I can't believe that my stay back at home zoomed past so quickly. While I managed to tick many things off my to-do list, there are some people whom I still haven't gotten the chance to catch up with. It's nice to know that most of my loved ones are still the same and we could continue from where we left off earlier. My home has changed quite a bit in terms of physical appearance but it doesn't detract away from the warm bubble bath feeling I get every time I go home. It's just so comfortable. The weather was wonderfully predictable! I really enjoyed the constant warmth and sunshine. It was such a guilty pleasure to be able to expose my skin to the sun, wind and waterlogged air. It was nice to indulge my obsession with Singlish again with my fellow Singlish-speakers. On top of that, I managed to fulfill some of my foodie cravings.
Chinese New Year was however as dreary as every year. It got annoying at some points when my elders asked me constantly about my "future plans" beyond my Japan stint. The problem was that I truly had no idea at that point in time. So I guess in the year of the dragon I have to figure out what exactly I want... Unfortunately, I don't know when I'll ever find out if something I decide on is truly something I want. I have a lot of doubts, fear and apprehension when it comes to making a major decision like that, given my history of making questionable decisions based on my considerations of the situation rather than sincerely asking myself what I wanted. I don't think I'm up to that, so I hope that soon... At the ripe old age of 25, I'll be able to do something decent for myself.
Now I'm back in freezing Tokyo. It was lovely to catch up with my housemates this weekend. My closest ones are actually moving on in a couple of days. I feel a pinch of sadness but I'm glad that their dream is coming true by having a proper home of their own. I'm going to be a wee bit lonelier without them around. Well, soon I'll be starting work. I'm looking forward to that though, it beats staying at home and making half-hearted efforts to study Japanese and clean the dust in my room.
Anyhow, here's a big thank you to everyone I met back home. Thank you so much for making my trip home so nice and heartwarming. It's great to see that everyone I care is doing well. May this year bring even brighter prospects, love, peace and bliss to everyone! x
FYI - I like this Japanese phrase: 知（し）らぬが仏（ほとけ）. It means the same as our saying in English "ignorance is bliss".
