I see my life flash across the sky, So many times have I been so afraid.
And just when I, I thought I lost my way, You gave me strength to carry on.

It's been so long, really long.
When will everything end? When will the kind of feeling stop?
I hate that feeling, I hate to be in this state.
I feel like I'm a zombie now, F* that feeling please.

Yes, I know I've not been myself lately. Yes, I know I'm in such
a pathetic state now. But who really bothers? Who really cares
about me now? I've been keeping this to myself and only tell a few
people. But do you think I wish to be like this? If it wasn't what happened
that cause me to be like this, I'd be happily enjoying now.
Or perhaps, happily mugging hard. Why would I bother so much to keep
thinking of those incidents that happened? I really hate it.
I can't control my feelings, I'm just so implusive. Really can't help it.
You can say I have split personalities, I don't care.
For now, I just want to stop thinking about that incident. Stop thinking about
what will happen next! I WANT TO STOP ALLLLLLL THESE!

You got to help me. Because only you can help me, only you know.
I know you're true, I know you're faithful. You know I don't wish to
give up, you know I didn't mean it when I say I want to give up.
I just wish everything could end, so I won't be thinking too much.
I've been suffering over& over again. I want to stop, really want to stop.

I'm sick& tired of everything.
Please help me. Please.

一字一句一瞬间走了火, 一天一点一转眼入了魔
忘了我从什么时候, 忘了你为什么能够让我
一步一步走火入魔和我

It's now& forever ♥

I'm happy today! (: Very happy.

In fact, I'm happy every since things have changed.

First, Sixsome unite! :D Second, No more emo-ing! :D

Third, less quarrels with that stupidhead. Hahah :D

That head made me laugh at him so madly!

But sad, can't spend so much time with him until after nlevel's over.

Gonna miss him so much, please! Boooohoo ]:

I'll just mug hard now, put in all my effort in doing my papers.

Get good results, and enjoy with him later! (:

Stupidhead, study hard yo! Loves manymany! ♥

I'M GONNA BE A HAPPPPPPPPY KIDDO!

Not going to let anything/ anyone to take control of me, oh yeah. (:

Those who just want action, jolly well get the hell out of my sight.

You're just an eyesore to everyone, not only me! Hahah.

Sorry to the both of your, you-know-who-are-you.

I'm really sorry for everything. I didn't know things will turn out

to be like this. Perhaps, I'm partly to be blamed. I'm sorry okay.

Please forgive me! }:

It's really a pain to lose something.

So, think before you act. If not, you will regret!

Gonna be away for a long time.

Nlevel coming, I can't afford to waste my time already.

I will work hard, I won't disappoint anyone again.

& I mean it, I know I've been slacking. So I must really buck up.

Bye computer, Bye blogging, Bye msn, Bye internet~

Will update again if I've got the time.

Misses!

Hey hey, you you! (:

Gloooooooomy! ♥

The worries of today are done, when a broken heart laughs once more.

Today was such a hectic day! Gosh.

Morning, went to meet up with stupidhead! It's been so long since

we've spent time with each other kay. Love you! ♥

He made my day again! :D Stupidheadddddddddddddd!

After that, waited for kw&jas for 2 hours! ):

Kw came first, then went up to my sis house!

Happy One Month to my nephew! (: He's so adorable lah. Hhaa.

Well, to me, every baby's adorable! But their cries ain't adorable at all! :/

Okayokay, So yeah. Jasmine reached, ate, see baby then went off.

Dance at night! (: Today quite slack, just polishing those steps.

And they taught Je&Cx new steps! Fast learners eh :D

Daughter-in-law, you have to buck up okay? No time already, so must

practice hard!! (: I believe you can! Loves! ♥

Sighs, tomorrow morning still have tuition!

I haven't finish doing my tuition work, it's like so difficult.

I really don't know how to do Probability questions please. I don't

know why lah. People said it's easy, but I just don't get it? Boooo!

Then tuition teacher gave me 8 long questions on Probability! ):

Yawns! Though I'm not tired now, but if I go do my tuition work, sure

going to fall asleep! Hohooo~ Jiayou to me lor! (:

Got to go do my work now! Bye!

Perhaps, it's just a matter of trust.
I trusted you, but I don't know if you trusted me too.
Yes, I don't like the way you asked me not to trust you, asked me
not to listen to you. You know I care, why must you say this?
Yes, it hurts. I don'tknow why, it just hurts me though you didnt mean it.

It's not my problem anyway, but I just want to help(?)
I've tried so hard to listen to all those explanations, and tried to
figure out what's going on. I believed every word, though some parts
may be just faking. But I still believed, I think of ways and think of
words to console. Why must I bother to help to solve the problem?
You should know the 2 reasons of why I'm trying to help.
You should know I have my own reasons, You should know I've faced
alot of problems. And why I turned to you.

I know you're stressed, I know you're going crazy.
I have that kind of feeling toooooo!
Just relaxed yourself, don't think too much alright.
I didn't ignore your msg, I saw it. I just dont want to reply. I know you're
already feeling very low. I don't want this to blow the matter up again.
Don't worry, though it hurts a little. I'll be fine.
I accept your apology, and I have to apologise too. I dont know what to say.
But, I'm sorry for everything. Perhaps I shouldn't help in the first place.
I only know part of it, but not everything. Yea..
Whatever it is, I can only be there when you need me. I will not
interfere okay? Chills.

Life's full of ups&downs.

But I hope you're still the same ♥

My Sweetest Sin.

I swear, I will never leave you alone again.

Never gonna let another chance slip away.

Was searching for pictures for my Art, *Yawns.

I've got no idea what to draw for the theme, 'Antique'. What should I draw?

Now, I can't even find 5 pictures that teacher asked us to search for.

I found only 2 pictures(?) Oh well, this is gonna be so shitty!

But I want to Ace for my art, to score well for this prelim. -Urghhhhh.

My mothertongue result like shit please! B3 for everything exclude oral.

Duh, I think I can go bang the wall -.-

Yesterday was a horrible day for me.

I vomitted once during art lesson, then after I vomitted out everything,

I kept vomitting and vomitting but nothing came out.

Think I vomitted for like hundred over times, the whole afternoon la!

Just nothing come out, wonder what's wrong with me. -Shits.

Then I couldn't dance for audition, like what the hell. Feel so shit guilty.

Luckily we got in for teacher's day! (: {Sorry, sixsome!}

Then he waited for me, and he sent me back home. Don't know why,

I reached home I felt much better than in the afternoon. But still vomitted

abit, and ate very little for dinner. Was a dam horrible day, I tell you!

Today, I thought everything would be fine. So I went to school.

But no, while walking to school I have the feeling again. Vomit but nothing

come out! Sighs, then saw Yanni. Walked to school together (:

During lunch, ate with Sixsome. I ate little bit nia. Jiu want vomit. Dam it lor.

Then bth, go back class first. Was like suffering, because just don't

want come out. It's like stuck somewhere in my throat. -Irritating please.

Blablabla. After school, didn't went dance instead I went home.

I bought bubble tea! Like finally! Haha (:

By then, I was feeling better. Met up with jasmine for dinner, again, I

thought I would eat alot. Ended up, no appetite. Wasted my money $$!

After that jiu went for tuition, surprisingly, I was not sleepy. Until the end

of tuition, then I felt restless. Faster chiong home, bath!

Hope tomorrow I won't have this sickness again. It's annoying lah.

Want come out, don't want come out. Urghhh.

Luckily it's Wednesday! Can sleep later, so I'm gonna go to bed now.

If not tomorrow sure tired!

Bye people.

I♥U! :D

Everything's back to normal, but I still need time to think about it.

No matter what happens, I've still got to have trust.

That's the most important, I shouldn't lose so much trust if not things

will go the wrong way. And I don't want anything like this to happen again.

I've enough of everything and it's time to put a FULLSTOP.

I shall stop being so emo, Cheers yo! :D

Everybody's there for me, I shouldn't fake a smile. It's kind of difficult

to fake a smile too. So I'll just live life to the fullest, live life to the happiest!

(: I'm gonna make it! Boy, you got to be there for me too! -Lol ♥
He've just offline not long ago, finally have the time to chat with him though!

That pig promised me something for tomorrow! Gonna have fun, wheee! (:

And I went to check my timetable just now.

Lessons' tomorrow are going to be so dam bored! Especially physics!

I'm just going to sleep throughout her lesson, Lmao~

I've changed my tuition to Tuesday, means I got no tuiton on Saturday!!

Gonna drag that pig out to accompany me! Hooooooohooo :D

Lovesloves! ♥

Audition tomorrow, goodluck to the six of us! (:

Pray hard that I won't dance wrong tomorrow! All the best yo! ♥

After two days of weekend, gonna see my Husband, Daughter, Son,

Daughter-In-Law, Great Grand Daughter, & Great Grand Son-In-Law!

Hahaha! Misses! ♥

Gonna start mugging hard for upcoming nlevel papers& prelim! ):

MUGGGGGGGGGGGGING WEEK!

(Dont playplay!)

170808! :D
It's between you& me, Let's make this day a happy one!
Loves! ♥

It's rather late now, everybody's having their good night sleep.
I can't get to sleep again. I'm really tired after my dance just now.
But somehow, those incidents just flashed through my mind.
& My mood sank down to the bottom, I hate that feeling please.
It seemed like I'm the one causing the problem, because I'm too over.
Perhaps, I only think about myself and not how others feel.
Like what _ _ said, I'm just so selfish. ]:

Sighs, everything seems to be falling apart.
Will the 'someday' really come? Or am I just thinking too much?
I really don't know, I'm so confused. Yet, I don't know how to solve it.
Although it appears to be normal, it's still the same for me.
Do you know the pain I suffered? Do you know the terrible feeling I'm having?
Do you know how afraid am I when I kept thinking that the day will come?
Do you know? Or you don't even bother to know?
There goes my favourite phrase, "life's so miserable"

I'm not gonna say so much already. I'm feeling so freaking sad now.
Sighs, Sighs, & Sighs.

Bring more happiness to me, Will you?

No matter what tomorrow brings, I won't let you go.
I won't let anyone to break us up.

I shall forget about yesterday, it was a bad day for me.
"Throw it away, forget yesterday. We'll make the great escape."

I'm gonna make myself happy today!
I have every reason to be happy, and I shall not be such a emo kiddo.

I love my boyfriend! ♥

如果我们那时就相遇 会不会爱得比较放心,
也许分离还没被发明来折磨爱情.

I know what I'm doing, & I will do it without any regrets.
Everything happens for a reason, and the reason is simple enough
for me to know. That is..

Daughter-In-Law : Not his fault, I understand. Remember what I told
you during art lesson? That's the reason why I'm like this.
& There's something I forgot to add on to what I say. Will tell you
tomorrow! Will cheer up too. Thanks. ♥
Son : I didn't blame you at all.

Today was a so-so day. Gloomy? Nevermind, forget about it.
I failed my SS prelim paper, lmao~ Ruin my mood, but nevermind.
I'm not good at it, gotta buck up? Yea man.
SS mock test in the afternoon, Idk what was I thinking. But I was stoning
for awhile before I started doing my paper. I don't know if I was just
scribbling through, I can't feel anything at that time. Sighs.

He sent me back home, (thankyou)
Walked to the bubbletea shop near my house there, to get my fries.
Looking back to my primary school days, I went to the bubbletea shop
almost everyday and had lots of fun and memories. I do miss them.
Can say that we already lost contact. Sighs.

Shall end here?
Suddenly got no mood to continue. Actually have lots of things to update,
but just got no mood. So that's all for today.

Try to break us up, & you will have to face the consequences.

Spell 'LOVE' ♥

难道要很多考验还要很多抱歉, 才能够证明我会爱你到永远.

可是有太多太多考验还有太多抱歉, 放不下我在想着你你想着谁.

It's 7pm! Missed my napping time, ): I'm very tired leh.

Slept at 3am last night, because I can't get to sleep? Lol. Texted bbt,

and bbt accompany me for 2 hours. Listened to 98.7fm, so lovely! (:

I think I'm gonna love midnight, it's really so quiet and peaceful!

Was trying to reflect on myself yesterday night, indeed, it did help

me in some ways. Alright, that's about it (:

Woke up on time, but my back hurts alot. I don't know what the hell

is wrong with my back this morning. It hurts so badly.

Could hardly walk properly , have to bear with the pain till when I

reached school, it was much better. And slowly, the pain went away (:

& now no more pain already! Lol.

Lesson's were alright? Chemistry was nice, revision on Acids,Bases&Salts.

Then had SS, 5 lessons! But got recess in between! ):

& There's SS mock exam tomorrow, chemistry mock exam on friday!

Booohoo! Gotta study for ss& chemistry already. I dont want to fail :/

Okay, got go now! Shall take a 26mins nap!

Heard that it works? I shall try it, and tell you guys the result tomorrow. Lol.

Tune in to 98.7fm at 8pm, Muttons to Midnight rocks! :D

Step by Step,

& That's how you suceed.

Lols! :D

I'm not tired, I dont know why! :/

I can't get to sleep now, kept thinking of the things that had happened.

Boooooooooo lah! ): I feel like I'm being cheated ):

PS; sorry friends, I'm not trying to be an attention seeker today, I just

can't control myself. I'm so sorry. Big thanks to dumbasses!

Thanks for caring, thanks for consoling, thanks for everything (:

I'm glad, you all never leave me alone!

I'm feeling much better now, I can't be that emo already.

I must stay strong! A small setback, doesn't mean it's the end of the world.

So I've got to stay strong to face anything without fear.

I know, someone will be there for me to support me. & I know, it's you.

Tell me what to do in order to be a sucessful person, will you? (:
I know I can't always depend on you, but just tell me how to change myself.

If possible, I will.

I want a bigbig piggy to company me ): At least, I won't feel bored.

But I won't forget my adorable piglet that's on my bed right now!

I wonder if that stupidhead is hugging that piggy tooo! Lol.

Ohhhhh, you stupidhead. I ♥ you! :D

I'm sorry if I've done something very wrong.

I know you feel that way too at times. Maybe it's just a kind of process?

Forgive and Forget, that's the way? I hope I can.

Trust me, I will do what I'm suppose to. Time.. Time.. Time..

I know you will be happy even if I'm not around, so stay happy.

Remember what I've told you, the two words. Please remember in heart.

I won't give up.

*

Feels so Different Being Here

I Was So Used to Being Next to You

Life For me is Not the Same

but There's no One to turn to

Dont know why i let it go too far

Starting over it's so hard

Seems like everywhere I try to go

I keep thinking of you

**

I just Had a wake up call(call)

Wishing that i never let you fall(fall)

Baby you were not to blame at all(When Im the One that Pushed you Away)

Baby if you knew I cared (cared)

You Would Never Went No Where (no where)

Girl I should've been right there

**

How Do I Breathe without you here by my side

How will I see when your love brought me to the light

Where do I go when your heart's where I lay my head

When your not with me, how do I breathe

How do I Breathe

*

Girl Im Losing my Mind

Yes, I made a mistake

I Thought That you would be mine

Guess the joke was on me

I miss you so bad I can't sleep

I Wish I Knew Where You Could be

Another dude is Replacing me

God, This Cant be Happening

*

I should have brought my love home,Girl

But baby I ain't perfect you know

The ground has got a tight hold

Girl,come back to me

Cause girl you made it hard to breathe

When your not with me

Tell me how do I breathe

______________________________________________

Undefine.

Sighs, everything seemed like a dream. But it's the fact, can't be changed.

Brooding over the matter for a very long time, I just can't forget.

Perhaps, I must really learn how to let it go.

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I hate myself.

Yesterday was a great day! (: Though I wasn't feeling quite well, I still

enjoyed myself at night. Like I've said, with the girls around I'd feel more

lively. (So, I pushed all those unhappy stuffs aside, and enjoy myself.)
It's so crowded there, had to squeeze with those people for 1 hour(?)

It's squeezy, It's smelly, It's super hot, It's so oh-my-god. -Laughs.

But it's really nice! (: I want to go again next year, but must go there earlier

to get a good place to watch the fireworks! It's so prettttttty la :D

& This reminds me of my PRETTYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! ♥

Dinner with them, and then traineeeeeeeed home.

Chatted with him till 2am then sleep. And I woke up late for tuition today.

Faster chiong, but still manage to reach on time :D

However, I looked like half-dead. Haha. So dam sleepy and hungry.

And tuition was alright, after that, went home for lunch. Don't know why,

nowadays I hate eating outside. Maybe, I'm trying to change my eating style.

Eat at home rather than eating outside. Save $$, Save time! Lmao.

Met Jasmine to Bishan. Walked around to look for her present, then

dinner at Ljs. Had to rush cos we had dance. So we faster eat, and train back

to Yishun. Dance was soooo fresh! (: New steps and everything.

:DDDD And today, everyone of us turn up for dance. FINALLY! :/

Had so much fun and laughters, Hahah~

Okay, that's all for today. I'm very lazy and tired.

Gonna turn in sooon, no school tomorrow! Soooooo coooool (:

It's a nice date, 100808 ♥

There's still alot, but not in my phone. I like all sixsome photos.

Very nice! (: Haha.

Okay, that's all for today. I'm lazy to blog about what happened

yesterday and today. It's a bad day for me. I hate it.

Going out with jasmine,kuanwai& zoe! :DD

Those lovely girls, sure will have lots of fun& laughters. ♥

Byebye~

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A special day, yet nothing special happened.
In the end, I'm still a loner.
A LONER, A LONER, A LONER.

Perhaps I'm just not good for you.

Sixsomeeeeee! :D

Gonna blog about today at night!

Napping time!

:D

Pictures of You, Pictures of Me.

And I just can't break myself no way.

Back from school, walked home alone again. (Forget about it.)

School was not okay? It's getting so boring. I want skip school please.

Go school also nothing, only get scolding from teachers! (-.-)

What a bad day! -Yawns.

Lmao, just want to scold somebody who's such a bloody idiot.

He's such a loser man, oh, perhaps he can't be a man. But a gay?

Lmao. He's a stealer, He's irritating, He's annoying, He's self-centered

He's a damn sore loser, He's an asshole :D

He thinks he got a cool face, but actually, if you know his character

you will not think that he's cool. He's a damn faggort, He's a gay.

Totally! (-.-) And he's full of nonsense, I'm starting to hate this fellow.

And if anything happen to him, serve him right! Cos he deserves it.

A person like this should go to hell.

But I don't understand why that stupidhead still hangs around with him.

Nvm, perhaps different people got different thinking.

Ohoh, I hope that person fails his prelim, even if you see him studying

so hard.. Actually he's just faking. And, don't you try to critisize other

people, because you're just a shit to us. With a f* attitude. Haha.

Enough is enough, stop all your nonsense. And rest in peace!

LOSER!!!!!!!! LOSER!!!!!!! LOSER!!!!!!!! LOSER!!!! LOSER!!!!!!!

I don't want to update anymore.

I'm pissed off with.. some people. Nevermind. Forget it.

I'm born to be a loner! (:

Giraffe is Loved! ♥
It's something more than saying 'I miss you'.

It's 12:37am now! Having SocialStudies paper later on!
& Since I'm chatting with BBT, decided to blog awhile before I go to bed.

I knew I had no time to finish studying all the chapters.
So I just focused on one theme, hopefully I can do well.
(I don't want to lose to that stupidhead, if not.. I'll have to..) Well,
it's just our deal! (: & I'll make sure his pocket left nothing, *Hee.

I think I'm not going to do well for my MotherTongue, it's quite
managable, But, somehow, I didn't really want to do it. I'm neither feeling
restless, nor feeling moodless. Just that, something came across my mind
and I kept thinking for a moment. Ended up, no time! :/
Lol, I'm really someone whom gets distracted easily!

And something pleasant! :DD
Spent my afternoon with stupidhead, (:
Once again, Happy 12th to the both of us! We'll make it thru, (Yea?)
And it's promised that I'm gonna make him something to repay back.
Ohyeaaah! ILY! ♥

Right, I'm going off already!
If not cannot concentrate well tomorrow. Goodluck to myself :D

Favourite pose! :D

I'm very bored ya, waiting for that stupidhead to finish his dnt! -.-

Today is his last day, so is mine. & Im finally done with my art :D

But, I have this bad feeling. I will not score for my prelims. -Roars
Waiting for teacher to tell me, my marks! :/

English paper was quite difficult. I dont know, I just think it's difficult.

I just hope I will pass my paper1. Forget about paper2. It's $!#^

Surprisingly, I was energtic throughout the whole paper, want to sleep

awhile also can't get to sleep! Lmao~ Weird lah, when I want to sleep,

I can't. When I don't want to sleep, I will just fall asleep. Haha.

Blahblah, did my art and walked home with Jasmine.

I'm home so early! (:

Gonna take a nap, His dnt sure end till very late. Always like this,

and I'm gonna be angry later. Hahas!

Edited, 8:41pm :

Ooo, I had a wonderful dinner with him not long ago! (:

And I was right, he's dnt ended quite late. So while waiting, I had

my nap! & I'm feeling energtic again! Hoho, :D

Gonna revise for my SocialStudies, I dont know what to revise for

tomorrow's Mother Tongue paper. I hope I won't do that bad.

I hope it would be much more easier than my usual paper ):

-Goodbye.

Boy, Do you still remember our date?

(: One more day, You're so loveeeeee! ♥

This is real, This is me.

I want go to the beach lah! :P It's been ages since I last went there.

I think beach is nice, the scenery is oh-god-beautiful! (:
And I remembered there's one time I went with the stupidhead, Lol.

& It's not that fun, cause it's at SembawangPark, quite boring though.

I want to go ParisPark or Sentosa with him lahhhhh!

Shall wait till after our exams finish, then can enjoy lor! Haha :D

Like my new skin? Lol, It's rather vintage, I guess!

And look at the time now, It's 1:22am! I've got a paper tomorrow and

I'm still up now! Just hope I don't fall asleep during the exam.

But I can't get any sleep now, maybe because today no tuition then

woke up very late. Can't get to sleep lah! ): I don't want panda eyes know!

Rightright, will off my comp and force myself to sleep after this post.

Today, woke up at 12plus. Prepared& went off to meet Zoe.

Went to Amk to get her ezlink done, went around to look for present.

Well, but to no avail. So went to Bishan to search for that shop!

Ended up, it's the wrong shop! Wasted our trip, but still bought

something from there. After that, trained back to Yishun to meet Syuhada.

Studied till 7pm then went off to buy something.

Blahblah, went home. Called that stupidhead but he didn't answer! -.-

Did revision for English formal/informal letters. And of course, read my

SS but it didn't really get into my head. Haha.

Wish me good luck for tomorrow's paper! Really hope I won't fall asleep! :P

& so, I'm going off now. Nights.

It would be a lovely night.

If only you're there to accompany me.

How do I breathe, Without you here by my side.
It feels so different being here, I was so used to being next to you.

Deleted my previous post, I forgot that I shouldn't be an attention seeker.
So I deleted, for those who'd read, I'm so sorry. Forget about what you've
read, I'm still alive.I'm okay. I'm still hanging on. And I would be perfectly
fine when you see me, I hope. If I emo, then don't bother about me lor.

Though I'm not okay, I'm still able to blog.
But I know no one will care how I'm feeling, Lmao. I know I'm right.
Okay, whatever.

I've got no mood to update.
Maybe tomorrow. Goodnight.