Story of I Don't know.

In every single soul or should say human, there is always a default of 2 personality in them. And this often were not realized. But if you carefully take notice of it, they are classified as Yes or No. These are always the two simple answers said out. What triggers their presence is when a question was asked.

As many may ask, what am i trying to say? Simple. Basically, when a person ask a question saying, " Are you intending to go clubbing week to a person? " Often answers will be Yes or No! However, do you realized, when the date draw nearer, you will start to think, should I go or should I not. And the same question will be asked again, and this time, the answer will be most probably. Just ask yourself, why is there no more Yes or No in u? If this world, answers to questions are always Yes or No, it may save unwanted reactions from others.

This will touch to my next point. What if you are the person with 3 personality including "I Don't Know?"

Most will not understand what Im trying to say but... these are just my thoughts.

Follow my Lead

When you are puzzled or pondering about mishap that happened on u, things that could help you with maybe this few points:

1) Change with the changes

2) Compare your small mishap with children in countries with famine and drought.

3) Smile when you are happy, cry when you are sad, why not smile over the sadness?

4) Unluckiness is a never ending test given to you.

If the 4 points above are not elaborative enough, call 1800-wei-hong. Everyone be happy!!

I was actually unhappy how this tests were given to me as its like, you know, a sudden change in my life. But I could not be unhappy about it forever and it doesn't make sense for me to be unhappy about. If i can make my ugly day beautiful, I overcome my unluckiness. Make sense? Believe in me, believe weihong. LOL!!!!

Coffee Session ( Cheesecake cafe )

Met up with Josh for a short coffee session. Exchange with opinions related to job. Make a lot of realization ourselves. Hahaha. Aloy's pretty waitress was nowhere to be seen. LOL.. But my butterfly is ard!! LOL... funny girl. Enjoyable chat. Love coffee sessions.. More please... but lets held it with my butterfly girl next time. LOL...

Another Realization Made

I was often told by many that I think too much and that I've explained in other blog updates. Today I've realized the main reason why. Simple as ABC. Many ppl choose not to think so much and those people are the ppl who will most probably tell others about their problems when they faced one. As for ppl like me, I am the kind who choose to solve my own problems faced than telling people. why? Because listening to other preach is nv better than realization the solution yourself!! This is the way of life actually. Try it!

Got It!

A small break through of my thoughts.

How? Hunger. Everyday of porridge could not satisfy my hunger. No difference for just now, look into my store for can soup, but can't find any. Sudden flashes of why am i down on my luck now is all fated. Now I finally realized!!! My faith have not gone down the drain. Searching for alternatives and be HUM. Change with the changes... I've got it!

phew~

strangest feeling i never had.....

Think Too Much??

yes yes, many always say I think too much. But do u all think I dun wan to stop it? If you all are me, try to stop it urself. LOL.

Its just that I cant really open the knot in me yet. will be fine because I am weihong, the philo guy.

Just wanna say out.

Declaration: What mentioned below are just thoughts of mine. I just felt disappointed other than that who cares. LOL..

Why am i so determine to get recognition in this organization? I'm still thinking where my fault lies. I settled things while doing transport. I make things happen and now after my fire died down due to some changes, I felt despair. I always enjoy doing what I do. At least give me a title for myself so that I know what I am suppose to do. And now I am not disappointed for me to go to ground. But I'm disappointed on what have I done to be pushed ard. few months ago, I am a white collar, now, I've become a blue collar. I could onli laugh it off due to my nature.

I also accepted myself to go down to grd to train my fitness too. I am glad and the thought of teaching ppl skills that I've learned, I am the most excited and delighted. But hours ago, news been heard that I may not be transferred. This make my mood gone bad again. I am a person with no such ans like " maybe, ok loh, dunno leh ". I am a more direct person as in yes/no, true or false, there is no third ans. However, this situation puts me in dilemma. I dun like the feeling.

Supper

Met Aloysius and Kitty for Supper. Small catch up and small laughter. Should do that more often, for more food. LOL..

Wisdom Out, 3 to go.

Its quite an enjoyable experience. As it actually in the process till now dun feel much pain. Just that i exaggerate it to friends. LOL.. I eat and drink like normal, just that I have medication and mouth to rinse thats a typical routine lah!! LOL..

Yeah, using my phone again. See alr also will smile. Just got task to do take a new posting. And part of me feel no sadness and the other are excitement. Just hope I can work with my buddy together.

Sometimes I just wonder, work hard u will get recognition. But why since the start I worked and settled things but recognition is pushing me ard? Hahaha...

Weihong

unhappiness sumhow or rather blew off today. Ok la, its quite me, because I am a guy who demand justice. So if i see something is wrong i cannot take it. But in here, I have to tolerate until today. I find it very bad if i do not stand up not only for myself, but for the others that comes in after me. So in the end, i have to apologize.. and still a loser. However, i felt I've did enuff to make him wake up his freaking idea on us doing things for granted. But well, back to square one and everybody work as a team again. LOL! Bygones be bygones...

this few days were having some nervous chat to the vehicle that knock me here and there. But not anymore, I'm gonna be myself again. Why should I be nervous. Be a man! LOL... thats what I'm thinking now. Weihong u can do it. Speak up and be urself thats more important!!

Touched.

Recently, my sister went to Laos to do community service and she say she got something for me!! I am so touched la!!! wow... its a feeling that will always be there. Thanks SIS!

And now................................. demoralized!!!! ARGH~!!!

hahahahahahaha...

happy happy happy...

Life in this place.

Trust is a very challenging word actually in the planet. Walking and living in this world full of humans really quite challenge every single ones trust, for what will happen next, u will not know. But I do hope I know.

Anything could happen to anyone. A moment a happy smile the next an ugly act. Scary isn't it? Qiuyun asked me a question on what I am going to do next upon ord and I gave her an ans that was nv I expected too, work and study part-time. For my path i will go for in the end, which I hope is to be the one exposing the devil inside everyones heart who dares to destroy the peace in this world. It sounds very big deal and sounds very awesome right? I wanna serve in blue. But can I withstand it.....

Made In Korea

I love my new PDA!!! Its slim and running latest windows mobile 6!! woohoo~ and my brother got one too.. LOl... boohoo.. LOL!!

Actually haven't fully explore the thing. Have to part with it till weekend! My old 6280, of cos I love it, but it seems to be having some software problem, so might as well sell it now... because its rather scare me when it got a little of smoke. LOL...

Photos~ I love it~

Promised to show some pics from Brewerks. here they are... fun night.. or should i say funny night. Actually, the beer there is good.

the old flame

the old flames... fire engine needed

me and qiuyun

U asked for it Gerard

Gerard Beloved, me, Tang and Qiuyun.

Sex Doll & Mind Cafe.

ok.. this is quite awkward.. LOL. Yesterday was planning to get a present for Bryan before heading for the dinner treat. The idea of getting this kinky present is actually i think originated from Aloy's girlfriend. LOL. So, me, Aloy, Weijie and Chinsiang headed down to the hmm.... interesting sex store in Bugis to get something kinky. Weijie and Chinsiang saw the board hanging outside written 23yrs and above. So, by year, me and Aloy can go in, so we went in, lucky CHinsiang and weijie. LOL. So we went in and guess what, the sales person is 2 ladies. One lady is someone's wife whom we knew and the other of cos dunno la. Then she intro us this expensive thingy... trust me, u should go in and take a look.

In the end, we bought something from there. And now is the quite so embarrassing part, we have to wrap it. So since the 4 of us dunno how to wrap it, might as well use a little 80c to let someone wrap for us and damn, the customer service counter are all ladies. So this more mature auntie quickly take the thing out of the plastic bag and wala.... 2 young ladies beside started to blush and laugh. Lucky weijie called me and I left the scene of crime. LOL. Pictures will upload later.

Here comes the sad part, I lost my Army Ezlink. Haiz. Very scare people use it to take loan from loan shark. ARGH!!! If this world is safe then there is no such worries. But haiz..... scare scare leh... LOL...

After the fantastic dinner @ fish & co, we went over to mind cafe to play game. Before we even look at the menu, other tables were playing Quelf. So, ya, we got disturb but....... ya.... we are party ppl so we play along. LOL!!! Played 2 games. 1 is called Saboteur (a game that will create controversial) and Quelf (a game that make people laugh and quiet.)

And there is no after that. LOL.. thats all~

Brewerks Night

Went out with Tang, Mun Chee Yap, Gerard and gf and his gf friend, qiuyun. Haha. Ok, the friend is cute. LOL... Because Gerard is going for operation on Monday, it will be kind of hard to listen to his crap. So we hang out at Brewerks for some drinks. Ok, the drinks I would say is not so bad after all. The taste is better than Tiger and Carlsberg. Like the place a lot. After that decided to go sing KTV one. But then, Qiuyun is tired so we decided to close shop for the day and all go home.

I took NR6 then when I reach near hougang, got another NR 6 comes beside, then suddenly, the two buses go different route and I have to walk home. WTH.... just my night. LOL... Pictures will be uploading sooon...

arghh day.

Today very nervous about the wisdom tooth thing and guess what, the non-wisdom dentist on MC!!! No one called me to inform me... !)(*&^%$#@!

Just took the picture of my 2 guards.

Below are some pics I took awhile ago. it shows the morning feel at the bus-
stop.



Was cheered up by someone's webcam. LOL...

Is there anything left for me to be motivated?

Last night after seeing my PC, I felt that this place is really a retarded place doing things over and over again Now, after my understudy came, franklin understudy came, me, franklin and clarence totally feel that there will not be the cohesive and teamwork office like before.

For now, my usual thoughts comes again. Recognition will not be given to people who do the backstage job while those acting on the stage will. This is how human eyes works. There is no such award given and make known to people about a good camera man, a good propster, a good electrician in an acting industry. So, thats why i am comparing that kind of organisation to ours which i felt is suitable. So what for we work two times harder than those getting pay of thousands and who is bonded for it? free labour?? Unfair this world is, unfair people is, selfish as ever human is.

I just hope recognition should be given to those who really deserve it. Not even by rewarding quietly, make known to people and that will be warmest to those ambitious yet trapped in place where they waited patiently.

Fun

Last night was planning to watch my DVD with small group of friends. However, things always don't turn out the way it should be. Others not invited comes and disturb the peace that I always wanted to have during watching movie. ARGH!!!

Received a called in the middle of the show and I quickly ran to the Mess to catch crab and fish. And out of no where, someone tsk me as I walked past a group of encik. There, my sergeant during my training days with my PC!!!! So delighted to see them. LOL!! Sorry for ignoring the tsk, because its just me as I hate people tsk me, so I always ignore and also I did not see u guys. LOL..

And Desmond Tan brought me, Leong wai, Ron and Clarence to go fishing as he teaches us the art of it and what patient meant in fishing. When are are fishing ourselves, we caught none. The moment he shows us, he caught 3 puffer fishes. The groupa just don't wanna come. Now I believe in his experience. LOL!!!

Abit down the morning talking about relationship with Franklin, ok, we are both the same kind of attitude towards relationship. We believe there is a special one for us. Hahaha. And now Karen is back!!! dunno whats with the happiness. But can disturb her as she is back. LOL!!!

Hobby

Another new hobby started. even though its a very boring and lonely hobby. But its something new sia. LOL.. Next time no food to eat, know what to do to get it. LOL.. FISHING! Bought a rod, tackle, float, bait, reel... almost all the minimum accessories for fishing. cheap cheap for amateur is around 40dollars. LOL... Interested can go buy @ Changi Village Riverland because the sales person really teach us the basic patiently.

Last night started our journey to make the catch, however, when we arrived, the tide is fading. so we planted the crab cage onli. fishing wise, tried for skill, did not catch any but the feeling is there can already. LOL.. tonight going to seek help from the kampong auntie. LOL..

My day.

Today went for a family day for my blah blah blah... Then I went back home to rest awhile and finally able to register online for my BTT. LOL!!! This time I will really go study. LOL... Walked around with Clarence and Chinsiang before moving off back home, me and Clarence bought Bionicles. Never tot other than me no one is interested in that thing. bought 2 and the Toa Mahri Matora is the awesome looking one. Free, I will take the picture of it to put up. Its really damn nice. However, it resembles Predator. LOL..

Went out again in the evening with Desmond and KOkheng. Catch up some lame things and Desmond taught me something new called Bai dai. LOl. Then I keep on saying it loud making it seems to become a Thai Language. Kokheng still involved with the searched. Haiz. That ***ker better come out. Or else... Hahahaha... He will also become fossil. Might as well come back to prison, at least eat and sleep well then hang mah. LOL..
This is the trailer of what I will and have collected so far. LOL..

Future maybe setting soon...

The thoughts of what will I do after NS life was a torture to me. Police academy, Studies. This two seems to be knocking each other like two Earth plates knocking into each other causing Earthquake in my brain and heart. For now, the 3rd option is finally out. Be a boss myself. People always say u say till so easy, actually its not. Of cos its not! I will learn the art of it from my Auntie, then try a small place for it first. Then I will see how. I have a lot of ideas during poly, which have proven now that it works as most of it are in the market now. I am gonna make a difference in my life.

My 2 ideal partner of business currently there is only 3 person. Bryan, Aloysius and Franklin.

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Tomorrow have to go to what Family day which I am utmost not interested along with my pals. Cannot bring camera, cannot bring camera phone. Then how people capture the happy smile in every child and friends and family who enjoys their day? What a country to stay in. To me, happiness is 3 times more important than security and safety. damn this place.

Regrets

There are regrets in life and some are unable to net it back again. Say it out while its still not too late to let them know. Its complicated in some ways. But well, its better than having it in your heart and nv say it out.

relax

finally back in camp to relax awhile in the night. No more hectic week outside camp. Now is hectic week in camp. nv fear, I have someone to disturb as Peiqi is coming back but still missing Karen in action. Everybody please come back. Without her, it will be very quiet. LOL....

Politics Vs Mas Selamat

No comment on both. But what I have to comment is to thank those searching for Mas Selamat. Yes he is an asshole. I think he himself knows he deserve to died, but trying to deny it using his remaining days. Saw military security, Gurkha, police and others searching high and low when Singaporeans carry on their normal life. Those who think its not their concern irritates me thats why I even will look around for his sights.

Look at the streets. Many people just continue their own lives treating this terrorist as a normal wanted criminal. I mean, hello??? He is demolition trained??? He is combat trained? These we all don't know, read it from the papers. I guess most will be too engrossed in their daily lives than a loose terrorist in Singapore. Today, I went out and its like months since I step out of my house, alone of course. I wanted to look at how people are doing in Singapore even when this loose terrorist which may still be in the island.

Shopping, laughter, thats what I've got. I took a train back and forth for an hour. And damn realized that there is no one talking about it even though it seems to be a big deal. This shows nothing, nothing more selfish as we do. Human are. But we are which I really felt hit. Damn, I am one of them which made me not as proud as they are. Do you think so? I guess only I will think of this kind of things. People would say I am too free to talk about this and even think of it. But really, must we wait for something to happen then we start to react?

Realise you Talent.

Its an importance to each and everyone to realize their talent. But for me, it seems mine have dimmed. Everybody is good in something and if you work hard u will get it. Parents instructed us to study hard and also concentrate. But I've failed to do that and ended in a course which filled me with lots of disappointment. Now in army and with less than 6 months left, what's hanging out there for me seem vague. Excited, yes I am. But greater pressure.

However, a respectable man told me this "work hard now even though it may not help you in future or even think of the future. If you can't even work hard now, how are you able to think of the future success?" - Ben Wong Meng Kee. I agreed.

But I still have this thought of why me. Can't seem to brush it off. I've always wanna help people, this is me. But what changed me? I don't know. Very puzzled and very blurred to find myself back. Maybe its just not what I enjoyed doing thats why I am not gonna help in things I won't enjoy? Or isit the past haunt me again? If you people feel it too, dun feel disappointed in me, because I felt it myself.

tiredd

Another posting about being tired. Woke up @ 0445hrs yesterday and those shitty people are late and make everybody feel why must we wake so early when it can be done in just 30mins to prepare? Stood from then and work from then till 1900hrs. See the difference?

After that went to my boss condo to have a BBQ. my office no one goes because of some reason. Can see from the face of my boss that he is quite disappointed. But when me and Aloy came, he felt contented I guess. LOL... I think we this old bird really show bad stuff to the young ones. Of course yesterday I felt unfairness. WHY SHOULD I DO THIS AND THAT? Yes I am angry. Yes I am fed up. I am not a regular, I am an NSF. I do not have this thought before, but now I had. Yes I am beginning to slack it off and yes I am beginning not to help people. ARGH!!!

Hectic week.

Craziest week I think I've had again. did guard duty, without any much sleep continue to work till afternoon and slept for another 4 hours. Have fun in the mess and went back to sleep and had to wake @ 0620hrs. Then after that day, book out and thinking of having a good rest, but had to meet encik at 0630hrs next morning. And then now busy with the exhibits and back home and tomorrow another morning waking of 0445hrs!!!! Tell me, am I tired!?!?!?

Was in encik car then going home just now and his wife called. As he is driving, he on loudspeaker. She was deciding what to eat and what their child are to eat and were discussing. then I felt that what warmth would come for a little family I will had. Always wanted someone to wait for me home and love her and hug her. People ask me about my future relationship and I will ans marry Vietnamese wife, adopt a child. But deep in me, a child given birth by 2 lovebirds will really make a difference..... but when will she appear? LOL... Maybe is the captain I saw just now. LOL!!!

Sit back and Relax

Feel like just sitting back and enjoy. The life of mine. But after ORD.. i think have to chiong to earn money. Must get ready. 3 university i wanting to go. SIM, PSB and ACCA. but can I? LOL..

If

If I ask you to stay,
what will you say,
hopes and dreams I want it my way.

If I ask you to stay,
will you say you may,
Being with me all the way,

If I ask you to stay,
will you say no this time,
As I am not the one worthy to stay,

If I ask you to stay,
will you say no again,
as fate between us have fated away....

The noodles!

Yesterday ate quite a bit because have not had my lunch in camp. KFC, Chicken Rice. LOL. Went out with my mum to get a phone because my phone is lagging and I think needed !ping. LOL. But then I was thinking of what to buy, i walked past 711. Then I just go in throw money and take what they got. LOL..

11pm arrived and me and my mum was sitting on the couch. I was lying on my mummy shoulder as usual sharing the same magazine. LOL.. sweet right? Then i asked my mum to cook noodles for me and keep complimenting that her noodles the best in the world that no one can challenge, its always nice to get cook noodles from my dearest mum and my mummy give me that disgusted face and asked me to shut up and she go cook for me!!! Woohoo!!!