Where have all the feelings gone?
Why is the deadliest sin - to love as I loved you?
Now unblessed, homesick in time,
soon to be freed from care, from human pain.
My tale is the most bitter truth:
Time pays us but with earth & dust, and a dark, silent grave.
Remember, my child: Without innocence the cross is only iron,
hope is only an illusion & Ocean Soul's nothing but a name...

The Child bless thee & keep thee forever

22:20 cIn
din wan to come online..but jamie made me..eye lids feel heavy..shoulder cramp(jamie on the phone)..y is the sms contest results not out yet..i think muz try my luck at the radio liao..finally finished my chinese..plus got 2 more tests over with..rotting week ending soon..rod coming..finally watchin 2fast2furious tml..proud of myself for running everyday..well actually since tues only lar..haha..oh if not 4 cme today i wld have enjoyed wind surfing..the best thing was the course was foc..n yet i carn join..suxs..nth to say again..haiz boring..btw happy b day tian..

laureen, day3 of the rotting week:nothing to look forward to

-i mus get down to studying.
-next week come QUICK.
-ahs,i totally love dani she's the 1st,other than my mum,to say that the short haircut is nice.
-i need to go fer one of those serious shoppin trips.
-that pic is out!
-went to taka n restocked my snacks for class
-let's do something fun

22:21 cIn : drikin milk
well not suppose to b here but need a break from drawing graphs..had aus math competition n PFT today..haiz..how slow can the week go..this is totally rotting..wanna take up sailing..but always lazy to go look 4 teacher..wanna use it 4 nyaa..c i got nth to say liao..told u this week is rotting..probably got to run 2.4 tml..bleah..well least my commanding over..n josef tan keep imitating me..haiz..sum41's concert closer n closer..n i still no money go..BORING!!

23:37 cIn : nobody gets a lifetime rehearsal

haiz..one can never regret your actions..carn take 2..because of this sometimes we dun dare to do certain stuff also..not knowin the consequences..aiyo..my sis write blog essay again..preeching somemore..if u ask me i'll bless every gd soul in the world..but still sucide is a stupid thing..its a very selfish thing to do..you hurt the people around u..you hurt yourself..you make the world sad..hate it when pple pass away..done with cancer proj..no idea bout geog test..waiting to c chinese results..dunno wad am i doing now..oh this guy was sleepin on my shoulders in the bus..i wanted to laugh..tryin to win ndp tics..oh well..

laureen- my weekend :l

i forgot all about the geog test until today been playin the whole weekend. i'm going to get a sore throat..mus be frm adrea teh. on fri at cine we saw edmund..he looks gd for a 40 yr old guy..on sat i finally finally went swimming with cin n adrea. cin n i were prac having a little tea during tuition.we had coffee, her biig cookie n my donuts then i went down all the way to serangoon again for dinner..today, after church, got my hair cut...it's jus short...!! sigh sigh..good news of the day-i got more ndp tics..it's jus the start of the week but i want it to end quickly...

22:17 cIn : full blast
wahoo..day started at 5.30am..took 30mins to get ready gulp down a glass of milk n set off in a cab to sch..discover i was damn early so stopped near my sch n take bus to save money..the uncle so nice never charge me midnite charge..still was there damn early..felt like multi-tasked person..everything also do..from laying table cloths to carrying qing to searchin for pple to putting up displays..quite fun leh..hahaa..then GOH stand till my back ache..was humming song then imagining things..basically went crazy..then went to present MIT..since the vip not there yet laureen n i walk a little sing a little explore a little..after the presentation we left..haha..come n go like the wind..sneaked into the arts theatre..so bery sneaky..hehe..pretended to b backstage crew..amazing how pple believe us esp when i'm still in my no. 3!!saw the scholars band play buttercup n that thing u do..missed sui lan's qing n the malay gal's cool dances..the teacher say enough helpers so thank us n say we can go liao..hahaha...i wanted to laugh..since pretending to b helpers so i helped myself to the oreos..hungry mah..walked a big round to delta to swim..adrea was late 4 a whole hour..swam for 2h in all..i'm satisfied..the guys there damn gay lor..so many suntanning!!how vain can they get..gosh..kana skin cancer then they know..went town to have lunch..then grabbed coffee n my cookie n headed 4 tuition..caffine wasn't absorbed into my body yet so by a math tuition i was 3/4 dead..tryin to keep eyes open..well now its obviously workin..hahaaa..mom was shocked at the no. of activities i can have in a day..shiok man..

22:04 cIn
i know its only 10pm..but i'm feeling real sleepy..early dismissal today..a math test wasn't tt bad..except the last ques..have a full blast day tml..speech day guard of honor in the morning n presentation for mit later on..then swim with adrea n laureen at delta..then go 4 make up at laureen's tuition followed by my own tuition..dun think sleep is enough..definately muz have coffee..juz finish fixing my uniform..search high n low 4 my small kiwi cos the big one i broke the metal thingy n it carn open..i'm so dead..gotta take a cab down tml..carn reach sch by 6.45 if i dun..k gotta get my ass into bed..

why is he so cold
why is he so shy
why does he not smile
why does he not speak
why do i not hate him

laureen: eurythmics n foo fighters
today is jus not meant for studying..i'm taking a break today. forget bout all the books, tests n work. trying to figure out something so that all of us can go for ndp. borrowed sui lan's glitter gloss ,it's multi-purpose.haha.it's absolutely B-E-A-utiful...

22:48 cIn : thank you for today..
ok besides the printer giving me probs now..its pretty much a wonderful day..after the moviewe went to bowl..yet another satisfied score..went to arcade..nope no air hockey this time..spent over an hour playing spot the difference n word puzzles n got lots of top scores..the machine had some prob then the nice guy repaired it n gave us 25credits..play till eyes haywire..went to fetch jamie then went 4 dinner at marche's..all on adrea..after dinner was dare&dare..which means u have to do the dare if u get it..the dares r way horrible..luckily jamie n i were safe..kinda hopin adrea gets it though..hahahaa..then took neoprints..haven taken in a long time..its really tiring n fun..cos they snap so fast..then home..darn i haven learn my bio..n the printer wun give in to me.. :(

laureen
we celebrated adrea's birthday today. caught lizzy maguire. It's another of walt disney's 'happily ever after' , 'fairy tale' kind of ending. it was not bad. adrea, thanks for the movie! once in a while, fairy tales r good for the soul. u jus get enraptured. when the words 'the end' appeared i felt all weird... crap, i get transported back into reality. but it isnt exactly a bad feeling... there's bio, chem, cl test on mon n tues. i gonna enjoy the last few moments of the wkend n not study.bye!

00:45 cIn
aiya..juz go lar..next time dun need to think..juz go..i'm proud of myself..made myself learn chinese..one more ke to go n then left with zhao ju to memorise..yay..haven touched bio n chem..dun have my notes..oh well..hair dry liao..go sleep..btw HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADREA!!

laureen :blardy confused.. tired
got loads of test coming up. i'm supp to be studying as usual.. but i can't concentrate again as usual. luckily adrea studied for her chinese today or i would be pretty dead. i need back my motivation to study. when julius asked me to go to the match i was super tempted to go..so badly wanted to say yes..gonna go struggle with chem now..

22:20 cIn : weird day
ok we're suppose to b all in black 4 speech day when we only bringing in the furniture..anyway..this dickhead was hanging out at our sch busstop..read my sis blog..she told the whole story with lots of "gross"..wonder wad did the OM c..went with jamie n bess to c the doctor..mac's had a power failure..then bess scared of polyclinics..haiz..so weird..aiyo..play checkers with rexy got stress..hahaha..k i type later..muz concentrate

21:19 cIn : playing pool
stop learning chinese 4 a while..muz rest..waahhahaaa crap..tried to fix the dvd drive again cos my dad juz wldn't believe i din connect wrongly..humph..today all of us went crazy..esp jamie..she keep wanting to hold the humpty dumpty rap comepetition..hate eng on thurs..always do written work..then now both math teaching graphs..bleah..oo..i'm lucky at pool today..doing so well..juz remembered my printer no ink..carn print out brochure..haiz..lazy to improve on it somemore..jamie gonna redo the whole thing..crazy man..

laureen
alternating between: Bjork n foo fighters
feeling: mixed up

i shouldnt be using the com at all... i've got so much work but i can't seem to concentrate..i left my wallet in skool again. but luckily cin saw it :) js did super well for his events. oh ya, the skool gave this cross stitch bk cos i topped my class for english. it's super girl-i-fied, i dunno what to do with it...

went to nat stadium yesterday. bumped into quite a lot of ppl n adrea couldn stop staring.both of us went in the wrong toilet. but there was this paper sign which showed it was the ladies but some how it wasn't lar. we didn't realise it until this guy kept looking at us in this weird way. we got so freaked out. then adrea realised that the tiles were blue...

18:12 cIn : Offspring - Original Prankster
hello blog..sorry i ditched u 4 a few days..juz bathed..went 4 check up..lost a few grams..did running in the morning n noon..got a new pe shirt which is totally yellow n thin n big..cheapskate siah..track finals tml..dun think going though liting running..all the best anyway..gonna play volleyball instead..unlikely to win but still fun..going low on cash..shall not go out so often..no pool for me this week..finally caught friends last nite..so funny..can never get enough of tt show..over with two tests up comes three more..mugging mugging..bleah!

oh 4got to mention bout jamie's infection..wow..like a bullet through her skin..real gross..then now we all became nurses..help her dress her wounds..bring all the bandage blar blar...gross!

laureen
we had oral today. i screwed it up. stoned a lot while waiting for cin to finish ncc. i fell asleep in the canteen. wow, i just realised how inflexible my fingers are. i can only bend it forward. maybe i should go play pool more often since i'm bad at it. if u exclude today, i think the last round i played was bout in pri skool, start sec1. haha..anyway practice makes perfect. after that i went running like mad person to tuition. luckily it's jus next door. then i went to church for the 18th youth anniversary n dinner. it was quite spas but fun. went to macs to grab supper before heading home..

...I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our own direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive to lovers bound

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send us some guidance from above
'Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)

Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

22:16 cIn
suppose to come online yesterday but slept off..finally got msn 6 where i can play checkers..waahahaaa..had oral today..quite a lot of words dunno how to read..n the words laureen n adrea dunno r the words i know..i'm weird..went to play pool b4 tuition..went to ymca - billard room not opened on sats..went to funkypool - full hs plus a long que waiting..walked to meriden(is tt how u spell?) got space..went to change out of sch uni..come back no space..we r juz soooo lucky..waited 4 bout half an hour then finally got a table..game was not bad since i haven played 4 bout a year..adrea picked it up real fast..laureen's hand juz carn b twisted..jamie still waiting to learn..then adrea n i walk pass this crazy chinese man..he was like "mei nu zai jian..mei nu zai jian.." i think he went bonkers workin..then i went to change coins 4 adrea..tt salesguy also bonkers..he is so the very lame..saw mini guitars selling at 12..damn nice..we wanna get it..was thinkin all of us get one..they even have mini drum set..but tt's too ex..haaha..dinner was crazily sinful..had a whole tube of chocolate oreos n 1quater of a mooncake..haiz..'cinful'

you're the center of adrenalin and i'm beginning to understand
laureen
listening to : everlong, foo fighters n where is the love, black eyed peas n justin timberlake

these 2 song r super nice. though justin is kinda gross, the song is really good.there's oral tomorrow. cin swapped with jac to have oral tomorrow as well so we can go play pool later. there's youth anniversary at night. my cg got the colour code :purple. how smart is that. so weird. i am not going to change.

that guy is a bit 'off'. wonder how he got so sure of himself. i am jus so 'suay' whatever the spelling is.

23:04 cIn : damn pissed
y is my dad so self centered?!?all he cares bout is his damn dvd drive..y did he even buy a dvd cam anyway..n since he bought a dvd cam he bought a dvd drive juz so he can play dvd..already spent half my night fixing the drive in 4 him yesterday with help from yizhe n now he pestering me to get this to work..like i'm suppose to know this stuff!!argh!!!if i know all this i might as well set up a comp shop rite?then he expect me to solve his dvd stuff b4 i do my own things..y dun he ask my sis huh..everything also me..next time i shd juz act stupid so he wun ask me anymore..BLEAH!!!!spoil my whole nite..ahh!!argh!!^$#%$^@%@&!!argh!**screams her head off**

21:59 cIn
ok i shall make this fast..my darn sis wans to use comp..erm k we played softball again..my blisters got worse..but oh well..no pain no gain..got wacked in the face too...i think this is a great work out..my back upper arm n butt muscles ache..haha..n we din have lunch.only 5 packets of lychee drink..time 4 us to workout anyway..erm..played taidi also..i so smart lost my chem tb so now i carn read 4 quiz tml..err..wad else..oh feeling guai today so i did chinese hw.. :D ..but yet to finish the holi hw..wad the hell gonna get demerits again..oh tch commanding tml also..same as jamie..i told her to imagine him commanding beside her..then she'll b less nervous..wahahahaa...

laureen:) -trying to study chem. listening to foo fighters-everlong

(i've swap fone with cin)

we've got a pitcher, bess! today was meant to be a studying day. while they went to watch charlies angels i decided i shouldn go cos i've been playing too much but i fell asleep. jamie, u left yr windbreaker n specs case here. haha


zhengan: i know u are waiting for this. haha. anyway, thanks for helping burn the smash mouth songs.

23:56 cIn
tv marathon..watched wu yan n switchin channels to titanic during ads...then watch surprise party..then switch titanic again..haha..din do any work..but at least read the chinese bk..rather interesting..tuition was horrible..not cassey teachin today..the relief dun even know his stuff..i rather have not went..now lotsa pple knows bout jamie n mark..though the things going round r not true..i still think they're matchin..hahaa..but oh well she doesn't like tt..she seems to b enjoyin it though..wahhahahaaa...

22:23 cIn : and tt's how the cookie crumbles
hahaa..u'll only know wad the heck i'm takin bout if u watched bruce almighty..i'm wrong bout 2fast2furious..saw the movie trailer today..i wanna watch it!!!had lunch at scotts..wa the pasta is shiok amn..much more worth ur money than olio dom..bought 2 huge cookies from coffee bean..sat at cine stoning n eating while laureen sucks her coffee..din know it was tt big..couldn't finish it but managed to sell the other 1 to jamie..muahahaa..when i came out of the toilet at after laureen's tuition..hands were freezing cos i juz washed it..then it reminded me of our day at lido..julius's hand was so cold he put it against the glass where sb was bbqing to warm it..hahha..so cute!!then laureen was telling us how when we were playing car racing..ant was doing some sort of stretching tt was so funny..the he pretend to drive also cos i think he was rather bored..wahahaha..then tuna..he's such a smiley!hmm..today jamie went spaz again n quarelled with the technical guy..hahaa..he was like "wanna fight arh" then jamie went "ok lar..i taller than u" then he "taller so wad i fatter"..bwahahahaaa...u watch them like watch tv show like tt..oh we went coocoo over rock in the comp lab..cos tuna was sayin how they all r saving up 4 the sum41 concert..75 is cheap 4 concert but ex 4 me..bleah...din have much of a dinner..still full from pasta..

i love this song..think the video is so funny..watch it..

22:43 cIn
aiya laureen..jamie guessed it cos u said some unnecessary stuff like 'call'..so sleepy..juz woke up..came online cos i told jamie i would..not stayin 4 long though..tried to read yi xiang qing yuan bk..real sleeping pill..haha..wa the seats thingy..those 2 actually went to get an extra pair of tics juz to sit next to us..but too bad..we smart enough swap seats with the guys...then went to the arcade..played the car racing..they juz watched us..then later we know y..they play the pro one with require changing of gear..we play auto..ahhaaaa..played air hockey as usual..vs ant n weiliang then tuna n julius..sad case we lost both..they wanted to play pool..but laureen already left n jamie gtg..i carn go with them alone..so we left..haha..promise next time we'll do wad they wans..anyway adrea wans to play pool..so we wait 4 her..

btw..edison looks real gd in twin effects..haha.tht the show was damn funny..ekin looks bad..sad man..he usually look so cool..

laureen
at first we(dumb n dumberer) planned to jus meet yuan loong (i hope i got the spelling right) but we didnt tell jamie. haha.cin planned it such that he would pretend he just bumped into us kind of thing. anyway, we ended up meeting darroch, jatin, ant, julius, weiliang n him. actually i mixed them all up except for a few. haha. his acting was really bad so of cos jamie knew it..we caught twins effect. rather funny. u wouldn't believe those 2 went to get seats next to us. so we swapped seats with the guys. think they all found the movie boring.

we had ht n wt taking in skool today! I grew taller :) can't believe it. jamie ko is 169cm!!!my uncle jus came back frm amsterdam again. I've got so much leonidas choc now!! think i'll get a sore throat soon.

today is just crazy. we were all happy smiling people. cin(dumb) couldn't stop smiling like a spazo after we took a shot. mr lee said that dumb n dumberer were like long lost friends.he's envious.haha.tomorrow is youth day celebrations. i want to do something fun after that.. maybe we shouldn't watch twin effect since the reviews are bad but then there's edison n ekin inside.to watch or not to.

amazing how people change so fast. it's hard to keep up..

cIn

jumpin jumpin jumpin on the bed..wohooo.
wa lookin through the cds r so shockin..the most china lookin cd plays classical music..the other 2tells china tales..haha..cool..we're gonna watch tt during chinese..gonna try n figure out applescript now..

20:26 cIn
ahha..4got takin height n weight tml..ate my dinner followed by cake..wanted to take a 2nd slice then remembered..lalala..k tt was my sis..collected the powerbk today..can finally start on mit..weewaffle pics r finally out..after 1year..ahhaha..my fault..will put them up when i have time..jamie din do commanding after all..all her worrying for nth..ranma was so funny..a bit spaz though..

23:45 cIn
ah..finally i finished my a math..the biomial expansion drivin me nuts..so long winded!!ran out of milk again..my family is such a milk drinker..investiture today so boring..4 speeches in all..bore us n the guests to death..adrea fell asleep..wahhaaa..then the councils danced..to me if they put up this kinda of dance..might as well dun dance at all..they shd do a proper dance n like change out of their attire during the speeches..not many online tonite..i'm going crazy again..i muz think more..like jamie..then mayb can score better in ss&geog..like wad mr josef said..think critically...

its amazing how a tiny unicellular cell divides into a full size baby with all the organs tt work wonders..nad how a tiny seed grow into a humongous tree with such efficient transport system n loads of trees..amazing how the world goes round and if you would to link everyone you know, it'll come back in a circle..amazing how we see the light blue sky and not the universe..amazing how you can actually stand reading this crap..bwwhahhahahhaaa