Was thinking about the impression that I give people recently... Sometimes I think they perceive me as something that I am not, yet I was the one who gave them that impression. So does that mean that how they see me is really how I am? I feel that people actually know me more than they should, especially the bad things about me. Maybe because I want them to perceive me as this kind of person, I don't want people to think that I am all good, so I would rather they think lowly of me so I can one day surprise them with my not-so-lowly acts... Yet it is this that gives them the impression that I am not 'good' in some fields... Will try not to show too much of my 'bad' side to people in the future...
Side note:
Drank with 3 other colleagues yesterday... apparently all 4 of us were high... One was vomiting, the other fainted in the toilet after she helped the one to vomit to reach the toilet... The other one woke up with an empty head and stomach.... I slept on the couch till 5 in the morning before moving back to bed.... Ahhh... things that alcohol do to you... But, I will do it all over again just to relive the 'high-ness'.
Tuesday, 16 August 2011
Tuesday, 9 August 2011
Buried....
Was out in the garden just now burying the 3 cats (new-born ones)that died this morning (or yesterday night).... Yup.... the cats were those found in the washing machine a week ago and I am betting they died of hunger... Not that I did not feed them, their mother did not... I gave them fresh milk, but none of them drank it... So, I had to bury it in my yard....
It's especially hard if u don't have the right equipments to dig a hole... So, my housemates and I dug a shallow hole using forks and spoons and buried the 3 baby cats... We even went out to look for more sand to cover them.... May they rest in peace.... and not let out a foul stench for the time they rot in the earth....
Just when I typed the title for this post, a thought came to me.... If I could bury the unwanted things in my life, wouldn't it be great? I can just remove all those things and no longer remember about it. If I could just bury my anger, my bad temper, my selfishness and all my bad underneath the soil, I will be a great person.... If I could bury my feeling of hatred and unhappiness, I will feel great everyday.... If I could bury the strong feelings that I have for anyone, I wouldn't have to worry about showing it.... If only I could..... But since I can't, I will just continue being this flawed person that people love and hate at the same time... This is what makes me human....
It's especially hard if u don't have the right equipments to dig a hole... So, my housemates and I dug a shallow hole using forks and spoons and buried the 3 baby cats... We even went out to look for more sand to cover them.... May they rest in peace.... and not let out a foul stench for the time they rot in the earth....
Just when I typed the title for this post, a thought came to me.... If I could bury the unwanted things in my life, wouldn't it be great? I can just remove all those things and no longer remember about it. If I could just bury my anger, my bad temper, my selfishness and all my bad underneath the soil, I will be a great person.... If I could bury my feeling of hatred and unhappiness, I will feel great everyday.... If I could bury the strong feelings that I have for anyone, I wouldn't have to worry about showing it.... If only I could..... But since I can't, I will just continue being this flawed person that people love and hate at the same time... This is what makes me human....
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