hiak hiak..
i'm goin off soon!!!!
yupZzz
ermm
having fun
slacking
really bad for me..
but not for long
cos results coming out soon!!!
argh
i cant believe i onli got 1200 for my sat..
i'm angry with myself now
ARGHHHHH!!!!
to think dat i studied for it..

but wat is done cannot be undone..

yupz
so right now i jus hope i do well for a's.

sigh hope and pray..

anyhow>> my ex apologize for wat happen last time
haha
interesting
yupz
so.. i'm suppose to accept his apology
and i did.
wat is there to be sorry about anyway?
hrmmm

yup yupz
i'm goin off pretty soon

organizing a class gathering on 14th feb
let's hope most of de pple turn up!!!
*grinz*
hope it'll be fun!!!
hiakz hiakz

yup goin off now..
cheers

hrmm
dramatic turn ard for me.
~~`
no comments.

rather confused bout my life rite now.
dunno wat de heck i wanna do with it
i suddenly really miss those studying days.
at least i had stuff to do
and noe wat i'm suppose to complete everyday..
argh

completely no direction in life
and fretting over de day i'll be collecting my results.
ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!

heard it'll be out de end of this month
pui

walk ard bugis today
really interesting place at nite..
think i'll explore summore tml..

anyway might go ask for a job in de restaurant tml..
*grinz*

k lah i dun have much to talk about
jus realised i'm a bitch
yup.
bloody bitch.
hate myself.
=p

take care

i'm totally crushed.
i neva tot i could actually love someone so dearly..
and i neva tot ending it can hurt so much.
not tryin to be mushy here.

lying on my bed, i felt like a carcass, waiting for vultures to devour me.
i really understand now, wat it means when ur heart aches.
wat it means to love till it hurts.

wo bu shi yi ge qing yan ai de ren.
i dun say love easily.

i hurt him.
i hurt someone that i love so muchz.
i cant believe how stupid i am.
how insensitive i can get.

i fell.. uncontrollably...
and i smashed into pieces..

no words can express how bad i feel for hurting him.
i should not have lied..
i'm willing to do a million and one things jus for him to forgive me..
i neva tot i can go so low...

yup..
i neva knew this side of me...

it hurts most when i noe i'm de one who broke his heart.
it hurts when u noe he is hurting, and u can do nothing about it.
it hurts when u think of the things we planned to do together...
it really hurts when he told me... we're still good frens...
it really hurts when things were jus so beautiful during the short time we're together...
it really hurts ... very badly...

there's a thousand and one love songs that i can really relate to now..
that i neva tot i will be so weak, so cliche..
i always tot pple feel down becos they choose to...
they're so polluted by drama serials that they think they have to cry, to stay up de whole nite, to listen to sappy love songs.. when they break up...
i was so wrong.
it'll neva hurt when u're not de one experiencing it...

i may sound silly now. to myself when i read this some other time..

je m'ennuie de lui chèrement, je t'aime beaucoup.
si seulement il peut me pardonner
si seulement nous pouvons commencer encore une fois
je le priserai
je l'aimerai avec tout mon coeur
je volonté jamais, le blesse jamais toujours encore
ceci que je jure