Thursday, February 28, 2008
sinking deep
im slowly slipping away i tell you
the him of june 2007
where self pity and self denial was at its best
for whose to know, will love ever rest?
the numbness
the angst and the sorrow
everything seems monodirectional
and no one really sees it, but me
the one who will stand,
will be the one who caused a the end
as i empathize
this unsung hero will soon realize
the biggest pain of it all
people rather step, take advantage, and make you fall
i had it, i had it all
this is the start of something new
something not nice.
the him of june 2007
where self pity and self denial was at its best
for whose to know, will love ever rest?
the numbness
the angst and the sorrow
everything seems monodirectional
and no one really sees it, but me
the one who will stand,
will be the one who caused a the end
as i empathize
this unsung hero will soon realize
the biggest pain of it all
people rather step, take advantage, and make you fall
i had it, i had it all
this is the start of something new
something not nice.
hello, to the pain of last winter
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/28/2008 01:19:00 am
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
to you dear friend,
when the world seems to turn dark,
when the carousel spins alone,
when the road is deadly still,
you know, i am there.
the world is turning around
night to day and day to night
happiness to sorrow and sorrow forever.
where is hope then?
dun weep alone
dun run away
for happiness, i bring to you today
just a simple happy call will see no smile fade away
i can't bare to see people turn so sad nowadays
for sorrow is something that always stays
and hearts r wad always plays
hope will find you this very night, okay?
Sitting alone and watching people suffer
feeling helpless
and skinless with hope and pity strayin away
i am here, your guardian angel, to stay.
WESLEY THADDEUS ALEXANDER HOPE KOW
Just a phone call away to happiness
History shall not be repeated again
I will be there this time
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/26/2008 01:35:00 am
photoshoot
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/26/2008 01:18:00 am
Sunday, February 24, 2008
MAGIC SHOWS
THESE ARE JUST RANDOM MAGIC YOUTUBE VIDEOS
DAVID BLAINE
MY INSPIRATION
MAGIC AS ADVERTISEMENTS
WHY YOU SHOULD NOT SMOKE!
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/24/2008 05:42:00 pm
welcoming the youth olympics 2010
The Youth Olympics 2010 will be held in Singapore. A great opportunity for young entreprenuers like myself to venture and shine. The world will be at Singapore. Believe it or not! Singapore might sink. haha! Anyway, i've started brainstorming on what i could do to earn some quick bucks in 2010. i just need a capital and a crew. Anyone interested?
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/24/2008 01:27:00 am
the long forgotten past
just when you think that your living your fantasy
boom wake up and its gone
the childish games
with childish thots
of grasping his love
for you shall not
he has grown,
and so have you
wiser by the minute
heart broken in two
the old ways you thought
have been long forgotten
for he's back
with vegeance and not caught
though you dwell in the past of 4 years counting
every one else have moved on, still enjoying
die lil one
for this world is about to end
and then forever hold your peace
my dear friend
he's back. time to clean up the mess. time to draw the line.
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/24/2008 12:45:00 am
Monday, February 18, 2008
THE LENTEN REFLECTION
MY LENTEN(not LANTERN) REFLECTION
In my earlier sms to my father as to whether i could stay out a lil longer at the field today, i accidentally typed LANTERN instead of LENTEN. Anyway, it is the season of Lent. A time to take stock of yourself and the trials you've been undertaking, offering it up to the one and only Saviour, Jesus Christ. Why do this? It is to repent and try to be a better person. Jesus went through the 40days(lent) in the dessert, getting tempted by the devil on countless occasions. I sat at the field today, and decided, it's time to take stock of my life; who i really am, and whether i am happy the way i am.
Lent, this year, started on Chinese New Year. It also started with me getting a whole lot of lectures on me smoking and lying. It was a day filled with tears, i tell you. Seriously... I just never really realised how much my parents loved me. Though, i drink, smoke, blog and complain about them, they are still here ready to welcome me with open arms. It really touched me on Ash Wednesday. I never felt so loved before. Ash Wednesday was the day the old me died from the ashes, and a new me wad born into this world. Apart from Ash Wednesday, my parents have been loving me so much, it's just that i never sat to realise it. They bought me a car, a sound system, guitars, whatever i wanted, whatever i needed. They never said no to anything practical. And, despite all that, i still go around destroying their pride and joy. I regret that.
So, back to the subject on who am I? below is a compo i wrote a month ago during my creative writing module:
WHO AM I
This is a great question to ask ourselves time and time again. We sometimes live life being ourselves but we forget the bigger picture of who we really are. It is sometimes really good to sit down and take stock of who you are, as it helps one to understand yourself and pushing your potentials to greater heights will be easier.
Taking into account the life of many great people like Mother Theresa, Eleanor Roosevelt and even the world famous, Oprah Winfrey. All of these people were put on this Earth to bring good through various forms like saving the sick, or even spreading good through the media. These people definitely knew who they really were and how they can manipulate it for the benefit of others.
So, back to the question on who am I? I do know that I am capable of a lot, but I chose not to dote on my potentials due to sloth. Though I may seem quiet at times, I am ever ready to burst out into a harmony of words. I can never be quiet in a comfortable environment. My goals and aspirations are to be part of the media line as spotlights are my hangouts, be it singing, dancing or even acting. Wherever there is a spotlight, I have to be present. In general, I just love fame.
Envy is my biggest sin. I hate seeing people doing better than me. It is my motivation. I want to be the best, and rich too. Following all this, I am a great customer to Satan’s 7 deadly sins. My pride swallows me so hard sometimes that there is no point being humble. When all else fails, wrath and lust comes into practice. I can be the most manipulative devil you have ever known.
I can be the sneakiest devil, biggest bastard, slyest friend or even someone I am not. All for my benefit. You see, it sometimes is good to step on a few toes to get to the top. I mean, after all, would other people care when they stood on ours?
Who am I? I am just the average boy who just wants to be something else. I am someone whose self confidence beats no record, however, I have a big imagination and is definitely capable of a lot more, is that wrong?
If i were to be given this topic today, i will write a whole different story. Back to my lentern reflection at the field, i sat there to think and account for my life. I sat and thought about my problems and listened to songs which brought great meaning in me. Below I've listed parts of various songs which i thought, touched me.
Take away the sensation inside
Bitter sweet migraine in my head
Its like a throbbing toothache of the mind
I can't take this feeling anymore
Drain the pressure from the swelling,
This sensation's overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing
I feel the only way to get rid of a problem, is to face it, not run away from it. This song is like my life, i can't take this stress from the world. I resort to smoking and drinking as a way to escape it. But though it is temporary, i never feel fully satisfied. The want to be loved, the need to be touched.
Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling, that’s alright
Sometimes, you just want to get the problems off from you, right? But it just won't go. I was sitting at the field today, smoking my last 5 sticks. I told myself, this is the last 5 sticks for lent(at least). I forced myself to finish those 5 sticks, then felt so sick of it. Smoking became my other problem in my life. I thought, getting sick of it will make me not want it anymore. I guess it'll work. But with just smoking, i learnt alot. I learnt that there are millions out there who do just the same. Smoke as a way to relief stress. I smoked to intoxicate my problem, and not want anymore. I was mentality high, and mentality not wanting anymore. I had enough. It's over.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Coz your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
The presence which i feel, is the presence of a childish thought that I am suffering so much. I just want to leave it. Looking around at others out there, there are loads of people suffering way worst than me, yet i feel so bogged down by these simple problems. I have a friend, suffering from several tumours, and yet she still shows a happy face whereever she goes. Here I am, with problems far less than that, and i do nothing else but complain. It's time to grow up. Though we go through all these sufferings and mistakes, we should never forget them. But, learn from them. Time cannot erase your mistakes. You've been through it, learn from it, and pick yourself up and learn from something greater. No point dwelling in your past for the errors you've made, for you will never be able to move on and be a better person.
Cause Baby I'm tired, tired of the fight
I'm tired of the lonely days and the dark endless nights
It's taken some time, cause I didn't know
If I could ever let you go
You helped me figure it out...I'm better off alone
When you think you're better off alone, think again. God didn't create Eve for fun. Adam needed her. No one lives alone, and no one can ever work alone. I'd use to think that i should just live my life the way i want it to be, being alone, being unwanted. Then, one day, i came to my senses and realised that no matter how hard i tried, i just was never alone. My insecurities of needing to be loved was always the next step i took, but i came to realised that family and friends made me so much better than i thought i was. I was so sick of love. I hated the world till one day, a friend showed me how much i was loved.
I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see
It may sound absurd, but don't be naïve
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed, but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it’s not easy to be me
We are more than what we think we are. Never underestimate yourself. If you think you're great, aim higher, you are excellent. Just believe in yourself. Not really easy doing that especially if you're self confidence hits no record. Well... try imagining you are someone else. Works for me. Ego big like anything as compared to a year ago. ahhahahah! Sometimes also, pride takes everything. You don't want to seem weak as you're ego is so high. I used to have so much pride in me that the first time i went for a healing session at Novena Church, i resisted the holy spirit so i won't blackout. But i finally gave in on my second visit. Then again, crying is also an ego thing especially for guys. We sometimes hold back so much as we got alot of pride in ourselves. But just be yourself. Imagine you are great, but at the same time, be who you really are.
Everyone has their weaknesses. No hero is great. No king is mighty. We are all humans. Face it, we have our problems, our neighbour has their set too. Do not ever stereotype each other to be something just because the vast majority seems to be like that. For example, never stereotype a girl to be weak and useless, women are better than guys at alot of things, organising is one. Everyone has their problems. It is a matter of how the juggle and work through it.
There's a man standing on the corner
With a sign sayin "will work for food"
You know the man
You see him every morning
The one you never give your money to
You can sit there with your window rolled up
Wondering when the lights going to turn green
Never knowing what a couple more bucks
In his pocket might mean
Being a someone for the person next to you is great. We are all humans. We go through problems. But sometimes, jus having someone there for you, or to be by your side when you're down brings love to a brand new height. When you know of a friend who is down, and you don't know what to say, just sit by his/her side. It's the presence of someone which will brighten up the persons day. No one likes being alone. No one is better off alone and no one lives alone. The person might even start liking you more with these simple actions. Trust me, it works. So, therefore, just do what you think is right, and the world will see you for who you are. No one likes villains. Heroes are way better. Be the hero for your neighbour.
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
I was listening to this song in the field tonight. Trying to hide the pain. it was exactly what and how i felt. It was like the Prodigal son returning home. All the pride he had and all, gone into the wilderness of the night as a new son was born. I lived the life of the Prodigal Son. I always thought i was good, better off alone, immortal till i realised that is was time to go home. It's not easy being me for the demons have been kissed out of my dreams. It's a new world out there for a new person. Sometimes you just want to break down and cry. Sometimes you just want to kill yourself. Sometimes you just think the world sucks. Then you sit and reflect on yourself. It ain't the world which sucks, it's you. Your mentality of it, of God's creations, have been distorted by your own hatred and liking for the Devil. You have fallen into his traps many times and failed to listen to God's gentle voice. He really brings true happiness. No physical thing will bring true happiness. A computer, gameboy, you name it. They bring temporary satisfaction. Love brings true happiness. Why do you think Lent is celebrated? To remind ourself of the Love Jesus had for us, to die on the cross and a sign to show his love to mankind. Do we practice it? I guess not. But rather gossip or mock our neighbours who try the slightest form of creating this love. I am a victim of mockery. And, i'm definitely sure, you are too.
However, Lent is a season where we have to take control of ourself and remind us that God makes things right. His love and compassion to forgive us not one, not two but seventy seven times seven times. Who could really forgive us that much uh? So. whenever we suffer or go through a crisis, offer it up as your lentern sacrifice. God is not excited if you fast every day, but so long your message of love is delievered to anyone you meet, even if it's the person on the street, the cleaner in your school or the beggar outside the shopping centre, a gentle smile will bring a whole lot of love into their lives. Is that too difficult to ask? I say not. Amen.
In my earlier sms to my father as to whether i could stay out a lil longer at the field today, i accidentally typed LANTERN instead of LENTEN. Anyway, it is the season of Lent. A time to take stock of yourself and the trials you've been undertaking, offering it up to the one and only Saviour, Jesus Christ. Why do this? It is to repent and try to be a better person. Jesus went through the 40days(lent) in the dessert, getting tempted by the devil on countless occasions. I sat at the field today, and decided, it's time to take stock of my life; who i really am, and whether i am happy the way i am.
Lent, this year, started on Chinese New Year. It also started with me getting a whole lot of lectures on me smoking and lying. It was a day filled with tears, i tell you. Seriously... I just never really realised how much my parents loved me. Though, i drink, smoke, blog and complain about them, they are still here ready to welcome me with open arms. It really touched me on Ash Wednesday. I never felt so loved before. Ash Wednesday was the day the old me died from the ashes, and a new me wad born into this world. Apart from Ash Wednesday, my parents have been loving me so much, it's just that i never sat to realise it. They bought me a car, a sound system, guitars, whatever i wanted, whatever i needed. They never said no to anything practical. And, despite all that, i still go around destroying their pride and joy. I regret that.
So, back to the subject on who am I? below is a compo i wrote a month ago during my creative writing module:
WHO AM I
This is a great question to ask ourselves time and time again. We sometimes live life being ourselves but we forget the bigger picture of who we really are. It is sometimes really good to sit down and take stock of who you are, as it helps one to understand yourself and pushing your potentials to greater heights will be easier.
Taking into account the life of many great people like Mother Theresa, Eleanor Roosevelt and even the world famous, Oprah Winfrey. All of these people were put on this Earth to bring good through various forms like saving the sick, or even spreading good through the media. These people definitely knew who they really were and how they can manipulate it for the benefit of others.
So, back to the question on who am I? I do know that I am capable of a lot, but I chose not to dote on my potentials due to sloth. Though I may seem quiet at times, I am ever ready to burst out into a harmony of words. I can never be quiet in a comfortable environment. My goals and aspirations are to be part of the media line as spotlights are my hangouts, be it singing, dancing or even acting. Wherever there is a spotlight, I have to be present. In general, I just love fame.
Envy is my biggest sin. I hate seeing people doing better than me. It is my motivation. I want to be the best, and rich too. Following all this, I am a great customer to Satan’s 7 deadly sins. My pride swallows me so hard sometimes that there is no point being humble. When all else fails, wrath and lust comes into practice. I can be the most manipulative devil you have ever known.
I can be the sneakiest devil, biggest bastard, slyest friend or even someone I am not. All for my benefit. You see, it sometimes is good to step on a few toes to get to the top. I mean, after all, would other people care when they stood on ours?
Who am I? I am just the average boy who just wants to be something else. I am someone whose self confidence beats no record, however, I have a big imagination and is definitely capable of a lot more, is that wrong?
If i were to be given this topic today, i will write a whole different story. Back to my lentern reflection at the field, i sat there to think and account for my life. I sat and thought about my problems and listened to songs which brought great meaning in me. Below I've listed parts of various songs which i thought, touched me.
Take away the sensation inside
Bitter sweet migraine in my head
Its like a throbbing toothache of the mind
I can't take this feeling anymore
Drain the pressure from the swelling,
This sensation's overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing
I feel the only way to get rid of a problem, is to face it, not run away from it. This song is like my life, i can't take this stress from the world. I resort to smoking and drinking as a way to escape it. But though it is temporary, i never feel fully satisfied. The want to be loved, the need to be touched.
Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling, that’s alright
Sometimes, you just want to get the problems off from you, right? But it just won't go. I was sitting at the field today, smoking my last 5 sticks. I told myself, this is the last 5 sticks for lent(at least). I forced myself to finish those 5 sticks, then felt so sick of it. Smoking became my other problem in my life. I thought, getting sick of it will make me not want it anymore. I guess it'll work. But with just smoking, i learnt alot. I learnt that there are millions out there who do just the same. Smoke as a way to relief stress. I smoked to intoxicate my problem, and not want anymore. I was mentality high, and mentality not wanting anymore. I had enough. It's over.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Coz your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
The presence which i feel, is the presence of a childish thought that I am suffering so much. I just want to leave it. Looking around at others out there, there are loads of people suffering way worst than me, yet i feel so bogged down by these simple problems. I have a friend, suffering from several tumours, and yet she still shows a happy face whereever she goes. Here I am, with problems far less than that, and i do nothing else but complain. It's time to grow up. Though we go through all these sufferings and mistakes, we should never forget them. But, learn from them. Time cannot erase your mistakes. You've been through it, learn from it, and pick yourself up and learn from something greater. No point dwelling in your past for the errors you've made, for you will never be able to move on and be a better person.
Cause Baby I'm tired, tired of the fight
I'm tired of the lonely days and the dark endless nights
It's taken some time, cause I didn't know
If I could ever let you go
You helped me figure it out...I'm better off alone
When you think you're better off alone, think again. God didn't create Eve for fun. Adam needed her. No one lives alone, and no one can ever work alone. I'd use to think that i should just live my life the way i want it to be, being alone, being unwanted. Then, one day, i came to my senses and realised that no matter how hard i tried, i just was never alone. My insecurities of needing to be loved was always the next step i took, but i came to realised that family and friends made me so much better than i thought i was. I was so sick of love. I hated the world till one day, a friend showed me how much i was loved.
I'm more than a bird, I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
And it's not easy to be me Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see
It may sound absurd, but don't be naïve
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed, but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
And it’s not easy to be me
We are more than what we think we are. Never underestimate yourself. If you think you're great, aim higher, you are excellent. Just believe in yourself. Not really easy doing that especially if you're self confidence hits no record. Well... try imagining you are someone else. Works for me. Ego big like anything as compared to a year ago. ahhahahah! Sometimes also, pride takes everything. You don't want to seem weak as you're ego is so high. I used to have so much pride in me that the first time i went for a healing session at Novena Church, i resisted the holy spirit so i won't blackout. But i finally gave in on my second visit. Then again, crying is also an ego thing especially for guys. We sometimes hold back so much as we got alot of pride in ourselves. But just be yourself. Imagine you are great, but at the same time, be who you really are.
Everyone has their weaknesses. No hero is great. No king is mighty. We are all humans. Face it, we have our problems, our neighbour has their set too. Do not ever stereotype each other to be something just because the vast majority seems to be like that. For example, never stereotype a girl to be weak and useless, women are better than guys at alot of things, organising is one. Everyone has their problems. It is a matter of how the juggle and work through it.
There's a man standing on the corner
With a sign sayin "will work for food"
You know the man
You see him every morning
The one you never give your money to
You can sit there with your window rolled up
Wondering when the lights going to turn green
Never knowing what a couple more bucks
In his pocket might mean
Being a someone for the person next to you is great. We are all humans. We go through problems. But sometimes, jus having someone there for you, or to be by your side when you're down brings love to a brand new height. When you know of a friend who is down, and you don't know what to say, just sit by his/her side. It's the presence of someone which will brighten up the persons day. No one likes being alone. No one is better off alone and no one lives alone. The person might even start liking you more with these simple actions. Trust me, it works. So, therefore, just do what you think is right, and the world will see you for who you are. No one likes villains. Heroes are way better. Be the hero for your neighbour.
I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.
So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.
I was listening to this song in the field tonight. Trying to hide the pain. it was exactly what and how i felt. It was like the Prodigal son returning home. All the pride he had and all, gone into the wilderness of the night as a new son was born. I lived the life of the Prodigal Son. I always thought i was good, better off alone, immortal till i realised that is was time to go home. It's not easy being me for the demons have been kissed out of my dreams. It's a new world out there for a new person. Sometimes you just want to break down and cry. Sometimes you just want to kill yourself. Sometimes you just think the world sucks. Then you sit and reflect on yourself. It ain't the world which sucks, it's you. Your mentality of it, of God's creations, have been distorted by your own hatred and liking for the Devil. You have fallen into his traps many times and failed to listen to God's gentle voice. He really brings true happiness. No physical thing will bring true happiness. A computer, gameboy, you name it. They bring temporary satisfaction. Love brings true happiness. Why do you think Lent is celebrated? To remind ourself of the Love Jesus had for us, to die on the cross and a sign to show his love to mankind. Do we practice it? I guess not. But rather gossip or mock our neighbours who try the slightest form of creating this love. I am a victim of mockery. And, i'm definitely sure, you are too.
However, Lent is a season where we have to take control of ourself and remind us that God makes things right. His love and compassion to forgive us not one, not two but seventy seven times seven times. Who could really forgive us that much uh? So. whenever we suffer or go through a crisis, offer it up as your lentern sacrifice. God is not excited if you fast every day, but so long your message of love is delievered to anyone you meet, even if it's the person on the street, the cleaner in your school or the beggar outside the shopping centre, a gentle smile will bring a whole lot of love into their lives. Is that too difficult to ask? I say not. Amen.
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/18/2008 12:46:00 am
Saturday, February 16, 2008
THE BOY WITH MANY FACES
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/16/2008 12:56:00 pm
favouritism
what's worst than being lonely in a house full of people?
what's worst than getting cornered all the time?
what's worst than being treated with double standards?
is being misunderstood.
on this lonely room
where walls close on
every angle you turn
you see suffering
trust, love and forgiveness
are elements of jus speech
but bare no physicality
ego de-boost to-infinity at your presence
no one understands
how to treasure gold
till it is one day lost
regret
Favouritism at its best
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/16/2008 12:20:00 pm
Friday, February 15, 2008
vitas
In my attempt to reach that pitch, i went so high that the sound became so sharp and high pitched, tt i really thought that the glass around me was going to break. I couldn't take the sound. it was jus too sharp though i wasn't screaming.
This fella is a lil kuks but he is pretty cool. I managed to reach the pitches for this vid. Imagine. ahha.... damn cool la.
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/15/2008 03:27:00 am
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
last xmas
last christmas
santa forgot to send me my gifts
so i wrote him a letter
but he never replied
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/12/2008 01:51:00 am
COCKROACH HUNT
Today marks the day i became a MAN.
I was trapped in the toilet from a big adult cockroach whose eyes were clearly fixed at me. Wad was i to do? Kill it? How?
I wanted to be like my dada and use my hands, but it was merely impossible as i never ever went tt near to a cockroach as they are my biggest fear. So i took a tissue, put it on my hand and tried to grab the cockroach, but instead, i smashed it. Eeeks. it felt sharp i dunno why, so i immediately let go of it. Then, it was still alive but immobile. So, i carried it along with the disgusting tissue, n threw it into the bowl. I feel so accomplished.
Earlier, Pablo saved my life. I shouted cockroach and he ran to kill it, but it ran behind the bowl. Then pablo looked lost. So, i pointed behind the toilet bowl, then he went there and found it. Then the cockroach was toppled over by him. I took the toilet bowl plunger and killed the cockroach. Then took a tissue and carried it into the toilet bowl where pablo stood on his 2s and looked at it drown. REDRUM.
I was trapped in the toilet from a big adult cockroach whose eyes were clearly fixed at me. Wad was i to do? Kill it? How?
I wanted to be like my dada and use my hands, but it was merely impossible as i never ever went tt near to a cockroach as they are my biggest fear. So i took a tissue, put it on my hand and tried to grab the cockroach, but instead, i smashed it. Eeeks. it felt sharp i dunno why, so i immediately let go of it. Then, it was still alive but immobile. So, i carried it along with the disgusting tissue, n threw it into the bowl. I feel so accomplished.
Earlier, Pablo saved my life. I shouted cockroach and he ran to kill it, but it ran behind the bowl. Then pablo looked lost. So, i pointed behind the toilet bowl, then he went there and found it. Then the cockroach was toppled over by him. I took the toilet bowl plunger and killed the cockroach. Then took a tissue and carried it into the toilet bowl where pablo stood on his 2s and looked at it drown. REDRUM.
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/12/2008 01:33:00 am
Monday, February 11, 2008
no shit no lock
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/11/2008 08:12:00 pm
Sunday, February 10, 2008
judge
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/10/2008 02:48:00 am
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
TRUTH OR LIES?
ABOVE IS A DEBATE TOPIC ON TRUTH OR LIES. WHICH CARRIES MORE CONSEQUENCES. THE TRUTH HURTS, SO IS IT BETTER TO LIE? ON THE OTHER HAND WHEN YOU LIE, AND THE TRUTH ABOUT THE LIE IS OUT, DO YOU SUFFER MORE? THIS IS A DEBATE TOPIC FOR MY TAGBOARD, SO FEEL FREE TO TAG YOUR OPINIONS.
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/06/2008 02:10:00 am
Tuesday, February 05, 2008
GOD IS REAL
Red eyes and calm musicthe vibe was there
it was just a matter of time
i stood before him
he uttered words i couldn't capture
then i was down
the fall felt calm and gentle
no pain nor fear
God was here
holding me close
watching frm above the flickering eyes
where white stood so pure and divine
heart raced
then calmed
for it was the first time meeting him
yes, it was good
rest in the spirit
i laid there semi conscious
relaxed, calmed and happy
and no evil stood my way for the first time
God became real to me
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/05/2008 01:50:00 pm
Sunday, February 03, 2008
mutants who live among us
Mutants Who Live Among Us
We are all mutants alike. Genetics are such that we possess different powers. some have the ability to fly, leep, look scary(like above), and even those who can manipulate others. Sounds more normal now eh? We all have the ability to do stuff. Have you found your power? For this mutant thingy, there is no cure.
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/03/2008 09:43:00 pm
Saturday, February 02, 2008
more random edited pics
Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 2/02/2008 09:15:00 pm
Friday, February 01, 2008
dull colours
What happens when one day,
You wake up to dull colours.
No more morning sunshines,
But dull, mundane lightings.
Waking up to see that the world is almost black and white,
And the colours of the rainbow seem to turn boring.
The smiles on faces,
Switched to frowns on kids.
All because the world has turned dull,
And happiness is never in sight.
For a deranged aunt, uncle or cousin,
Will only inflick, fright.
enjoy the sight of an emo kid