today marks the end of my foundation year course.. isnt it ironic to have graduation ceremony before u get ur results. hahas! krap rite.. the ceremony was dumb.. shldnt even have gone lar, some stupid useless ceremony.. i could have spent my time doing some other stuff and not have to bother wad clothes i was going to wear.. its not even a prom nite.. well, what lies ahead and for me to know and for u to find out.. foundation was a great experience for a start, but i must say that i cannot guarantee if i had made the right decision to come here in the first place.. its still too early to tell.. on the surface it might seem to be a good one, but who knows.. hahas, okies.. gtg, someone is bugging me off this thing. oh ya, to those friends taking A's.. CHEERS! on a job well done. I miss u guys so much! NO WORDS CAN EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE U.. haha.. lol

time to blog again.. four papers down, left one more to go.. heaving a sigh of releive.. ever wonder wad am i going do in the remaining days ahead or the days to come.. as i reflect and look back at this yr, i must admit that its sort of monotonous with not much activity and stuff.. not much laughter or going out, catching a movie, going to k-box to sing our hearts away, or whether it is coming to sch early for breakfast together or simply waiting for each other after sch to chill, go out or just to talk and catch up on each other's life.. mel, jeanie, weelin.. i really miss all our krap and nonsensical talk.. those times at camps where we hang ard and talk.. sitting at the stone slabs facing the track.. rmbr how i used to like tt area, particularly tt area.. and i miss wanrong and lindy too.. miss u guys so much.. okies, i guess i shld stop looking back ya.. in the past, policeman wear shorts.. bleah.. oh ya, was rammaging thru my luggage a few days back and took out the ltc 2003 shirt to wear.. den i went to sch with tt shirt to submit an application form and somehow so qiao i met michelle, this other pj gal.. one yr our senior..talk awhile lar.. she must have wonder why was i wearing the pj shirt.. hahas!.. for she looked at me quite funnily for a while.. ya anyways.. ya just spent 2 and a half hours before this working my brains out for chemistry.. surprisingly i found it qutie a simple paper with everything so straighforwardly put out to u.. and the only thing was the time-management.. 2 1/2 hrs to do twice as much qns in a much lesser time.. but ya as i said, i finished the paper quite early.. hahas! today got this guy sitting beside me from D class, he actually forgot to bring his calculator for the exam.. den he asked the invigilator if they had any calculators.. den she said they didnt have any spare and he shld haf brought his.. and tt he had to wait until r. tapper or m. mills came in larz.. haha, after tt u could sense the panicking on him.. i could even hear him swearing lar.. after like say 1/2 hr into the paper, thankfully r.tapper came in and i guess lent him a calculator.. w/o a calculator, even if everyone lends him their fingers and toes, it still wouldnt be enuff for him to calculate lor.. as u can see, i'm trying desperately to include all these singlish and stuff.. u noe, a few days ago my mandrin speaking aunt called.. and i was home alone and she ask me where everyone was.. at tt moment i could think of how to say tt my parents brought sam to the aero club for lessons.. i actually said "ta men tai ah boi qu fei" haha, get it?! diaoz.. ya tt was my exact words.. kinda dumb now to think of it ya.. +) so ya i cannot forget how to speak chinese.. which i think has deproved tremendously.. but it wasnt even good in the first place larz.. okies dokies.. CANT WAIT FOR MY EXAMS TO FINISH, AND FOR MY COUSINS TO COME OVER AND PLAY, PLAY, PLAY!! havent caught up with them for a long long time.. in case u r wondering, my cousins are still small kids.. i'm the oldest on the paternal side.. yay.. 1st grandchild always gets all the attention ya.. when there are no one else to fight with u..

just got back from a tiring, brain-racking and nerve-racking day at the exams.. well, i must say that it was bad larz.. krap man!.. i am not the smartest of person and i know that larz.. that why i try to be a guai kia and stick to what my occupation says.. and i cannot afford to fail again.. its my second shot and its either i do it or i dont.. yups, u cant like tell a great difference from me last yr and me now.. i have changed people.. failure is part and parcel of life, and in life everyone fails a couple of times.. but i'm different!.. really, i'm different now.. believe it or not..i seriously cant afford another year.. people who know me last yr would know how slack i was rite.. but know its like i have undergone a 360 degree turn.. in which i hope tat it would be for the better.. sometimes i really wonder if staying in sg would mean for a better route for me in the future or venturing into the open field would be a better option. i really dunno.. why dont u stay tuned to find out more larz..!! lolx.. yups, back to today.. i can safely tell u that i shld be still hanging on to a thin thread.. or in another scenario: stuggling to stay afloat while something with great force is pulling me from under with all its might.. thats the reality.. the first two papers wasnt that bad and i could safely walk out with a big smile on my face. but not today.. sometimes i really wonder where is God when i need him the most! I'm certain he knows how important this means to me rite.. maybe last yr's events i can understand.. but not this one though.. ya sometimes i really begin to doubt.. i mean, i haf heard of how God works so many miracles in other people's life and its just that sometimes i dont see it in mine.. den its when i begin to wonder why.. ? yups.. aiyah, but i dont want to ponder abt it nor wif the math anymore after this blog.. thats a good thing abt blogs.. hahas! i've never done well for math and dun think i ever will lar.. ya so the main gist of this is: i cannot afford to fail anymore! i haf already done so, so many donkey years in my 18 yrs of living on this earth.. wonder why i'm here!

WIERD I KNOW

hey peeps.. yups i noe i shld be here now lar, but den got sick of doing the stupid sample exam booklet.. alrites, i'm only on my second sample.. but still.. at least i started rite, well maybe everyone else have already finished or something.. yup yup.. cant wait to finish exams.. abt two weeks left before exams are done.. den would be able to go travelling round the south island with cousins and aunt and uncle and grandmas.. both my maternal and paternal grandma's are coming over..hahas! den after they leave nz, would be going to work on a farm in central otago.. cool rite.. too much time to waste larz.. :P oh wells, everyone is busy mugging and pouring over their books now i guess.. ytd was deepavali, a public holiday but still there were not a lot of pple online.. yups.. hahas, den why am i online.. i wonder.. ohya, i had a wierd dream last nite, but the gist of it was tt we were in this prison sch.. and we had sch assembly, and the entire sch hall was divided into two sections, one side for the criminals and the other for normal sch kids.. hahas! the thing was me and my friend were undercover students and i happen to be an ex-student of the sch.. den got scolded by the tchr and ordered to move over to the other side of the hall, where the criminals were.. all of them look so fierce, like going to eat us up like tt.. u noe those typical criminal look.. so we left and den outside.. aha, den i woke up.. cos someone came into the room.. bleah, it is not always that i rmbr what i have dreamt.. okay lar, i'm dun think there is anything more tt hppened today.. was a rather boring day.. we'll see wad happens tmw and the rest of the days to come. do pray tt i may ace this exams.. well, i really need to larz.. :D

officially its two papers down and three more to go. today went to collect the long essay back, wasnt much that i expected though.. i thot that i could at least get better grades than wad i actually got.. yup even though its an A grade, but i think that it should warrant much more. ahh, krap.. shldnt be here now.. tataz, till the next time tt i feel like blogging..

one more day to bio paper.. ok lar, tmw is bio exam already.. so fast yar, the last day of sch haf already come and gone. yups, i can safely say that i haf been mugging for the past few days.. wish me well.. or give me a pat on my back..

okie time to blog again.. haha i really dunno wad else to say.. oh ya today marks the end my last day having normal lessons at foundation. went ice-skating today and my legs are aching.. but it was fun though and i really enjoyed myself larz.. yeap so haf fun while u still can..

hey, havent been blogging for a long long time aleady.. come to realise, tomorrow is the last day of foundation year. and i dunno whether to feel relieved or sad that the course has ended and we would be separated again.. parting is always the sad part of life, everyone would gladly meet new people but ya, its the saying goodbye part that is tough.. even though i jolly well know that we would still be taking the same course next yr, but the feeling is still different.. its like a cycle, venturing into the unknown again.. as i was saying, same course but definitely a different class.. den again whats the probability that we would be hanging out together again.. yups, and as i look ard and see lots of pple taking pics, i wonder to myself.. where is my cam? no cam, since the cam doesnt want to grow legs and get its arse here fast.. therefore, no cam means no memories of foundation year.. simple as that.. krap man.. the most qi gek thing is that the stupid cam would arrive on the 26th of nov.. den wads the use!! no point, graduation is on 25th.. U GET WHERE I AM COMING FROM?? just a simple blunder would cause my lovey dovey memories to fade away.. okays.. i'll just have to try and ask friends to write in the autograph book i' hope so though.. do remind me to bring it to sch tmw.. but then, it still wouldnt be the same again.. IT JUST WOULDNT BE THE SAME.. the atmosphere and fun loving people. ok, i hate to say this but yup i am being to sense the pressure closing up on me.. yes i noe that wad happen last yr wasnt wad was expected of me.. but now i really dunno how to sastify u.. ur hunger for earthly necessities.. earthly needs and wants.. kinda stress now though.. well u will feel that though with someone besides u that keeps on nagging at u to go study study and study.. but the thing that the person doesnt know was that i was indeed doing just that in the library today.. is excellence just what keeps the person going? isnt there any emotional or the staying happy part that is more important than anything else.. havent u learnt from . experience that u shldnt just push a child too hard well beyond their limits.. i've learnt and grown from my experience and dont need u too hog over me to let me know.. i know it too.. oh wells, tmw is the last day of sch and the last day with the pple i hang out most.. after that would be mug mug and mug.. so i noe tt no one frm nz would be reading this though, but ya just wanna say thanks for the stuff that u have done in one way or the other.. i really appreciate it lots.. xie xie ni men.. dang wo men dou zai yi qi, zai yi qi, zai yi qi, dang wo men dou zai yi qi, zhen kuai le wu bi.. arhh, wadever larz.. haha okies, tmw there wouldnt be any lab lessons and so sch only start 1pm.. and ends at 3pm.. haha den going ice-skating with foundation yr.. its the last and final friday student activity.. den again ya i dun haf any camera so yesh.. duh, u noe wad comes next.. the whole cycle comes along just in place. :s