有时候

有时候你可以完全不理会我， 有时候却对我宽怀不少。 我不知道该怎么样才好。 真的那么潇洒吗？ 如果可以我也不许再挣扎。

Addiction

Addiction to something means you are not able to leave that something out of your life as you think it makes your life easier. However, addiction allows us to have too much of something that we most probably don't need and might even damage us is some form that the addict don't know. Alcoholics don't think that they have a problem. They always think that it is their last drink but they end up drinking again and the viscious cycle of waking up sober in the morning and getting drunk at night starts again. It's knowing that you have this addiction that can allow you to conquer it and hopefully remove it from your life. Everyone has an addiction that they don't want to admit and hold on to it so dearly that it suffocates them at some point. Mine is an addiction that brought me a lot of embarrassment and sadness. Though I know it will eventually result in a problem, I still don't want to admit to having this addiction nor do I want to remove it from my life. Maybe, just maybe, eventually I will be able to remove it or conquer it. But till then, I did stay an addict for as long as I can. Note to self: 'Mr. Bear, stop being my addiction, because I want to change and I want a better life for myself.'

Song

Was out yesterday with a friend, the live band starts singing songs that I haven't heard in a while. When the song starts playing, I remembered the memories I had. It is great to know and remember that we shared something in common eventhough it was just for a while or just as long as a song. A song can touch you and can be just a tune, depending on how you perceive it. I am glad that I still remember the songs I have in common with my friends and love ones so that whenever the song plays, I am reminded that I am loved and I have people whom I love. To the my friend who went out with me, I am glad they sang the song which we chose (you chose). I can now remember a tune which we share and thus sometimes remember your presence in my life whenever I hear the song. Parting will be hard, but when we meet again, we can sing this song together again and laugh about the stupid things that we talk about.海阔天空by Beyond

Decisions

Was slightly tipsy yesterday and tired at the same time when I wanted to write this. So when I wake up in the morning seeing only the title in the post and a few words in the content, I knew I fell asleep without relating my thoughts. So here it is. The decisions we make now may or may not be of importance to us now but it might have an impact to us in the future. Choosing the right choice is never going to happen as a right choice now may turn out to be a bad choice in the future. And, alternately, a bad choice now may turn out to be not as bad as it seems down the road. I made a a lot of choices up till now, some with the influence of others and some without. Sometimes, I will sit there for a day regretting the choices I made and the actions I had done. But in the end, I just have to accept that my past decisions are not changeable and those decisions are what mold me into the person I am now. If I don't like the me now, it's time to make a decision to change. Everyone will in their lifetime regret in many a decisions they have made, it is only humanly to actually do it. If u never ever regretted on any decision you made, you are just lying to yourself. Make a decision wisely, it can change you forever. We will never now how the future turns out, maybe I will regret ever writing this here. But I did love to sit down and regret about it in the future so I can make wiser decisions in the future future.