this picture was taken about one year ago. how time flies while change remains constant. 花开花谢。即是定律，也是改变。缘起缘灭，生老病死，都是一样的。 Drama is the theme of this week. I must say I have not taken them as well as I wish I could. Although most of what had happened does not involve me, neither do i feel obliged to do anything, I look on and reflect on how i have changed. I cannot decide whether I am being unfeeling (as usual), putting up a rational front, or hardened by the realities of life or really enlightened and taking things as they come along. Be it seeing the same thing happening to two of my closest friends at two different periods of time; or a repeated story happening to a close relative of mine. Actually, from a different perspective, how poetic all these seem to decide to take place together? 人生，is made up of daily choices you make.天天都在选择中。认识到这点，以这个当做基本概念，就不会事事往个人以外，寻求答案，寻求解脱；就会慢慢学会为自己的所作所为负责任。 Peaceful are those who look inward for answer to their unhappiness, unsatisfied life. 因为花会开，花会谢。假如你依赖花的美丽，你会因为花的改变，而载浮载沉。 朋友，何必如此担心? 会发生的事，没人阻止得了。要帮忙也要当事人觉得有必要。 朋友，希望他会是你的归宿。十几年的友情 朋友不是白当的。记得，有事没事都要跟我们说。。。

Winding down.

挫折不会是你的终点，只要你继续走下去。 There are so many times when I stopped and questioned if I can go on - 马拉松时，体力透支，一边走一边流眼泪的情景还历历在目。大考之前，一边写考卷一边哭的德行我还记得。 Even though these are really minute situations compared to people who had gone through tests of life and death, mean physical hardship, mental tests of unimaginable scales, I can only quote such layman examples. These experiences, coupled with reflections on my life, making them relevant and useful whenever I am faced with challenging situations. Keep on moving on. :) Because we can, and we want to bring improvement to ourselves, people around and the space we live in. Keep going on and on...

在这个网络世界，每个人都想分享自己的故事，却没有几个人停下脚步，分享自己的时间。
沟通的方式多了，联络的时间少了。
停一停，听一听。世界会不一样。

Always seeking external justifications/reasons for mistakes means u will never learn.

Don't know what came over me. The need for recognition, the anger from possible rejection or simply self-destruction/justification to plot my departure or all of the above? I was irrational and unusually hot-headed. What was I trying to prove? That I am not "meek" and that I can stand up for myself? What happened to all the sound advice I used to render with so much confidence to others? I can only say that wisdom still comes with experience and experience is accumulated. I am so greatful and glad that I had people to turn to before I made my subsequent move. Jogging allows me to have a clear mind to process my thoughts. It gives me so much space to calm down and the conversations I had in the afternoon replayed in my mind. At the same time I continued to ask myself, what was my objective in the whole exercise? There are so many possible answers and they could all be my answers. So what now? What I need to do now, is put into practise the advice that I might give to another person who may be in the same position as myself, the most practical one - to play dumb and achieve what you came for as there is no point in fighting head-on. 这个世上没有英雄。你也不是主角。你只是一个过客。 你不需要证明什么。 也不要把大家当成你的敌人，因为世界不是绕着你在转动。 你会把别人的举动，当成对你的威胁，只不过是因为你太看得起你自己。 想一想，如果你的反射性动作时硬碰硬，证明你对自己的执著，对自己的看重，对面子的放不下。冠冕堂皇的说-”这样的人，我不稀罕为他做事“ 只是一种借口，为自己铺后路。这种话，只有有身家有背景的人，才有能力说。没有的话，遇到什么都要当成一种训练，一种磨练。 态度-心态-动作-习惯。 心念会影响全世界，at least 我的世界。。。

数不清的回忆，过去。 现在回头，我看见在不同阶段陪着我的人。你们造就了现在的我。因为有你们，所以有我。 感恩，每个在我生命中留下脚步的有缘人。有深深的脚印，也有蜻蜓点水般的，不着痕迹的。 不管如何，你们让我的生命有高度。 谢谢。

婚姻是两个人一起经营的。 在婚姻的这条路上，让我们彼此互相扶持，而不是互相指责。我们的手应该紧紧相握，而不是用食指指着对方。 希望我们的今天，会永远比昨天进步。

Realised that 我没有本钱当家庭主妇。进不了厨房，勉强出得了厅堂。不够小鸟依人... 从今以后，发奋图强。。。 :) Must be anwserable to myself.

就这样
一步一个脚印地走下去
总有一天
你会抵达你的终点

:)
Morning run with buddies!

The weekend went well, 1st housewarming was smooth ;) I am so lucky to have great friends, family and good hubby.

Keeping in mind the impermanence of everything, I still want to take a moment to be grateful for all things around me.

To seeing beyond self and being compassionate in the coming week.

Wr

:)
Thank all the bodhisattva we met along the way to help us in one way or another.

I really feel very blessed, for everything went smoothly after the crash.

With the great people around me, nothing is impossible. We lived another day.

I came home to extremely warm and welcoming family and friends, so supportive and comforting at the same time.

This life is a truly blessed one. I only hope to spread my bliss to as many people as possible, to show the same compassion to the people around me, to love others as others have shown me love.

There is nothing more I asked for in this life other than to love the people around me.

Thank you.

在家靠父母出外靠朋友。我三生有幸，交到一班比山还可靠的朋友。朋友，谢谢！

I hope I will never give up on you. Right now, I really feel so helpless every time I look at you...

When will u learn?

World

Please leave me alone.
Time stop ticking.
I need to be by myself for awhile.

今天

I realized I can have a net happy day :)

可能是因为身边有好多强壮的肩膀让我靠，看开变得容易许多。
所以今天要感恩。感恩他们那么地袒护我，以他们的方式照顾，以及守护我。

Today is a net happy day as I realized there are many things to be happy about.

我现在最想做的事：睡觉。
希望一觉醒来，所有的琐碎的事都过去了。

我好累。

为什么本来很简单的事， 可以搞到那么复杂？

为什么人与人之间，可以有这么多的误会，的期望？

好难过。。。

惜福。感恩

From the start of our preparation for the wedding, buying and renovating the flat, most events take place under good conditions with good outcome :)

真的感恩，我们的福报还过得去。

This means that at some point in my life or past life I must have done something right :)

Only hope that I can continue on the right path and inspire people close to me to walk the right path.

快乐

快乐，真的有这么难吗？
为什么你们总是有办法把自己搞的不快乐？

快乐来自内心，没有外在的因素可以帮你获得。有，也只是短暂的。

不要怨天尤人，杞人忧天。学会知足长乐，平平静静的，不是很好吗？

Not a rap song person, I really like the chorus of this song though. Had a chance to listen to the lyrics of the rap more carefully while running today. Really meaningful... A person who has not contacted his family for a long time for various reasons, had a messed up life, and is finally going to call home and go home.

It may be a simple action, to pick up the phone and let your family know how you are doing. But some how, some thing is always more important than family.

When all is said and done, they are the only people who will accept you the way you are :)