Feelings

I admit that I don't know how to control my feelings. I can love and hate at the same moment and I practically show whatever I feel so easily that everyone who took a second to notice can easily know what I am feeling. I hate and love myself for this as well. My feelings change every time I encounter something or maybe think of something. I can like something now but change my mind about it later. But, when I choose not to love or like anything anymore, I won't change. Because I know the time I made that decision, I have already run out of reasons to stay loyal to it. My feelings can change so easily that I sometimes feel that it is aging games with me. I can easily fall for something and easily fall out of it, but I did find all the reasons to leave it before I really make a decision to do so. Maybe that's why I don't really regret the decisions I've made. I don't really care about how people perceive me as long as I am happy, maybe it might hurt others, but I think it's better than me feeling bad. I am selfish, especially when it involves my feelings. So, I am sorry to those I've hurt and those I am going to hurt.