Ouch

Off to Singapore tomorrow.

But first, need to sit for my IELTS test. Tomorrow's gonna be a rush.

Writing, listening and reading exam at 8am

Speaking exam at 3.10 pm

Rush back to One Utama from KLCC...

Bus to Singapore 6pm

Been doing quite a bit of exercise the past week.

Saturday morning: Swim

Sunday: Climbed Bukit Gasing in the morning, ran at night

Tuesday morning: Swim

Wednesday morning: Bikram yoga

Thursday: Bikram yoga in morning, swim at night

Friday morning: Boot camp followed by Bikram yoga

And now my body is so sore I feel like I've ran a half marathon. Hamstrings are hurting like hell. My hamstrings have never hurt. Sore arms, sore back too. I need a massage. Why can't Thailand trip be tomorrow? Hehehe....

Thanks to Yi Wen for the swim, Karen and Shaun for the trip to Bukit Gasing, Karen for the boot camp, and Mei for the yoga.

And now, back to studying. One last late night! I seriously hope so!!!

Screw you IELTS

OMG.. I have not written an discursive essay in ages!

The last time I wrote one was probably in 7th form, i.e. 5 years ago.

So guess what I'm doing for my second week of my holiday?

Reading essays and learning how to write them.

And to think it was ALL OVER!!

IELTS test this Saturday... I need it to apply my working visa/Australian PR. And I'm taking the Academic one because there isn't any General test this Saturday and this is the only date I can sit for it.

FML.

In Malaysia

In Sydney, I'm so used to stay at home and do nothing despite living in the big and busy Sydney.

And I think because I am so used to that, now that I'm in Malaysia, I am also fine with just staying at home and doing nothing despite not being here for so many months and having so many friends to catch up with, so many places that I should go.

Last night after some catch-up with swimming friends, I decided to go home when the night is still young -10pm. The others were gonna play pool. Am I being anti-social? Or am I getting old? I still stayed up till 1am though. haha!

I guess it's also the thought of having to smell ciggies that pulled me away. And also I wanted to avoid the nagging if I come home too late.

And today, I decide to stay at home and do nothing despite having so little days left in KL before I head off to Singapore. Maybe it's also because the amount of freedom I have here is so little, the access to a car is close to nothing. I do not want to constantly ask for it, fearing rejection. Like it always happen.

P's get Degrees

Damn right they do!!!

Woohoooooooo!!! ZERO fails... that means....

I will be a Physiotherapist!! Just awaiting registration now. Hohohoho!!!!

It was THE BEST 4 days while it lasted

The monkey came to visit Sydney for 4 days.

Thursday

Met him at Chat Thai. His favourite place. The nom nom nom begins!!!

Chat Thai round 1- Spring rolls. Spicy fish cake dish. Lodt Shong Singapore.

Passionflower - Durian, black sesame, green tea, lychee ice cream.

Walked home along the Pyrmont wharf. Weather was cooling. So happy to see him. Couldn't stop smiling the whole time.

Friday

Maccas breakfast + baklava

Fishmarket - Sashimi, soft shell crab, oyster mornay, scallop mornay, grilled prawns, seaweed

Chinatown night market - lamb skewer, chicken skewer, tofu skewer, japanese pancake, chee cheong fun

Twisted noodles - extremely spicy noodles, hong kong style coffee + tea

After heavy lunch at fishmarket, we came home and watched a movie before heading out to the nightmarkets at Chinatown. Bought our food and sat outside the Sydney Entertainment Centre as there was a school concert going on and there were so many kids outside just warming up and doing random performance. Chinatown food was meant to be our dinner but we weren't full enough so we went to this hong kong noodle shop for more food. hehehe....

Saturday

Home (a thai restaurant VERY similar to Chat Thai) - Pad Thai, sago rice flour dumpling with ground peanuts and palm sugar

Chat Thai round 2- Desserts: Young coconut kuih, pandan kuih, coconut girdles, banana fritters, sweet potato balls, Lodt Shong Singapore

Food court in city - Sushi

Gelatissimo ice cream

Prawns + Pork Wat Tan Hor cooked by Me!!

Went to the gym and the pool in the morning before starting our food journey. A day filled with lots of dessert, snacks and window shopping. Visited the new Westfield Pitt St Mall, watched street performances, went shopping at Rebel Sport, hung out at Darling Harbour as I had to collect my cousin's Santa Suit for the Santa Run the following day. Dinner was at home and I cooked wat tan hor with lots of egg sauce, just how I liked it :) And then we watched Knight and Day before heading to bed.

Sunday (our 27 months :))

Fish market: King prawns fried noodles. Soft shell crab. Raw oysters. Oyster mornay. Salt and pepper calamari.

Lowenbrau Mango Beer

Baker's Oven Cafe at the Rocks - Chocolate Hazelnut Slice

Japanese BBQ buffet at Chinatown - Beef tongue, special beef ribs, shabu shabu, beef harami, gizzards, takoyaki, jellyfish sidedish, seagrass sidedish, almond jelly, green tea and sesame ice cream, chicken, beef loin, deep fried prawns...

Went to the fishmarket pretty early and some of the shops weren't open. Walked around the fishmarket, stare at live seafood soon to be eaten...killed time and then EAT! Walked along Anzac Bridge after fishmarket as we were so full. Got home and slept like pigs after. Was meant to go to the Botanical Gardens but it was raining, and hence the sleeping. Caught the bus to Circular Quay and sipped Mango Beer and Lowenbrau. Walked around the Rocks markets and we were mainly killing time and trying not to eat much in preparation for our 40 bucks Jap buffet at night. Came across this bakery at the Rocks and couldn't resists the slices and bought one.. no regrets!! We then walked around the malls again before heading to our buffet. Huge feast. A 90 mins limit to eat 40 bucks worth of BBQ. It was so good. Ate till my max. I know because I threw up 5 mins after we left the place. We were also calculating the ala carte dishes and we have definitely ate more than 80 bucks. Hehehehe....

Monday

Pie face pies

Egg tarts

Chat Thai round 3- Beef ribs with rice. Egg noodles with chicken coconut curry and lime. Fried bread dough sticks with kaya.

Cold rock ice cream - peanut butter ice cream with cookie dough.

His final day in Sydney. *sigh*

Still eating our hearts out despite the massive meal the night before. It was raining again but it did not stop us. Best snack discovered at Chat Thai - the yau char guai and kaya. I can so just go there for breakfast next time because this snack is only sold from 10am - 12 pm. I am so glad we tried it today. MmMMMmm!!! Sent the monkey off at 4.30pm....

Got home..............

And now it's back to normal.

- It feels so empty right now without you

- Thank you for a wonderful 4 days

- I'd say it's the best 4 days of 2010

- These 4 days just reminded me how much I miss you and how much fun I am missing out when you're not with me
- I'm already missing you :(
- THANK YOU :)

*Edit: Walked home through Chinatown and Darling Harbour today and it reminded me so much of you. Those 4 days were really like a long dream that I did not want to wake up from but eventually did.

Wrapping it up!

We are all now holding a Masters of Physiotherapy degree!! (awaiting results but for now.. living in denial and just assuming we pass... :p)

Watch out world!! Here's a whole new bunch of physio-verryyy-pisssts coming to you next year!!!

No longer a student

Hi, I am a student physiotherapist :)

Yeaaaaaaa baby!!!!!

Officially done!!

Party party for the next few days. Tomorrow night is going to be massive!!!!

Bring on Lowenbrau!!!

Went for my very first job interview this morning. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be but I could have done better, could have said more. Was just a tad nervous. I'm glad I revised the knee!

Well, there's a first for everything. At least I'll be more confident in my next interview. Hehehehe.....

It's 2 a.m.

I need to wake up in 4 hours time.

I swear this is going to be the last late night ever for an assignment/presentation!

I thought it was all over before this but I thought wrong. But this is definitely the last one. I just have been procrastinating too much.

Good night :)

and I apologize for all the negativity in my blog recently

because this is the only place where I can pour everything out... that's what a blog is for afterall, right?

What a *toot*

I know I'm not perfect, I know I'm not that smart. I know I'm lacking knowledge.

But I manage my patients well, my time management is the best out of the 3. So don't come into my face and say that you feel bad for me as I have to take over your patients just because you're smarter than me and you couldn't cope with your patient load and assume I won't be able to cope as well.

I don't go in front bragging to everyone that I got a good feedback when I know you didn't get one as good as mine. I keep it to myself because I don't want you to be under even more pressure with your time management. But to say I'm "lucky" with the patients today, even though they were yours previously and you complain about them all the time, you've just insulted me. Give me some credit at least because I have a way with patients. I got more tricks in my hat than yours even though I'm not that smart.

I saw all the patients that you saw and got extra patient load as well. I have a way with patients and I saw all your "bad patients" and I didn't even think they were that troublesome at all. You just complain too much and that's why you don't get things done.

And to "feel bad" for me just because one of your difficult patient refuses treatment from me, that is just so low. I don't even feel bad for myself at all because I did everything I can, said everything one can possibly think of and if patient refuses, so be it. There's nothing to feel bad about or frustrated. Even my supervisor failed to get the patient up.

I'm just letting this all out because I just hate it when people look down on me because they don't know themselves that well and they think they are better than me in everything. I am young and I am not the smartest. But it doesn't mean that I won't be able to do my work as well. It's time for you to wake up and realize the real problem is you and not others and stop blaming it on them.

Just 8 more days and I won't need to listen to your complaints anymore.

What if it happens?

I don't really care anymore.

This is how it has become to. I can live without it.

Sometimes I think if we don't get what we want, all we have to do is pull ourselves away from it. Ignorance is bliss. And soon enough, you don't even need what you desire before.

Don't ask.

Good Luck to all having exams

Hehehehehehe...

I'm so glad mine are over.

Ending with a 5 weeks placement beats studying in the library 11 days straight and sitting for exams, running on chocolate and coffee as fuel, feeding on instant noodles to survive.

Heeeheeeee... that was me not too long ago.

3 more weeks till its over. I am quite tired of dealing with the oldies already. Everyday have to layan them, praise them eventhough you just want to whack and scream at them, sweet talk them, tell them wide lies, and come up with all sorts of nonsense and making up "Dr's order" just to get them out of bed.

By the end of this, I am going to be a great sweet talker with great patience.... and be darn good at holding my breath :D

Week 1 down

Got yelled at by one of my patient yesterday after his physio session. Almost got strangled by him. Freaky!!!!! What a nice way to start the day.

Got told that us students were useless by a really depressed patient who's been having heaps of psych review. All I wanted was to take her for a walk and do some balance training and she said she hate students and that I won't be graduating.

Feel so emotionally abused yesterday.

19 more days... 19 more...

On a different note.... Bruno Mars is awesome!!!!

Geris

Never knew working with old people the whole day can be SOOOOO tiring.

It's only day 4 and I am all drained out.

Been coming home the last few days, just feeling like sleeping and not do anything else but I have to do 'homework' that our supervisor gives us everyday. Sucks!! Can hardly keep my eyes open, and my feet is so sore. I am pretty much on my feet the whole day. By the time I get home, I don't even feel like going for a run or swim. So much for promising to exercise after the exams huh?

It's quite funny really working in the geriatrics ward. Old people say the oddest things!! And the ward is actually on lock-down all the time. You need a password to go in or out of the ward. And you have to make sure there's no patients behind you because they might escape. Some of them dress up in their going out clothes and really wait by the door, waiting for someone to leave and they'll leave with them. The siren will sound if they notice someone escaping.

*sigh* Working with no pay sucks. 8-4.30, mon-fri. And paying to work sucks like shitzzz!!!! Hmph!! Can't wait for it to be over!!!

Physio Ball 2010

Last night was EPIC!!!

44 hours :D

It's official. My personal record of being awake for 44 hours plus....

Awake from 5.30am 14th October till 1.40-ish am 16th October.

In that 44 hours....

Woke up at 5.30 on the 14th of october, did some emails... did some revision for scientific practice exam, drank moccolo, head to uni to be a patient. Got my spine cracked :D. More revision, ate chips, sat for exams.

Came out, headed to the courtyard for BBQ, drank beer, ate sausages and pizza and salad.

Our happy happy faces after some beer, pizza and FINAL EXAM!!!

All the GEMS soaking up the sun and just chilling... spot those people in the 80's wear ;)

After the BBQ, headed to the library and worked on the Paeds take home exam. After getting some resources from the library, headed home.

Had grilled salmon and salad for dinner. One of my cousin and my current cravings. MMmMmmMM... Watched the gold medal match of netball ...Silver Ferns vs Diamonds....

Most intense match ever. My salmon got cold towards the end because it was such a nail-biting game, I didn't even want to eat my dinner. NZ better win orelse I won't have mood to do my exam. But it was really hard to tell who was going to win. Australia was leading at the end of 1st and 2nd quarter. Then NZ was leading by 2 at the end of the 3rd. Tutaia was just amazing. Her long range shots are just superb!!! And van Dyk...gosh!!! I really wonder how the silver ferns will fair without her. So steady. And she's 37 and she can still fly and jump around, damn awesome!!! Every single time the ball gets into the hands, you just know that she will get it into the hoop. Tutaia's long range shots still make me bite my nails because it's still very hard to tell whether it will go in. It's always more risky with long range but she is one hell of a machine!!! Damnn impressive! When they were leading in the 4th quarter by 7 points, I almost thought they were gonna win it already. That was when I was able to start eating. But the diamonds caught up, going into extra time with 47 all. it was never going to be an easy fight between these two teams. There were a few moments where I thought the diamonds were going to win. But then they missed the shot, then a sigh of relief. Every single turnover, it's either DAMN or YAY!! They had to go into extra extra time. First time watching extra extra time in a netball match for me. What a teaser man!! When you think the ball is gonna go in, it doesn't. Towards the end, you can just start seeing players in both teams starting to cramp. You can so tell Williams was cramping when it was sooo crucial not to. But she hung on and she's just a superb defender. Flying everywhere and intercepting balls. AHhhhhhh.... and then the final winning shot....by the young and quite hot (ok, i think she's really hot) tutaia.... Ahhhh!!! finally the game ended!! 66-64! and the results just how i liked it :D Didn't feel bad at all for the aussie team... they've been winning too many golds in the commonwealth games.. if they won this gold, it will just be one in the many gold medals they have already won. But to NZ.... it is very very very precious.....

the night before, it was the gold medal match between nz and australia. that match went into shoot outs.. and the aussie won. I wasn't that gutted because well... 1. i don't really follow the hockey. 2. this is the furthest the nz team have made it in hockey. the last time they won a medal was a bronze in the 1998 commonwealth games. So seeing them coming so far is just awesome. They definitely put up a tough fight for the aussies too. If they want the gold medal, they gotta earn it. You can so tell that the black sticks were never giving up. It was 2-1 to australia towards the end of normal time. And in the final 2 minutes, nz scored making it a tie. They had to go into over time..... and then.. shoot out. My reasoning for the loss is because NZ probably didn't even think they would get into a shoot out... they probably didn't have much practice on it and hence.. the loss. Really happy for them though because they did put up a magnificient fight for the aussies and not giving it to them easy.

So anyway...... hehehehe.... after watching the netball match, I was just too excited and happy that I couldn't get my head back into the exams... was on facebook quite awhile.... amazing to see so many people talking about the netball match.... funny how my canadian friends were watching the match too and one of the messaged me and said.... "that game was exciting.. but we had absolutely no idea what the heck was going on!" Hahaha!! must be all the penalties and turnover that they did not understand.... btw, they were cheering for the silver ferns ;) No, i didn't ask them to. Michelle is just a huge fan of Maria Tutaia. Apparently the canadian bunch have been watching netball matches on sundays on the tele.... they happened to watch one match randomly on a sunday arvo whilst studying and the commentator kept on mentioning Tutaia... Tutaia.... they were just wondering why is Tutaia mentioned so many times... lol! it's because she just keeps on scoring like a machine... and when van Dyk isn't playing, she'd get even more attention.... and then that's when they got into netball.. haha!!! all just because of tutaia... haha!!

After facebooking.. i showered and then worked on the massive take home exam... 70%... and she said we'd finished it in 2 hours if we have done all our tutorial prep and go to lectures and tutorials.. yeaa right! i did all my prep for this and did not skip a single lecture or tutorial and still had trouble getting my answers..... did it till the wee hours of the morning... come 5am... my head wasn't just functioning well.... i couldn't even stare at the screen anymore.. and so, I went to watch a movie on tele.. haha!! it's because i didn't want to sleep.. because if i do, i probably won't be able to wake up...

So yeaa... after 2 hours, had my breakfast, jumped around the apartment... and then back to working on the exam... towards the last question, i really couldn't be bothered... i probably got all my marks to pass already.. it's whether i want a distinction or high distinction.. but meh.... P's get Degrees... that's what they say... so yea.... really did a bad job on the last question.. no reference, nothing for the last question... just blab my whole way through with an intervention .... and then.. clicked SEND at 1pm.... and then, DONE.... like FOREVER. No more.

Went for a swim because I refuse to sleep. The last time I stayed up so long was back in 3rd year, doing that huge ass written analysis for my sportssci practicum. I think I was awake for around 36 hours. And so I wanted to break that record. Besides, this will probably be the last time I would do such a thing. Celebrating my youth before age starts to catch up on me.

After my swim, went online... surf the net and just did nothing..... Lucas called and asked to go for dinner. Was meant to meet him after dinner for poker but decided to go for dinner too since I was too lazy to cook and I want to celebrate!!!! by the way, I have lost 4 kgs because of the half marathon and then exams.... i have never been this weight since form 1...

Had Japanese just at the nearby restaurant in pyrmont as I was too lazy to even walk pass the Pyrmont bridge to head into city. After that... Poker time!! I haven't really played poker. The last time I played was with my family during the july holidays and that was when I sorta started learning how it works but still don't really understand it. But yeaa... after last night, I finally know what big blind and small blind is, when I can check, when I can call, when I can raise, when I can fold.... so funny how when we started playing at first, i was just simply saying check or fold.. haha!! Also learnt that I must not only know what my cards are but also try to think what the other player is chasing for. It's so hard to bluff though. But also, lucas found it hard to read my mind because at times, even I don't even know if I have good cards and simply raise ... So even I don't know what I'm thinking so it makes it harder for him too! Haha!! Won the first round simply because of beginner's luck. Come second round, I started to know my cards better and i think my expression showed... second round was wayyyy longer... the prize was the first person to win 3 rounds gets rewarded dessert.... so at least we're playing for something ... came 11 something and I just wanted it to end already... didn't really care coz i had already won the first round... so if i lose this, it will be a tie....and so... I lost. score now... 1-1. To be continued next time.... Gonna be harder now coz I know what I'm doing and it will be hard to bluff.... need to find my poker face!

On my way home, was just thinking how i am gonna bluff the next time. Just thinking of the many ways.... but it's going to be hard coz he's been playing it for ages!!! and then.. I got so awake... Hahaha!!! couldn't sleep.... so I watched a movie and then went to bed...

1.40am.. Sher Mayne knocked out.

And THIS is how it is done.

44 hours :D

Wahahahahahahhaa!!!!

and this is how being in the 80's looked like.... yupz... some people did dress up to the theme for exams.... crazy!

D to the Oh aN Eeeee

:)

Done and Done and really...

DONE!!!

Like forever!!!

No more exams!! No more assignments!!!!

MERDEKA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As in done for exams and lectures and take home exams...

Still got 5 weeks of placement to go...

HAHAHA!!!!!

Almost there!!!!! It's just downhill all the way now!!!

Well, at least I think so?

I have been awake since 5.30 am 14th october. Hence I've been awake for 34 hours now. I'm gonna set a record!!! Sleeping at 10pm tonight. Or later :p

This is probably the very last time I'll be awake for so long. Haha!! There's isn't take home exam/assignments to do anymore. WoooOohoHOOOoo!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday's exam was good. It's just the exam on Monday that is still haunting me. -_-..... at least it was a good paper to end with. There was a BBQ organized for us GEM students after our exams with cold beer. What a nice way to celebrate .... It didn't really hit it me though. That it was the last day I'll be in that campus. No more going back to the campus next to the cemetry...

Feels like just yesterday that I stepped into the campus. This two years have gone by pretty quick I reckon'. Ok, now I just need to get through 5 more weeks.. and get a job!!

Give me a job!!!!!!

Final Exam!!!

LAST DAY OF EXAMS TOMORROW!!!!

FOR THE REST OF MY LIFEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

(that is if my passed all exams... keeping fingers cross real tight)

Back to study now....

WEeeEEEEEeeEE!!! Can't wait!!!!!!!

although I do have a massive take home exam to be handed in on Friday but yea.... hehehee... i'll be really happy tomorrow....

and mega happy on Friday morning when I hand it the take home exam :p

Last day of lectures FOREVER

Today was the last day sitting in lectures and tutorials EVER!! WOW!!!! No more FOREVER!!!

It hasn't really sunk in yet. Perhaps it's because I still have exams to look forward to. Blehhh -_-

And this is what one of the events I received from facebook for exam week next week:

I think its entirely appropriate that we all wear ridiculous clothes for our final week of uni.

Themes are as follow:
Monday: Beachwear (short shorts are essential, Christie Petinos, James Wall and Brendon Ford will come dressed as per normal)
Tuesday: Toga Tuesday (self-explanatory)
Wednesday: International Suit Up Day http://www.facebook.com/?sk=messages&ref=mb#!/event.php?eid=129322155887
Thursday: 80's (I expect big things from the Canadians as they already have these clothes)

Hahaha!! I wonder if anyone will do it. It would be so cool though. But knowing my coursemates, I think some will rock up to exams next week like that. The exam supervisors will be thinking what's going on. And we're the only people in the university sitting for exams next week. Lol!! Special much?

5 Random Blah!

1. When you want things that you can't have ... just have to accept it. Sometimes there's no use asking or hoping really. I've given up.

2. Some people just stresses me out too much. But I think I'm getting better at ignoring and brushing it off.

3. Had a wonderful dinner with Ah Swan. A rack of succulent, saucey, tasty beef ribs at Hurricane's, followed by Passionflower ice cream. Just made my day after all the shitzzz at uni.

4. Can't stop checking out this site everyday: http://www.allthedeals.com.au/sydney-group-buy-deals.shtml . Hehe :p

5. Drove for the first time in Sydney on Monday. And drove to the airport 4 times in 3 days. Hah!!

Good night.

When I start worrying...

I was meant to take a good solid weekend off. Not allowed to do study or anything. Just relaxed and do nothing. Start studying on Monday.

Instead, I sat in front of the tele today, watching cartoons and at the same time going through my lecture notes. It was quite relaxing really but obviously I started to panic yesterday after seeing the amount of things I need to do and so decided to study today. There's no past exams so it's quite disturbing. However, the exams are meant to be pretty easy according to the seniors. But I still worry. Panic button was literally pushed yesterday. And I've got 2 weeks till exams. Heh :p

And now, I'm currently staring at my lecture notes on a Saturday night. It's almost 1am. I wanted to touch up my cover letter and submit my very first application this weekend but failed to do so. Maybe I'll do it tomorrow. My final day of "rest day".

And so when I start worrying...

I'm gonna have to try to stay away from blogging, stay away from facebook, stay away from MSN. It's that time of the semester where I need to restrict myself from all these distractions again.

I wish ... We'll see.

Not many more weeks left

1 week of study break

1 week of classes

1 week of exams

5 weeks of placement

And then I'm done.

8 more weeks in total!! Gosh!! Time flies.

And then it's back to Malaysia. KL, Singapore, Kota Kinabalu, Krabi, Bangkok.

And after that, it is still all unknown.

I'm quite nervous for interviews really. No, I haven't got any. It's because I haven't make any applications yet.

As I scroll through job websites, there's none in Sydney really. That is why I am procrastinating to applying the other jobs. I have to go out far.

As I sit and ponder whether I should apply jobs out in the wops wops, I think about him. It would be ideal if I stay in Sydney and if a long weekend comes along, I can just hop onto a plane. But if I'm out in the wops wops, then it would be a different story.

When I tell my friends that I'm going to stay back and work in Australia for at least a year or two, they asked - what about him?

When I say I'm not going back to Auckland this summer, they asked - when do you get to see him next then? Is he coming over?

These were all questions I asked myself too. Questions that I wish didn't need to exist in the first place.

But somehow, I have come to face the fact that these are questions that can't be answered. I have come to face the fact that I will just have to go with the flow and come what may.

Afterall, I'm only 22. There's still so much in this world to see, to experience. I'm still so young. I admit, making all these decisions for next year such as where to work and if I should apply, would be so much easier if I didn't have someone in my heart and if I didn't miss that someone so badly everyday.

And so there's the saying... You can't get the best of both worlds.

Not just yet... but One Day... One Day I will.

For now, I'm just going to take things one step at a time. Follow my mind, and not my heart. Whatever will be, will be. Money is stronger than love for now. Hehehe... Sue me.

Sydney Blackmores Half Marathon- 19th Sept

Just a wee bit under 2 hours. Like really, JUST under it - 1hr 59min 27s.

Satisfied?
Not really. Ok, so my target was to do it under 2 hours. But really, I wanted a target of 1 hr 55 min. The amount of training I did was more than the usual.

Amount of training:

Final week of July: 1 x 30 min run
2 weeks in august: Yoga, 1 x 15 min run
Past 5 weeks: 1.5 hr run, 2 hr run, and 3 x 30 min run

I know I know. It still ain't that much compared to what other people do. I should have been doing more. But I'm just too lazy and don't have the motivation. And I guess the results showed. It was less than a minute improvement compared to my run in May. And the training in May was way less, swimming made up the majority of my training. I think if I were to just swim for this half marathon, I would have gotten the same time. It's all of a matter of sprinting the last 100m.

As I've achieved my target of sub 2 hours, I am now not going to do anymore half marathons for awhile. Sure, the real target was 1 hr 55 min and I should be aiming for that first before I decide no more half marathons, but I was in much pain during the run today that really, I do not want to do it anymore.

Race kicked off at 6.20am while the majority of people were still in bed. It wasn't freezing cold at the start. Just a slight chill which was tolerable. As I started running, I slowly warmed up and was running at a pretty good pace. Or so I thought. Came to the start of the Harbour Bridge which was the 1km mark and my watch read 6 min 12s. Eekz!!! How can this be? And so, I picked up my pace, making it 10min 10s at 2km.

5km mark- 27 mins
10km mark - 52 mins
12km mark - 1 hr 3 mins

I was actually impressed with myself. I could feel the building up of blisters in my shoes but I was maintaining a pace of 5 min 12s/km! That's like the fastest I ever ran (excluding runs on treadmill).

But.. it went all downhill after that. We were near The Rocks after the 12km. It was a long stretch of straight flat road running after that point. It was meant to be quite an easy run. But, I felt myself just trying to make it stride after stride after the 13km mark. I think I hate flat road running with a long straight stretch. It's always that point where I start to feel it and wanna give up. The Putrajaya Half Marathon also had a long stretch of flat road on the highway and that was the point where the thought of giving up kicked in. It was the same this time (minus the tummy ache).

I did not really look at my pace after that. I definitely have slowed down. I was just focusing on getting pass km after km. Just looking out for the 14,15,16 km mark and counting down how many km to go. And that's the worst thing one can do in a run I reckon'. Because it just makes the run feel even longer!!!! I stopped at every single drink station just because I needed to stop. I stopped, walk, ran throughout the whole thing.

Came the 17km mark, it was 1 hr 34 min. I could really make it even if I was just running at a pace of 6min/km. But....the thought of just finishing it over 2 hours was just so strong. I really have given up to do a sub 2 hours. It was pretty much downhill or flat after the 17km. But I still was taking really slow and small strides. I was still stopping and walking. Even at the last 2 km, I was still doing that. Came the last km, I still wasn't sprinting. That is how much I've given up. I even walked a bit in the last km.

And then... I saw it. The finishing line. Time on watch: 1 hr 59min. And I sprinted. And I finished it just under 2 hours.

Target achieved. Then and there, I was satisfied because after all the thoughts of giving up, I managed to do it. But now, come to think about it, I really could have done better. All I needed was a little bit more stamina and determination. I needed a stronger mental attitude. Sure my calves and thighs were burning, I managed to get 3 blisters of different sizes and I couldn't really walk after... but what got to me this time was more of the mental strength. And that is not something you can train and get better at. And that is why I have so much respect for endurance athletes. It is really mind over matter.

After the race, I went to the Skins Recovery Village and waited for 50 mins just to get a free 5 min massage. Hehehe... It was good. No way can I walk back home without a rub. I'm still so sore now but it could have been worst.

And after this race, I think I'm just sticking to shorter 10km runs and target for a sub 50 for now. No more half marathons till I get a new pair of shoes that doesn't give me blisters. And more importantly, till I am mentally stronger and able to drag myself out of the house, put on a shoes and make running as my daily routine. When that time comes, then maybe I will do another half marathon. The thought of doing a full marathon will have to wait.

And I really do need a new pair of shoes. I can see my socks from the outside of my shoes. We had a lecture today on the biomechanics of running in a physio's point of view. And one of the way to help treat our patients is simply to look at their shoes and advice them if they need to change. One of the features are the present of creases in the mid foot of the shoes. And I looked at mine.. Yeapzz... time to change!!!

And this is a photo of me... this is the point where i was actually giving up and was like.. "screw the under 2 hours target, i'm gonna look good in my photo!!"

18th September 2010 - a very special day because of a special person

Hari ni harijadi separuh saya!!

A friendship of 4 years plus. I friendship I truly treasure and hold closely to my heart.

Today is the day where I am being reminded how lucky and blessed to have this special relationship with you.

I mean, how lucky is it to meet someone for the very first time and then you 'click' right away?

I don't believe in love at first sight. I don't think there's such a thing. But 'other halves' at first sight.... that... that I believe in. Because of my Ah Swan!!!!

Though we're separated by distance, the relationship we share is still as strong before the separation. This girl here, despite being busy with work and sports, can still email me like really long essays and update me of what's going on in kiwi land. She never fails to keep me updated and make me feel like I'm still there and part of all the excitement. And if it's not email, it will be super long SMS-es and just reading them... I can sense her excitement/sillyness :p

Berita Terkini, email updates =), Happy 22nd- one of a kind birthday present, Custard Puff Recipe, the story ... All the subjects for our emails in the past 2 years. Yes, I confess, I save them and read over them.

Babe, thanks for listening to all my troubles, my whinings.. Sorry for just bombarding you with them. And thanks for your comforting words, for all your updates, for sharing your stories with me..... and for THE EXCITING NEWS!!! I can't wait!!! You really put a smile on my face :)

Whenever I need someone to talk to, this girl here, my other half, is really... just an email away :) Thanks for being there for me!!! You do not know how happy I am whenever I see your email in my inbox. You never fail to make my day.

Happy 22nd Birthday MOH!!! (3 more years! 3 more years!!!)

You spice up my life!!! (and u think that u would get away with no silly photo of you this time huh? Haha!!! NOT!!!!! )

xoxoxo,
Separuh anda

Malaysia Day

What?

I didn't know there was such a day.

Ooops!!!

Happy Malaysia Day?

urghhhh...

Why can't people just compromise? Why can't people just ask? Why do people just make assumptions all the time? There's no point making assumptions because nothing will be solved. And even if it is, it will not favour both parties. Why do people just spend time complaining instead of finding ways to solve problems? Findings way to put words in a nicer way so that you can get what you want. Well, at least part of what you want. It's call compromising,. Geez!!!! Why are some people just so stubborn, not wanting to listen to options suggested by others and just come up with all the excuses in the world just to go against you.?Why do people work against each other instead of WITH each other? Why do people always take others for granted and not realizing it?

Seriously?? seriously!! Farrrrrrrrrrrrrr out!!!!

Just so annoyed right now with certain things. Just had to let it out so that I can cool off.

On a different note, well, maybe a lil bit related to the above....

A lot of people in this world really need people skills. But you won't learn it if you are stubborn and think you are doing nothing wrong and reluctant to learn. You won't learn if you think others are wrong and you are right. "If you want things to change, you must change first."

When I was at one of my placement, my supervisor gave me a really good advice. You see, sometimes I need help to stand my patient up because they are so unsteady on their feet. I need to assess their mobility and I'll need assistance. The best people to get help from are the nurses. But sometimes, the nurses can get really grumpy. This was how I do it?

"Hey [inserts nurse name here], can you please give me hand when are you free to get Mr.X up? I just want to see how he is on his feet and then take him for a short walk." Polite much? Doesn't sound too bad right?

Apparently no.... they go around complaining saying I demand too much. I was really confused.

This is how it should be done....

"Hey [inserts nurse name here], let me give you a hand when you need to get Mr.X to the shower. I will help you to get him out of his bed and walk him to the shower."

And they are so smiley to me after that :) People skills I tell you, people skills.

You did not put the "operator"

That was the sentence my stats lecturer said to us when we were in our stats tutorial and using SPSS. We were doing some sort of calculation and was just following the step-by-step instructions to generate our output. Don't ask me what was it.. I think it was Cohen's D? Or something else.. Pearsons? fudge.. i have no idea what all these terms mean.... I don't even know WHY we are doing stats!!!!! I don't want to do research!!!!!!

Anyway.... back to so called following step-by-step instructions. Seriously, if you look at the instructions we were given, it was REALLY step-by-step (no sarcasm intended)... I just think we are too dumb to follow it. We kept on clicking OK but nothing happened. So we called our lecturer to help us. He looked at our screen and said... "You didn't put in the operator... see, it says ADD group_A, group_B,group_C, you're missing the operator". Nat and I looked at each other.... in our heads, we were both thinking... "What the heck is an operator? what is he talking about?" Mish peeked over at our table because she was trying to figure out what's going on and her face was just blanked....

After a moment of silence, the lecturer said.. "look, it says ADD... u're missing the operator"... *still thinking what's an operator!!!!* and then he points to the '+' sign on the calculator looking thingy on the screen. Ohhhhhhhhh .... the 'plus' sign is an operator!!!!!!!! ding ding ding!!!! couldn't he just say that? the 'plus' sign?? as he walked away after we understood it, we both burst out laughing because we had no idea that was called an operator.... farrr out!!!!!

You see, my stats lecturer (ok, it's called Scientific Practice paper...sounds more cool right? but it really is just stats i think) is a very smart guy. His name is in countless journal articles. We think the reason being he's the few people who actually analyses the results and so forth. Obviously the other researchers can't be stuffed doing that so they get him to analyse the results and put his name in the paper. So yeaa... he's so smart and he knows his stuff really well but when he talks, it's all so scientific/mathematical and not in layman terms that we all understand. I never understood any of his lectures or tutorials. I mean, look... even a simple 'plus' sign is called an operator!!! OMG! He goes on talking about ROC, ANOVA, t-tests, Cohen's, Pearsons, ICC, k value (in my notes, i wrote ***DO NOT USE K!!! but really.. i don't even know what k is or means!!!!!)........ZzzZZZzz... all these terms in my head but i do not know what the heck they are... It's end of week 7 already.

This scientific practice paper is a joke really. I don't know whether to laugh or to cry about it. I am so lost in tutorials that I just burst out laughing. I'm sure some of you have gone though that feeling before? No? Yes? Thank goodness we have another lecturer who's in there to help explain things in layman terms. He is just awesome man!!! You can see him smirking at the back of the classroom when the main lecturer is talking at the front because he sees all our blank faces, trying to concentrate real hard to understand but still very lost.

Another thing that happened today was.. I slipped off the wheelie chair during that tutorial. I wasn't even playing!! But I slid of it "really smoothly and in slow mo" as described by nat. I was explaining something to her on the computer screen and as i was lifting my hand up to point, somehow i just felt myself sliding off the chair, slowly landing onto the ground. And as I was sliding off, I was still talking because i didn't want to lose my train of thoughts. Hilarious really. It was a smooth landing. Very silent landing. No loud BAMM!!! I don't even know how that happened. Must be by strong quads that enabled me to lower myself to the ground slowly. Hehehe.....the lecturer was just beside me, two computers away and apparently he saw everything. My back was facing him and I didn't see his face. But as Nat put it, it was classic. He was just shocked at what happened. He stood up and walked away. We think he was just trying not to laugh. I on the other hand was LMAO. So was nat, mish and chris. Now when I think of it, it's pretty darn funny and I've been giggling to myself everytime I think about it. Mish and chris who was sitting next to nat on the other side could only see my head and they said it suddenly disappeared and all they saw was the chair sliding back.

It didn't end there.... at the train station, as I was walking down the stairs, Nat told me to be careful on the stairs... she was saying it jokingly because i fell off the chair.... and i was like.. Ya right!! like i would fall... And right at the very last step.... I tripped. Just my day. Just my day alright.

So that's my day and my rants. Ohh yahh.. today's 8/9/10. 8,9,10!!! Ok, before I go crazy.... good night.

Triple K

KKK

Flight to KL - check

Flight to KK- Check

Flight to KRABI - CHECK!!!!

It's gonna be a triple K holiday this summer!!

Now if I can get a job offer before all this, that would be AWESOME!!!

No job application submitted yet :p Must really get started on that!!! But there's no vacancy so far... so......... yea.... :(

ms.audrey chong

1st September 2010

Can't believe that was the most recent photo I took with you!! Which was early last year in February... where you took me on the best fishing trip ever!!!

We stopped taking photos after that. It's because once you hit 25, you are meant to look older... but you're not. So I don't want the whole world to be jealous when they see that I have such a hot friend who's over 25 :p

Flattering much? Okok... it's the opposite really.... I know you are getting older and so I don't want the whole world to see your wrinkles :p

But you know I still love you right? hehehehe....

Happy Birthday Audrey CHONG!

Next year it's gonna be different... it's gonna be minus the o-n-g and bring in the IN!! Woot woot!!!

Thanks la for everything. 4 years of knowing you.... So many memorable moments but this is just a few.....

2006: First year I met you. You'd take me to windmill courts and rec centre nearly every week and make me get the damn ball into the net. And I can't move until it's 5 in a row. I wonder if I actually liked you then :p I know I was scared of you... like.. freaking scared!!!! I wonder why I still continued playing....I think it was because you will bring me to TANK after that. Hehehe... bribery!!!! you sneaky sneaky...

2007: More netball, but christchurch pre-bersatu trip stood out the most with swan and peilyn. One heck of a crazy trip!!! Weather was crap but we made the best out of it :p I was browsing through the photos the other day and I am still LMAO. Freaking good times!!

2008: You introduced fishing to me. I remembered the first ever fishing trip you and bronson took me. It was night fishing. All we were fishing was EELS!!! Ewwwww mann!!!! Couldn't even see anything because it was dark. Only when the eels come up, you can see something wriggling.. I wonder why I still followed you all the next time. You see, the trust I have in you is just too much. Are you flattered again? I trusted you when you said it will be better.... and.. you were right.... it was much better... coz I caught a huge ass mussel with a fishing rod.... and also a fish ... that was edible :p the other fishing trips later on was more and more fruitful ... good fun!!!!

2009: Coromandel fishing trip. Where you all tried to get swan and I drunk but in the end.... Hehehehe..... failed.... bwahahahaha!!!!! Those videos are just classic.

And to end this post..... here's one last picture.... on your very first birthday dinner I attended.... and the only one I attended :p yayaa.... i know i party pooper la.... :p

RAWRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!

Happy birthday once again babe!!! May you have a fantastic year ahead with no wrinkles, no white hair, more money, more love, more fun, good health and an awesome December!!!!

FML

Eeeekkkssss!!!!!!

I thought it was gonna be a pretty cruisy weekend once I finish the preso for Wednesday.... So I went for a 2 hour run after I finished it this evening.

Came home, had dinner, drank my tea, ate my mint slices.... sat in front of the tele and watched a movie... Accidental Husband. Quite funny.

Came online and checked WebCT and realized I've got:

1. 3 chapters of reading for Advanced physio lecture on Monday which they will pick people to answer questions so I gotta to the damn readings ....
2. Watch videos before Advanced physio tutorial by Tuesday
3. 4 articles to read for by Thursday and answer questions of Paeds tutorial
4. Abstract handed in by Wednesday 5pm for selected pops which I haven't started my research on. I thought it was due next week!!!

I've not said this before but... FML. FML indeed.

So much for wanting to go to a cafe tomorrow morning and have eggs benedict. So much for wanting to treat myself after a long run today.

Will have to keep it for next weekend.. provided there's no more surprises like this.

2 years...

To Ivan

:)

(i can be rather cheesy eh? hehe...)

urghhh

This older people presentation is a huge pain in the arse!!!!

So time consuming and it's not even worth it. Wasted like 4 pounds on skype to do phone calls and it's such a waste... Far out!!!! I could be doing better things really.....

Round and round it goes

One week filled with good news, and then wham!! The next week filled with bad ones. With the bad ones relating to the good ones so it cancels the good ones out.

It's been like that for a few cycles now throughout the year. When will this end? When will there be a time where the good news remain good and gets better?

When will the world stop being so cruel? It's not me getting it but I'm feeling the effects too. I feel for you bro!!

*sigh*

Power Yoga

Went for Power Yoga 5 out of 8 days ($25 intro offer for 14 days, that's why :p)

Yoga made me stretch places I never really stretched before. Well, not like I stretch a lot in the first place. I hate stretching. I think it's a waste of time.

Anyhuuuzzz.. I think my hip flexors and calves are not as tight. I ran 6.2km in 30 mins today. On the treadmill. So I guess that's cheating. But still... haven't ran for 2 weeks so it's not too bad right?

But I so disagree with those studies saying stretching doesn't improve performance or prevent injuries. My calves are not hurting :)

Choices

Choices...

Choices Choices Choices.... Having a hard time putting my top 5 choices for my final placement.

The options are pretty crap unless I go out rural.

I think if I want to make the most out of it and learn more, get heaps of experience, I should go rural. As in real rural, in those ulu towns, not Newcastle 'rural'.

But the comfort of home.... not needing to pay rent.... *sigh*

For my own good, really, I think I should go rural. I know it's gonna be super challenging, I know I'm gonna be worried like shit everyday because I'll get thrown in the deepest of deep ends.... but I will learn. Question is, do I want to step out of my comfort zone again?? I am comfortable going for another placement in cardio or neuro. But outpatients... I can't. I hate it, coz I suck. I could do just outpatients in the city but if I wanna challenge myself, why not take the ultimate? Rural + outpatients + ulu town + overweight bogans + heat....

Rent is really not a problem. $80/week accommodation with own computer, own room, free internet, a cleaner to clean every week..... it's is freaking cheap!!!!

But the travelling..... i don't think I will come back at all in that 5 weeks if I do go. It is like 6 hours train ride. Unless... I fly. But then money is a concern.

And the heat... ohhh it's gonna pretty hot come Oct & Nov.

It's Convenience + Comfort VS Experience.

*sigh* hate choices. And this really, is only the start of it. Gonna have to make even more choices after this.

Grow up Sher Mayne, grow up!! It's just another placement of 5 weeks. It's not even a job for goodness sake.

eeekssss.. need to talk to mummy.

From $10 to $4

From $10 to $4

The photocopy machine drama was so last week. I did something pretty bad to make up for it. Ahh.. I shall not tell just in case I get caught. Never know who's reading. Ask me if you're really that curious. It's not that bad but... I felt guilty after that. It's wrong but... They did it too! And I paid AUD 20k plus just for this semester man!!!! Sure a couple of bucks won't matter.

And on top of that, my $1 bus fare one way trip is now really 40 cents one way :) So instead of spending $10 a week, I spend $4 a week on my bus trips. Hehehe... more reason to catch the bus now. This one, it's not wrong. It's called.. finding loop holes and hope they don't notice :p

Now I'm no longer upset with the photocopy machine. Just won't do much photocopy anymore. Save the Trees. All these other things made me happy. The joy of saving a few bucks huh? Student life. That's what we do to survive. It's all about saving a few bucks here and there.

Sedikit-dikit, lama lama menjadi bukit. Ya?

I promise when I start working and earning money, I will be less scheming, ok?

RAWRrrRRRRr

RAWRrrRRRRr

So the secret code to free photocopy doesn't work anymore.... they changed all the machines in my campus and in main campus....

GAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pfft!! i REFUSE to pay for photocopy after paying so much school fees!!!

Still can't believe it's back to reality

Still can't believe it's back to reality

The first week of uni have been pretty cruisy. Or maybe I'm just cruising along not knowing what's going on, still in holiday mode.

Came back Monday night and had no classes on Tuesday. Wednesday morning had 4 hours of lecture which I did not absorb a single thing. Waited for 3 hours to attend a 1.5 hour tutorial and nothing went in really.

Thursday morning I cooked a whole lot of bolognese sauce. I printed out the tutorial prep for my tutorial in the arvo but I just printed it. I did not read it or complete it. Tutorial PREP. That means to be done before a tutorial and I did not do it. Hah!!! Took me 1.5 hour to travel into uni to attend an hour tutorial, consist of watching little kids walking around and feeding themselves. Paediatric Physiotherapy. That's why. And then it was another 1.5 hour to travel home. Worth it? So not worth it. Wasted 6 bucks for travel.

Friday, no class. Stayed at home, watched Dear John again, went for a run. At night, went out for drinks with the course mates. I don't really enjoy going out for drinks because it means spending money. But I go because I haven't been going out for awhile and have been very anti-social during the last semester.

Saturday, I don't even remember what I did. Stayed at home, laze around and did nothing. In the evening, went for strapping job and nearly got into FEW accidents. They were playing at a different field and the coach got lost and frustrated because one of the girl was reading the map. He ran a red light that was RED for quite awhile and nearly hit into a car. He did a really sharp turn and was going in opposite direction of a ONE WAY road. He nearly hit a stationery car parked on a roadside because they were arguing. Ahhh!! Tension. I can't wait for this strapping job to be over really. Just three more weeks. 50 bucks is really not that worth it. Came home at almost 10, had my pasta again and watched Love Actually.

Sunday, today, I woke up and did nothing the whole day. Tried to complete my tutorial prep that I didn't do for last Thursday but failed. The mind still isn't there. Chatted, napped, cleaned, made dinner and watched Made of Honour. Been watching movies that I've watched before just because I have no new movies. I miss my Sundays back in Auckland where it will be happening. I miss Auckland. I miss the company. And it's not even a week. This sucks!!!

But it's back to reality. Somebody kick me.

So Sweet

So SWEET

So today at the airport, after unloading the car, putting my luggage onto the trolley...

He gave me this...

Lime flavoured and Feijoa flavoured lollypop plus a card...

But I can only open it in 2 days time...

You made me smile but made leaving even much harder.

Has it always been this hard?

Has it always been this hard?

Somehow leaving this time feels so hard. I really feel heavy-hearted. I try to recall the past few times having to leave. I don't think it was ever this hard. Ok, maybe the first time leaving at the start of last year felt hard just because it was the first time. But I manage to leave saying "I'll see you in May for my graduation or if not, I'll see you end of June."

And every other time I leave, I know when I will be seeing him again. But this time... I REALLY DON'T KNOW. During the past few days, I've been having people asking me "So when will we see you again?". And it sucks not to have an answer. I wish I have an answer rather than.. "umm...maybe end of this year? maybe next year?... umm... I don't really know actually..."

Will I come back to NZ after I finish my course at the end of the year before going back to Malaysia?

Should I stay back in Australia and look for jobs after I finish my course and then fly back to Malaysia straight?

Will I go to NZ from Malaysia before going back to Sydney?

Will I even be in Sydney next year?

Will I even get a job next year?

Will I go to the wedding?

Are you going to be in NZ next year?

*SIGH*

Putting all these uncertainties aside, I had a pretty good 1 month winter break. I tried to balance my time between friends and family and I hope I did alright. For once my mum didn't complain I'm always going out but maybe she just decided not to complain anymore.

I made sure I had dinner at home on most weekends because that's when my brother can be home for dinner. The 4 of us snuggled up on mum and dad's king size bed on one night and watched The Karate Kid. Another week, we went out for dinner then went to Countdown to buy two packs of cards... found lots and lots of coins at home..... and played cards from 8.30pm till 1am in the morning. The following week, we went to the movies and watched Inception, with all of us falling asleep at some point of the movie, excluding my brother who was awake throughout. I gave mum and dad massages. I dyed my mum's hair. We went for a spontaneous walk at Mangemangeroa Reserve.

I played netball for 3 weekends, with this weekend being the best because of the awesome weather. Played a game of indoor netball. I played a game of mafia. I attended my very first boardgames night which was AWESOME and it is something I'm gonna MISS and be jealous about the next time a boardgames night is on and I can't go!!! I made a group of people watch Vampires Suck and made Swan rolled her eyes countless times.

I watched Eclipse and Inception at the movies. I had a good day trip with my other half, Gladys and Nat to Matakana. I met my favourite oldies and netball kakis for food, for sports, for games. I managed to have quick meet up session with Pei Yun; with Caroline; with Leight and Mel. I also had a quick catch-up with Alicia, a malaysian girl who I met when I was in Canada whose family took care of me whilst I was there. I worked a couple of times at the gym and earned my air ticket back.

I ate dim sum many many times. I had my kumara chips with aioli dip 3 times from burger fuel. I had a good chocolate dose at Chocolate Boutique. Ate pasta at La Porchetta. I had momo tea many many times. I had hulu cat. I had korean buffet. I ate lobster noodles. I had my favourite mushroom dish and prawn balls at One World Cafe. I had butter chicken at the food court in Sylvia Park. I had my chicken laksa at Food Alley. I drank feijoa juice. I had my egg benedicts (not at Circus Circus though). I had my 1kg mussel pot with fries and mayo. I had my ETA Uppercuts Honey and Soy Chicken. I had my KFC wicked wings and original recipe. I had my favourite prawns and yum yum sauce at Daikoku. I lost 4 kgs when I was in Sydney and now I have gained 3kgs :p

And with all these activities, my significant other was with me for most of them. We watched the World Cup a few times and made bets with each other. We watched a few movies on the laptop. We went for a $20 introductory offer for Bikram Yoga for 10 consecutive days at Ti Rakau Drive. Managed to go 7 times I think so it was pretty worth it. And just two days ago, it was just the both of us, making a morning day trip to Devonport :) The weather was crap but at least it wasn't pouring.

After typing all these out, seeing what I have done.... I guess I did make a good use out of this break. I still however wish for more time. I still have friends that I wanted to meet. I still want more time with him. I still want more netball. I still want another night of boardgames. All these will never be enough I guess.

And so, this is it. My winter break for 2010. I just realized, it is my last winter break. No more winter break anymore. Here's to my final semester of school!!

One more semester of printing slides, of highlighters, of swollen fingers from too much writing, of tutorials and lectures, of falling asleep in lectures, of using the secret code to get free photocopy service, of my famous "Mocco-Lo" to stay awake, of library visits....

And then hopefully... hopefully.... I can step into the working world next year.

Hopefully I can have a clearer picture.

Hopefully everything will fall into place nicely.

Hopefully I can see you not too long from now.

"No matter how many years go by, I know one thing to be as true as ever was - I'll see you soon then."