28feb. sun. breezy :)

Thanks sue da jie for organising the steamboat gathering ! =)

alright, countinuous activities throughout the weekend.

book out - buy helmet, change sit cover (which made a mistake in choosing the suitable colour =( ) - sat am : beach trg - family lunch - biopharm gathering - sun : movie: dear john . - book in .

alright ever wonder why we are attracted to certain people the first time knowing them, even though they are not that pretty, or rather pretty in ur point of view, even though they didnt fulfill the requirements u set as a 'ideal' lady. But still you are attracted to them.

- pure chemistry. -

lower back down + unknown pain ( toothache ? or ear nerve ? or ear infection ?)

adios .

23feb. tues. breezy

this is a sopiscicated world. anyway human are complex creatures themselve. Yes certainly i know where he is coming from, and i know what to do. hopefully things will change for the better in days to come.

Ytd was the day where alot of significant events and meeting occurs i suppose, at least to us. At the very least i know that you are still there for us. thanks.

sometimes i do see at their point of views, but stubbornly i choosed to only see at my narrow angle.

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the one and only sensetive tooth is killing me !! in the day and night, eating and drinking !!

back got worse after today's gym session, shall permenently excuse myself from lower back and glut exercises till thing turns better. still cant figure is it muscle or nerves issues. It's only the left side of the lower back but it's spreading to my left butt. I wonder does OMG3 helps in nerves issues? Shall test it out.

rsm called, met wo ravi at some random overhead bridge. meet the WOs day ...

somethings are fated,
some happen coincidentally,
some is just destinate to be,
however future and choices are still up in our own mind and hands.

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adios .

17feb10. wed. cloudy.

thanks to him, not enough rest.
thanks to him, my lower back is in pain from then till now.

alright hopefully the pain is just cause by muscle strain. and hopefully things will be better tmr. hopefully he change his mindset. hopefully ...

endless whining ... endless complains. that's one way to make one feels better. at least it work a little for me. when u say it out, u ll forget the unhappiness.
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bro got a bike for himself whooo, get to ride auto scooter next time ! anyway i still prefer my small cbr =)

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14feb10. sun. wind

it's CNY, same old people, same old place, here is the time where we get to see people who we'll see only once a year. But different feelings. somehow or rather i realise how much distance am i away from my family and relatives in term of bonding. It can be seen from a simple dinner or gathering. They are suppose to be the closest. I don't understand them, and vice versa. I wonder why family politics is also in place. Politics get to place where there are large group of people together ? Or issit that it's the way we were brought up ? Where everythings are usually settled by ourself, where we buy things we like ourself instead of pulling mummy dress and say 'mummy, mummy, can i have this ?'. Or issit that we came from a 'broken' family where there's a absence of care from parents? But one thing for sure, I will make sure this wouldn't happen to my family in the future, may it be the younger generation or older generation.

I don't mind being called 'B', But do take note when it comes to laughing at others weakness. It's not about some unique action. But I guess it's just not right to laugh at a person when he's trying to improve on it, why not correct that person or advise him instead of laughing at he's langage pronounciation. I mean different people are brought up differently in different background, you maybe born in a well educated and good family, but others might not.

Another thing that actually hit me hard is laughing at the physical shortcoming of others. Be glad that you wasn't born like this. Does laughing at other pes status or whatsoever, make you feel that you are actually the most perfect person on earth ?! I didnt speak about anything about ur back or vision disability or physical weakness (did i say anything when you guys can even do a proper push up or wheresoever where i stand a advantages?) Here's this person is trying hard not to let people see his short comings and here you guys are laughing at him spreading around his weakness, is that the right thing to do ? It's hard to trust anybody, or rather it's better not to trust anyone. It's better to isolate in one corner and so nobody will bother you. Slowly bits by bits detach from the shift/place as things remains is only hatred.

blame my mindset, blame me for being sensitive in these area, whatsoever.

I hope to form bonds but things happening around make me think otherwise.

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07Feb10. Sun . Breezy

Surf and Sweat is over. completed something she wanted few years back then. It's time to drift away. If there is any 'debt' toward her, it will be clear by now. guilt free . no longer remorseful.

At the start line, A was telling B (which is one of the compeititor in that wave),

A : Must get 1st for this wave uh.

B: But they look strong also.

A: don't worry la, you got the surfing experiences, they don't have, sure win de.

B: *quiet

Lucky A is not one of the participant in this heat ... or else ....

what a cocky attitude, showing disrespect to other compeititors. anyway B came in last in that wave. ' for goodness sake, next time if you want to say such a 'motivation' talk to your friend, kindly motivate behind the back of other compeititors.

- empty feeling, empty heart, empty mind -

CNY's coming, it's just feels like another normal month. Everything became so dead, so meaningless. Even brain is slowing down. Things will only be different after august. that's the only thing i looking forward to. well some might take this 2 yrs or less as a good experiences but i guess to me it's otherwise. It taught me to go againest some principles which i used to have. Guess it's just that i am easily affected by others.

let's think,

if route A negative,

move on to route B,

if route B negative,

move on to route C,

if all route . negative,

find another alternatives . infinate times.

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04feb. thu. wind

getting lazier, less motivated ... rotting becoming the pastime that i actually spent most of my time on when i am out of camp ...

i am so detached to everyone around me. even those who suppose to be the closest to me.

it's good not to fall in love, then no one will be hurt.

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