. so YAY ^^v
there's so much i want to say,so much i want to let out.
i want to share how absolutely wonderful 2013 has been to me so far and how much hope it fills my heart with.i want to tell you that i can look at you and give you a big big smile cause im no longer burdened by all
the bad things that happened to us because honey, you were my sunshine. i've always been fairly eloquent, i never had trouble telling you my feelings or letting people know my thoughts and just look.first four sentences of this post were shit. and when i start speaking OF you, the words flow.
but to others, the words don't come nearly as swift now. i want to show my friends how they have been a major reason i've been able to smile so much nowadays. i want to thank my family for never judging me and for having faith that i know what im doing. i want to go out into the world and make it a brighter place.
2010, nomadic:black edition i remember somebody telling me, when youre having troubles look within, find the fire inside and bring it forth cause its only when you shine that you allow others to do so.
so here i say, i've still got that fire.its still burning bright, in fact, brighter than ever.
I'm going out there and im going to make the world a better place. :)
i refuse to let you be the only woman in my life anymore.
i refuse to let your jealousy control me.
although i may not talk to the others at all.
i know i wont be looking at them in 'finding a partner' way.. but
i want you to know,to see and to feel the effects of your decision.
you chose to give up the exclusivity of being with me.
you chose to allow other girls into my life.
and hey,if you're regretting it..
CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES.i know i will feel it too.i will still miss you.
you will still be one of the most important people in my life.
the day will come when i know you will move on forever
and that day will suck
but as of now,
i need this.
i cannot be too dependent on you.
the more dependent i am,the more i will expect from you.
i know nobody reads this shit,even i forgot about this place..
but im glad theres a place i can put this out..
