人生迷了路

我...又来了,

走了一段路

发现自己迷了路

停下疑问自己

方向在何处

心中那把尺

还直不直

尺寸有无模糊?

兜兜转转了一年半

知不知道自己想怎样?

如果我明了

何必又在缠?

时间总不让步

我只能加快脚步

就算走的是冤路

只怪自己不懂路

前途哪看得清楚

年纪还轻过度

只知道忙碌

才能让自己假装懂路

忙碌过后

又再停下脚步

直到何年何月

我才能看得清楚

这是不是我要的路?

放下脚步

就好像不停退步

加快脚步

就像胡乱踏步

不前不后

不左不右

终点在何处

从来没有在地图

如果我懂自己走的路

何必总不停原地踏步?

谁能比我更清楚我?

如果我连自己都不懂自己

我只需要一个活生生的指南针

告诉我，一切值得

就算开始踏错步

也可以走得很不俗

HML-hate my life

not updating my blog for so long.

hmm..

im juz too busy on rushing my assignment

everything due tis week 

n some of it next week

not only that, 

my final start next friday

and we have no study week

WUHOO!

die.

8 subjects no study week

n we have to deal with all this assignment 

before our final.

cool taylors.

u r the best uni ..o0o

not only that 

i heard in class 2day 

we have to pay RM1500 for internship fees

harlo, we go out intern, 

u juz provide us few piece of paper

y the hell u wan charge us 1500?

fck u .. 

sucks uni

คุณเคยรักฉันจริงๆ

คุณเคยรักฉันจริงๆ

 I love this song very much..

So touching 

& the important things is..

although i dont understand..

but i can feel it..

Have you ever really loved me by Zee

Is a very down night ..

things happened around..

ppl around...are all depress and sad.

So do i..

Over stressed by assignment..

OopsS. 

sorry, the old me has back...

frens are cutting off their hair..

and tis make me feel like cutting it too

if i cut..

tis time will b damn short one i tell u ...

a little bit of time

finally i hav a little bit of time to breath

to feel the air..

and next 

things brought me down

Lecturer asking for something impossible..

a trip stressed me..

ya.

bcos if u fail to complete u hav to pay

RM500+

imagine how my dad will kill me?

in pieces.

Sigh bout all of the things

The picture in my head was this :

but wat i get at the end ?

i dont really know.

somehow the only things i wan to say is.

Taylor's U sucks.

a little bit of time

whn i hav the time

things keep pop up in my mind

juz something make me sad.

Mainly, tis time the mood was really brought down by the trip

is somethin really unreasonable 

force by lecturer. but v cant force customer

somethin stuck in middle n v hav to take it. Juz like dat.

who cares u die at the end? 

i dunno wat to aim in my life.

juz lost in sudden.

thought being a human

being a student

pass through all the tasks dat given by god n the lecturer

so now $ is the prob i hav to pass through ?

wats $ really mean to tis world ?

the truth. 

busy week

ya ya ya

is a busy week

n im so gonna die

because almost whole week im sitting exam next week

mid term mid term.

although it might juz 10% or 20%

still it means a lot.

u might get an A for the 10% o 20% in ur final result .

Somehow

tis sem3 lecturers are all insane

they thought v r superhero.

they thought v go gigantic BRAIN to think

they expect to much n too high from us. 

n actually v r DYING. 

2molo having test. 

juz midterm, gues wat . 

chapter1-5.

which all pages are full with WORDS.

is not slides, is PDF file .. o0o...

n i hav spend my a little BIT time 

in writing lyrics but actually i should study the notes

ANYWAY.

screw it.. o0o..

will study till late night again =-=

Besides, im busy from sept till oct.

though im going to 2 trips on Oct, 

but is a CLASS trip, is my assignment also =-=llll

往事只能回味歌词

时光已逝永不回 
往事只能回味 
忆童年时竹马青梅 
两小无猜日夜相随 
春风又吹红了花蕊 
你已经也添了新岁 
你就要变心 
像时光难倒回 
我只有在梦里相依偎 

时光已逝永不回 
往事只能回味 
忆童年时竹马青梅 
两小无猜日夜相随 
春风又吹红了花蕊 
你已经也添了新岁 
你就要变心 
像时光难倒回 
我只有在梦里相依偎 

春风又吹红了花蕊 
你已经也添了新岁 
你就要变心 
像时光难倒回 
我只有在梦里相依偎

Song i like although it was quite old generation one. xD

Room SERvice !

This lady on the right. 

is my lou yao <3 

the things in the middle is wat v had yesterday. 

name: Chatime

What a nice holiday finally i decide to clean my messy Room

what i hav clean out 

you see my table :) 

so tidy now~~~ <3 

 and my "closet" too 

ok, i knw closet use to put clothes~ 

but mine special

i put books~ xD

feel so clean :)

i do all this until 6am in the morning ehhh~ 

so tiring ..

dats y the next day i slept until 3pm+

hahah..

n for my dinner when n wit my lou yao

which pic above show

although ntg special

but i feel like blogging bout it 

:D

sIck

omg. im so weak wei =-=lll
went to luna bar to celebrate wern birthday yesterday.
then go 2nd round at Geographer Adventures.
already sore throat before her birthday.
i guess cos dat day raining n i run to class from parking.
after dat class got air-cond somemore.
then late sleep for few days.
until her birthday 4am+ only sleep
n hav to share bed with a polar bear.
n make me get homesick.
miss my bed so much at the moment
srsly =-=... i also behtahan myself..
more n more yim jim.
n lack of drinking water.
i now at the situation of sore throat, flu, slightly coughing abit, eye swollen and hot n cold whole day.
ya, i wish to lose my voice also. then i dont hav to present 2molo.
hahahahahaa....
so bad...
but i still not yet prepare the presentation speech =-=
ok.
get my ass to work now. bye bye.
i wan cry T_____T
so sick.

Miss I

Hey, I do Miss you.

When can i back to the "old" me.

But i have to bear with all those "comments" again.

笨心

好想抛下一切就这样远离家园
好想到海外升学但自己不争气

也想抛下一切到外边旅行
好几个月不回来
避开一切

好想
就离开
免得我胡思乱想
想和最要好的你离开

只有和你们我才有平静的思想
你们总说我老
也许在你们面前思绪才不会出来胡闹
有我的假正经

好想不再见面
好想不闻不问
好想人间蒸发
好想不知道
好想一切都没发生过

还我思想的自由，
还我身心平静的自由

你这个笨蛋的心
为何又自甘堕落？


whenever there is a problem occur,
which will affected my emotion,
i choose to leave,
im not avoiding.
juz i wish time will heal me.
when i hav decided,
srsly i will leave you.
no matter who u r in my life.

stress, sigh

So long dint cry
feel like crying again.
bcos of stress
yes, sounds like im a baby
living in a peace world for too long
is time to experience some hard work

sem3 arent as enjoy as sem 2 n 1 anymore
everything was rushing
i believe the time for sem3 are shorter
bcos v hav internship
and v hav 8 subjects.
srsly wat kind of uni is tis ?
o0o

too stress until i dont feel like doing anythin anymore
i juz wan to cry
or go somewhere else.
i wish to go out
but hav to save $.
petrol alr make me broke.

who can i count on when i need some1 to b here wit me.
who can really stand my bad temper

another moody day

it was a bad day for me
for the whole day i feel like crying
so long i dint moody
but once come to *one month one time*
i cant control .. =-=
mood swing...
dont feel like talking, dont feel like laughing...
juz feel like crying..
n depress...
wat the lecturer ask for was juz too hard for us..
n not my fault..
the hotel dont even wanna reply my mail...
i cant comfirm anything
n wat i did..
fly up to 140km/hr, which my car meter only until 160km/hr

bringing h.chin wit me
i knw it was dangerous..
im so sorry,
i would do it alone next time.
i shouldnt danger my fren's life.

i dunno wat kind of feeling now.
bcos all mix 2gether. so hard like ur heart is wrapping by all the veins n all pull at the same time.
is so complicated
n i hardly breath..
i think was bcos of the coffee n im shivering now..
shouldnt drink coffee...
but no choice, my personality, i do wateva i wan/like.
this blog was suppose to describe my lifestyle when i get old.
but i juz couldnt type out any words cos my mind was so complicated now..
i wish i can keep speeding non-stop on the road for the whole nite to cool me down..
but i will juz do it in my dream...

feel so empty

o0o

im a kid who totally hav no sense of secure.
bcos i always disappointed by him.
what he promise, he said, i shouldnt put too much hope on it anymore
he dont really take promises as something that is important
so y do i still believe in things he said?

u invite them come.
her daughter sit on my place.
what would i feel?

so tired of the things u do from im was 5 to now.
u nvr change.
u juz wan ppl to accept
n u dont1 change.
i will wait
bcos..
in future.
there is 1 things u hav to accept bout me.

u nvr know.

Sem3

update bout my uni sem3 life?
sucks man.. =-=
most of the subject is boring....
and all the things was juz repeat , repeat n repeat
same notes, same definition...
and i think i hav taken a irrelevant class..
aikz..
wat to do?
subject was written as "elective subject"
but the choice for elective was only one
means .... v hav to take it..
n wat i think actually the class should attend by BE2 student
and not us...BR2 =-=
n v r the one who should go for the sports subject.
haiz.. i dunno wat kind of management is dat..
sucks...

1st week v alr given 3presentation 1 proposal.
n 2nd week. thursday, mean 2molo.
i got presentation d..
haizz...
but so far the diploma student was nice :)
hope v can b real fun for the remaining yrs.

n i think v will suffer 2gether for the eco tour.
hahaha.
best of luck
;)

i muz survive...

爸和我

昨晚那睡不着的夜晚
我用来思考了些问题
想到
爸爸其实是个没有安全感的男人
哈哈
就和我一样
他每晚会出去喝酒到那么夜
是因为他不想在家感受那空虚

我也终于明白了

爸，你和我一样吧？
我们的爱情路上都很坎坷
不是吗？

都不能与爱的人一起

原来，我不是在替你还债
只是我们有同样的命运

假期与海 ♥

海，有一种奇特的力量

就是望了它以后

就那么的无忧

心情也快乐起来

蓝蓝的一望无际

心情真愉快

呼吸那空气

听风声在耳边擦过

让海风打在脸上

让我们的笑声看着那夕阳结束

我忘不了的旅程

虽然我们的组合很不搭

虽然我有一天没睡好

但，

我好爱沙滩 

好爱与你们相处的时刻

 ♥

每个长假都去海边，好不？呵呵

july conference job :)

being a volunteer in 3days conference
for the 1st day in the morning,
i already get scold
yes feel sucks.
cos im a back up volunteer
i hav no ground tour but a short very damn short briefing.
no complete map
and their venue and timetable having changes.
dats y i get scold.
and they dint even think about im juz a back up volunteer i hav no update information in my hand.
nvm.
i will take it as a lesson.
n i thanks for the ppl who scolded me.
cos i learned.

but 3days conference
wahaha...
INTERNATIONAL conference
so i saw lots of ang mo!!!!!!
and also erm, i not sure where they from,
not racist, but they are black ppl (i call them black ppl bcos i dunno where they from)
they are very polite!
i like them :)
Malaysian are very polite tooo
but not as polite as them.
they will greet u "good morning" loudly
will say "hi" and ask "how r u"
hahaha.
so nice of them <3
of cos.
got few leng lui also lo
leng zai i think so far i only saw 1?
but i really like to c ang mo.
bcos they hav very fun personality.
haha. i saw an uncle i dunno whether he is delegate or speaker
but he whistling a song in the morning n he greet every1 he c.
LOL~ they r so cute :)
i would like to find ang mo to b my other half. xD

and 3 days i stand 10hr++ for the 3 days.
is tiring, and my leg is hurt.
but i do like my position.
and finally i learn how not to lost in KL Convention Center
n i would like to say the ppl who design interior of KL Convention Center is sucks
bcos every delegates/tourists who went inside dunno where is the main entrance
bcos the main entrance is on the other side =-=lll
and at tis job, i knew some new frens too :)
haha, v played in the conference, saw they curi curi sleep
joke, disturbing each other. xD
kinda miss them d. haha
and in my life! for the first time,
i ATTENDED gala dinner !!!!
wow wow wow.
tis conference gala dinner is so fun!
except for the dancing performance others was great!
n the MC too. haha.
the ang mo, i think they are wife n husband,
they stand up and dance in the middle
lol! so cute so sweet
and then lots of lots ppl start dancing,
some of them dance in their place cos they are too far from the stage.
is a very nice Gala Dinner.

ok, i think the update will juz end here.
i enjoyed the job :)

x holiday

i dislike holiday actually.
im too free.
too free to think barang yg bukan2
too free to become emo (somehow im always ok another day)
too free until i ruins my time.
time i should sleep but im awake n facing my laptop
time i should awake, but im sleeping on my bed
i feel so guilty for not doing anything in my holidays
i dont even wan to attend my singing classes which still owe by the teacher.

i would like to hav a chit-chat time wit my belove kawan.
but everyone seems so busy aren't they?
juz bcos taylor's having a very wrong timing of holidays.
most of the uni having it on Aug.
and y v r at july?

lost mood.
no one to be blame.
yes i knw.
they really busy.
i understand.
i juz cant help.
everytime i facing them
n i look at myself.
me , im the only one who dint follow the steps to my dream
im juz a ppl who simply study something which actually not my dream
fate? or i juz dint hold my dream tight ?
my english. is fate or i juz not hardworking enough?
srsly i would like to become a lawyer.
but now, seems like everything juz gone.
empty dream.
Jay chou said when u lose 1 dream, change another 1.
but is not easy when u look at others n look back to urself.
there is always a sentence in my mind
"im the only one who fail to achieve my dream"

i feel guilty. i feel down.
就像随便选了一科忍辱偷生的在生存
i have no direction.

god, tell me how long i dint cry d?

06072011

现实点吧，
感动不能当饭吃
它只是生活的调味料
庆幸当年你做对决定
问心有愧
真的不能像他给你那么多

我想永远单身较适合我

黄龄 - 特别

黄龄 - 特别

只剩一个人的海边 脚印被浪花湮灭
像刚才没有人在 我身边
流星没听清许愿 就坠落不见
感情 曾多灿烂也熄灭
惋惜 会在泪水里沉淀
我深爱过你的特别 所以不后悔
我们之间暗潮绵延 快乐苦痛都加倍
还是认为你最特别 却不再挽回
会心碎的拥抱 适合浅尝不适合深深的沈醉
随着你的情绪转变 走过不同的时间
从兴奋好奇怀疑 到疲倦
想用更爱来解决 动摇的一切
可惜 越不放手越决裂
紧握 只会让痛更强烈
我深爱过你的特别 所以不后悔
我们之间暗潮绵延 快乐苦痛都加倍
还是认为你最特别 却不再挽回
会心碎的拥抱 适合浅尝不适合深深的沈醉
就把你当成一个纪念
不肯待成一种伤悲
不曾疯狂地爱怎麽能体会 Wooh~~
一段 完美

朋友

朋友

两班朋友，不同的相处

一班我们常常见面但有什么问题可以当面说出口

但我们却从来不会拿出心底话

不会告诉对方秘密

就算强迫了也不会说

但我们还是相处了那么多年

也许这是我们的相处方式

有时候别人会问我你在忙什么？

你们喜欢谁？ 

我都说不知道

他们就很惊讶的说

你们不是很熟吗？

为什么会不知道

我也不知道要怎么回答 =-=

另一班的呢

不常见面

但是我们就是什么都讲

基本上我们彼此都没有秘密

有时还会约出来更新一下对方

虽然不见面但我们都知道对方的秘密

哈哈哈哈

这个相处方式不错

：）

有时的确很“bik chik" 

因为怎么问都不说

有起事来又说找不到人述说

如果有人懂头懂尾

那是不是你述说起来我更能明白呢?

唉。

朋友真的很难维持

我开始这么说

是因为我觉得我们有变化了。

report on recent life :D

HARLO HARLO!

very long dint post?
haha, guess so.
dont hav mood to post more bout my life.

juz finish my FINAL EXAM last week
confident on some subjects
screw one subject so far.

i hope i can get 5A
hopefully..
PRAY HARD.

now is my HOLIDAY!
but then so sad,
no $$$$$$
so cant go out wit buddies.

somehow planning a trip on july
hope dad allow n GIMME $$$$
hehehe.

2day go shop wit dad.
is like 10years once chance like dat
bought 2 leather shoes for my next sem
is expensivE! RM400 @@.
OppsSy
so sorry dad, i spend ur $ so much
long-term investment MA~~~
still got lots of things to buy
BRA, another pair of outgoing shoes...

and next start from next sem
stupid TAYLOR'S UNI
wan to charge us for parking feeSSSS
@#$%^&*
fees alr pay so much
still need to pay parking.
retarded uni.
so regret to study there =-=...

ok la! so far that my recent life!
C YA~ <3

Next to you

Chris Brown: Next To You Lyrics

[Chris Brown]
You’ve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
That you keep that smile.

[Justin Bieber]
Yeah, you are my dream,
There’s not a thing I won’t do.
I’ll give my life up for you,
Cos you are my dream.

[Bridge]
And baby, everything that I have is yours,
You will never go cold or hungry.
I’ll be there when you’re insecure,
Let you know that you’re always lovely.
Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now

[Chorus]
One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.

[Chris Brown]
You had my child,
You make my life complete.
Just to have your eyes on little me,
That’d be mine forever.

[Bridge]
And baby, everything that I have is yours
You will never go cold or hungry
I’ll be there when you’re insecure
Let you know that you’re always lovely


Girl, cos you are the only thing that I got right now

[Chorus]
One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.

[Bridge]
We’re made for one another
Me and you
And I have no fear
I know we’ll make it through

One day when the sky is falling
I’ll be standing right next to you
Ohh ohh ohh ohhhhh

[Chorus]
One day when the sky is falling,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.
Nothing will ever come between us,
I’ll be standing right next to you,
Right next to you.

Oh nah nah
Oh yeah
Stand by my side
When the sky falls
Oh baby
I’ll be there

You’ve got that smile,
That only heaven can make.
I pray to God everyday,
To keep you forever.

*like*

my new things to like! 

PITBULL's song 

hahahaha.

Ooh baby baby, La La La La La La La.. Don’t stop it – I want you tonight ;)

19th june. final is coming

oh well
long time dint update my blog
bz arrr.

still bz wit final now
tuesday is my final :/
i think i can do it?
at least pass.....

so sorry
i really bz until no time to celebrate my fren birthday
so guilty :(
can i hav celebration wit u after my final ?
o i giv u my heart as a gift ok?
:*

so far my midterm, all assessment marks no bad :)
so happy n so surprise. hahha
i dint really study lo. :P
but hope final i can do it.
i wan A A A A A A A A A
can i ?

<3

got dreams dat i dont1 to .
few days dreaming bout the same person.
i x mau lo
:(
non of my business arr.
y gimme dream bout dat person o
i dont1 to care.
all i wan is after final i can go play
swimming, train for bsb, train for guitar, and VACATION <3

but so far i broke liao la.
hahaha
dont hav $ to pump petrol and top up smart tag :/
who wan donate $ to me ?
T___T
i swear i will b a good girl and will not over spend anymore.

sorry from the heart

what would u think
when ur fren saw that
kinda sad.
yes,
i hav no time for u guys.

so sorry im being so bz tis few months
everythings will b so fine n good after june
i will hav my time wit u guys again

but
i guess.
ntg much really come from our heart when v talk rite
city child
always...
keep everything,
take everything,
suffer everything,
by their own
n wont tell.

yup.
if u choose to live dat way,
i hav no rights to ask u change
as long as u happy.

heartz

me still nvr stop in rushing hwk.
everytime comes to end of the sem
v got 2 things to rush.
1)portfolio 2)exam
but now tis sem...
add 1 more 3)EVENT
and all the things v hav to pay by our own 1st
OMG.
make till i broke until my bag ada lubang alr.
KNS.

srsly pk liao

n so sorry for my lovely fren
which v do not hav a time to celebrate wit her
srsly so sorry.
:(
i promise i will love u wit all my heart k ?
forgive me <3

sudden thought

juz a sudden thought come in to mind 2day
i wan to b a female car racer.
since i like cars,
i like to drive no matter how tired.
i like to speed.
y not think about tis?

though im not familiar wit cars
i  think i can learn.

i knw it might b a dangerous job
but still i would like to hav a try.

but i dunno how to b a car racer.
haha.

i knw i still got a lot to learn.

悲时期

你不了解的悲

在这繁忙的时候
很忙很忙的时候
大考近在眼前的时候

家里问题发生了

为什么在这个时候

我既然连伤感的时间都没有

问题都集中的找上门
我并不喊倒霉
我没不接受
只是为什么是这个时候

我真的很想大哭
多久没大哭了？
我都憋了起来
告诉自己
长大了，不哭。

厌

我很累
:'(
功课真的永远做不完
他们是不是有一点过分？
他们彼此不谈一下吗？
算一算
很过分
我这个学期
其实跟拿了8科没有分别
从早读到晚
他们是怎么安排时间的？
真的很没有脑
我很难过
就快喘不过气了
功课真的很多很多
很难很难

我很想哭
但是
哭只是浪费我的时间
到头来
我还是得继续面对功课
我很讨厌这间大学

200511

忙完了一阵
到了星期五
我的休息时间终于来临了

今天我既然问了自己一个问题
忙完了一番后
我是谁

这个算是个检讨吗？
每次到某一段时间
我就会问自己这个问题
可是总没有答案

我永远不知道


我不喜欢被强迫
我的第一个反应会是
为什么我一定得听你的
你逼得我越紧
我越反你
决定权利在我手上
我会想想
只要不要强迫我

如果我和你说
不要时
就请接纳
因为我不喜欢被人强迫

请不要命令我
我不是驯服的羊

累垮

真的很累了
头脑都已经动不了
从放假到现在根本没停过
功课一直来
然后就中考
现在都一直在赶功课
是，可以加分
但我们需要休息吧
身体一直在疲惫状态
也好想要发烧是的
但是就是发不出来
累得我都封喉
不能唱歌了
老师说得休息到六月

现在有点想哭
因为根本没有放弃的余地
只有不停的硬着头皮上
我的假期还要在大考后
唉
我真的担心我的成绩。

ExHaustEd ==

walao eh,
i really SIBEH tired.
is SIBEH ok!
so much things undone.
lots of groups works.
so hard to gather all ppl to discuss.
most of the class from morning to evening
v dont even hav the time to discuss
fcuk taylors GG la srsly
how they arrange the time table one ?
n i took 7subjects in tis sem
like WTF?
if the extra subjects dont hav theory i dont mind.
DAI LOU! is HISTORY! MALAYSIA HISTORY IN ENG SOMEMORE?
fcuk u la!
LET ME TELL U ! MALAYSIAN STUDIES IS TOTALLY NTG DIFFERENT WIT MALAYSIA HISTORY
why u wasting my time ?!?!?!?!
n the MALAYSIAN STUDIES TEACHER r more strict than d other subjects teacher
SAI 5 SAI ARR?
GOSH !
DONT BLAME ME FOR GETTING MORE AND MORE BAD TEMPER
ALL BCOS OF THE FCKING UNIVERSITY .

im very busy.

im very bz lately
on my coursework
i dont like.
all hwk submission date crash.
n v have to rush like hell
mid term juz 1month b4 final
dats mean after finish my midterm
i only hav 1 month to prepare final
yes. sucks.
i hate presentation.
but there are tons of presentation in class.
i dont understand.
lets c the hwk i have now:


Tnt - Gua Tempurung history and surroundings presentation
      -Movie "my life in ruins" report 26/5

Design event: Presentation slide (summer) 13/5

Destination analysis : Presentation 16-19/5

Acc presentation 24/5

Business communication- Meeting 16/5
                                    -Final essay 23/5

history: What/who 18/5


most of the submission date: next 2 weeks.

great. rush n rush n rush.
besides, get most of my mid term result.
all average.
which i knw i dint really do well on my midterm
is not as easy as 1st sem.
challenging increasing.
n im still lazy.
somehow,
i still wan to take a time to relax.
watching F5 2molo wit classmates :)

不提

不是不喜欢你，只是不再把你提起
把你收在心里
以前的习惯渐渐的戒掉
感谢你
生疏了，但久久一通电话还是可以哈哈大笑
你开始时总很忧虑
但谈话即将结束时你就会哈哈大笑
整个傻子那样
哈哈
我总给你气炸
还常给你炸到没话说
其实我都懂你心中已经有盘棋
你知道你可以做到的
只是你想诉一诉苦

很多你不喜欢的事
我没有做
我发现
我很听你的话
你说的我都有认真想过
有时我会问自己
我有在为你改变我自己吗？
我不知道
因为对我来说
我觉得你说的对我就改
我并不是盲目的服从

你也不再问了
不是吗？
哈哈，还是你怕听到一样的答案？
我期待你再问
因为我在想要怎么回答
哈哈。


记忆里的某某

MiD-teRm test AGAIN

C this, My STUDY face.

sUCks. the hair annoyed me.

so force to do that.

sometimes really wish to cut it short again

long hair is really troublesome @@

i've been sitting infront of my laptop like dunno how many 20+ hr.

n i do ntg. BRAVO!

i did do a bit summarize of chapter 1

ABIT~

then stunned till now.

cos i really dont hav the mood to study.

GOD BLESS ME

with this week

4 test, 4assignment

thanks god u love me so much rite?

hehehe.

nvm, let's screw the subject :)

nobody come read one la~ i knw. talking to myself :)

如果沉默是话语

有时候
我不开口，会好过开口
有时候，
我一开口
往往把别人顶到没话说
有时候我就太直率

其实我的话没有恶意
没有什么意思的
只是我比较自我中心
比较直率
好不好呢？
我不知道
有时候想到自己刚刚说的话
真的很过分
想传封信息解释
却又想你是我朋友，
你应该会明白我吧？

对不起，不会表达
是我在家都只对着四面墙的关系
我已不会说话
如果沉默能代表话语

have you ever wonder, if one day you wake up and the sun has gone.

i'm 20, i'm Choi Wan

I'm 20 this year.
I got a nice name from my parents.
My name is Choi Wan.
I born at 28 March 1991.
I born and live in City.
I moved to Puchong when I was 4 years old.
And my Life, Began.

No doubt. I was 20 now, for sure there is lots of sad things happened.
Still I choose to thanks all the things happened in my life.
If not I will not be me now.
My family separated, I have been tortured by my step-mother,
I always get punish by my tuition teacher,
I always heard my family arguing.
Still, I am glad that I managed to survive until today.
I am glad that the incidents i faced changed me.
I know how to think differently compared to others.
I know nothing more worst could come,
because the worst I have past at my very young age.
I am not afraid of anything anymore.
And then, I meet my friends.
All of them.
Most of it I know them more than 5years.
They are the colours in my life.
As all the things I go through,
I learned to love people around me.
But, I know is seldom to hear from me
that I said I LOVE YOU.
haha.
but I love you from my heart. ^^
Things that I been through with different gang.
Is all my precious memories.
All equally important to me.

I have a dream, to open my own shop.
I wan to own a Ferrari in my life.
My future, I will not rely on any guy.
I will pay my own bill, buy my own house and car.
Is not necessary to have a man to fill my life.
Yes, maybe there is a man in the future.
But still, I will not rely everythings on him.

From this moment on,
I will keep getting better.
In my life, I will ask myself to live better.
To be happier.
This is what i want.
I know clearly what i want.

daD's Birthday.

今晚庆祝了爸爸的生日
他带我们去了一个大跌眼镜的地方
单单名字我都想晕了
“情人知己吧”（好像是，大概）
我没想过我爸爸的taste是那么差的
=-=llll
里面更跌眼镜
算了
然后，很多看不过眼的东西

有些事
是打从我小时候就刻骨铭心的
打进我脑里和心里
你真的不能怪我

是你没经历过你不懂得的事
难以辩解
难以了解
我经历的，你不会懂

你不知道，因为

你不知道
我坚强的后面，就是脆弱

你不知道
我忙碌的后面，就是想念

你不知道
我没关系的后面，是在意了几天

你不知道
我坚强的后面，在伪装

你不知道
不被接受的后面，继续和你做朋友

你不知道
每晚睡前，脑里只是你的画面

你不知道
忘了的背后，是十分想念与牢记

因为，我不善忘
因为，我不想忘
因为，我觉得你值得留在我的记忆里
因为，人总会觉得自己傻得值得
因为，不容易忘

厌倦

标题，每一次都不知道放什么标题
所以文不对题
题不对文就不要见怪了

我厌倦了家里的白眼
厌倦了家里的现实
厌倦了家里的势利眼
厌倦他们做的一切

我会努力，
总有一天我会离开

不想习惯的习惯

习惯了很多事
沉默了
那是本来的我？

是的，
脑子里好像很多东西思考
但
我并没有不开心
从登山的照片
我看到那很久不见的笑容
诶？
那是我
好就不见

原来在家
我习惯了不说话
不表达
不微笑
静静的，很好

我总一副很多事情想的样子
其实，没有
哈哈，
就是爱空着脑袋
呆呆的望着电脑

我没有不开心
一再强调
但没有人相信
也许天生那副样子
实在难以辩解

登山以后
双腿是有够痛的
眼睛也不懂干嘛肿了
也许睡太多了吧

好了，
因为我只想说与交代
我很好，
我没有不开心

想太多

夜深人静的时候,
我想起你了
想念只被允许停留在那么短暂的夜
明天我又得收拾心情
装个无所谓的活下去
今晚回忆到来了
往事真不该从说
但
我真的很想再听见你说
你喜欢我

感叹那清明节

清明时节雨纷纷，

路上行人欲断魂，

借问酒家何处有？

牧童遥指杏花村。

我们从小就念的诗

华人们的传统美德

是很好

往往有很多事需要后人来学习的

天下之大，孝为最大

清明节

是个很好的节日

它让子子孙孙们同聚一堂

见见自己的祖宗

扫扫墓

聊聊天

促进大家的感情

了解自己的家庭背景文化等

但是，人们一向传统的烧纸钱，

烧纸屋，纸车......

早期当然没问题

但凡事变多了，慢慢的问题就出现了

纸钱烧多了，空气污染便上升了

温室效应严重了

每一家都带两箱纸钱，

可想而知，华人也不少

每人带两箱，我可怜那吸气的天空

我们拿着箱子去烧时，一接近那焚烧场

那脸就好像立刻烧焦似的

人都那样感觉到了，何况是那天呢？

华人美德真的很好，但是

人是生的，物是死的

为了我们的后代，我们是不是该变动一下呢？

大自然在英文被称为=Mother Nature

Mother，不用我说你也懂叫“妈妈”

大自然也是我们的妈妈，没有它其实也真的不会有我们

为什么就也不孝顺它一下呢？

是不是因为它不会喊痛或哭泣就可以不必理会？

除了烧纸钱，

人们拿去拜拜的食物

多人的时候

你可以看见的是，一家刚拜完，

食物放了在桌面15分钟都没有

便被下一家扔了

说真的，日本现在连食物都没有

我们这样其实，算不算浪费？

今天去扫墓，

我拍了焚烧场的情景

看见的是烟灰往天上飘

那污染的情景

我，叹气了

你看见吗？那往天上飘的烟灰，

就是那些小黑点。感叹人们并不察觉

上了新塔的五楼，

我看见了国家代表性的吉隆坡塔

但却灰蒙蒙一片

我又感叹了

人们都看不见吗？

别告诉我那是雾，

那时是下午1pm-2pm

我看了是多么心疼我们的地球

就算人们看不见，

但你们不察觉吗？

天气已经越来越热了

你们都不怀念以前的天气吗？

人们，真的太自私了

请环保，请爱地球

持续维持观念，但修改观念。

减少烧纸钱，减少浪费食物。

何韵诗

“雌雄同体”身不由己

在近来的一些公开活动中，何韵诗总是以很隆重的打扮示人，很有师傅梅艳芳“百变女神”的味道。不过，即使是女性化的打扮，看上去，何韵诗还是一副英气逼人的样子。就在大家

都以为这个玩摇滚的何韵诗会从此改变自己的形象，走女人化的道路时，她自己却否决了。

日前她在接受一个杂志的采访前，采访方要求何韵诗以“女人味”的装扮出场，并要求她自带的衣服“有多女人就多女人”。巴不得她以玛丽莲·梦露的造型示人，谁知结果她还是以一袭长裤到场。而她的助手无奈地对摄影师说：“她的新形象，是中性，雌雄同体。”

一语惊醒梦中人，原来那么多的女人造型都是“身不由己”。何韵诗也毫不讳言，师傅梅艳芳逝世之后，驱使她终于下定决心，也明白到自己已经不仅仅代表自己，背后有无数同伴战友的期望和心血，于是，她决定告别自己喜好的我行我素的生活，向商业化妥协，披上了平常未曾戴过的金银珠片。但是她却表示：“算不算妥协？我只可以回答，化了浓妆、穿上礼服后，何韵诗依然是何韵诗。不过我深信台上的我并不是一个扮女人的假人，只不过因为我长大了，很多事情学会了折中。”

何韵诗表示，她深信穿着牛仔裤和穿着裙子在本质上没有分别，都是真实的自己，并笑言这样是有点像把自己催眠的做法。也就是说对于自己的“雌雄同体”，何韵诗认同的只有“雄”的一面，而“雌”对她来说只是一个“折中”的妥协方法。

bz me!

so sorry for not updating my blog
was too busy with my assignment & presentation
nvr busy like tis b4...
cant imagine how to survive in the following sem

but somehow
i manage to clear 5 assignment in 2-3days
happy! claps hand
but wit the condition of not sleeping until the 4 o'clock morning
for 2days in a roll...n 2am in the following day...

yes, n im finally quite free now.. =)
which some of the unimates still rushing for their assignment o presentation
muahaha..
as wat i believe..u giv more u will get return .. :)

but still...i have to get enough rest n sleep for tis few days
cos when i c my face..
i also scare myself... the face so "CHAN"
T___T
sometimes eye swollen somemore..

anyway, cant wait the coming holiday..
though i hav to study for my mid-term
but i alr hav plan for the first and the second day of the week
monday-visit mom
tues-sunway wit the babes

hmm...about my birthday blog..haha
will update it sooooooooooon
cos i still not yet get all the pic..
sad one :(

pls wait for it ya ! <3

soon

will update in details once i get all d picture
n great birthday i hav
20...
yes..
20...
argh..nvm
it means i grow up rite..
haha...
i wish to grow in height also la...
im very tired for 2day..
n im happy also
bz means i got lots of fren actually!
hahahaha,
<3 them beli beli much!

:D

is my birthday!
was quite sad in the few minute b4 reach my birthday

but somehow, the time has passed
im happy when i c all the wishes on facebook
will write a more details blog 2molo nite...


u will not knw when i ask u to play the song
i was actually crying on the phone..
juz i dint let you know..

i realize is so hard to 4get u ..
i will juz keep u in deep inside my heart...

wat u say i will not obey..
i promise on my birthday..
i will not listen to dat kind of song
my HAPPY birthday ...

=)

oh hey~
hi,
im getting better now..
n i can talk to u without thinking rubbish in the brain
good start huh?
cos something happened yest nite
in a sudden..
n i realize..
the prob i got
srsly juz a piece of cake...
there is always some1 who hav more serious prob than me
so i shouldnt b so damn emo rite?
=)
do not doubt when i say im ok
cos i always knw who m i
n wat i wan..
i m me..
the strong me ..
get to knw me more
<3

等

太过疲惫

过于疲惫

从要睡变不想睡

头脑有开始乱乱想东西

是被你传染吗？

还要努力克制自己

但那雨后的天空

那收音机的音乐

似乎在怂恿我今晚放肆脑袋

我也想

因为我既然在告诉自己不要放弃

虽然已吩咐自己不要再那么在乎了

可是我还相信有未来

我还会等

a nite

back to my silent life..
whn u step back
i back to myself again
i would like to step foward if u wan too
but u dint..

time time time
all about time
fate nvr let us decide dont ya?

wat i doing recently juz keep on act bz in my uni life?
keep force myself to sleep
keep force the word "study" to stuck in my mind
im learning the word "dont care"
im learning the word "wait"
i dont really sleep well since when i dunno
since the day u step in my brain?
bcos i use to all the things u do
i try to ask myself to let go some of the memories
so i wont get emo easily
still every single words u said stick in my mind
too much words..mean so much to me..
but seem like things change..

"Every single promise i keep
Cos what kind of girl whould i b
if i was to leave when u need me most"
"what are words
if you really don't mean them
what you say them
what are words
if they're only for good times
then they don't"

"im ok.." / "im fine.."
what i like to say
cos i will... i juz need time...
i knw when i say it
u get annoy
so doesnt matter, is not a big prob
so i wont tell
all i got..now..
my studies, my fren
i hold tightly
i dont wanna lose anythin anymore
a family..i do not dare to say a FAMILY
the word doesnt really mean anytin to me anymore
at the moment when mom step out from the door
then bro...
family become different single parties...
i can say i own mom, bro , dad..
but not the word family..
juz let me emo 1 nite
cos i will b better 2molo...always do

change..
i try very hard to change myself
im born to b a girl..
but i dont born to b girlish
i dont know how n i dunno y
i try my very best to change
but y dont juz accept the me
dont say im not enough girlish
cos i alr try very hard
to change..
i juz wan to b me...
love me as who i m pls...

i hate my UNI

update my bout my UNI life...
the timetable is sucks....
v hav to stuck in the jam ALWAYS..
if v can skip the JAM v cant skip the prob of finding parking
if v skip the prob of finding parking, v cant skip the JAM
sucks taylor's lakeside..

5 complainsSSS/SugestionSSS bout TAYLOR'S UNIVERSITY LAKESIDE CAMPUS

-no CARPARK (drive a car dat as small as u can find)
-MUD CARPARK (drive four wheel vehicles)
-AIRCOND always not working (bring a fan)
-FOOD COURT crowded all the time (bring ur own chair o table/bring lots of $ to eat at the other RESTAURANT)
-BB7, 1week after payment "you currently not enrolled in any courses"..(bring ur own pendrive to take notes from the lecturer)

and the timetable there arrange is really sucks...
if they do not hav enough carpark n classroom
pls stop getting more n more studentS
cos u not able to satisfy them ok!
so tiring for most of the day..

N WHY DO I HAVE TO TAKE MALAYSIAN STUDIESSSSS
IS EXACTLY SAME WITH HISTORYYYYYY
I ALR FACE HISTORRRYYY FOR 3YEARS MAN
N Y ACCOUNTING I HAV TO TAKE AGAIN
I ALSO FACE IT FOR 3 YEARSS D
SOMEMORE ALL BASIC ONE
Y SHOULD I TAKE AGAIN
GOSHHHHHH

i hate taylor's
凸(#`.')凸

对不起地球

上天，请爱你的子民
他们只是还没觉悟
并非不爱你
他们只是还没到脑开窍的阶段
请原谅他们
他们不是不爱你
当中有很爱你
希望你能无私的爱你的子民
不要再让他们承受天灾

我答应我会尽我所能去爱地球
原谅他们
原谅他们无知
原谅他们自私

请别没收你那无私的爱
请求你继续爱你的子民

对不起地球

thanks

few years back..
i was thinking of a job that can make every1 in the world happy
then i realize
no...
bcos to b happy or not is decide by the person themselves
i will sad too
but my recovery process is extremely fast
i dont know why
there is no reason to being sad so long
cos it dont help rite?
i feel happy
i still got my fren, family, n myself
i dint lost myself
im here...im who im
im still alive..
even the god give the worst things to me
i thanks him
he know i can handle it
i shouldnt disappoint him
i accept everything in my life..
i will not let myself shout "tired"
hey, im still alive, i should accept challenge
mayb u would say im juz 20, not much challenge i hav face
mayb when im 40 i wont say like dat..
yes, i would hav sad, cry n emo moment
cos it let me know how happy m i
something past i dont think anymore
no point to think ..ntg can change
when 1 test from the god end..
i know it would have the 2nd one..
im not afraid.. i know im only 20
but im not afraid.. thanks for givin me test to let me know how well m i
知足常乐 i like tis chinese word a lot
contentment is important
thanks for all the things, all the ppl in my life...
saying tired is juz like there is no hope in front of u anymore
no, i wont let myself say dat
i will not allowed myself tired,
there is still lots of things in the world i hav nvr see b4
i hav nvr experience b4..
the world is so big...im so tiny
the world haven giv up me..
the world still not yet shout tired..
y should i ?

Asher Book - Try lyrics

If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i sing you a song, would you sing along?
Or wait till i'm gone, oh how we push and pull
If i give you my heart would you just play the part
Or tell me it's the start of something beautiful.
Am i catching up to you?
While your running away to chase your dreams
It's time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Chorus
But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me 

心很疼
一个人静静的哭泣,不许发出任何声音
我也想在你面前脆弱
我也想可以播通电话给你
但明天的你有上班
眼泪想起便流
让冷气风扇把枕头给吹干
我还能怎样?
明天还得去上唱歌班
可是我睡不着
也许哭累了就能睡吧

我真的在乎

=)

我还是那么开心
虽然我看见的是一个又一个的伤心
我会保持开心
因为如果大家都伤心
那乐观思想谁能说得出口
如果你自己过得不好
你有资格安慰别人吗？
你自己都照顾不好自己
为什么你不用你安慰人的话
说一遍给自己听？

她教我很多
我很感谢遇见她
她很多道理的
哈哈
但她说的真的对
人，做回自己
要有信心
现在是怎么了？
死人了吗？
拉伤着脸是干嘛？
为何不好好感谢“你！还活着”
人，自己反省吧

给我伤心的朋友们

爱上的人，都不一定是对的人
在一起了，分开了
那他只是你生命里路过的人
对的人是下一位
如果兜兜转转的
你们在回一起
那只能说以前在不对的时候在一起了
如今对的时候来了

有许多人孤独终老
其实如果他有朋友，有家人
他真的不孤独
不是因为没有情人就孤独
也许他对的人约好了
“下一辈子”

爱一个人真的不一定要拥有他
真的爱他，只要他开心就好
真的爱他上天会懂，也许下一辈子他会将他给你

付出了很多，那当是上辈子欠他的
但不要失去自我
一个人要爱自己，他才有资格被爱，或去爱

她说伤心总是难免的
哈哈，是啦 is true..
人嘛，有七情六欲

喜、怒、哀、惧、爱、恶、欲

生、死、耳、目、口、鼻
始终是凡人不是神
但凡是凡人都要知道，伤口是会痊愈的
一次伤不代表一辈子会伤
一次不顺不代表一辈子不顺
一次失败不代表一辈子失败
出生的时候，我们也没有伴的
还不是活了这10几年？
最重要还是自己
是自己决定的，要伤多久，要不要开心
都可以决定的，只是看你要不要
很多人都懂自己可以选择的
但是就是习惯了这样子，所以就不改变
只要你相信，只要你有心，只要你要
我相信你可以很好的
给我的朋友们呀~
他们都不是很开心
哈哈，祝福你们

可能有些话，你们会觉得我很小孩子
可能有些不刚听，
但是我有用心写的
一切只要你们很好很好 :)

白羊座

白羊座
活力充沛的白羊，是不折不扣的激情派，横冲直撞也是这个星座的专属名词，因为他们的行动和心思都是同步的，太多的考虑不会有，小心也是多余的，不计后果是常有的事，对新出现的事物都抱有很强的好奇心，大大咧咧的，每天都有好心情。虽然会冲动，也充满自信的面对每一次挑战，人生就好比是战场，有胜利也会有失败，白羊也会遇到不顺心的事，也会低落，伤心也会有难以平复的时候。当白羊表现的很安静，毫无动作，那一定是难过的到了极点，与平时活泼的对比一定是最大的，没错，这时候的他们对任何东西都没有兴趣了，你会发现，喜欢叽叽喳喳说个不停的白羊不见了，群聊里最活跃的那个人也更换了主角，还有，总是冲在队伍最前面的领跑者也很意外的落队了。因为过度的伤心，所以什么事也不想做，也做不好，热闹的场面如今也只剩下周围的欢声笑语，白羊会安静的，默不作声的，就好像是完全不存在。出风头这个时候也不去想了，压力也不想无畏的去面对了，一切都和他们毫无关系，就一个人穿梭在痛苦与振奋的边缘，不需要安慰，或许在下一秒就会走出阴霾，只要等待就好。

我并没有难过

我从不期望别人会了解我
有时我自己都不了解自己
我不擅于沟通
如果我擅于也许我能一一的解释

我知道这路坎坷
如果可以谁会不想选另一条路
但
我，会开心吗？

未来的事没有人知道
也许今天我在，
明天就不在了
生命就是如此的惊喜
但我并没有想过有什么是我非得到不可的
我都总顺其自然
我都不退缩也不强迫

我没有妄想过自己会得到一段感情
我一直都当我在替我爸爸还情债
有没有我都是这样过

我花了一段时间去接受我自己
我也并不好过
我并不expect人家会接受全部我
不舍弃我都感谢了
我并不要求多

20，这数目在我自己眼里
我都告诉自己该长大
我在努力
但，好像不够好
真的吧，我还只是个不懂事故的小孩

好多话，不能说
不懂如何去辩解我
我从没，更不敢渴望什么
我可以一个人过，我没想的很远

在我抱着希望的同时
希望船给人打翻了
当我不抱任何希望时
希望却在我眼前
我很困绕
到底人，该不该拥有希望
我说的有没有人明白？

我不是情绪化
我只是想表明我自己
我只是单纯的想说-我

IMY

let picture tell u wat im thinking:

(change the YOU to I) 

i hav use to all the things u do
im scare to lost it in sudden
but still i believe in u

i hav to stay strong,
as times go,
you will know me more