Thursday, November 22, 2007

halloween 2007

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 11/22/2007 01:12:00 am

No more self pity

When you think that your life is bad, think again. There are others out there in worser situations. Living their lives with Cancers, Taumas, and yet, they are ever ready to keep a smile on their face.

Growing up as a teenager isn't easy. Going through trials and tribulations, and living life through all the expectations of others. Living each day knowing people comment about you, how much you wallow in self pity and how much one loves him/herself. But the greatest pity lies with the person who branded on you. Each person lives on his or her expectations. That is what makes each of us unique. The biggest pity is when he or she is so bold to comment or brand you, but leaves the status of annoymous. It firstly proves how proud that person is of what he/she does. And how much a wall he/she wants to break down. Here I am speaking with nothing else but pity; the pity of others and not of oneself.

And, sometimes, the other party does not understand how others feel. After all, they are not them. I was thinking about how much an ass i have become. And, i am sorry about it. Insulting the people who always stood there for me, and the people i wish to brand myself. I stand here today wishing that i had become a better person a long time ago. Then, again, that is impossible. If i had not gone through this, how would i ever learn to love?

Then we move on to the topic on a blog being a ranting machine. Of course it can be. But why use a blog to advertise how much a bastard or bitch one can be? It is time to start life anew. It is a time for peace. And a time to love. Say goodbye to all the evil that has been going through this blog and how weird wesley, weirdwesley.blogspot.com, can be.

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 11/22/2007 12:55:00 am

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Wisdom

Ecclesiastes 7
Wisdom

1 A good name is better than fine perfume, and the day of death better than the day of birth.
2 It is better to go to a house of mourning than to go to a house of feasting, for death is the destiny of every man; the living should take this to heart.
3 Sorrow is better than laughter, because a sad face is good for the heart.
4 The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning, but the heart of fools is in the house of pleasure.
5 It is better to heed a wise man's rebuke than to listen to the song of fools.
6 Like the crackling of thorns under the pot, so is the laughter of fools. This too is meaningless.
7 Extortion turns a wise man into a fool, and a bribe corrupts the heart.
8 The end of a matter is better than its beginning, and patience is better than pride.
9 Do not be quickly provoked in your spirit, for anger resides in the lap of fools.
10 Do not say, "Why were the old days better than these?" For it is not wise to ask such questions.
11 Wisdom, like an inheritance, is a good thing and benefits those who see the sun.
12 Wisdom is a shelter as money is a shelter, but the advantage of knowledge is this: that wisdom preserves the life of its possessor.
13 Consider what God has done: Who can straighten what he has made crooked?
14 When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.
15 In this meaningless life of mine I have seen both of these: a righteous man perishing in his righteousness, and a wicked man living long in his wickedness.
16 Do not be overrighteous, neither be overwise— why destroy yourself?
17 Do not be overwicked, and do not be a fool— why die before your time?
18 It is good to grasp the one and not let go of the other. The man who fears God will avoid all extremes . [a]
19 Wisdom makes one wise man more powerful than ten rulers in a city.
20 There is not a righteous man on earth who does what is right and never sins.
21 Do not pay attention to every word people say, or you may hear your servant cursing you-
22 for you know in your heart that many times you yourself have cursed others.
23 All this I tested by wisdom and I said, "I am determined to be wise"— but this was beyond me.
24 Whatever wisdom may be, it is far off and most profound— who can discover it?
25 So I turned my mind to understand, to investigate and to search out wisdom and the scheme of things and to understand the stupidity of wickedness and the madness of folly.
26 I find more bitter than death the woman who is a snare, whose heart is a trap and whose hands are chains. The man who pleases God will escape her, but the sinner she will ensnare.
27 "Look," says the Teacher, [b] "this is what I have discovered: "Adding one thing to another to discover the scheme of things-
28 while I was still searching but not finding— I found one upright man among a thousand, but not one upright woman among them all.
29 This only have I found: God made mankind upright, but men have gone in search of many schemes."
Ecclesiastes 8
1 Who is like the wise man? Who knows the explanation of things? Wisdom brightens a man's face and changes its hard appearance.

Tell The World That Jesus Lives

At prayers yesterday, i happened to pick the quality of being "wise" from the envelope that stace was handing out. In it was various qualities of each of us. When she was making it, she had a feeling that i would pick "wise", and true enough. I was really stunned. I did not know what to share on it. And, that is usually rare. I guess it was just a mental block for me so that i could hear others. If i hadn't had tt mental block, i probably won't get stace or a.debs to share stuff on wisdom with me. So, i asked, how to open up yourself to god. Then, stace and a.debs were sharing how they go about doing it. Listening to Praise and Worship, talking to God every moment and all sorts. And, how god replies back to them. So, today i woke up on a bad start. I was angry and annoyed. So while bathing, i decided to listen to PNW. The first song was Everyday. And it was like instant when this peace came into me. I was no longer annoyed nor angered. I was happy. You may think it is coincidence, but it is not. I was trying to hold back my anger but it was like the holy spirit just came into me or smthng. I took things lightly and saw the positive in things. Then, i came home from piano and started listening to PNW again. And i had this prompt to open up the bible. So, i did. I opened to the reading above and like a miracle, it answered all that i wanted to noe. Surprising. God speaks in mysterious ways. I feel that God is always there no matter how down or angered one can be.

Then, it goes to the topic on why believe in a God. If you think your life is at its best, why need God? Well, with God, life is definitely better. Its not about worship idols and hoping something will come true, but this is the real thing. God is real. Thus, when you believe, you will understand.

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 11/10/2007 01:07:00 pm

prayer meet on honesty

Today's prayers were about honesty.

Great topic dun ya think. The guide on who to be honest to and who not to be. haha.... I've just got inspiration to write a short story.

Once upon a star, there lived a princess, the pauper and the chef. One day, the princess fell in love with the pauper though the chef loved her alot. She didn't care. He was always there for her and new alot about her and her secrets, but she wanted the pauper for he was different. So they got together. The chef was stunned at the news on it that he went into a angry fit. He wanted to challenge the pauper, but he lost. After a while, they saw that both of them were going no where. So, the pauper broke up with the princess. The chef was happy once again.

One day, the chef decided to act hero, and make the pauper seem like a loser. So, he told the pauper the princess's deepest secret and acted as if someone else did. Despite being angered by it, the pauper did nothing. However, he felt pain for honesty then, was not her game.

You see my good people, how easy it is to fall prey to our ambitions and ego. We go around at backstab at the mere thought of a terrorist invasion. haha! ok ignore me. I got WISE as my personality trait. I guess there will be a time for me to be wise in my next life.

Do you have inner peace now?

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 11/10/2007 12:29:00 am

Friday, November 09, 2007

wanna play?

Lets Play Detective
TURN OFF THE AIRCON
I FEEL COLD
FROM THE 0 DEGREE BURNS
IRONIC HOW COLD BURNS

Lets Play Stupid
NO ONE TOLD ME
NO ONE HINTED
FROM THE DUMBNESS OF BLONDES
IRONIC HOW SMART SOMEONE STUPID CAN BE

Lets Play Student
I AM AT CLASS
BORED LIKE SHIT
FINISHED MY WORK
HOW IRONIC HOW FREE I AM NOW

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 11/09/2007 01:55:00 pm

my life

I've got the best parents in the world. despite my frailties and hardships, they are always there to be a shinning light to me. they let me go out today. haha... went to meet damian, amy and fran at ECP. damn fun. picniced, tented, tai tied, jinramed, drinkered, and eated. ahha!

My parents are gonna get for me new decor for my barren room now with nothing else but semak. hahah.. i really want that queen sized bunk bed. super nice. but no space in my room. haha. gonna get a new bed though, and some other stuff like a glass showcase thingy for my magic tricks.

My grandfather is back from the hospital. YAY!

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 11/09/2007 12:01:00 am

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Lovewrecked

caught in this dillusioned state
as dancers prance around
with cat-like stares into your mind
waiting for the truth to set free
1 day, 3 months, 6 days
n its over
staying strong under this leash
covering your insecurities, insults.
though it will take ages for one to discover the code
strangers to friends to lovers to enemies
they all fall under the same category
love, hate and playing around
not any better than
nor any worst
carbon copies
while this flashing light blinds your eyes
you will unravel the mystery behind the masked phantom
it aint no male,
a female of stunted height and heart
though this phantom can claim feelings
its just barren and cold
hidden in the insecurities of her hidden past
which left no love as a result of her lust
banished into the woods forevermore
begone deep into that sore!

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 11/08/2007 11:51:00 pm

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Prata at Raimah

WHAT'S BETTER THAN A HOT DRIVER? A HOT DRIVER IN A HOT CAR!!!

Just came back from Prata at Raimah. Went with fran and stace. Ate 2 cheese and 1 bom. But that's not the interesting part. Stace dropped us home in a new car which she will only be having till thurs. damn.. haha... but it was like AWESOME with a capital everything. convertable. black. the works la. the horn damn loud though. haha... but it was fantastic!!!!! i wanna go on a ride again. aha!!!

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 11/06/2007 11:15:00 pm

THERE HAS BEEN AN ERROR IN THE PREVIOUS INVITATION. IT IS 2007 NOT 2008. AHHA!!! PLEASE RSVP BY THE 10TH OF NOVEMBER 2007.

Posted by Alexander Thaddeus Kow at 11/06/2007 12:24:00 am

Monday, November 05, 2007

halloween booking

For those interested in going for the Halloween Party, please email me asap. Bookings close on the 10th of November.