okay, i'm rather pissed now. so ya, its time to rally all my fm buddies..
i found out that the guy that told my bro in his face, in front of all his friends, that fairfield is a damn lousy school.. is someone whom i sort of know and seen before. the worst part is that he says the guys frm his sch go to fairfield to go after girls, which is absolutely baseless and untrue. c'mon we have guys in our school lah, why must we go to ur school. i wouldnt mention names here, but ya somehow i really feel like confronting him, which i wouldnt do so. u can insult anything u want, except my brother and my alma mater.. fairfield may not be the best school out there academically, but the sch's environment have moulded me into what i am today. and for that, i have my alma mater to thank.

then again, its not all pple from that school that are all like that. for eg, ben isnt. ben's one of the best pple frm cca i've known.. happy flying in tamworth ben!
alritey, i suppose that particular person just goes there for the sake of going there, cos its a gd school. and not for the methodist environment. i wonder where is all the values the sch have taught him. people come from all nationalities, from all walks of life, and so i shant stereotype it to all pple frm there.. currently my impression of him have dropped tremendously and it was never regain its former stature.. smart as he may be, just academic skills will nv get him far. i should stop here! i've got nothing more to say.

ps: the above post has nothing to do with the sch.. it's the person that i'm pissed with. pls DO NOT start an internal conflict alriety.. hahas!

i had a nice catch up with belinda yesterday at her place and also to do a lil biochem. we did managed to finish a booklet alritey.. anyway talked to keefe for quite some time too and he was nice enough to help me vett through this report thingy. that was really sweet of him.. thanks a lot ya (if u are reading this). and his level of lameness is getting higher, learning from me ya.. about the part where u're not lame cos u can walk. hmm, need crutches?

oh yes and before i forget, i shld say a big thank you to belinda for making me a scrumptous lunch. really appreciate everything that u guys have done for me.

oscar is visiting dunedin all the way from wellington and my parents have promised to bring him to warrington. i hope they have heaps of fun today.. btw oscar is one of the kiwi-church's friend's grandson. hahas, he's kiwi if u were wondering. lol.

the exams are coming really soon and i dun really know whether i should smile or frown.. smile cos i'll be coming back soon and frown cos its the exams. i just want to get it over and done with so i can enjoy later. the OTHER things can wait, i dun really care about it at this point in time. actually i do, it can just be a booster.

have been spending very little time with nad this week. i hope she is doing fine and not missing me too much.. (just kidding) ya i guess u need ur own little space to do some self study eh.

anyway it might be good in a way too, i suppose. sat with holly for bio yesterday. i havent seen her for such a long time.. dun think u will be reading this but ya, u are my first kiwi friend.. think i told u this before.. hahas! need to catch up with u more after the exams.

on a personal note, there's nothing much happening there now. just staying where it is.. hahas, if u know what i'm talking about.. good for u! if not, u can ask me ya. i suppose only a few pple here knows what i'm trying to say and also some pple in sg. crazy as i seem, its only part of the process of growing up. hormonal changes, wait its fluctuating in fact. oh wells, i can only wait and see what happens. :p nothing much i can do about it though. just doesnt seem right to do something about it. ignorance is bliss!

ONE VOICE

Father, we ask of You this day,
Come and heal our land.
Knit our hearts together,
That Your glory may be seen in us.
Then the world will know,
That Jesus Christ is Lord.

*chorus: Let us be one voice that glorifies Your name.
Let us be one voice declaring that You reign.
Let us be one voice in love and harmony.
And we pray, O God, grant us unity.

Now is the time for you and I
To join our hearts in praise.
That the name of Jesus
Will be lifted high above the earth;
Then the world will know
That Jesus Christ is Lord.




CCLI #1360011
Robert Gay, © 1989 Integrity’s Hosanna! Music

i've got heaps of stuff to blog about. let's start from the very beginning, its a good place to start. when u learn, u begin with abc, 123..

friday:

i'll just type the gist of it. i dont suppose friday was nude day lah, but anyway a bunch of kiwi guys.. i think there were many as twenty pple, ran into the bio lecture naked and paraded. the lecturer was female and she really was speechless. u can see her 'i've-got-no-comments' face.. which was in a way hilarious. apparently it was her first encounter which such a thingy. well, i hope it doesnt happen again though. totally obsene lah, i cant believe that pple would actually do such a thing and make a fool of themselves in front of a few hundred pple. and there was this guy that actually left the lecture half-way to do that thing and later on came back into the lect. how dumb can that get aye..

oh ya, had physiology lab too.. and we had to test our own blood glucose and also run electricity thru us to see the effects it has on our muscles/nerves. was kinda fun i must say. but then i do have a phobia of needles lah, so u can imagine how i was poking myself. in fact, i was the last one to do it in my lab group and everyone else was waiting for my blood glucose level. anyway, mine was 4.6 which was well within the range of a normal person. hahas, i cant imagine how pple with diabetes can actually inject themselves every day. it sure is gonna hurt badly. it was already bad enuff for me cos i was dumb enuff to poke my index finger on my right hand. thus for the entire day, i wasnt able to type on the key board. oh and for the electricity part, it was super duper cool. if u were to put it on ur ulnar nerve, u can see ur hand move uncontrollably and if u put it on the nerve on ur cheek, u will be twitching and doing all sorts of wierd conformations.

saturday:

was supposed to wait for martin at 6.30am outside my place, so i got up super early to pack my bag. yup yup, but i suppose they woke up late.. after that went to pick krystal before heading to ming's place. i think we started the 4 hr plus journey to christchurch at 7 something. anyway the car ride there was sort of tiring but we sang songs eh. those sing-a-longs were great, though i didnt really know most of the eng songs. i liked the disney part though.. ya can form a chior already manz..
anyway martin was driving, and there was marcus, nadia, jacob and me in the car. i mentioned that the car ride was tiring cos i can never sit still for so long and my legs need to be in extension.. and i know i was figetting a lot in the car.. it was a good thing i didnt get car sick, or else someone will have a hard time cleaning up the car. or mayb it was the toopid picton road.. hahas, and i'm not the only one that got car sick at picton, aaron too got sick while travelling there.. this only goes to show that i'm perfectly normal. back to the topic.. we were travelling in a convoy and for some reason, our car always got left behind at traffic lights. that was hilarious..

okay, we reached chc in the early afternoon and proceeded to ming's parent's place. did i tell u, his parent's place is really very nice. a hundred times better than the refrigerator i'm living in now. yup yup, unloaded all our barang-barang den went to this restaurant specialising in singaporean and malaysian food. it was really good manz.. hahas and i tried kuching laska, when i was suppose to eat sg food.. but anyway it was splendid. its different from sg one though.. oh yes, and i attempted to speak in chinese as much as possible. really need to improve my chinese, right now it is the cannot-make-it kind.

after lunch at happy corner, we went to play paintball. that was fun too, but mayb laser quest is better, cos u run less and the laser is unlimited. yup and i got hit by jennifer and cynthia. good shot babes! u guys must be marksman.. i wonder why didnt they have a scope so can aim better. i was totally tired out by the time we finished playing. if i'm not wrong we spent the entire afternoon playing paintball. by the time we got back, it was dinner time.. and the girls helped to prepare dinner while the guys went to set up the tent. we had dinner with ming's bro's cell grp, but i must say we didnt socialise much until the later part. the food again was really great! =)

den we had devotion and a time of sharing. hahas and my song request went through. guess wad it was? 'one voice', a really old song though but ya, i'm glad many pple liked it. oh yes, before i forget we played esther's haha game too. oh manz, that was really bad. i begin to laugh even before i start. triggered off by krystal i suppose. ya and it only goes to show that pine hill pple can really laugh. mayb its a pine hill thing. who knows..

after that, we drove up to see chc's night view. and that was something that i can never forget for the rest of my life. even though it was freezing up there, but i scenery never fails to amaze me. i love sunset, sunrise, night view, star gazing. star gazing reminded me of schooling days and obs, where we would lie in the parade square for hours and even the whole night, looking at the stars. it would really be romantic to do that with ur someone special eh.

lol anywho. i was super high at that time, something wrong with my biological clock lah. the night is still young! had a nice not really long chat with cynthia in the car.. great to have a chatting buddy! i suppose for me its hard to find someone whom u can tell everything too like ur darkest little secrets. i will definitely try to open up more. i mean this is just something to do with the way i am.

slept at 2am plus and woke up at 6 plus. hmm dont smack me when u read what i'm gonna say soon. i did have a nice sleep even though temperatures plummet towards morning. imagine sleeping outside when it can get as low as minus something at night. the pple that were driving slept indoors cos they needed a really good, undisturbed sleep, in preparation for the long journey back.

sunday:

went for church. i admit i didnt really like the service but the sermon was great. the service was too rock.. i prefer the traditional or contemporary style. after sevice, went to get bubble tea from my grand-uncle's ex-shop. its a pity its no longer his eh, if not can get free bubble tea. den we went to have dim sum for lunch. erm.. the pple there were kinda pissed with us, but anyway we paid for our meal so i've got nothing much more to say. nad, adrian, aaron, cynthia and myself went to the nearby playground to re-live our childhood days. the rest of them went to take away char kway tiao. den went to riccarton mall for a wee while before heading to the asian grocer to get some stuff. and i did get the box of instant noodles that my darling brother wanted. i'm nice okay.

after that we headed back to load the car for our journey back to dunedin. oh ya we stopped by the cookie-time factory.. i didnt get anything there though cos i'm not really a sucker for cookie-time. hahas.. the long journey back to dunedin. there was this point where martin was travelling at 120 km/hr and apparently there was this police car on the right side of the road.. thankfully he did not give chase cos we slowed down after that. we ate dinner at kfc in timaru. hmm i had mackers instead but in kfc. i love my blue kacheek.. its really cute.. hahas, yup i'm still as kiddish as ever. fancy playing neopets at this age.

the final half of the journey was purely a disney sing-a-long time. hahas the driver and everyone in the car was high on disney. its good in a way, helps to lighten up the mood.

overall, it was the best trip ever! this trip: chc 2005, 24th-25th sep is something that i will forever remember. shhh, its a secret okie!

Consistency is the key! i'm totally not consistent with almost everything except abt going to classes. its rather sad but ya.. its true. i suppose routine is good to a lil extent or maybe in my case, its to a very large extent.

all of a sudden, i feel like blogging. it doesnt come by often so ya here i am on a typical schooling day, in the sci library.. doing my second most fav hobby when i'm alone.. that is BLOGGING. yes, i was saying about consistency. i realise that i dont blog on a consistent basis as well. not that i dont have the time to do so or what, but i guess its more of a 'hwee-ling'.. hahas! sounds a lil wrong in this sense, but ya i'm perfectly straight.

hmm, yup and also whenever i sit down to blog.. my mind just begin to wonder away and the fav 'what ifs' keep coming. it might be good in a way that it allows u to settle down and reflect on the past day or past week and maybe even make plans for the upcoming events. however, there is also a possibility of the blog becoming an outlet for gossip and juicy little news. that is not good and healthy.

oh wells. i think the i-miss-pjc and the i-miss-fairfield syndrome is coming back. my dory lil syndrome. yeah i know i shld stop living in my past cos policeman wear shorts in the past rite. the future, i wonder what the future has for me? sometimes it would be interesting to just get a glimpse of ur future eh, but i dont suppose that is ever gonna happen. definitely not in reality!

the past: consists of lil sweet memories that u will forever rmbr. like the small things of going for lunch to the big things like camps and chill outs. some may even seem insignificant in the past, but now as u look back.. it is really significant and u treasure the memory that u have left.

the present: just a normal schooling day in school. BIOC111 lab, BIOL115 noon lect, BIOC111 lect at 4pm. actually the free times and the freedom of going for whichever lectures u want is one of the beauties of uni life. i guess i have waited for this day for a long time and now, i'm still adjusting to it. getting there soon!

hahas, why am i still in the sci lib?? i'm hungry, tired, sleepy. the tiger cub is hungry, so beware! hmm dont bother abt me, i'm just trying to entertain myself.

Hurray! i can go to chc.. hurrahh hurrahh.
the roar of a tiger! rahh.

i dunno i'm just krapping. have got bioc practical test tmw. i hope it all goes well tmw. and the lab as well. exams are coming so quickly. i guess chc is a time to bond and de-stress before the 400m sprint. its currently at 400m, one round around the track. without warming up and hydrating urself, u will cmi by the time u finish half of it.

anyway this lil tiger here is kinda hungry. rahh.

will be going back home soon. hmm, other than that i dont really have much to update. oh ya was talking to nad and suddenly came the topic of peter pan den sidetracked to the topic of fav cartoon. for me, i still like the lion king. yupyup, have always liked it and i still go. erm and also 'chip and dale', that's like a super old show already. i dont think its showing like nowadays. sigh. and i like kiddish songs too, somehow it just lightens me up. only goes to show that i'm still young at heart alrite. =) i guess its to do with the innocence of being a kid. i've got slightly more than a year to enjoy being a TEENager before the twenties start arriving.

i know this is ironical to my last post about wanting to grow up. but that is only for that context, in this context abt innocence as a kid.. i still want it to be this way. and the other aspect, i would really want to grow up.

God really answers prayers.
i awoke this morning to hear that i could go for chc trip. yippee..
i dunno why the sudden 360 degrees change but ya.. i know its definitely not by the work of man. yup yup.. =)

why do i even bother pleasing them? abiding by the ten commandments, honour ur father and ur mother. i've tried but it cannot work anymore. i really want to go to chc with g12, but ya i guess my efforts are futile. just wanna save my breath and its no point in reasoning out with them. sometimes i really wonder if they were teenagers before! and if that's the case, they should know that going out with a bunch of pple is different from stopping over at chc for just a few hours to catch ur plane. its two different stories! i dont see how it is related. and the main point being that their so called concerns are baseless. there is really nothing much to worry about, cos i'm with good company.

sometimes i really cant wait to get married or even reach the age of 21. when i can make my own decisions and be accountable for them. no strings attached! and where i can be accountable to me myself and i. oh ya not to forget my beloved accountability partner. =)

they seriously just dont understand what this chc trip means to me. its a chance to get to know the g12 pple better. also, i've nv really gone on an outing with them.

it is more than just disappointment. its sudden sadness and a loss of any mood to do anything. i just dont understand. one thing's for sure, i will definitely give my kids much more freedom than what i'm getting now. there's no doubt about it.

mayb its not just the pathetic baseless hear-say concerns. picture this, my bro gets to go to chc for a camp, not from our church too. he just goes and have a jolly good time with his friends there, staying over at some stranger's place. and that is alrite with them. how abt me? i wanna go to chc for just one night, and the answer is no.

besides, even if its not a direct 'no', they will use reverse psychology and make u feel really guilty. i suppose, parents have already perfected the art of reverse psychology. if not all parents, at least mine will do. they have perfected the mastery! attained the highest level of psycho-ing.

sigh. this is just a one night thing in the same country.. what more going overseas with my friends! to a foreign land.. going to chc is like: u are staying in jurong and u are going to stay over at a friend's place in pasir ris. afterall its all in the same country. oh ya and they do know how to give lots of other excuses. eg the weather. its true we have been getting krap weather this week, but the forecast for the end week is looking good. den there comes more excuses eg snow, icy roads and blah blah. i shldnt really get there, cos its all excuses.

i really admire parents that in general want the best for their kids. parents who understand their kids and knows and feels like them. parents who put themselves in their kid's shoes and see things from their point of view. parents who just wants their kids to be happy and cheery. parents who knows when is the best time to let go or mayb even release the rope when necessary. parents who give slac and space to their kids. i guess, i wouldnt be able to even smell any of the above. but i sure do know, that this is what i would give to my kids.

anywho hav heaps of fun guys! its a pity i cant join u guys at chc though i have really been looking forward to it for quite some time. u guys are really the best bunch of pple i have met in the two yrs i've been here. life will never be the same again! *rach pops a champagne and shares it with all her buddies*

project belrac is underway and the weather is turning for the worst this yr. havent had krappy weather since last winter, by the way if u were wondering this is not winter, its spring now. anywho. gosh, i didnt know there could so many misconceptions in the world today. yes! one is already more than enuff and i've got a whopping three of them. good that everything is cleared and sorted out now. hahas! i dont suppose i've got anything much to blog about these few days without all the 'excitement'. i tink the official count for exams is 31 days. how fast can that be? in the twinkling or twitching of an eye, it will be here. arghh.. and i really shldnt be here now, will be going to meet bel and nad in like two mins time to discuss the toopid bioc theory assignment. krap, its getting on my nerves and every elses nerves i suppose. heh. -_-"

yipee.. in another unrelated event, i do see a glimmer of hope. the lastest information stands! i'm on cloud nine, highly euphoric. hahas!

to weijian: i'll get u if i see u in uni. =)

dear folks, the following post is written in a fit of rage and anger. so yeah.. its just an outlet of regression. just ignore it if u dont want to read of my unhappy times.

hmm, i'm just hoping for the best!

christchurch trip is this weekend and i'm trying very hard to convince my dad to let me go. apparently my mum allows but the final say still lies with my dad. adults can be really stubborn at times ya. and its hard to convince them.. its no point in arguing or trying to talk things out with them, once they have settled or settling on something, its hard to change. i guess they shld look at it from another point of view at times. its not as if i'm going with strangers, its the cell grp pple. c'mon! be more open lah.. they are not gonna eat me up or something.. knowing them are the best thing that have ever happened to me here. and its not as if i'm still a small kid or what lah. i'm old enuff to take care of myself and i'm independent ok. i've got no idea when they will be ready to release my rope and give me some slac. anyway if i cant even go for this christchurch trip, i can forget about going overseas with my friends already. this is totally krap manz. i mean, even my mum got to go overseas with her friends on hols. yup yup. if u dont give me some space to breathe, i wont be able to grow up into an independent adult. i cant live off my parents for the rest of my life rite. goodness! this is getting no where..

the main point is, i dont see why i cannot go for the trip. it really is a stupid reason u know. the pple that are driving are full fledged qualified drivers and one thing's for sure: they are not reckless! it doesnt mean that becos most of the accidents are caused by students, u stereotype all the students. its only the minority that are like dat. it only takes one bad apple to spoil the whole basket. this is really a ridiculous reason. wait, and the pple that are driving are not students. ok one is a student but she is graduating this yr. the both of them are adults already lah!

time for a change my friend! u cannot be living in ur past all the time, in the past policemen wear shorts. now they wear trousers. times are different, ur kids have grown up and they need their own space. no longer are they small lil girl and boy, they are about to leave their teenage years and become young responsible adults. krapp. i can no longer by mummsy and pupsy's girl. i need to grow up! the other day someone was just teasing me abt it. yes, and keiko was so shocked when i told her it was my first time to a pub when we had our foundation yr alumni party. she didnt believe it i guess. hello! i know my boundaries ok. i can differentiate between what is right and what is wrong.

if i can, i would like to go overseas and work on my own for a couple of yrs or months.. it would be a good time to grow up aye.. or mayb go on exchange to some other country.. good time to be independent and pull away from the apron.

i'm ready to cut the umbilical cord, but are u?!

thanks for bearing with me. =)

some shots from fy party..






friday the 16th of september:

went for the 12 noon lect and the 4pm biochem lect, thus had the entire morning to myself. actually, i came to school early in the morning but went to central lib to do some studying. guess what? i managed to accomplish quite a whole heap of work in that few hours. was doing my four bio study grp worksheets that was meant to have finished aeons ago.. u can see how i have been neglecting it aye. yup, then went for the 12noon bio lect. as usual, lecture was given by the one and only Dr Phil Sheard. he really does get krappier and krappier as the lect moves on. so, i guess its his technique for us to absorb more. few more lectures frm him and we're getting another person.

after that, nad and i headed back to St David's for OSC meeting. and yup we are getting affiliated with OUSA and we'll have to be more active too. like we'll have to do a walk down george st during international week, take part in international food fest and blah blah, yup and i think we shld be co-hosting asean night'06 with OMSA. this would be like a super big event for OSC or shld i say OSSA. hahas, i rmbr i was talking to mr kwok sometime back and he asked what was the singapore club here called.. then he said while he was in some uni in US, they wanted to come up with some names for the singapore club there. and one of the suggestions was Association of Singapore Students aka ASS. super funny lah. cant believe he actually thot of that. anyway, oppsie side tracked! yup, next year is gonna be a very busy year. or a busy first half of the semester. i guess its all for a good cause! yup, bring it on. OSC is ready for any new challenges.

yup yup. hmm.. let's see, what else i have to say. very long winded or cheong-hei i know. ahhha.. Dr Craig Marshall gave lecture today and is going to for the next two lects. erm, his lect is quite alrite lah.. except that mayb he is just teaching the boring and highly technical part of it. and i guess it was a friday. duh..

went for foundation year alumni party at oriental hotel, which was actually at The Ori. its a pub if u were wondering. heaps of pple were drinking away, but i guess no one actually got that drunk. high mayb a few.. this was actually my first time into a pub. c'mon congrats me on my 'achievement'. but i didnt drink lah. i wouldnt really fancy that kind of environment, but then its foundation yr party.. i just hanged out with yiqian and nadia most of the time and talked to keiko and masa a lil. the most of them, well we see each other quite frequently around campus. so ya, wasnt much of a catch up though. there were so many pple there, some as long as the pioneer batch 6 yrs ago. and there was this lady that flew all the way from hongkong to attend this party. either she is too rich or she really misses foundation yr pple a lot or she has nothing better to do. hahas! yeap i know i'm mean lah.. lol.. but ya it was nice of her to fly all the way down. i must add that pple here dont really have a sense of timing, cos it was suppose to start at 6pm and pple only started coming at 7pm and by 8pm it was totally packed. its the first gathering of such sort and i must admit it was quite a good one! takes heaps of planning and it must even be harder trying to get all the pple to come. not to mention the deco too. and the sg flag too, even though it was inproportionate in size but ya at least it was there. oh yes did i mentioned i brought a camera without batteries. how dumb was i rite.. lol.

anywho, we left around 8.45 i guess and got a ride to central lib. it was raining/pouring and a million thanks goes to yiqian's parents who kindly took us to the lib. oh yes, broke my personal history again -- being to the lib till so late. i've never been to the lib in the night before, and its a far cry from the day and evening. there were lesser pple and lesser movement around. duh!

went back home around 9.30pm, went online slightly later. had a nice catch up time with jess.. been a long time since i last talked to her.. and was really shocking to hear of the stuff she has been going thru. but i'm glad she is doing well now. heard from her that lots of teacher's are planning to leave too.. mostly the lit teachers.
mr woolhead - he feels that he has reached the end, mr eddie koh and ms chua - they are leaving to further studies, mr yeo - he's moving up the leadership FAST track under MOE. that means he will be promoted to VP one day. then mrs beh is on maternity
that's a lot of tchrs that are leaving. i guess that is what u get, pple have to move on with life and they cant just stay there for so many years. anyway i wish them all the best in their future endeavours.

so, that's about my very interesting friday. there's more to come though. =)

it has been a krap day or is going to be a krap day. the weather today is wet and chilly- we're back to the typical dunedin day again. sigh.. where's summer?
well first of all, i wanna say sorry to nad dearie.. didnt mean to go for the earlier bio lect without telling u in advance. i promise it wouldnt happen again!
yup yup. just had lunch and its one more lect and a two hr lab to go before the end of my thursday. i'm currently standing at an e-stop at st david's if u were wondering. hmm but then again why shld u be wondering where i am now. heh. i'm a lil cranky today and not in the correct frame of mind. hahas! but who cares?! it aint really matter..

anywho. the bio lect is getting to the highest level of lameness. guess what he said today? cos we are on the topic of negative and positive feedback and feedforward lah. and he was giving the analogy that a chick doesnt need its parents to teach it how to come out of the shell and its all innate. here comes the super lame part. he said that we dont have to watch our parents in order to learn how to mate. yes he actually said it in lecture and the entire lecture started to turn wild. lol. cant believe it. the ultimate lameness. i wonder what has physiology done to him. anyway in my opinion, i think he is one of the best lecturers of the entire biol115 course.

bioc wasnt too bad today too. its like a boring topic brought about by an interesting lecturer, yup really. i wonder what tomorrow brings with another guy teaching it. hopefully it would be as good as the previous one.

hmm, i did sleep too early ytd though. but then, i managed to accomplish quite a heap of stuff in the central lib. i suppose its becos the central lib is the most happening place in the entire uni. unlike the sci lib, the central lib is modern looking and well lit, with white walls and a good interior. okay, i should stop it right now before i give a full comparison between the sci and central lib.

bored as i get, krap starts coming out. hahas, was reading juan's blog and i realised how schooling can be so much fun. by that i meant sec and jc days.. i dunno, but uni life seems different. its as if something is missing. the joy and enjoyment of hanging out in sch and nuaing away with a bunch of friends just krapping away. it is then that i realised i'm no longer where, what and how i used to be. it just seems different! i'm not looking forward to each day at school, in fact i find it a daily routine. something that i just have to do. sad but true!
i seriously need a spice. wait, i must add at this point that i do enjoy spending time with my kakis here. dont get this wrong, u are the best things that have ever happened to be here. not things, but coming to know u is the best thing that have ever happened to me. mayb this just happens when u are all alone and u've got some time to think things through. okie dokie, i guess i shld stop right here. pls dont get bored listening to me rant or just take it that i'm musing myself.

When answers arent enough

You have faced the mountain of desperation
You have climbed you have fought, you have won
BUt this valley that lies coldly before you
Casts a shadow you cannot overcome
And just when you thought you had it all together
You knew ev'ry verse to get you through
But this time all the sorrow broke more than just your heart
And reciting all those verses just wont do

WHen answers aren't enough, there is Jesus
HE is more than just an answer to your prayer
And your heart will find a safe and peaceful refuge
WHen answers aren't enough, HE is there

Instead of asking "why did it happen"
Think of where it can lead you from there
And as your pain is slowly easin'
You can find a greater reason to live your life
Triumphant through the tears

WHen answers aren't enough, there is Jesus
HE is more than just an answer to your prayer
And your heart will find a safe and peaceful refuge
WHen answers aren't enough, HE is there
HE is there!

i thot of putting this song up here again cos i guess its lyrics really speaks volumes. it is an answer to every question that u have been dying to answer. a question where no one else can answer excpt God. and i guess He really is the only answer to all our problems, obstacles and shortcomings.

hi all. a short brief current update of my life situation.. its currently stagnant. nothing much going on at the moment (just preparing for finals) excpt for something interesting that is brewing in nearby waters. and nearby as in really nearby, it has already reached local shores. it's a secret.. shhh..

i realise that i really need the SUN badly. FYI i look very fair and kinda on the unhealthy side, which i dont want. arghhh.. the krapp sun here is bad and i dont want to get CA skin.

i'm looking forward to this fri though. its foundation yr's alumni party at the oriental hotel at 6pm. okay. it seems as though i'm helping them to advertise for their party. but it would be great catching up with the rest and just chit chatting abt o' times. and i'm looking forward to the christchurch trip with G12 too. but not sure how we're getting there though? lol..

in the meanwhile. i've been like slacking all the way since bioc test.. krap. need to get back to studies liao before the momentum dies off.. which i can tell it is wearing off.

argh.. i want the sun, i want the sun! oh ya, everyone seems to be dressed for summer today. its a good day today! and i wore shorts to uni.. mayb i shall wear shorts and sandals tmw. yippee.. summer is on its way!

Bioc test yesterday wasnt really too bad. Wait, like somebody said a 15% weightage is considered as an exam and a 3% weightage thingy is considered as a test. hahas!
anywho, the options to choose from were really close, especially when u have so much information in ur mind. one down and its now back to preparation for the exams and practical test.

after that, went back home to r&r. actually i didnt really do anything at home, just laze around and watched some dramas. in the evening, went for G12 at paul's place.
hmm, his place is really nice and cosy.. hmm quite a few pple didnt come and so it was really a combined one with nad leading the discussion. the atmosphere was really relaxed yet lively. listening to pple share of their experiences and there was this part where we had to tell the others what their gifts and talents were. i didnt know those guys that well enough yet, but its amazing how their gifts and talents just pop up by the snap of a finger.. i suppose such an exercise is really very good cos sometimes u dont know what ur qualities are and its good that ur friends are telling u. besides my kakis, i think this bunch of pple are some of the best things that have ever happened to me in nz. anyway nad, congrats on a job well done. i know it wasnt easy getting the group organised.. Kudos to u darling!

okayz, i've got heaps of assignments to do. haha actually its only two lah, but i need to get back to bio. have been neglecting it for two weeks.

yo yo yo. rache is back to blog again. been a long time aye! okie dokie a sneak update of my past week. it hasnt really been such a great week though, mainly was busy mugging for bioc.

MONDAY: wait, i cant really rmbr what i did on monday. short memory u see.. oh, yup just went for bioc lecture. and later went for anatomy's presentation at lindo ferguson. it was really interesting though and we toured the anatomy museum again! hahas, i guess i may be spending most of my time there next year. but yeah, it was a pity we did not get to view the dissection room. would be cool aint it! anyway, i came to realise my interest in this subj matter. the more i hear about it, the more it has kindled my love for anat. heh. ok i know i'm crapping. however there wasnt any presentation for physiology. would have love to go for that too!

TUESDAY: hmm i guess it was just a normal day in school. ahha, i think i went for the anat thingy on tues. see, didnt i tell u that my memory is really bad. after that i think we went to study for bioc too.

WEDNESDAY: mug in the morning and i suppose we completed heaps of chapters. after that went to medicine presentation with nad. the lecture theatre at med sch is really nice. all in all, there are twelve televisions. and also did i mention how comfortable the seats were, with the many portaits of the various personalities in nz medical history. (i think) as i was saying, the seats were different from those at st david's, castle, archway, quad, burns and what have u.

THURSDAY: had bioc lab and we did some electrophoresis krap. quite cool actually when u get to do it hands on. esp when i have such a cool lab partner. =)

FRIDAY: bio lab. yesh i have all my labs this week excpt physics. after that yup did the usual of mug mug mug.

If u are already in a hole,
Dont start digging!

"Go hence to share this tale, for never was a story of more woe, than this of Juliet, and her Romeo!"

Come night, come Romeo, come thou day in night. For thou wilt lie on wings of night,
whiter than new snow! Come night, come loving gentle black browned night. Give me my Romeo, and when he shall die! Take and cut him into stars and he will make the face of heaven so fine. that all the world will be in love with night, And pay no worship to the garish sight. I've bought the mansion of a love, but not possessed it. and though i'm sold, i've not enjoyed. So tedious is the day, as in night before some festival to an impatient child. It who hath new robes may not hath worn them yet, O here comes my nurse and she brings me gd news. And every tongue that speaks of Romeo's name, speaks of heavenly eloquence. Oh, what music..

O Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo. Deny thy father and refuse thy name or if thou will not be but sworn my love and i'll no longer be a capulet.

the sudden urge for reading literature again! its not at all taxing but directly opposite in fact. its all about the appreciation of the language and olden use of english. i miss studying lit! especially gothic. now that there are gothic architecture, somehow the environment just makes u more inspired to study the subj. yup yup and lit students do read in between the lines to try and get the meaning of stuff. how cool is that! hmm, i dont think u get that in the sciences though. for sciences, its just pure memory work and mayb a lil understanding. hahas!

alrite, its the day before the start of school again. this has REALLY been an eventful week. been going back to the central lib to mugg for bioc terms test, which is coming soon.. and i suppose we would continue to do so for the next one week.
yup saturday had lifegroup as usual. but this time, it was a combined G12. i must say i enjoy the times spent there and i'm glad that nad brought me there.. its good to have a group of pple that u can grow spiritually with. thanks nad! hahas, laughter is always the best medicine aye! oh yes and did i mentioned, i finally know the reason behind the game 'black magic'. after u know the rationale behind it, i must say its actually quite a dumb game.. yup yup and after that we played some other sequencing games.. for some reason, jennifer and i are always the last ones to guess it. yes yes, i know i'm slow lah.. cant help it man, u pple know how bad i am at these type of games.. its usual aye.. =) yup and i got back kinda late.. in fact, its the lastest i have ever been out for the 18 plus yrs of my life. but it was great being out so late.. i do hope i can go for the christchurch trip though.. alrite enuff of blogging.. i better get back to bioc. =) shall update on the next eventful event. (which i'm certain many will come)

this post is dedicated to my two bestest kakis in nz. thanks nad and bel for listening to my endless krapp and giving me heaps of advice on u-know-who. u dun know how much this means to me.. really appreciate u pple and for all the wonderful times we've spent and are gonna spend together. all the best babes for bioc.. jia you! and i'll jia you too, in another sense. ;) u two are the best buddies i've made here.. cheers to our friendship! yippee.. *pops champagne*