today is reflection day..new yr's eve..
i have been living the 19 years old for so long in my mind tt it juz dawned on me yest tt next yr is our 21st yr..i'm so not ok w the no. cos it juz screams GROW UP!!now u wish peter pan was real

was thinkin bout myself yest..there muz b a reason y i have so little frens...not tt i ever minded tt fact cos i'm oh-so-happy with my small lovely grp..but yar..there muz b a reason
other than the fact tt i have a highly specific freq..mayb i really sux
strong on pple..boss them around..hell wadever crap i do
mayb its those 19 yrs of independence..the confidence tt u build for urself backfires..n of cos the nerds n jc peeps..hahha we're like totally the same so wadever i have been doing i din c a need to change cos they're like totally fine w it..erm or they're not n they're not tellin me..hmmmm
anyway..past few mths have shown me quit a lot..pple r scared of me cos of the way i talk..they wanna slap me sometimes..in otherwords i'm overpowering..gotta find tt balance (tt word in biz comm i forgot)..n tt's gonna b so darn hard my god..but i will!this aim shall b my new yr resolution..or mayb it will b for the next few yrs cos it's gonna take so long..

happy 2009!

juz read jess' posts n i feel for her..it juz is how humans r judgmental n selfish..i mean besides the spreading of aids..gays dun pose a threat like terrorists do..yet they r despised n ostracized..the worst treatment u can ever give to anyone..n its not like they chose to b gays..well some chose but most wld rather wish they had been born like the majority seeing the kind of treatment they have to face with..y is it so hard to accept..had we been not born n taught tt man n woman make a couple..we may even have an equal no. of gays n heterosexuals now!cos then pple will go by natural instinct n like any1 they like be it man or woman

i will nvr fully understand their plight..but i will nvr stand w society n judge them on tt

4th day of missing u..
sb shd really invent sth to let u blog on the go..cos most of ur thts come when u're juz sitting n waiting..n most pple do tt a whole part of their lives..waiting for buses..on buses..waiting for pple..waiting to shit..
had lots of thts the other waiting day but barely remember them now..
one was on gifts..cos i saw the annoying crowd on the streets of town..loads of spending pple with huge bags of prez n stuff..y do pple give prez?out of courtesy i guess..becos tt's wad they've always been doing..so if u suddenly stop..pple will talk..i like how my family does it..christmas..nth special..no prez..bday..a cake..mayb sth special on our 21st..but tt's bout it..n tt shd b it..no disappointments..no unnecessary worries for parents..n for siblings if u c sth nice get it..if not forget it..gifts r called gifts cos they shd come from the heart..not from an obligation..i predict 99% of the gifts u receive r not wad u wan or like..unless of cos u tell pple wad to get u..n tt's juz lame..might as well give u red packets..u give cos u feel like giving..u shdn't feel bad giving..if not dun give gifts..now i'm juz killing the economy

there was the other one on my life..categorizing it now into 2 stages..before him & after him
BH, life was gd..hang out with frens..hang out w myself..hang out w the internet..hang out w the tv
AH, life was excellent..hang out with him hangout with him hang out w frens hang out with him..
now..AH but w/o H gives u juz A..hang out with frens hang out w tv hang out w tv hang out w tv hang out w internet..life sux!
simple alone time ain't fun anymore...its like i carn b alone now..n tt's y u sux..this is so embarassing..my other self is hurt cos i dun wanna hang out w just her anymore

tt's all i remember..

juz came back from my 1st sneak preview..twilight..the show captures quite nicely y every1's on the vampire craze..really nice n refreshing love story...esp love the things that the actors dun say..juz the way they look at each other..kudos to the cast..
n the girls's so chio!edward cld b better but he got the charm n the vampire look..his lips..n those piercing eyes..
loving the red sports car too..n dr collins..tt's one handsome vampire dr..
so drawn to it..
so gonna get the series now...

ahhhhhh!! gosh finally over!!i swear it felt like i've been studying forever man..three weeks..not gd..but ok now tt its over I GOT LOTS TO DO I DUNNO WHERE TO START!
gotta meet up with everyone..gotta pack for my trip n of cos go!! gotta look through n decide on my sep..gotta hangout with my bro..gotta watch all my shows..catch up on jap..restart fitness for ivp and hockey..n more n more n more!!!

talkin bout sep..after much deliberation..i have decided to go in yr 3 sem1..the bad news is tt i'll b missing a whole lot of 21 birthdays including my own..nvm the rest of the parties missed..but the nerdies!!haiz..how how how!!though on the other hand u guys can guarantee at least 2 prez cos 1 will b flown from europe!! and another bad news is i'm gonna so die w/o them when its ALL their turn for exchange in sem 2!!

ok onto my shows now..

hello my lovely blog!i have to tell u about my fav show of all time MADAGASCAR!!!juz watched 2 juz now....omg..i lives up to the first one!!!n love it even more baby!!so gonna get the dvds both of them..the penguins n the stupid king are so lovely hahahaha ok tt's all for now..if u're studying take a break n go watch it!

exciting day today...1st car accident n a massive one..thk god not serious
on the way for midterms then 7 cars jam brake one after another n collided..we were the 6th..heng not the last..haha n it teaches u to nvr stinge on the car quality for safety sake..

then later at nite hockey training..1st time in a long while..played well n then sprained by ankle..:( boo..

some day huh

the 1st ever F1 night race in freakin singapore
nope i din buy the ex tic..but still I WAS SO THERE!
n its diff..so diff..when u watch on tv u're thinkin y so slow..BUT ITS SO FREAKIN FAST ITS LIKE HIEEEOOOOO n the car juz went by..n when u're there..juz the sound of the engine is enough to excite u..but of cos after tt it got so loud my eardrums hurt..still..carn believe F1 was zooming around in town...another thing tt doesn't feel real

As we stroll along, together
Holding hands, walking all along
(wee woo wee oo)
So in love are we two
that we don't know what to do.
So in love (so in love)
in a world of our own (so in love)

As we walk by the sea, together
under stars, twinkling high above
(wee woo wee oo)
So in love are we two,
no one else but me and you
So in love (so in love)
so much in love (so in love)
so in love (so in love)
so much in love (so in love)

We stroll along, together
I tell you, I need you oh so much
I love, I love you my darling
can you tell it in my touch

As we walk down the aisle, together
We will vow to be together till we die
(wee woo wee oo)
so in love are we two,
just can't wait to say I do
so in love, (so in love)
in a world of our own (so in love)
so in love (so in love)
are you and I (so in love)

Baby, I realize that you mean so much to me
You're everything I want girl
to touch, to feel your body close to me
I just wanna hold you in my arms, forever

Can you tell it in my touch...

As we walk down the aisle, together
We will vow to be together till we die
(wee woo wee oo)
so in love are we two,
just can't wait to say I do
so in love, (so in love)
are you and I (so in love)
so in love, (so in love)
are you and I (so in love)

my blog is dead because of u

jam & hop!!they bluff pple lor i was so gonna win best dressed w jamie..lol!
yeps they has hollywood stars theme n of cos no one dresses up cos their juz too boring but anyways jamie n i went as MK n Ashley Olsen!when bess sends me the pics i'll load up but for now they're all in facebk..then i give u the original for comparison :) 1 is simple elegance n other is juz boho/hippie crazy
though i got many stares along the way n i feel out of this country but was like damn fun la!cannot wait for halloween..dun u juz love dressups

pageant was like mother boring self entertain by tryin to find cute guys but other than tt programs always sux..my sis's boots killed me a bit i swear its like binding my feet but still had fun e rest of the nite..gd move for arena to change the band again cos the last 1 juz totally suxed n the female dj is like how cool can!plus i got enough entertainment around me to last the whole nite :)) hehe

tired..sleep so much still tired..
anyways i juz realised i got 3 ogs!foc uc n oweek!not tt i'm close to all but still tt mounts up to many many outings!!ks feeling old again

today sch starts..means i am determined not to sleep during lect (almost did today but i survived)..determined to constant study n do ALL hw..determined to play gd hockey n floorball (tt means actually train my damn fitness)..mayb make it into blast..n ace the sem
not too hard rite :)

k sb gimme loads of red bull
somehow i am scared tt u r the one for me

i'm slow but i officially became the pres of joker fan club!!!!gosh..y so serious!!!okok the show is zai-ness really..sorry amelia i watched it but i swear i'll gladly watch it again w u...the pure evilness how sadistic he is n craziness brought out by heath ledger is juz imba can..like my god..not even johnney depp can pull it off so well i think..its like after the movie u're juz stuck there..immersed in it n dun wanna snap out
thks for batman..i promise red cliff

some pple juz wanna watch the world burn
r u really expecting nth in return?

wa till now still dreaming bout yest..its truely a milestone in my life siah ahaha
k last nite met dear marcus for coffee after rag..then he say wanna bring me go dempsey cos i so suaku n holland v cmi so ok he pick me up at clementi...then he said over the phone 'eh i not driving my car ah'..then i stunt for a moment..like omg..OMGGGGGGG I AM GONNA RIDE A PORSCHE!!!then after tt veh super excited liao..waiting for my bus also cannot stop smiling..i look like a crazy ass la..then later when u c the yellow sweet thing arrive n u sit in n it accelerates..oh heaven..u feel like a million bucks inside i tell u..now i know y guys take pride in their car

k they go dempsey wa the place is nice can..too bad no camera..went to c the supermart called jones..its like u flew to australia when u're inside..water cost 7 bucks HAHA
then went ben&jerry's..take forever to get a seat..saw tubby!hahah ARE U ALL JEALOUS?lol he looks the same...nvr change 1..n eugenia also there..make me feel guilty bout not gg for hockey..n yixian also there..haha its a meet pple nite..
the band singing there is gd..but u'll have to c ur nite..its not a ideal place to chit chat la..but veh nice to chill..n beware of pretty looking cakes..they may not taste nice..chocolate nvr goes wrong hahaah

then zoom zoom back he retract the top at my hs..yay!!only we go past the dustbin then a bit smelly ah..but other than tt COME ON MAN!its the whole pt of a sports car..to feel the wind in ur hair as u speed..oo shiok desu

ok yep tt was last nite..i am now sitting in my little chair in my hdb :)

yay when u nvr give up we definately can make it! recently received a mail from eugene tt says sdu was a success..they're giving quite a bit to us..ssc on the other hand is a disappointment..but still..i'm happy enough..juz carry on my side hoping to secure more!really hope swatch n motorola comes in!

met up with jen finallly..she's pretty n cute as ever..
really shd arrange to meet dan soon

my feet hurts like crap..i ram my toe into the chair n it bled..n i ordered lemon chicken rice take away but they din gimme the lemon..n i waited ssoo mother long for buses today..
tml will b better

wa kao back from camp n both my mails are like the floods in phillippines
then juz today also i get 1 million mails from facebk alone..gosh
ok Hippies were great!!sad we lost by 1pt to booza (like wth can) so sorry we broke the 5 yr tradition..on top of tt i cannnot say enough how screwed the camp comm is..the plannin n all..i mean i appreciate the effort n all but its still suxed..except for slumber party...tt saved the whole camp..n of cos my freshies..yes not perfect but still lovely! such a camwhore grp i will tell u the no. of pics we have when we collate them...sure to hit the roof

then the day we break camp i went zouk for austin gathering at nite..i surprisingly can tahan!let's juz say every1 shd know their own limits huh..other than tt was fun!i think guys go with girls super sian 1 lor..luckily they had free entry..n poor marcus cldn't leave at 1pm gotta nanny all the way hehe

k continue another time..back to mails

wa my gosh..close to a mth w/o blogging!
k evidently v busy..foc is over!!
real fun..everything turned out well..nice superb og AUSTIN POWERS!! (yeah baby!!)
the expectations of a gd lookin batch were there :D
now onto union camp!!
kambate for my jap..moving onto 3rd lesson n i will survive!!

sis is back!!at the same time i break camp..so the whole day we were juz sleeping throughout the sunny afternoon enjoying aircon lol..n my bro is so sweet he misses her..lie in bed with her :)
now her stuff is alll over the floor n cannot even walk..n i think she wans to die when she saw her table..hahaha now full of my rubbish lol
carn wait to c her buys!she shd also c mine man...i think can compete


seemingly good traits
but y are we being punished for being them strong and independent

finally started on hiragana..carn wait to begin classes..soon i can flirt with jap boys

been pretty fun past few days..stayed at bess' for 2 consecutive nites n i c her more than i c my family..so sick of u bess ahah..i love unplanned stayovers..adrea stayed too on the 1st nite..majonged through noon n won like 14 bucks!yays..i used to b the kind once u play $ sure lose..luck is changin!then we went botak jones..my jaw got some gd exercise..then back to bess' n talk n talk over cards so the game was a bit retarded kind cos adrea n i dun multi task well..well actually i think its more like we think b4 or when we're talkin so like the brain is concentrating haha..n it really was nice..discover more about them n even myself..n we talked bout how we nvr fail to bitch bout each other n yet we know we'll b frens forever..yes i'm not talkin bullshit here but it really is..i carn imagine myself not being in contact with them..if like (touch wood) next time sb do sth dipshit like fraud or sth we may still bitch bout her or judge her but our hearts will always stand by her n over rule our minds to go help her..now tt's some love

then in bet some ibiza mktin done n still more to go..then to mos cos bess was deprived..but mos on thurs was apparently not free anymore (freakin $20) n i no $ so settle for arena..but arena's crowd sux so bad n we dun wanna waste our nite so i thicken my skin go ask the arena staff to lend me $10(always ask a guy)..then he gave like he was passin us drugs n sneaked off to hide..so we went mos n 'enjoy' 1st then later come back find him again..but u notice the '' cos mos suxed too..even worse than arena..so we hop bet these 2 till 2+am(pathetic)

oh ya n i managed to get the guy's no n name so i can return his $ someday..he better not think i'm pickin him up

anyways then we settled for mos cos we discovered how fun the very empty disco room upstairs can be..the song r not the mambo kind but like 70's music or sth..i dunno..but i know there's a diff bet the 2 cos i like it more than mambo..n the songs..they r familiar too but we carn name the titles..haha..so we danced till mos closed n made our $'s worth finally (my mommy asked me stay over at bess' wow)

then few hrs later woke up earlier to go home heng dental postponed..but cldn't wake up in time for squash but every1 was late anyway..so we played though our calves r so sore n i end up now whole body sore..neck abs arms butt hips..the calves esp..worse than any floorball or hockey training..then few games of majong n off to ibiza again..then to meet stef sherry tt bunch..gosh stef got a drastic hair change!haha pretty cool..she look like ming xing..we had waruku for dinner..my 1st time n i'm definately gg back..blew my pocket though

don't u juz love the convenience of camera phones :)
us in mos lol..spot the faces

bess out of her boots

4+am at bess' hs

lovely waruku icecream

at bess' waiting for adrea who's taking ever so long to come so we can play majong
started mkting calls n stuff..loads of tt the next 2 days...i really hope we nail ibiza
n poor captain kim is sitting in the store room..GOT BOOTH OR NEED TO RAISE FUNDS PLZ LOOK FOR ME!!CHEAP N REAL YUMMY SNACKS AT WHOLESALE PRICES HERE!!
ok..hungry

lol i juz had muffins!!

hahha look i'm so chio now..this is for tarm n amelia who wanted to c..got full lips like angelina jolie n during the surgery they stretched my lips so wide it resembles shu qi's..i was damn scared while sitting on the chair waiting for them to prep..the injection was like damn pain can..n i tht if numb still can feel them cutting..but nope..only can feel the digging n drilling n stuff..i wld have wanted to watch..i can totally imagine wad they doing from previous surgeries i watched

then while they prep me..i even more scared cos i c how inexperienced the 4th years r..wa lau..like come on nvr watch surgery b4 meh..a lot of things they dunno..the nurse also scold the guy how come dunno..tsk..i think all dentists shd b made assistants 1st before they start studying..suppose to clean the mouth area he clean until my cheeks can..i wanted to laugh..
eh but cos i let them do the whole thing only cost 60bucks vs 200 outside..every1 shd go let dental students practise on u lol

surprisingly i dun feel any pain at all since the injection..only soreness after surgery n before i took the damn painkillers..was so scared the numbness wear out b4 i collect the painkillers..

1 day has passed n i already cannot stand eating plain porridge every meal..n i get hungry so easily!so i moved onto almond jelly cos its also easy to eat..then today i tried chocolate n i managed..it nvr tasted so gd..i'm veh tempted by the wan ton mee mayb i'll try later hehe
after this i definately will not even think about jaw surgery :)

another day at home..finally started on the boxers..after wad a yr?hahha..its lookin gd..plus i i got toally no help..my mum n my maid r impressed yay..but i take 1 whole afternoon siah..my back wanted to break..still got like 3 more to go?n my mum ask me make 1 for her..HELLLO???!like the cloth is thomas train can!!lol

went sentosa with jess amelia n tarm tt day..went earlier to shop n i spent 90 at F21 sale section..lol..i so happy 1st time i take stuff into the dressin room n come out with all i took..then we left vivo n it was pourin like mad..but my the time we got there the sun came out n we still managed to burn ourselves woot!then we played frisbee n all sorts of shit..haha amelia's inability to swim n hence her fear of drownin is quite funny..sorry babe ahaah..then went jess' n nua n i ended up stayin over..since i bought so many clothes i had change so i decided wtheck lol

then next day town n they cut hair n shop a bit n trim brows..then left for ibiza meeting..yes finally the meetin tt i find myself noddin my head..things r lookin better but still got a lot to do..

i mailed cleo..hope they give it to me!

tml looks like a day for the 2nd boxers hai

lazy sunday noon..the 1st day i've had nth to do since exams but sit around n watch dvds on my lovely sofa in my lovely living room
finished my anime so now on psp n moving onto korean dramas soon..n gotta start with learning jap

past few days busy meeting up..every1 is flyin to europe its so unfair..day of last paper was fun..went to eat n bowl n arcade n spent hell lot of money..n of cos losin 8bucks to majong n poor stef even more..marcus n robin wooped our asses..hey but we'll get back i swear..n thks to him for the lift home..not everyday u get driven home in a bmw

then meet up with nerdies for bess' b day..got her a mng bag which all of us so love n a wallet..treat was at hooked at rail mall..been gg to tt place quite often nowadays..n the food was real gd..it din look like it was gonna b tt gd but it was..haahh...every dish we ordered we went 'MMmm nice nice!'..then it was bess' surprise..its always easy to fool her..n the expression tt juz burst out of her was unforgettable..it din matter tt we caused so much disturbance in the restaurant cos at tt time u only cared about the joy from ur fren..tt's wad makes surprises so fun..then the durian cake from goodwood..omg totally..can't have enough

next met up with the fblers..n it was my place!HA..seldom i get visitors..how shiok..laze n snack around to die hard 4.0 which was nice action pack but very laughable..n maggieQ so hot but quick death..then we went to west coast to play softball with eusoff pple..haven been to tt place in a mother long time..weird..dunno any1 nor how to play tt game..but it was fun..batting is so fun though i'm not veh gd..wld love to play more of it..hahha thks to tt my arms r still soring from the workout..ya i'm tt lousy..the ache is clearly the most intense i ever had even anywhere else

then its the hot hockey girls!turned out only 4 of us met..orly n ching went mia..n i was an hr late cos i woke up late n the other half hr thks to our very timely transport system..but was gd catching up..nobody changed much except hotter than ever..i dunnno how they do it when i'm the 1 with cca..then we rush off cabbin to delta only to find out we're too late to join in a game of hockey with ac pple..wasted cab fare !*#@%&%(* but oh wellls..watched a superb premier game after tt bet recs n police..i'm so inspired to improve n at least reach some sort of standard..i must..i keep sayin it huh..pao is back from duke n she's so strong now..her speed is like nvr before..then after tt stayed on lil while more to watch rama n benjy play their match..benjy improved..played well..rama still workin his magic..din feel like gg home after tt so i went to walk round town..n browse at borders a bit more..decided my threshold for prices seemed to b lesser nowadays n everythin is ex to me..except $2 mcflurry

n then we're back to today..lil jon's b day n happy mother's day..suppose to go down to peni to look for a skateboard or skates for him..but nvm too lazy..another day heh

time for photos!

gobal warming really sux big time..singapore is like going from flood to dessert now
the weather was misleadingly gd ealier..i had so much energy to run around..the moment we started playing it got so damn hot i felt like i was cooking like an egg..plus fitness suxed big time thks the the eating n increased fats again..even my coach scolded me for bein so unfit..tt's wad studyin does to u..!*%^*% k anyways i was proud of myself cos i held on (though my mind kept thinking half time half time or match over match over) also cos we were playin 1 man down..idiotic pple wanna study so say not coming down to play..so 1 man down already i cannot so selfish sub out n rest..n every1 else also in sun mah..though midfield more tiring
so we were against the dutch premier team..though 1 man down we managed 2-3 slight loss..premier leh..i how proud of our play today can..but i think cos they missing their key player also..but still every1 in the whole team is way above us in standard..n we missing loads of key players..
almost cramped up in both my calves..after tt felt so unwell..had to sit on the kitchen floor a while..then ok liao then ended up chattin with my mom again..of cos my sis joined..elder sis wld have too if she were here..like last time..now remise those days when she cooks n we sit around the kitchen floor for no apparent reason juz to chat with her n disturb her..haha
yep tt's wad i mean by focus on better things in life..
k need to go running soon..shall keep..k attempt to keep it up till next yr U21..last 1 leh..muz b zai for it ahahha

FUCKER!!!
bloody fucking stupid jacinta!
too stupid to think n now it's harder
mayb u ate so much till the fats got to ur brains
we'll juz c if luck is on ur side

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky
OneGood-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

half truths to it..u can tell esp when they say social n outgoing n havin lots of frens lol

yest's law suxed big time..its even more so when u know u r to blame n tt if u had done more it wldn't have been tt bad..left 30marks totally blank..i really hope i dun do too badly..dunno wad i was doin n rather unprepared..i think this is the 1st time any exam went so badly..tryin to b poistive n still aim 4 a B+..but in case tt doesn't happen cos the chances r slim..i will have to try n get as high as possible for om n mno which r left..n i hope my gem can help too cos i think it went well..fna was worse than his previous 2 papers but i still hope i can get tt A..this sem muz trumph the last sem..muz..study asshole study

omg its thurs already..i shd start panickin
anyways yest i went home to watch central..love wed nites..animal nite..ahhah
esp the blue planet..of cos its on the deep sea..n u c all the beautiful creatures n nature at work
how the earth itself sustain such diverse life just by the deep sea current flow and the seasonal changes and the moon's cycle..how animals r tuned to somehow migrate or lay eggs at this specific time of the yr n stuff..i was thinkin mayb they arn't tuned..mayb they r smart n worked this perfect timing out themselves..like how so many million turtles gather on a single beach to lay eggs..like so many beaches muz all pick this one..
n ya..i think they talk..i mean juz cos we carn comprehend dun mean they dun talk..mayb they r the ones thinkin we're so dumb n stuff..lol..amelia can b the breakthrough in this research..

they showed a bit on killer whales..n i know y they're called killer whales..cos they kill whales..i mean u watch free willy n u think wa so cute n u think they eat fish..but nono..they r so fierce n they dun juz settle for fish..like a whole pack of 15 were targetin this grey whale along her migration journey with her 2 calves for 6 hrs..then cos the journey so long n when the calves were tired enough they attack n drown the baby whales..yes they can drown..n they do this by takin turns to flip themselves ontop of the calves to keep the calves away from the surface..evil..n then they eat the calves' tongue n lower jaw..so much for free willy

n then there's stuff on the mating of sea creatures..like there's this period the whole stretch of sea from dunnno where to dunno where will b covered with herrin or wadever fish it is's thick white foam of sperm..wow huh..then the squids also veh cute..their legs turn red when mating..cute

ok back to sunny dry singapore with fna

was surprisingly quite awake despite only 2 hrs of sleep..fna is finally over..coldn't b happier..now biz law is left..buts tt one i think ok
went to 'celebrate' with amelia after tt..ended up at sushi teh in holland v..cos the rest was so ex..but look wad we did..ended up sitting there for over 2 hrs n our bill was 63 bucks..damn..coa after a while we keep starring at the food n decided to heck it n eat..then after tt bought cheek stain also so i spent 50bucks in a day..fna is so costly tsk

saw my shawn yue again today :)

my god 6.30am..
i don't c i so hardworking during exams

my diving trip plans juz went into smoke :(
i need new frens who is in sync with me at this level
pple taking summer terms r scarring me
i need to do more with my life this hols
fna makes the best torture weapon..subtle yet deadly
its not worth but yet i carn stop myself

My Wish List:
(in no order)

1. Go deep sea diving and see the titanic shipwreck
2. Go deep sea diving and explore underwater caves
3. Participate in a historical find (new biological finds or archaeological finds)
4. See Venice before it sinks
5. Globe trope around the world
6. Swim with the dolphins
7. See a blue whale in the sea
8. To ride in a hot air balloon with my beloved
9. Enjoy a drink while relaxing in the Dead Sea
10. Explore a pyramid
11. To go to outer space and see Earth from above

Till i think of more.. :)

OMG!!FOR ONCE IN MY WHOLE OF THIS SEM I CAN DUN GO TO SCH ON MY 'FREE' DAY!yep..but due to my stupid net being down n the unstable net from tappin other's i am considering gg to sch anyways..
2 more reports n 1 presentation to go..jia you!!

dunno if i said this b4..but i am reminded of it yet again after amelia's post..hahha
its like there comes a pt in time u r so sick of being upset tt u sort of accept it n even start making jokes at urself
n even more so now when u start hanging out with a bunch tt r all freakin in love

i juz wanna do my work well now
time to buy tt txtbk

Leaders



This is y i din cast a vote for u..leaders shd nvr b purely determined on votes..cos most pple dun put their brains to use when voting..they vote based on perception or popularity or skills..they dun take time to think and reflect or imagine the results of their votes..

I know enough about leaders..requirements of big ones n small ones..wad makes them gd..wad makes them not..n i know i cannot be a big leader..i believe one muz have certain inate qualities for tt..big leaders are born..not learnt..cos learning can only bring u so far and muz be able to mingle well..muz be able to control ur emotions..muz be selfless..n all this u r not..scold when scolding is needed..but fuck is unnecessary..u dun even c this as a team

if only pple use their brains

this is y i hate not doin my hw..then i come to tutorials n waste time bein totally not productive n blogging lol

oh ya i wanted to say sat's floorball was damn exciting..i scored my virgin goal since enterin nus!!yes cos now i think he quite permenantly put me as forward liao..n i quite freakin happy cos i am like a free bird who is finally able to use her wings..hahaa..k anyways..the match went like tt..2-0 lead by us then 2-2 ends 1st period..then they scored again n carn remember wad liao i think we were denied of a penalty n then they went on to counter us n scored n weewee was damn pissed he shout fuck n kicked the boards..then 4-4 ends 2nd period i think..then we kana penalty n sarah did an amazing save n we went on to 6-4 n won :)

i pon hockey match...n i got triceps ache from shootin a few hoops..how noob

i like so need to complain..gosh
project works..they drive me nuts..mainly cos i'm doing majority of the work for most of the teams tt i'm in..n tt's wad's tiring me out..reading journals after journals..the same report over and over again..editing people's work or redoing it..
rite now the frustration is on GEM report..on emotions affecting teacher's motivation...they shd do one on emotions affecting my motivation man..5 pple in grp..i am the only yr 1..3 arts 1 computing..n i was initially happy cos i c arts..like wa they sure veh zai rite..bullshit..ok fine to b fair its not all bullshit..i can sorta rely more on 1 girl..but tt's bout it..the other 1 ask her to compile n write intro n review + edit a part of the report..come back she edit but not review n the intro she juz took my draft intro wholesale..no additional input wadsoever..n tt intro was like for myself to organise the main idea of the report..n she was suppose to have done intro at the same time we did the contents..obviously not
then the other 1 wa thurs we had meeting to chiong cos our proj like due comin mon..then we set like beginning of the week know..he come then say he 8pm gotta go cos he meeting his frens at heeren..wa lau..then the other girl tt i can rely on damn bu shuang go say him 'huh we rushin report know?you can go and play?you really wanna leave us here?' wa damn zai..haha..i laughin like mad inside..but he still left..asshole..then again not as if he contributes when he stays..but at least he shd stay u know..
the last guy did his work like 1 hr live interview so i also ok with him..cos i nvr do my interview lol..but then his part of the report i muz like rewrite cos i dunno y arts pple somehow think different from normal..but got some substance there
then this part i dunno who write one..but copy wholesale can!!!like HELLO! we r submitting to turnitin so u juz provided us with an excellent suicide method!wa luckily i go back n reread the article..now i dunno wad else is copied i carn possibly read all the articles used rite

ok wow i juz wrote a report on complaining about writing the report..
back to the report

i know i haven blogged in really long..busy n all..realised my time line is really tight n i gotta pioritise now..like how i've been missing floorball trainings for 2 weeks..feel damn bad..things tt happened r like amara stay n erm sch..
anyways wanted to blog cos i'm emo again..juz watched goong again despite how i shd b doing my projects or sleeping..i juz wish i can learn some emotions..the true meaning to laugh..to cry or juz to feel anything at all..i'm like an empty shell..
i want to cry but i carn..because i dunno how

One of the sweetest love declaration of all times(besides adam sandler's 'grow old with you' song)
From the movie 'Chasing Amy' which i have not seen n i think jess wld like to watch..not ur ordinary love story ;)

I love you.
And not, not in a friendly way, although I think we’re great friends.
And not in a misplaced affection, puppy dog way, although I’m sure that’s what you’ll call it.
I love you.
Very, very simple. Very truly.
You are the epitome of everything I have ever looked for in another human being.
And I know that you think of me as just a friend, and crossing that line is the furthest thing from an option you would ever consider.
But I had to say it. I just, I can’t take this anymore.
I can’t stand next to you without wanting to hold you.
I can’t, I can’t look into your eyes without feeling that, that longing you only read about in trashy romance novels.
I can’t talk to you without wanting to express my love for everything you are.
And I know this will probably queer our friendship—no pun intended—but I had to say it, because I’ve never felt this way before.
And I don’t care, I like who I am because of it.
And if bringing this to light means we can’t hang out anymore, then that hurts me.
But God, I just, I couldn’t allow another day to go by without just getting it out there, regardless of the outcome—which by the look on your face is to be the inevitable shootdown. And, you know, I’ll accept that.
But I know—I know that some part of you is hesitating for a moment. And if there is a moment of hesitation, then that means you feel something too.
All I ask, please, is that you just, you just not dismiss that, and try to dwell in it for just ten seconds.
Alyssa, there isn’t another soul on this fucking planet who has ever made me half the person I am when I’m with you.
And I would risk this friendship for the chance to take it to the next plateau.
Because it is there between you and me. You can’t deny that.
Even if, you know, even if we never talk again after tonight, please know that I am forever changed because of who you are and what you’ve meant to me.

new updates..almost all weekends r gonna b packed with matches includin 2 sundays with 2 matches each back to back

kr hall production - i left my heart at outrum park

saved by kim n francine totally..like they r obviously so experienced compared to the rest...n well done props the mrt is impressive..the sound volume guy sux..the songs some gd some bad but i like it tt its really like a musically not like eusoff's where the dances r juz put in cos they want dances

i made oscar throphies for orly n francine..i'm sorry orly's is so bad compared to francine's cos i made tt 1st from my wadever memory of the throphy..so ya when amelia googled the image i wanted to redo the 1st one liao

anyways here's the better one :)

look i tht i spelt actress wrongly so i tried to make corrections n changed 'R' to 'E'..in the end i changed the correct spellin to wrong..my brain is obviously not there

n cos of rushing this out before the prod..i got stares from the whole biz school cos i looked like a crazy girl sitting there playin with clay
they also ask me to join rag for the structures..n honestly when i saw them doing the structures last yr even as a prospective student..i wanted to join in to do..cos its art n craft man..love it..but i dun wanna become a zombie..cos i know if i join i will..c how

just a quick one
came back from 1st session of finishin sch..my god..now i know y francine was all negative about her life..i also wanna cross over n whine with her..its like there's SSSOOOO muh to do cos outside the competition is so great..i can already feel the pressure from the workin world..n there's so much u gotta do juz to beef up tt amazing resume..now i know y jon holds interviews n screen his pple closely..cos pple join things for the sake of joining

to exams..i nvr seem to learn my lesson..itchy fingers leads me to changin my ans when i check my paper n then changin correct ans to wrong..2 times already n i know its juz 2 n it doesn't mount to much but with a paper tt every1 scores high it does..i have no idea y so many pple said om was damn hard n fna is easy..cos i stand by the opp view..even though i lost my 1st set of om notes n din study much of tt n they came out so many ques on it..the calculations r all ok provided i din make dumb mistakes..i'm pinnin my hopes on om since my ms failed me..i really quite like decision sciences :)

to after exams..SO NEED A HAIRCUT!i'm thinking of chionging to adrea's place tml morning to cut..then need to get sth for the kr hall prod pple n then do law tutorial n then discuss gem project oh my got so much to do..then gotta focus on open hs n hall n continue my mama shop n foc logistics is gonna start getting work though i really think there's not much to do there then i gotta study more esp fna is drivin me crazy with the current lects n then i gotts BUY my mno txtbk n START to read n i gotta think of wad else i wanna do for summer break cos joan tay made me feel like my time is veh precious then i gotta check out tt diving trip tt jing aisyah n i plan to go for our getaway n then n then n then

i have stuff to do :)
(haha i can imagine jess giving up reading the above para)

can it get any worse..
my nightmares have been absent for a while but they nvr fail to remind me of them..they r like so tramatising than any horror movies i've watched tt i can still remember most of them from 1 million yrs ago
yest's was weird n bad..i dunnno y it always involves pple getting killed..but yest's was weird cos it was sorta unrealistic..a first time..its like a freak murder happened n the remains were all along the pavement n a very gruesome sight like no other..like the person was cut up into little cubes n the cubes were left behind like bread crumb trails from hansel n gretal..n i was somhow pushed towards it n i got closer n close stepping over cubes of flesh n approachin the whole chunk of insides out remains in pieces straight ahead n i cannot stop moving closer towards it
so wad does all these horror murder dreams say about my mind or thts?
hope i dun turn into a historical serial killer of all time

i have a dream.

game early morning..lost but oh wells i'll give it to them
then went sch for king of courts meeting..yeps guys..street soccer anyone?top cash prize of $500bucks...yeps gonna b on 29th of march..go train up..
then went with amelia to vivo..always tempted to go there even though i absolutely hate the ride home..mostly its so long tt i get bus sick like now..feelin tight in the chest

anyways after she left at bout wad 5?i sat alone at starbucks..read a bit of readings..barely 2 pages n dozed of a bit..then atre at kids playin this cute horse thingy..reminds me of childhood days when we always tag along with my mom to boonlay every sunday n sit the car thingy while she shops..
then i my mind went wild also..tht of a lot of things..no not the emo sort..like clothes design..like how new designs come about n wad makes them popular..then i realise tt the fashion mkt is like super saturated...is it possible to come up with a whole new unique design..redefine figures..defy norms n stuff..but i'm not gonna say my thts here..later my idea kana kope..hahahah
i love it..juz sitting n doing nth but let ur thts run..in no hurry to get anywhere or do anything..like u have all the time in the world..i think i sat there for 3 hrs
yeps so tt's how i wasted 1 whole day..hahahah
ps: jamie coming holis lets get starting with sewing n stuff!!i'm so excited!

ohoh i forgot to tell u how i veh proud of myself today..i managed to dig out my ingrown hair!!ok u may get grossed out here on so i warn u 1st..yes its armpit hair..hahah c girls face so much shit..y do we have to shave huh huh huh..kk but its gross if u dun..it started like yest or day b4 or sth..like i bathing then i notice got this small lump on my armpit n like can c black tinge under the skin..means ingrowth..so i squeeze it to try n get the ingrowth out..but then a lot of pus came out!then i squeeze n squeeze wa like nvr ending..then ok till no more pus then like the lump almost gone..but then i veh tired liao so left it..then today i decided to try again get the ingrowth out..i squeeze n tore my skin..1st layer..no blood only white liquid which is called plasmids?carn remember..i think wrong..anyways then can c the hair clearer so i try n use the tweezer to pinch it out..the blood start coming out..n still carn get it!try veh long n my back n my eyes n my head n arm n shoulders damn tired..not easy k..then i go get needle instead..shiok it worked!!use like an unpicker ahahaa..n the ingrowth was damn long can!!like i was shocked it came out like a thread so long..no wonder so much pus..hahah now ain't my post interesting

today wad so happy..nvr laughed so much in a day b4..of cos i was damn sluggish i think cos i ate nonstop throughout the day..then veh tired n shit..even when eyecandy there i still not as high as normal..but had fun helping out with IA cos i din feel like doin work anyways..n then juz chattin with the pple in the room..i think the ticky part is hilarious..like i laughed damn hard n damn unglam..like i can c him like starring at me with the 'y she so siao' expression but i cannot stop laughing..after tt like few hrs later amelia caught me smilin to myself somemore when i was stoning n recalled tt scene..lol
happy b day amelia!
managed to carry out a flawless plan to surprise amelia..lol i think i won oscar's tonight..jess n cynli came over..had a great time chatting n camwhoring..miss them so much..online's nvr the same
:)

the clearest pic..jess n amelia veh chio here

i cannot have long hairLOOK AT CYNLI LOOK!!

cynli veh chio here
the end..of amelia's phone cam..
yet to come..those from cynli's phone cam lol!!!!

rank 32/74
No. 5087 Jacinta Lee Wei Yu
Wave 5 - Sprint Womens Open
Swim - 00:24:52
Run - 00:32:06
Total - 00:56:57

so lets say i was 5 min late for flag-off..swim becomes 00:19:52 n total becomes 00:51:57
compared to the veh unfit me last yr: rank 47/84 timing 00:52:17
i improved by 20sec..wow..i swear it has got to do with the currents
so tempted to try AGAIN next yr

hai i wanted to break my previous timing rite..but i missed my flag-off today..so malu..the whole world swimming liao i 1 joker running n asking if tt's my wave
anyways when the timings r out tml mayb i'll minus a few mins off..i think got like 5 min lor..i jogging pass from warm up then saw them flag off siah..still muz chiong to my square strip n put on all the wristband, chip, swim cap n shit..but nvm my strong mind told myself i can catch up n i did :) orly was doing the same race too but duh i din c her
n they reversed the swim route from anticlockwise to clockwise..now most pple can follow the rope since they breathe on the right..but this also means tt we swim against the current which was pretty strong today so ya the swim seemed extra long
but overall wad veh satisfied with my race...think i did gd..*pat my back*

naped a lil n went for floorball..sian was so close to scoring 1st goal of the match n personal 1st goal since nus..but least i got 2 fouls out of them..one 2min for pushing n 1 penalty which was taken n scored by pris..N WEEWEE PUT ME AS WING!!!i was like how happy cannot stop smiling hahahaha plus we were in the same line me jing n aisyah..feel the chemistry man

today is a gd day :D

ok i remember more now

i bought like hell lot in the past mth..dunno..mayb retail therepy was badly needed..so in all tt's 1 top 1 tshirt 1 shorts 2 dresses 2 rings 1 bracelet 1 belt..tt's all i can remember.. n tuition will not start till next wk..i am runnning low on cash

adcademic update..I LOVE BIZ LAW!!yeps..yest's tutorial was so interesting..i have concluded tt though my lecturer sux at lecturering but he knows how to give his students more value in terms of learning the subject itself..nvm the tutorial is harder n he speaks at snail's pace
i hope to do real well this sem..cos last sem's grades juz sux..plz let me put my desires into action

biathlon tml..hope i beat my last timing n dun drown

wow been a long time since here
dunno if i can go through the events in order so i'll juz type wad comes to my mind 1st

ok 1st is of cos vday..ended up staying overnite to help the comm wrap flowers n shit thks to amelia n of cos sb else ahahaha ;)..but it was fun..13th nite watched 'a walk to remember' under the stars w bess..haha romantic siah..the turnout was pathetic but i think if there were more pple it wld b damn noisy n spoil the show..later went home shower n packed w amelia n back to sch..amelia knocked out real quick for bout an hr..i held up the whole nite perfecting my wrapping skills n picking flowers..reminds me of art..i like..the bizad room was like a real florist..damn cool..then u c pple coming down to help late at nite in their most sloppy wear..esp karmen..haaha funny..n the whole bizad room smells so green..then come dawn all starts to panic a little n things so a bit mad n we also go a bit too high..i was actually experiencing spinning head by bout 9am..head hurts a lil n i feel like i'm on a boat n the world is moving lol..
held out further till the day ended..longest w/o sleep..luckily i had no class on tt day..n i was still quite awake on the bus..but for some reason i told myself still quite long juz close eyes..then next thing i know i apparently knocked out n landed up in the interchange at the bus bay with the bus uncle staring at me..malu siah!!then the whole world wonder y i'm walkin across the bus bay..then went home bathe n change n off to dinner at highlanders with the singles..all the attached pang seh us..how nice..food was soso n waited for 1hr for it to b served..not worth..probably better as a late nite bar cos it has live music from 10pm..then wanted to kbox but was a lil too late n i was quite tired so bye

hmm apparently vday was so fun i carn remember anything else now..update when i remember :)

the many bouquets..


many many flowers in the super cold bizad room

the florist's table where wrapings r doneamelia n i start to get pro from doing the blue roses..arn't they pretty

n then we advance..the leaves r super ma fan

dawn breaks n we take a break from bouquets n did single stalks..
amelia with her siamese twins gevera

one of the many sunflower bouquets done myself after a lot of them started lessons in the morning

i am impressed with my phone camera haha

in light of v day...

cute...

awww..

errrrr...

feeling a mixed of feelings rite now..excitment..enthusiasm..sadness..insecure..n a whole lot of other shit i carn make out..like a dish tt has too many ingredients it turns out like crap
came back from eusoff hall production..its gd..make me feeel like joining hall again..n tt adrian guy who acted..his voice is so beautiful n deep it melts every1's heart..wish i cld sing like tt..n the script is gd too..n costumes...n props..wish i was arty farty
thinkin a lot..tryin not to think..i shd sleep..i haven touched legal at all..i shd start getting my txtbks
emo nite

6pm n i only finished half a chp..how productive..sian..
tutorials r starting tml..sianess..i hope i get nice classes..n nice classmates..n nice tutor..n nice project grp mates..
i duno la..forgot wad i wanted to say already..after readin amelia's posts
yes though i say welcome to biz..the attachment is still not yet there..
oh yes..no frens..u know wad i mean
was taking to renji on the bus..he also depressed..sth bout biz sch pple n us juz dun connect on tt same level

went for v bash juz now..before i go mad with sch work la..n veh long neh go already..

so its suppose to b the biggest bash in nus..SUPPOSE..theme is old hollywood: black n white..so i tht yay so fun like costume party know..

yep in case u dunno wad old hollywood style is like..think audrey hepburn..so u know muz red lipstick with the curled hair away from ur face n all..wa i still so happy with myself tt i do until really got tt look even without curling iron (dammit no camera)..then go until there bess wanna scold me cos no one follow the freakin theme except for the mcs..rite..so nvm look forward to c wad makes this bash by pru the most popular..we reached 1 hr later..then 1 hr into it i tht to myself might as well come even later..the only highlight was mayb the lingere models but they also sux..no curves n they walk with no fire..fhm my ass..but then the last part they came out in c through nite gowns with g strings..oo one of them has a damn mother hot ass..tt's bout it..yawns..suxy band plays n way too many luckydraws had pple shouting 'boring!'

after tt though the remix - the usual band at arena came on n saved v bash's freakin ass..well its not really considered since its after v bash but well pple stay on cos WE DID NOT PAY 15 BUCKS FOR THIS SHIT...yep those who left too bad..tonite's music was the best i've heard from them..real gd shit..mayb cos sat nite?but i think more cos they know there was a youth event b4 tt n they hype up their music to be in tune with this young crowd..wadever it is...well done to arena..boo to v-bash

yeah though bess n i were totally not in the correct dance gear with our super high killer heels..u get so tempted by the music we hide our shoes in some corner n went on w/o them..shiok..suffer a few steps on our toes by other killer heels but nvm..we din even take a break..can u imagine..n so we got tired real quick n ended our nite in record time lol...but still 4 hr nonstop is tiring

tml i can study in peace :)

not a gd day..sian to start with..practically no sales for cny..i nvr get to smile at him today..then at hockey either play defender of kana benched..makes me sooooooo pissed esp when we played like fuck today..yes like fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

i had so much fustration churnin inside me tt it cld run a whole yr of train service
then i meditate on it...cynli dun laugh..i swear i will become stronger..better..n to fight to not b benched..i will get the skills i need..on top of the hunger i have..the discipline to work..to achieve..to excel
tt means go study after this..go swim tml..push sales of cny goodies n go play some gd floorball tml

i think i have improved..bit by bit..learning wadever i can..which is a lot my god pple in biz r amazing..still trying to come to terms with the changing me..cos the old me thinks its so not cool..losing all tt daoness..but then again only weird pple like me dig tt..i'm talkin to strangers now..dunno their name but still can make small talks..smiling like jamie to every1..shouting like an auntie like my image is non-exsistant..welcome to biz

to train the mind

sent my sis off...bb for 6 mths
my mom teared..n apparently she did too when my younger sis left for india for 10days..then y i go she nvr..n she nvr send me off also :(

anyways i let myself off today ahah!!yes booth duties everyday can go mad..so i chen ji they all plan sentosa outing i run off with them too...wa they 5 cars today...damn shiok leh got cars..then played volleyball then frisbee n taned for like 15mins?but ok la i can feel slight radiation from tt short tannning session lol..had fun..nice to juz hangout too..out of so many of their sentosa outings this is my 1st ahaha

my desires r not put into action..bad bad
shall start gossip girls soon :)
oh no u c..terrible..
i am at war with myself

btw heath ledger died at the young age of...izzt 28?
wadever he's too young to die..such a handsome n gd actor
recall him in casanova..10 things i hate about u..brokeback..n upcoming batman as the joker..damn zai...he looks damn evil n scary super unlike his other roles
haiz

i had a nitemare the nite before..story was my sis flew off n i forgot to send her off..wad nitemare u may say..but somehow i was damn scared in my sleep..kept trying to wake myself up to tell myself tt its not true i'm dreaming..i was so afraid..wow..din know i love her tt much ahahhah...but really..6mths sleeping alone..of staying up late n having no one return home or no sms to say she's not coming home..of no updates on new episodes of grey's or new ang moh shows..of no new clothes or expensive buys..
i will miss her.

after rejecting my sep..it forced me to look into all my choices CAREFULLY..too lazy to do tt b4..juz wanna chop chop curry pok fly off to somewhere preferbly europe..then my sis always says shit to me the veh last min to make me re-think..now i look at NOC since application is open..its really not say tt gd for biz pple wwaaddd..a lot of the firms r into biomedical or IT..so a lot of science n computing pple..shit i need zai biz frens who know wad's gg on..like tt i think i might as well wack more internships locally n carry on my sep lor sian!

yes its 6am now..gayass duty for sport bazzar..from wad i c..turned out pretty ok huh..then later gonna rush to do cny stuff..hoping to do a bloody gd job with tt

oh yeah floorball ground-breaking news again..nus jupitians has out-placed long defending champs of ivp - nyp in the semi-finals yesterday!!!yes it was - i proudly say - a comfortable 5-2 win with a 2-0 early lead in the 1st period..talk about zai-ness..i muz say we r a team who plays better against stronger opponents lol..n i was really shocked since nyp is suppose to have 3 nat players but their play is pretty much quite individual n not all tt impressive..n their mental strength...they broke down so easily..perhaps its cos we're the underdogs..they really din think much of us..but now tt we've woken them up..next yr is no joke..but 1st..ONWARDS TO FINALS..ONWARDS TO BEING CHAMPIONS

3am..hai..this is considered average nowadays..rotting at home with me..my laptop..n jap shows
after jap hanakimi now its onto jap meteor garden..pretty nice..prefer the taiwan in terms of looks but jap's acting juz trash them..jamie put me in lala land
OHOH!!hanakimi's nakatsu is in meteor garden s2 IN A BEANIE!!
*daydreams*

oh matches..went to watch guy's game after our np match..7-1 we won..but cld have been more if u asked me..i was so fired up standing by the side not being able to play 1st period when we din play well..plus leftover emotions from hockey..jing said i was so full of drive when i played..lol..still haven gotten tt goal though..hai..think bout it now i took a div's goals for granted..
rite the guy's match..hai another heart stopper..against rp..strongest opponent but they have beaten them in friendly b4..but this is ivp..every1 steps it up..the guys led..then they lost..then they led again..then they drew..in the last sec!yes pple it was 00:00:01 when the opponent's goal went in..anything's possible huh..hai dramamama
yep tt's bout my life now..every day it juz repeats..interesting huh

aching!hai n i am sssooo unfit..
how many mths nvr touch hockey stick n now ask us to play U21..can die..i like totally sux at tackling now..carn even poke..carn push..can only give a weak hit as a pass..SIAN..like ground zero
so bacially yesterday's match vs police suxed..we were suppose to win them easily but all rusty shit so like draw..n it was raining like shit my stick damn slippery n then jude gave a lecture on how u shd tape ur sticks..like no one ever told us siah..we a div not so pro siah..so then it rained too hard n they stopped the game at 5 min before end

next day continue at delta after our match vs crez..which was a damn gd game btw..ok not damn but way better..won 4-0 n they r a stronger team than police..then after tt we continue our 5 min..shortest match ever..n despite dominating 65mins of the match yesterday we lost within 5 mins today..which is sad shit n hard luck n who ask us to sux so much yesterday..but then the senior was being assholic n come n say all sort of shit n give shitty face..like thks ah..totally diff mentality..even pau was like wth..learn to relax man sheesh

i shall go run soon..bought new shoes today..only 64!!!so happy..
feel bad when i request a sub out n yet certain players got to juz hang on cos they know they r impt..i train to help them!!yeah work it!

i..am such a bitch
whahaha

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4hDHqbtnwoU&feature=related
go watch this man..i think walter put me in the mood

yest's match..one of a kind..every1 i'm sure has been talkin bout it
its the kind of match tt wld b made into a movie

a bit of history 1st..
few days ago we had friendly against them..from tt game..we played quite crap n lost 4-2
yest ivp's 1st match..the game tt mattered..
we were out to win..i'm sure most of them din believe..but i did..ntu r not TT gd..we made them look gd

1st period
we started off high intensity n u cld c the hunger n drive..we were out to get them..u can c ntu was a bit intimidated..cos we were so different from the match b4..we were dominating the court..they were mostly trapped in their half..soon out efforts paid off..an early goal by far sent us cheering..then a stop in between cos ref blew goal for a shotby flor..then the 2 refs has some sort of discussion n later decided it wasn't a goal after all..like waddddd!refs can't change after they blow dumbass..but nvm..finally a second goal followed..this time we were screaming for joy..then u can c..more started believing..fighting..period ended 2-0

2nd period
carried on like before..then a 3rd goal by us..after tt..we were hysterical..but then a fluk goal by ntu later changed the mood on court..watching by the sidelines..its clear..we started to doubt..mayb we're juz lucky?mayb they r stronger after all?n then u c we start to become kan cheong..2nd period ended 3-1

3rd period
kan cheong-ness starts to cost us..high sticks..slashes..not tt serious normally..but once u have a fuck ref who blows n changes decisions..small fouls can become 2 min sit out n a penalty against us..all in all 5 major fouls called against us within a short few mins..played with 1 man down half the time..yet we held out well..1 goal to penalty but tt carn b helped either..then another due to dampening sprits n lettin down our guard..then a time out called by weewee..we were down 4-3..dun stop believing..he reminds us..fight on..n so we did..damn we did..even with 1 man down we had chances to shoot..n then finally 1 major foul called against them at 2 mins to end of game..our chance pple..line 1 n 2 have been playing non-stop..they were tired..they were pissed..they were still hangin on to hope..then..yilin was dribbling..shoot shoot i shouted in my heart..still dribbling..hanging on for too long..mayb she wun get a shot..but then she did!!!30secs to end of game..we screamed n ran n hugged n stumbbled n hugged somemore

though we din get a beautiful win like it cld have been..it was nice..we managed to tie..we will win the title..juz watch

lil note..though most goals were by far..farah did superb to me..w/o her runs..no there wld not have been goals..n to the defenders..kudos

woke up at 130pm..wow
230pm..jamie woke up..wow wow
3pm..adrea's not even up yet..omg
happy new yr mans