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Sometimes When We Touch - Dan Hill

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides
i got the every urge to hit the dancefloooooooooooooor once again ):
im done with filming for my assignment but im having a bad aftermath ):

i sprained the back of my hip and it's ultra painful. i cant bend forward, neither can i bend side to side. im having trouble drying up myself after bath and picking up things from the floor when i drop them!

visited the physician in the evening. though he had helped me to "unlock" those sprain, im feeling more pain due to the massaging he had done for me. ): this is sucks man.. im like an old lady la...

friends are enjoying themselves so much while i have to stay home. good for them la..

boyfriend on the other hand has to stay in camp for like 2 weeks i think as he has big job in hand to manage. at least he made time for me yesterday noon till night to come over my hse to meet me (:

monday onwards im gonna be busy with school already. so till here, i'll see you all soon. you all enjoy your life..

FML.
yet again im the one being shot at. so seriously, why the fuck bring me onto the world? fuck this life man, get me out of this fucking house. fuck fucking fucker.
2 of my middle fingers go to the sickening FYP!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i damn damn damn damn siannnnnnnnnnn with FYP. all cock ups just comes altogether and screws everything together. and it makes it worst when you supervisor is some old unwise man who keeps nagging and nagging and nagging and demoralised the team even more. TWO MIDDLE FINGERS TO HIM TOO!

anyways i need opinions from you all. please advice me.
click here, to help me choose 2 SKIRTS, 2 SHIRTS AND 2 DRESSES by clicking "LIKE".
thanks!
i super love this collection!
HERE credits to ascentee.lj

and i've watched transformers 2 with darling today! AWESOME SHIT! if only someday somehow im able to model as good as they do it for optimus prime. or best, im able to produce such movie in future. HAHA!

lastly, thank you love.

but then again i hate the 2 weeks very much today
imissyoualready ):
be determined, don't let others rule you.

im gonna learn real hard to be myself.
im gonna learn real hard to resist temptations.
im gonna learn real hard to save up.
im gonna learn real hard to exercise.
im gonna learn real hard to not be lazy.

im gonna learn life real hard.

fucked up world la.
very often it's our conscious that tell us it's the wrong thing to do. very often conscious is the angel side of us. but very often becos of this conscious thing we kinda missed out the excitement in life. very often we do not dare to bring the devil out of ourselves as the outcome is gonna be real bad. but aint that the excitement in life?

i don't know if any of you get me, but that's what im talking about.

it's becos of the society, our conscious and our dignity that we are not venturing out to explore both the good and THE BAD of the world.

i feel so protected with the care and love of my family. i don't know if i can accept the harsh society and clear my conscious to fight back. in this society now, in order to be nice, you have to be cruel

but my conscious doesn't do me any good in being cruel.
now you feel me?
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.(NOT TRUE LEI)

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. (I DON'T THINK SO LEI)

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. (SO TRUE)

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. (so very true)
i feel like a total shit crap. i've done alot of thinking and thinking and thinkng. it was mind fucked. and no one could understand me and be there to listen to me whole heartedly. anyways, i've made up my mind and done what i have needed.

hello or goodbye.
both simple words with strong feelings.

love comes in many forms but sometimes,
the many forms don't blend together.


i hate him to extreme core most of the time, but at this moment i really hope everything will go smoothly for him. god of all religions, please bless him.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS DRESS BUT I'VE GOT NO NO NO MONEYYYYYYYYYYY. I SUPER SUPER SUPER SAD!



and also another sad thing. our king of POP, MICHAEL JACKSON has passed away.
more details here.

i remember when i was young, though MJ wasnt really my huge idol, i will often watch VCD of him and his music videos. i thought his dance moves and music videos are cool! and of course, he himself is cool and full of confidence yet humble. furthermore, despite all the rumours of him being pedophile (or maybe he really is), he still brave through all the negatives rumoured about him and continues to be the huge king of pop.

he has really made a huge accomplishment of himself. why i say so? cos at the age of 50, he still have his huge fans of all ages despite of all the bad rumours about him. i think you guys get what im trying to say.

for his death, i believe he did not die with any regrets but i think he will be quite sad to disappoint his fans who are excitedly waiting for his supposed-up-coming-concert. oh well, life loves to play with everyone's fate aint it?



RIP MICHAEL JACKSON - "Heal the world, make it a better place"
you'll never get tired of this song and this songs brings alot of meaning and i just love his dancing.
same thoughts keep running through my head. keep asking myself, could it be like this, could it be like that. why is it like this, why is it like that. is it like this, is it like that. all freaking questions that makes me sad, guilty, confused. if only someone can totally understand my feeling and feel me deep down in my head.

im really really confused.
don't you just hate the feeling of don't know what to do and you're feeling very confused over stuffs? i hate such feelings. as much as i hate you.


HAHA! try and copy me somemore la, colin chan!

anyways, today was great. great evening outing with tansiying and came along with weehow. afterwhich on the way home, weiping bra called to ask out for supper/chilling. so we agreed and HAD LOTS OF LAUGHTER. it was great nite to midnite with all mentioned above and along with cheefai, shifu, colin, isaac and sanyo.

YOU GUYS MADE MY MONDAY NOT BLUE ANYMORE!
i have ducking loads of things to blog but i just wanna blog about this cool shit that happen to me!

i had a little adventure with darling on saturday with me driving the car!!!!!!! just with darling and without dad or brother or mother beside me. dad allowed me!!!!!!!! and i drove from my house all the way down to some ulu ulu place called neo tiew lane. you won't know how proud i am with myself man!!!!!!1 however darling said i was a little too kiasi, keep goin at a very slow speed of 50/km. but i was finding my way so don't wanna speed maa..........

all in all, i am very proud!
to drivers out there, i might be over exaggerated but this is really a stepping stone for me to drive. so please forgive me here.
im not blaming anyone but myself, really.
it's just another self inferior post.

im sorry i cant be perfect.
im sorry i cant make you proud enough.
im sorry i cant find a perfect dress for your night.

i just feel very inferior.
those girls are sure gonna be 100% tall, pretty, slim and whatever it takes to be WOW for the dinner. each of them gonna be like in the perfect dress, perfect hair, perfect shoes and of course perfect figure.

i fucking cant make myself comfortable and just be my fucking self. what the fuck is wrong with me huh, fucking kellyn wee?

oh fuck!
ALL THANKS TO YIKLOONG, HE TEMPT ME TO ANOTHER CAMERA WHICH IS MORE EX AND MORE STYLE!
have a look here to see the comparison between the 2 cameras.
baby p, you still got us at your back.
lovessss!