SMILE

Today is CHILDRENS DAY!!! Although not children anymore, i think i have to relive the dream. Today, in few hours time, I have to go to work again, fighting and fighting again. Have to fight for like 4 more days. Happy Children Days to all little boy and girls~!!

Just now was watching the charity show. I am thinking, if I use the time spent at home playing game and blogging or even sleep, why not help. So I decided, upon getting my pay I will donate 100$, I know its just a little, but thats much I can give as I still have dreams to fulfull. And also, I am also considering helping the needy, but my personality is 3sec hot, 3sec cold. I hope I can really do it. I always love to help people.. but you know nowadays in Singapore, there is people asking around for donation using this kind of $2 voucher. So I kinda scare that my donation reaches the wrong!! ARGH!!! Hate this people and plus I heard they were paid to ask people to donate!!! So angry!!! ARGHHHHH~~~~

Training Branch, Lets fight for another week ya~~ WooHoo~~ Today and the days ahead will be tremendously GREAT!! and I am strong and always know what to do!!! Calm Down...

The Bless From God.

I like Number 2:

Happy or Not

Today whole day nothing new bah slack at home. Talk about last night. Stayed home to watch almost 4 matches of soccer with my sleeping day beside. hahaha. 1st match is newcastle and man city, a good match but seeing newcastle unable to get into the defense of Man City's, this would prove scary as Man City seems stronger with Eriksson and Elano and not Thaksin at all. hahaha..
2nd match was Arsenal and West Ham, 13mins and a goal. However, after that, there were tonnes of scary moment for the team, but we made it. haha. For Chelsea is another sad story but who cares. Liverpool are still struggling, you can see they won't be top for long.

Went for a run, but it rains, sad case. So I came back and surf net again. Today, I go for a run, but no mood leh, went to Tricia's block, run up and down. Boring also. So get back home again. Its not that I am really lonely and no one ask me out, but don't know why after the incident, I kinda scare of going out and know girls. Its not easy to walk out again I guess. My first relationship, I took 9months, the next 2 months to forget. Now this relationship was the longest ever for me, I wonder how long will it takes to let it go... Planning to design some clothes and see how it turns out, so excited to see my first shirt.. Polo Tee~!!! If it is really done then I will wear to camp see their reaction or so...

Career Found but...

I now finally know it. I know what to do and its not university.

Moody

Can't get over. I miss her.

Busy

Today was a busy day and freeaking driver show me his attitude. Fucking no priority, just wanna go home and go home. And just got the chance to use the net and Chinsiang keep bothering me to let him use the freaking MSN. You sausage~

Just a memory from your blog

Ok....at first i feel sad sad that nobody celebrate my birthday for me today. but but, i'm so happy in the end!!!! haha...mr ko appear at my door step, when i see from the hole of my door, i tot why bangla appear at my doorstep. Was so scare...haha. *eyes something wrong, nv see properly* mr ko appear, holding birthday cake and sore eyes medicine for me~ *sweet* he was so so so so sweet nei~i was so sad that i cant see him on my birtday can..ok ok...so end up i got birthday cake for me to blow and make wish wish~~~lalallalaa~~

i cancel my dinner with my frens and had lunch + dinner with mr ko...and he sent me to skol after tat. lalalalala~~so so so happy!!!!!!

my ah dar is so sweet and and.......very sweet~

Ridiculous

No No, it is not a special magical word for Harry Potter, but there is really a ridiculous thing that happen. 2 mails. one is from SAFRA sending me a card that I nv apply for maybe its because of my rank. two is from National Library saying I've outstanding fines which was incurred on 11062001. Scary shit right?

Well, I just send a angry mail to them screwing them. Very angry. I know that its just a 0.15cents, but I need to know why I'm paying for. AHHhhhhh.. very angry!! tomorrow book in le!! Angry also!!!

Nights Out

Went out with my Parents and Brother to Crystal Palace Restaurant, order quite abit. My brother tell me that if i order shark fin, people will respect. haha. The lady was shock when me and my brother ordered 4 which cost around 20dollars per bowl. Then she smile smile, so happy meh? Hahaha. After finish every dishes, I was trying to lick off the bowl of shark fin, then the devil, my brother tell me that if i leave some behind, the captain will be impress, so I really left it, then she came and say I guess you won't need this anymore right? hahaha.. So damn cool to show off la~ My brother is a damn psycho to psycho me on this stuff!!!

Then I met up with the old and new training branch staff, try to name: Chinsiang, Leong Wai, Colin, Dennis and his gf, Ah Liang, Ah cai, Cher Han, Edmund and one more forgotten the name. Haha. Sang Kbox in mute just now. Then me, colin and leong wai and Chinsiang went to The Chamber to drink and watch Liverpool and Arsenal Matches. Arsenal scored 5!!! and Liverpool could only end up with a draw. A simple night, but its ok I think~ Trying to pry out my buddy to sing ktv next week, hope her bf don't mind. Hahaha. I just wanna sing!!!

Happy Birthday Daddy

Later going out to celebrate my daddy's birthday which lies on Monday, apply off also have little bit of problem. No life.

I going to give him a treat a t Paris international Seafood buffet which I hope is good, if it is not, sad loh. If there is spare time left, I will definitely go for the training branch cohesion leh~ Hope so bah.

The Sting

Today is 21st. My heart sunk into the ocean as the day turns dark. So quiet on this day and its not usual and have not gotten used to it. Not looking forward to anything I guess. Just take a step at a time, fall and don't get up, just lie there till a 5 ton roll over. WHAT THE FUCK I TALKING SIA...
Fuck the EMO~

Well, yesterday and the day before is Victory all the way, but must give credit to Chinsiang as he won 2matches~!!! I'm so proud. SMC man. Haha.

Match 1 : China ( Me ) 5 VS Nigeria ( CS ) 3
Match 2 : France ( Me ) 9 VS Classic Brazil ( CS ) 1
Match 3 : Japan ( Me ) 2 VS England ( CS ) 3
Match 4 : China ( Me ) 4 VS Denmark ( CS ) 1

This is all I could remember~ haha.. You better don't read k. Don't cry. hahaha..

Less than 24hrs.

Now in Learning Room using internet. So tired yet gian internet. Hahaha. Basically today is a tiring day with GP around. Chinsiang sleep half way throughout Mr Bean. The comedy is supposed to entertain the parents before they move onto the parade square. Our boss out of no where and Bryan caught me and Chinsiang standing on the top of the parade square. Then we were both shot again. Without any will to do the task, we both when to eat carrot cake at the canteen and then Emart to buy badges to decorate my Sec comdr sling bag. Very nice to see the CSB badge in silver form and my formation badge!!!! Hahaha...

Tomorrow is going to be the last day for the week Im here as I am taking leave and ATO on off. Shiok Bo~~~ Go home also nothing to do... play game and watch band of brothers.. thinking of buying the CSI episodes. It just intrigues me with all the excitement being a law enforcer can be. Woohoo~~ Long Weekend.. 256days to ORD!!

good to be home

Its so good to be home. As guessed, I am home. Really started to not stand camp. Lots of things to do. I always listen to my Alpha PC that do not take ourself as NSF and so we will be able to see our hard work paid off, I guess it only apply in the field. For my situation now, its really different bah... So sad and tired everything. What can others do? Keep complaining this and that, come on la, suck my **** lah!!!! Hypocrite shit, don't dare tell us straight!!!

Copied story from Sergeant Nelson

A girl in love asked her boyfriend...

Girl (g): Tell me... who do you love most in this world?

Boy (b): You, of course!

(g): In your heart, what am I to you?

(b): The boy thought for a moment and looked intently in her eyes and said,
"You are my rib."

After their wedding, the couple had a sweet and happy life for a long
while. However, the youthful couple, due to busy schedule of modern life,
the never ending worries of daily problems, began to drift apart and their
life became mundane...

All the challenges posed by the harsh realities of life began to gnaw away
their dreams and love for each other... The couple began to have more
quarrels and each quarrel became more heated...

One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of the house... At the
opposite side of the road, she shouted, "You don't love me!" The boy hated
her childishness and out of impulse, retorted, "Maybe, it was a mistake for
us to be together! You were never my missing rib!" Suddenly, she turned
quiet and stood there for a

long while... He regretted what he said but
words spoken are like thrown away water, you can never take it back...

With tears, she went home to pack her things and was determined in
breaking-up.

Before she left the house, "If I'm really not your missing rib, please let
me go...? she continued, "It is less painful this way...
let us go on our separate ways and search for our own partners..."

Five years have since gone by... He had never remarried but he had tried to
find out about her life indirectly... She had
left the country and back...

She had married a foreigner and divorced... He felt anguished that she
never waited for him...

In one dark and lonely night, he lit his cigarette and felt the lingering
ache in his heart...He couldn't bring himself to
admit that he was missing her...

One day, they finally met... ! at the airport, a place where there were many
reunions and good-byes...

He was going away on a business trip. She was standing there alone, with
just the security door separating them...

She smiled at him gently...

(b): How are you?

(g): I'm fine. How about you... Have you found your missing rib?

(b): No.

(g): I'll be flying to New York in the next flight.

(b): I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call when you are back. You
know my number... nothing has changed.

With a smile, she turned around and waved good-bye...

Good-bye... is it forever not meeting each other again?

One week later, he heard of her death... She had perished in New York... in
the event that shocked the world...

Midnight... Once again, he lit his cigarette...And like before, he felt the
lingering ache in his heart... He finally knew,
she was his missing rib that he had carelessly broken...

Sometimes, people say things out of moments of fury.... most often than
not, the outcome(s) could be disasterous and detrimental.... We vent our
frustrations 99% at our loved ones.... And even though we know that we
ought to "think twice act wise", it's often easier said than done.

Things happen day by day which are beyond our control...
Especially at this moment of the century when the most undesirable event is
happening at the other end of the world..... Let us treasure every moment
of our lives and everyone in our lives.....
"Tomorrow never comes; give and take what you have today"

Brotherhood

Why I love to take men? Why I care about welfare and not punishment? Why I chose to lead than follow? I will release the answers here so I will not forget if I ever lost my way.

Men are the most important of all because:
Without them, there is no war to fight but only surrender and hide,
Without them, freedom will never appear in one night,
Without them, happiness will not show until one have pride,
Without them, fear will live in everyone's mind night after night.

Welfare than punishment:
Punishment give them fear and no pride,
Punishment shows strength but not light,
Punishment dims one might,
Punishment creates scare than knight.

Lead than follow:
I know I can lead with pride,
I know I can lead with honor,
I know I can lead with might,
I know I will be able to taste, feel, touch, hear and see victory or death with my knights.

If I can live one more time, I hope to lead my men during war and died with them with pride.

These above is not some stupid thoughts. Only one who truly understand what I think will understand why i rather use my strength to contribute to the nation than working in industries and earn basic salaries just to survive till I died.

Tears roll

A hot afternoon, rushing in my office as I have taken half day off for something special on that day. Few days ago, have ask my girlfriend to make a wish and she did which is saying she wants me to celebrate birthday with her and cake with candle to make a real birthday wish.

Rushing all the way and still wearing uniform. Went to Hougang mall to get the cake and heard her eyes are infected and bought the eye lotion recommended by the pharmacy. Took a cab to her place and knock on her door.

To her surprise, her dream came true with a cake and an eye lotion. Her happy face shows how much she appreciate and love it. I just wan her to be happy and after everything, she blew the candles with her wishes. And thats the last birthday I can celebrate with her....

R E S P E C T

Know the word, understand and know it. This is really unacceptable for me. I've gone through hardship in training and punishment. >>> this is my rank. I love it and I respect it. But those lower rank than me, please greet me by rank then name during office hours. After office hours, can call my name. I am a very friendly and welfare person due to my superiors since the past taught me to.

Quiet day for me again. Never expect that this will happen to me again. Yet, I am still happy go lucky~ Just collected my specs~ woohoo~~ hard gay~~ OOP. Haha.. So happy!!!

Frustrated @ SHB 4295J ++ ( Memories )

This world is ridiculous with more ridiculous people. Took a cab to SFT. Actually its my fault for not knowing what SFT really stands for. So I told the uncle that I have to go to Singapore Ferry Terminal ++ the SAF one. With the confuse and angry face, the Uncle turns around started to talk loudly at me saying say so long, don't know what I am talking about. Then I explain again, he finally gets it and whats with that kind of attitude and loud voice he talk in the cab? Hello?? I am just a normal and really normal guy, not a deaf!!!!!!!! So angry.

When I was boarding the fastcraft, saw trainees bought the fastcraft with dummies. Flashes of brotherhood, hardship and dirty and lowest liveform from the past comes back to me. Thinking for very long, during trainees period, everyone wanna get out of that kind of liveform. However, when you are out of those shit, you will kinda rather do it again. Fellow brothers remember the past? Nutcracker? Grandslam? Doris? Liverpool that we climb?

The Lost Laughter

Can't concentrate this few days. Forced laughter and forced smile. Fake right? Just book out for awhile to getaway the thoughts of that thing and camp. Have alot to write one leh.. don't where it goes. never mind then~

Just now me and Franklin saw this big woman sitting in front and I've admitted lose as she is bigger than Franklin. Additional point to her stats is that she is still eating alot on bus. Scary~ Please god, let her just slim down. Make everybody B E A Utiful~~~~~

Good luck

So weird. Today seems to be a calm day in camp. Everything went smoothly. I hope its not the forecast of a typhoon. Bless me~ Tomo will be having games day. Hope can snatch a chance to bathe under the hot sun in the pool~~ woohoo~~ good luck weihong.

GhostRider

What a show!! I finally know what to do on Sunday. Movie day!! Just now watch Ghost Rider and it really blew my mind. The computer graphic and the retard face of Nicholas Cage really suits this show. Next week, I will be picking something different, V for Vendetta.

Just now was talking to my Mum about going to sign on as a police officer. She suddenly give me the go ahead sign~~~~~~ woohoo~~~~~ so happy. Today is my day. However, tomorrow is not going to be. Have to indent and indent hoping no cock is calling me and disturb my concentration~ today go in a not leh~~~ think think~~

Nothing special.

Why is it nothing special? Because I just now went for a nap, then Cecelia message me and my damn ring tone~ WooHoo!!! I am going crazy.. I just need to sleep.

So sleepy now too. I hate weekends and love it. I can sleep and free to do anything. however, I hate it as I have nothing much to do and hate it that I am too free to think everything I've lost and had. Must catch up. Saw the chance I have for courses from the I've got from E-Prep. Maybe going to take it up. Don't lugi~

Admire

至从昨晚观看了娛樂百分百之后， 寒就是我的最爱。 非常喜欢她。她有一种独特的眉力。

刚才到了盛港购物中新和妈妈买新手机给爸爸。 Sony Ericsson K810. 在那时，突然有一位打工的小妹和我说话。她的眼睛好大。妈妈说她很可爱。过后，她一直看这我得不好意思。 我和妈妈马上办好手续就闪人了。

Kinda boring Saturday leh.. Spent like 210$ making just spectacles. Hmm.. So heartpain~

Scolded and Woke up.

Actually is the opposite way. I was woke up by calls and more calls. And my superior's superior ask me about major hiccups created yesterday when I was on half day off!!!!! It doesn't seem like half day to me. Really need a break or will breakdown.

Finally my angel came back to my mind and tell me to keep it calm and cool or else i will really lose it. Now that my parents can't help even by talking to me, I have only me, myself and I. Scary at times but come on, they need to rest too..

BorING Y(~w~)Y

So quiet.. So peaceful.. If everything comes so smoothly everyday and every now and then, but its not possible. Looking all around online and went for a hair cut just then, looking around the people in Hougang mall, looking into all shops. Hahaha.. Thinking and thinking.... wanna make spectacles a not sia~~

Still trying to get use to being alone during weekends spending with my daddy and mummy. Time wise is kinda of too much. hahaha. But I am still a filial son. All the best to me k~

Half Day off~

Today took half day off. Just wanna getaway from the messy and stupid irritating phone calls from those people. Really hope I can find more ways to have money~ planning ahead is always good right? Haha.

Still deciding wanna go watch movie with them a not. No idea whether I will regret a not. I guess I would wanna play game at home and being emo? finally understand the meaning of emo. However, guys, don't emo till take SAR21 out from Camp k!!! Its not right!! Haiz.. dumb guy who only have 1month left till ord and give up his freedom just because of a damn girl who she don't deserve you. But you two are young. Still dumb.

So tired and so irritated by all the critics about my branch. It is so scary that others always eye on us finding faults in us rather than train your men well. Don't be dumb leh~ Get a life or just fuck off la... Sorry for all the vulgars, these words only applies to those dumbass.

In office

This week is kinda busy and is so irritating. Some high rank guys can really be damn good in their work and responsible however, the minority are becoming majority of being hopeless, unreliable and irresponsible. They just want my branch to solve all their problems. I just wonder how they earn their rank. Even a amature knows what is responsibility. Anyone with parents will know it. Cheap Shit!!

Hahaha.. Nvm.. Just laugh it off. My buddy agreed to go next year to Taiwan already~ Woohoo~ Going to find more people. However, the first experience on the trip to Taiwan for R & R is do not follow people and if can, find people with common hobs for easier shopping trip. Buddy~ Don't worry, I've asked my tour guide then to bring us around and put you on the scary UFO I took.. So Shiok right!!

Cecelia~ You better get your ass clean with your beloved nursing job and join my trip k! And, confirm you don't dare to ride the UFO.

好开心

刚和导游小姐通讯。好想念台湾之旅。真希望能和五姐妹在去!!!

A Start...

A brand new start to my blog. Kinda cool after I've watch the movie Death Note 1 & 2 in 4 hours time. So i decided to make this skin, nothing fancy or IT, just a blog for me to type in my sorrows and status in this unforgivable world of mine.

Yes yes, I am single right now and kinda of not used to it, I guess slowly, it will get better. Its kinda weird as a 2yrs ++ relationship ended suddenly. I guess I am too busy to realize it. No hard feelings, me and her are still friends as ever, so it will not hurt too much than not able to be friends after that. Starting my new life by knowing more people and friends. Even though I've not make the move to find new friends, I bet sometimes later they will be around. Thinking of having a break either end of this year or next year. Maybe going to Taiwan and hopefully my buddy and my pals agree to it and wait for me!!

Was quite ill this week, flu, cough, sore throat and abit of fever. Reluctant to see the MO because I am lazy to stay there for few hours just to wait and wait. I am not a recruit!! I'm a specialist! Of course I will be more than happy not to stand in the way of recruits queuing for doctor so I did not go. Kinda scary with no kins around me taking care of me, not that I am not independent enough but you know its just that when one is having illness or something, the best comfort and medicine is kins to be there and taking care of you right?

Count down my ORD in 12 months time!