Sunday, December 11, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Those were the days :)
Even though one day I might forget all the details, I will always remember my partners-in-crime - people who walked me through the difficult times, who are still with me, already out of sight, still thinking about me at times, cant remember me already... I think of you and I will always remember and be grateful that our paths crossed, once upon a time, when it mattered :)
Thank you.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Been really busy with all the preparation. Glad that we have managed ourselves pretty well thus far, no major disagreements. Trying to pace myself/ourselves as this is only the beginning of the preparation.
I am afraid of expectations, my own or others, especially my own. If possible, I'd rather have none and just keep working at the project. I don't think that it is because I do not care, it is because if I care too much, the matter will be more difficult to manage. So set expectations aside and do it as much as I can :p Then you can go with the flow, enjoy the ideas that come along and just add it in. Be Spontaneous and Awesome!
Being an adult is really not easy. So we all have to protect and safeguard our sense of humour, our easy-going-ness. Being adult does not mean being insufferable, anal, demanding. You can be serious, complete your task and still be easy going. Just get the blardy thing done right?
I really treasure my own time now, my own space, my little me-time. Not complaining about not having enough, I know there are times when I need to sacrifice my me-time. Just that, I need this downtime to reflect, check internally on how I am doing, what is it that I'm doing right and needs improvement on. There are pockets of time in the day to do so, but I really would like to have a good block of time to myself each week..
Prioritise. Prioritise my work, my time, my friends. Everything is about priority.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
專輯:
是時候(It's time)
歌名:
愚人的國度
作詞︰孫燕姿/李焯雄
作曲︰李偲菘
愛是愚人的國度 看我們演的好辛苦
是你所謂的領悟 我不懂我不哭
看悲歡喜怒每一步
是疲憊還是依賴的束縛
愛你能不能再重複 讓我懂讓我哭
再讓時間停住 把自己看清楚
不必再說假如 我穿過一地荒蕪
幸福不能碰觸
愛是愚人的國度 不能自拔不懂退出
我們都回不去最初
曾美麗但還是不滿足
愛是自愚愚人演出 答案清楚才能謝幕
劇情 是笑 是哭
愛是愚人的國度 看我們演的好辛苦
是你所謂的領悟 我不懂我不哭
看悲歡喜怒每一步
是疲憊還是依賴的束縛
來你能不能再重複 讓我懂讓我哭
再讓時間停住 把自己看清楚
不必再說假如 我穿過一地荒蕪
幸福不能碰觸
愛是愚人的國度 不能自拔不懂退出
我們都回不去最初 曾美麗但還是不滿足
愛是自愚愚人演出 答案清楚才能謝幕
劇情 是笑 是哭
(愛是愚人的國度 不能自拔不懂退出)
我們都回不去最初 怎麼愛還是不滿足
愛是自愚愚人演出 答案清楚才能謝幕
結局 是笑 是哭
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Don't know why.
Everything is relative, even friendship. Sometimes when some people has already written you off, no matter how hard you try, it is difficult to gain back anything, the trust, the relationship, the understanding. Mayb the question is why were you written off in the first place, mayb the question is how did you try to win it back. But no matter what the question is, some things, it just cant be forced. No matter how valid your reasons are for neglecting whatever relationship there is, it will merely be an excuse for the recipient.
Who would want to be left behind? The feeling of being left behind is not and will never be good. The feeling that your friends are far better and has left for greener pastures and are only now turning back as a sign of sympathy cant be good.
Is it merely pride? Is it only an issue of face? Is he/she just trying to get back at you?
Does it matter at this point in time?
Sometimes, I just want to write these off as "if you know me, you will stick by me." It is a rather selfish way of thinking, very self-centered, expecting every one to understand me, instead of putting myself in their shoes. But it is also a kind of self-assurance, quiet confidence in my friends that they are rational enough, they know me enough, they trust me enough to know that I will not leave them behind.
At my end, I know that if this friend were to be in trouble, I have no qualms to help. No matter how much grudges he may hold against me. Actually, I should wish that misfortune will never fall upon him and perhaps, our friendship may just be like two parallel lines, never to touch upon each other again. If that is so, may peace and serenity be with him and his family.
That said, I realised I am becoming slower and slower in my reaction to news... I tend to take a long time to process some shocking news, it is as if my nervous system has been affected badly by drugs usage or something. I blame it on the flu medication I took last night :p
Unable to digest news and offer proper reaction, words. I wonder why is that so. Everything seem so "just the way it is"? I am lacking compassion, lacking feeling, lacking words of expression...
Does this make me a cold person? I doubt so, just a little bit slower.
This just makes me a person who is less able to express herself. I think I am just more careful with my words now and being a person who is usually not so careful, I am not able to process the "right words" so quickly.
Mayb I just have too much time in my hands now.
What do I want with my life?
Everything is relative, even friendship. Sometimes when some people has already written you off, no matter how hard you try, it is difficult to gain back anything, the trust, the relationship, the understanding. Mayb the question is why were you written off in the first place, mayb the question is how did you try to win it back. But no matter what the question is, some things, it just cant be forced. No matter how valid your reasons are for neglecting whatever relationship there is, it will merely be an excuse for the recipient.
Who would want to be left behind? The feeling of being left behind is not and will never be good. The feeling that your friends are far better and has left for greener pastures and are only now turning back as a sign of sympathy cant be good.
Is it merely pride? Is it only an issue of face? Is he/she just trying to get back at you?
Does it matter at this point in time?
Sometimes, I just want to write these off as "if you know me, you will stick by me." It is a rather selfish way of thinking, very self-centered, expecting every one to understand me, instead of putting myself in their shoes. But it is also a kind of self-assurance, quiet confidence in my friends that they are rational enough, they know me enough, they trust me enough to know that I will not leave them behind.
At my end, I know that if this friend were to be in trouble, I have no qualms to help. No matter how much grudges he may hold against me. Actually, I should wish that misfortune will never fall upon him and perhaps, our friendship may just be like two parallel lines, never to touch upon each other again. If that is so, may peace and serenity be with him and his family.
That said, I realised I am becoming slower and slower in my reaction to news... I tend to take a long time to process some shocking news, it is as if my nervous system has been affected badly by drugs usage or something. I blame it on the flu medication I took last night :p
Unable to digest news and offer proper reaction, words. I wonder why is that so. Everything seem so "just the way it is"? I am lacking compassion, lacking feeling, lacking words of expression...
Does this make me a cold person? I doubt so, just a little bit slower.
This just makes me a person who is less able to express herself. I think I am just more careful with my words now and being a person who is usually not so careful, I am not able to process the "right words" so quickly.
Mayb I just have too much time in my hands now.
What do I want with my life?
Wednesday, March 23, 2011

I am but human.
Subjected to feelings, ill-thoughts, bad habits. I am afraid that such things will consume me.
I know I am not idealistic. I know the world is unfair. So why is it that when unjust is around, I feel affected? It is not for me to judge what is happening.
I feel helpless. I feel disappointed in the system. I should be able to do more, yet I didnt.
These days, I have been rather disappointed in myself too. The work, the attitude. Is this disappointment or simply discontentment? with my life? Why?
Need to find my equilibrium once more. :)
There is still a long long way to go! Jia You!
Wednesday, January 05, 2011

The day wasn't exactly smooth. Plus I can foresee a difficult period ahead for the next few months.
It is so easy to walk away from the situation, to find my ticket out of difficulties. Yet this time, I want to see myself through this. Perhaps the factors to determine whether I go and stay still lean on the staying side, or perhaps I have so much other commitments that I have to stay.
As someone recently told me, if I had to leave each time times get tough in office, I probably cannot stay at any job for long..
Let's take realistic baby steps in every thing we do this 2011!
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