xmas2007

the trip back home was a great one..
with the new home, spanking clean and big,
i'm more enticed to make my way back in 1.5 years time!!!
most of the time spent was with the family..
once i landed, i had an aunt's 25th wedding anniversary to attend,
followed by going over to the gram's place for early xmas gathering,
then it was purely family time after...
all the plans to do my hair failed to launch...
cause my ass was too lazy to move..
even it meant a lift down.. gosh!!!
but i had a great time with dear mummy SHOPPING!!
bought a couple of dresses, now i am just waiting
for the RIGHT time to wear them...
my dear nephew was also too cute to resist!!
i think once he can walk or talk,
it's going to be a total chaotic in the house!!
he is an inquisitive and totally love the phone...
my nephew is just so lovable!!

the last few days of december is going to kick ass...
i better recover faster from my sore throat so that i can totally enjoy it..
all rightie.. back to work so that 2007 will end with a blast!!

the weekend

weekend is here..
had a wonderful laughing time yday with the colleagues at Botzie..
nice german restaurant @ Vivocity...
great company.. great gossips..
great beer...
it's been a long time since i had that

today, i will be baby sitting my nephew
just me, jack jack lookalike and the maid
i hope i can handle him..
and ofcourse, there are some work to be done..
have tons of it!!
i'll be multi tasking between playing with him
and looking after him..

tmrw, i'll be meeting up with my colourist
i'm feeling brown this season..
i realised that i'm a biannual changing hair person..
june and december is the time for me
to change my hairstyle/colour..

looking forward to a wonderful week next week
meeting up with the girls,
bbqing with the colleagues,
chilling out with the choirpeeps..

december is the time of the year, baby!!

and 2008 sounds like a good year...
am so looking forward!!

Thank God for today

I noticed that in the past, I've never used the word "God" in any of my posts. I wonder if I subconsciously don't use it, or did i consciously refrain from using it. But well, today, I really want to thank God for the miracle he did to me!!

This morning, being one of the most important day of my life, happened to be also the marathon day. And living in the area that is often used for running is rather incovenient when these things fall on the same day. So when i woke bright and early today, I walked out of my house and saw a herd of sweaty looking men... gosh!! they are so hot! if i didn't have an exam to go too, perhaps, i would borrow a chair from my security guard to watch them. But oh well, that was not meant to be. Seeing them running on my territory meant that my buses have all gone missing!! I had no clue which direction I should head, but I just walked towards the normal route. But the more I walked the more I realised that more roads are blocked!!

I was helpless and I said in my heart "God, please get me a taxi." I remembered also the law of attraction, the more you want it, the more you have to imagine it. So in my my mind, i was also imagining a taxi.. any taxi would come along...Suddenly, my mum called and i was telling her that I was walking cause the road is all blocked!! True enough, as I walking past the community centre at the end of the road, there was a taxi!! The phone line with my mum was suddenly cut off too. I did not notice if it was vacant or occupied, but I just flagged it profusely. The uncle nearly didn't stop, so I flagged harder. He stopped and I just got in. This happened even though the road was empty. Not a single car was on the road.

As I got in and my mother suddenly called, I was so happy that I told her "Praise the Lord, I got a taxi!!" And when i said that, I was really beaming from ear to ear. But another obstacle had to be crossed. The exit to ECP is blocked too!! The uncle was also confused as to which was to go. I saw some traffic police at the end of the road, so I told him to stop. I wound down the window and asked this gorgeous looking and muscular bodied police man who told us to use the KPE. And that was how I managed to find my way to the expo today...

But that was not all. When I met CC, he asked if I had packed any lunch cause everywhere will be packed. what a friend right who didn't warn me earlier. However, this morning as I was having breakfast, a little voice was telling me to better bring something to eat. Cause the exam was going to take 3 hours and when I had breakfast, it was only 7 and so I did. And true enough, lunchtime was horrible. But luckily, I had brought with me some sandwich...

I can't thank God enough for the many blessings He gave me today. Everything that has happened is just MIRACULOUS!! If it was not his work, who else could it be who sent me the taxi driver or who told me to pack some food. Thank You Thank You!

As for how the exam will turn out to be, I will just lift it up to Him!

and so, this also meant that it's the end of my 2 weeks break and on to returning back to my client for the 2nd year. Though it was not really a break, it had given some perpective as to where I should head...

what a surprise!?!?

i am le excited...

believe it, then I will concieve it

study horror

My preparation for the exam looks good and fitting.
one more book that i have to cover and a revision of 5 books after.
This is a revision of almost all the things that
i learnt in my 4 years of university life -
economics, accounting and finance, all rolled into one.
Thank God that i took some of these courses in school
because if this is all new to me,
i would have died cramming all these in my brain within a span of 2 weeks.
But i guess with the work experience and all,
Thank God for the bald manager and all his explanation on FRS39,
everything looks more real and gelled.
for once these things make sense!!

i have not been a nerd nerd though, totally not in my studying mode!
cause i still took time off to meet up with friends,
go out groceries shopping
and guess what, i stayed up till 5 this morning
just to watch ROMANTIC PRINCESS on YouTube!!!

It's addictive!! once i started on one episode,
the ending will keep me in suspense as to what it is to come
and so i started with yet another episode.
when i am done, i looked at the time and it said "3am",
i thought to myself "what the heck, i ddon't have to go to work later"
and so i continued on till the 10th episode.
I am anticipating for the last 3 episodes to be posted in Youtube
cause it is still running in Taiwan.
blest these kind souls who do these!!

Maybe i am still in my lalaland that there are good guys around
cause looking at the lead role who is so sweet and gentle and all
i believe that Good guys still exist in this real world!!
just the other day i read a couple's blog on the proposals and surprises he showered the girl with and i began to think "is this for real or what?"
but after i saw the video on his proposal,
it conviced me further that nice guys are still around!!
this guy even wrote a letter to the girl's father of his intention
to propose and it's damn bloody sweet.... *arrrghhh*
oh well, it's just a matter of finding these guys...
if it's possible for others, it is possible for me!!

and so after all these rantings, i shall go back to my books
cause i wanna go for yoga later at 4pm
with all the tai-tais..
*smug*
if only everyday is like this - life will be blissful!!

i am in the midst of studying right now
bringing back the memories of schooldays
and i M I S S S C H O O L.

as i am studying, i realised that there are
lots of things that i have learnt in school
which i have not used it...
and thus, i have F O R G O T about the stuffs

so in this 2 weeks, i have commit
to study rigourously so that i can P A S S the exam.
no use regretting that i should have started early
cause there is no time to waste about such things

I H A V E T O S T U D Y !!

on another note, i am so looking forward to xmas this year
the botak has allowed me to take leave
and so i have bought my ticket immediately
19-25 dec - me off to jakarta!!
so excited!! xmas with the family!!

and i am contemplating whether to go sydney
in July next year for a world youth day.
something tells me to go
something tells me "it's sydney again"
how how?

all rightie,time to get back to study....

life is exciting!!

parents are coming in town SOON!!
now with the baby nephew,
I am expecting them to come MORE often and longer...
yuppies!!

dnd is this coming friday
and yet, i haven't bought the dress that I saw and kinda like!
i really hope the dress will still be there tomorrow!

i have 4 more weeks to study
sure i have jitters
cause i have not finished studying
BUT i will not let these butterflies distract me..
i will and i can pass this exam once and for all!!

all rightie, back to the bookS!!
as the day passes, i am beginning to sense some purpose in life...
sure, my life is not as rosy as others..
but at least I HAVE A PURPOSE!!

bring it on , LIFE!

the problem with...

having too many accounts/user name is that
-you forget which ones you used for which
-you forget which passwords to use
-you nearly could not log in to this account

having a long weekend is that
-time passed too quickly
-you sleep too much thinking that you got a lot of time at hands
-you wish the long weekend will stretch even more

being too vain is you spent the last few hours of your weekend
-going for a hair trim
-perming the lash
-shopping for black pumps that was the last piece
-spending the time to do peeling

being too lazy to do housework is that
-you spent the last hours of your sunday laundrying your towels and bedsheets
-you think the washing machine takes forever to end

being too smart-ass
-you plug in the phone line without the modem/phone socket
-the above affect the internet
-you thought the internet was down

being too sleepy is that
-you typed silly stuffs about yourself
-you can't wait to sleep. so goodnight everyone.

what i feel like saying is...

It was one week ago since my energy level was its optimum, but suddenly, the energy level is down again right now. I am feeling sick. sick of the work, sick of the people i am working with, sick, sick of everything.
No use blaming anyone, cause life is like that. You gotta do what you gotta do. You either get rid of the things that are not in your way, or you go away from your way. Honestly,I can't imagine if things continue like this for the next few months or so. Every day I am lethargic with a capital L, so I might just go away for my own sake and good.
I am not quitting, I just want to design my own destiny. Destiny to an empowered life.

There was a one-hour interview on CNBC with Warren Buffet, the second Richest man who has donated $31 billion to charity.Here are some very interesting aspects of his life:
1) He bought a small farm at age 14 with savings from delivering newspapers.
2) He still lives in the same small 3-bedroom house in mid-town Omaha,that he bought after he got married 50 years ago. He says that he has everything he needs in that house. His house does not have a wall or a fence.
3) He drives his own car everywhere and does not have a driver or security people around him.
4) He never travels by private jet, although he owns the world's largest private jet company.
5) His company, Berkshire Hathaway, owns 63 companies. He writes only one letter each year to the CEOs of these companies, giving them goals for the year. He never holds meetings or calls them on a regular basis.
6) He has given his CEOs only two rules.
Rule number 1: do not lose any of your shareholder's money.
Rule number 2: Do not forget rule number 1.
7) He does not socialize with the high society crowd. His past time, after he gets home, is to make himself some pop corn and watch television.
8) Bill Gates, the world's richest man met him for the first time only 5years ago. Bill Gates did not think he had anything in common with Warren Buffet. So he had scheduled his meeting only for half an hour.But when Gates met him, the meeting lasted for ten hours and Bill Gates became a devotee of Warren Buffet.
9) Warren Buffet does not carry a cell phone, nor has a computer on his desk.
10) His advice to young people: Stay away from credit cards and investin yourself. Remember money doesn't create man but it is the man who creates money.
Live your life as simple as you are. Don't do what others say, just listen to them , but do what you feelgood.Don't go on brand names, just wear those things in which you feelcom fortable in. Don't waste your money on unnecessary things; just spend on what you really need.

Life Without limbs -Nick Vujici

sometimes in life, we tend to think that God is unfair to us. Just because we don't get this, or we don't get that. But have we ever thought that there are people who are not like us, but living a more fruitful life? This video has really touched my heart. i hope it does touched you too. it reminds me never to take the things I have for granted. Cause if Nick can do what he does, what about me? Shouldn't I stretching myself even more?

finally.
i have a saturday that i can call my own.
waking up at 11.00am
and lazing around.
doing laundry, going for cat class
and meeting up with old friends

sometimes.
i just want a saturday.

i don't really know what i want to pen down
but all i can say is that
i am not feeling normal.

people, lots of them, are leaving...
and the whole mood of working
just goes down a few notch.
is it a sign that this is not a great place to be??
i hope the management
will do some reflections
on what is wrong!!!
or maybe i am just hoping for too much!?!?

signs signs...
please appear in my eyes now
"to leave or not to leave?"
so that i can be back to my normal self.

being back in jakarta for a few days did bring me some signs that
i really have the urge to go back for good.
not feeling the homey place here right now...
perhaps its time to go back to where i belong...

2 years. all i need is 2 more years...

feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles with lemonade
Play hide and seek with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore [jakarta for me]
Imagine how I'll make the world a better place
All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

...perhaps running away is a wise choice....

promotion = more responsibility

my amazing composition for the week:

Thank God for making you realised that you have never apologized to me all these time!

To say that I have forgiven you is not an easy feat. But I guess I have to. If God can forgive all of us for the sins that we often commit, who am I not to forgive a fellow man?

Don't worry you don't have to hope whether I am happy with my life right now cause I am very happy with everything that is going on in my life right now. Each day that passes by me has never fail to amaze me what a blessed life I have!! I have a fulfilling job, fun-loving colleagues, great friends and of course an amazingly supportive family. And in case, you are making assumptions here, no, I am not trying to brag to you, but this is how I really feel about my life.

And after thinking much, I can talk to you provided you

1. don't bring up anything that has happened in the past. why look back at the past, when the future is brighter?

2. don't think that you know me inside out cause the person whom you talk to 2 years ago, may not be the same person now. situations around me have change and my thinking and attitude adapts the changes.

so yes, this is all that i have to say for now.

some random notes...

it has been a long time since I blogged and today is just one of those days that i feel like penning some words on my blog.

some feelings i had over the past 2 weeks:

1. confused -> not knowing whether to sign my life away. still weighing its pros and cons. pros are more though.... (dun worry, it's not a change in job) but the "what if"s are still clouding around my head.
2. excited -> looking forward to being an A2 in the next year or so, however, it will also mean guiding a fellow coworker who was not that lucky this time *stresssss*
3. irritated -> i have the yearning to shop, but couldn't find the THING to buy. why do we always face this problem? when we have money, there is nothing to buy. when there are things to buy, we have no money. murphy's law..... urrrghhhh
4. pleased -> managed to see mr prospective just now!!
5. satisfied -> after telling a coworker about my views on religions, relationships, etc, it feels great!! the whole relationship of being colleagues was brought to another level (at least in my opinion) looking forward to more such conversations. and the irony of it, this conversation happened in office when we two were bored.
6. filled up -> my schedule is filled to the brim last week and the weeks to come. but i happy that i am able to control my life and that i have something on in every day of my life. this something does not only revolve around me and friends, but it also involves me, myself, friends, kiddos in church and of course the people i love the most - my family.
7. relieved -> i think i have that stage in my life when i can say that i have no more grudges against a certain someone. the homily on friday just clicked with the decision that i had to make. i did what i should and i felt that i have one less burden on my shoulder...

all righty, signing off now as the clock is ticking and monday is about to come... i hope for a great week ahead for me and everyone around me!! *muchos*

kids do wonders!!

Today i had a wonderful time with the kids. It's us, 7 cathechists against 120 kids. Thank God there are parents who didn't mind helping us out, if not it would have been CHAOTIC.

But aside from having great time with them, there is one other thing that I would want to thank God for which is for still having my parents around. What's the link between that to the one day camp you may asked.

We brought the kids out for a tour around the church this afternoon and one of the pitstop is the columbarium. Since I was done with my "duty", I followed the last group to the columbarium cause I have never been there myself. As I was walking there one of the boys asked me if he could visit his father's urn. I was rather taken aback by the question, so I said "sure, you may go". So as the other kids were touring around the columbarium, with perhaps half of them being first timers as myself, I noticed this particular boy walked to the end of the room and stood in front of his dad's tablet. I stood rooted to the spot as I watched him talking to his dad and had his tears trickling down his cheeks. He spent a good 15 mins there and even when the others were told to move out of the room, I stood by him. I saw that the boy's dad had passed away 2 years ago i.e. when this particular boy was only a primary one!! My eyes were teary too as I watched this episode and made me think "What would I do if I lose one of my parents?"

Honestly I would be lost. Cause no matter how far away my parents are at times, they are still my pillar of strengths. I know that no matter how bad a situation is, I can always count on them to be my cheerleaders at the sidelines. Even though they tend to not comment much when I pour my hearts out to them, they will still advice me at other times cause they fully understand that I can be annoyed if their words are against me. My parents also have strong belief in me and encouraged me to aim the highest in the last birthday card they gave me.

I am really sorry for those times that I take my parents for granted. So for all those times that I have hurt you mom and dad, I am trully sorry. As a way of apologizing to them and being grateful for having them, I treated them dinner just now! :)

cross my fingers...

and weeeee to weekend @ krabi

Dear partner-to-be,

i think you suck! you can't plan your jobs properly such that you have made me waste my time to read all of your forwarded instructions and to find out at the very last minute that you have replaced me with someone else.

so you think just because i don't have the experience i can't do the job well is it? don't you even know this word "learning"?!?! I guess that is not in your dictionary cause you never learn, do you? up to now, your staffs are the ones who tell you technicalities that you should know! shame on you!! and just because you can't learn, you think i can't learn too? so my advice is really

1. Don't book me for you jobs! cause i don't have the experience of your low-budget jobs and will never want the experience too!

2. If you want people with experience, then book them early and forward them all the instructions. don't flood my mail box please!

3. Have the decency to talk to me if you don't need me!

That's all i have to say to you for now cause you have zerorised my day! Thank you very much and please don't let me hear your laughter in office or your favorite phrase "hey, my friend" cause i don't think you do have any friends!

my condolences to your wife,
the-one-who-does-not-want-to-work-with-you

It has been a long time since I wrote a long post in my blog. But well today is one of those days that i have a yearning to pen something down in my blog.

I had a well spent day with myself today. I did what I wanted to do, just to get away from the norms. I watched tv, chatted with friends whom i have not talked to for a long time, surfed the net and went for a deep in the pool. I even sorted out my dvds so that i myself know what i have and not have.

oh well, last night, i declared it as the last day of playing before my parents come! Initially, the choir gang wanted to have night cycling. So i went home after work and immediately took a nap. Then at about 8pm, an sms came and in my sleepiness I read Kun's sms telling us that the weather forecast said it's going to be a thunderstorm!! I went frantic cause I had been wanting to do something that night since the next day is a public holiday. We thought of alternatives. mahjong was a hassle cause char is sick and table has to be transported to bazhang's house if we really want. settler's was out too cause it was quite costly. so in the end, we decided to stay home.

but the night monster in me decided to call up my colleagues who earlier on kept on persuading me not to go and cycle. all reasons came out at noon like butt will be pain, better have vcds so that motorists can see, be careful backpain, etc. someone even suggest for me to shave like my manager and get it polished!! nonsensical colleagues i have.

so anyway, since plans with choir gang are cancelled, i called the bunch of people and in 30mins time, i was off to one of their house!! the journey there is another story cause taxi uncle took one big turn to get there. it was a great drinking, chatting and watching tv session. we gossiped lots!! and at around 130, me and another colleague adjourned to spize. we called a fellow co-worker and he came to join us!! i felt that it has been a long time since i talked so much in a day!!!

seeing how i only reached home at early dawn, i slept till 12 today!! it has been a long time since i did that and i felt so good doing that... though my head was rather heavy after having too much sleep.

oh well, tmrw is going to be another day, another month... parents will be in town for what i think another month. it's going be the month that i will be have my short getaway... my birthday... my leave... and all the partying!! ohhh.. JUNE.. I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOU TO COME!!

the last 2 days have made me think again
whether i really really want to be an A2.

like is that really what i wanna do??

perhaps i am a little slower than others
to only think of this question now.

but seriously, i am loving the fact that i am in control of everything.
it's just me, the client and the manager.
how cool can it get?!?!

so yes, back to the question:

do i really want to be an A2?

my favorite song for now - THIS IS MY NOW!

There was a time I packed my dreams away.
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.

There was a time when I was so afraid.
I thought I’d reached the end,
But baby that was then
I am made of more than my yesterdays.


This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
Because I look around
I can’t believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubts
That was then, this is my now.

And I have the courage like never before, yeah.
I’ve settled for less now I’m ready for more,
Ready for more.

This is my now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around I can’t believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubts.
That was then, this is my now.

I’m living in the moment
I look around I can’t believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubts.
That was then, this is my now.
This is my now.

interesting facts...

The correct way to cook instant noodles without harming our bodies and health. Normally, how we cook the instant noodles is to put the noodles into a pot with water, throw in the powder and let it cook for 3 mins around and then ready to eat.

This is the WRONG method of cooking the instant noodles.

By doing this, when we actually boil the ingredients in the powder, normally with MSG, it will change the molecular structures of the MSG causing it to be toxic.

The other thing that you may or may not realized is that, the noodles are coated with wax and it will take around 4 to 5 days for the body to excrete the wax after you have taken the noodles.

CORRECT method , which you may or may not know, is to cook the noodles this way :

1. boil the noodles in a pot with water.
2. once the noodles is cooked, take out the noodles, and throw away the water which contains wax.
3. boil another pot of water till boiling and put the noodles into the hot boiling water and then shut the fire.
4. only at this stage when the fire is off, and while the water is very hot, put the ingredient with the powder into the water, to make noodle soup.
5. however, if you need dry noodles, take out the noodles n add the ingredient with the powder and toss it to get dry noodles.

Please share this info and help save a life.

i kept on hearing people from people that the best time to observe people is when you are not doing and thinking of anything.
sure enough!
on my way home just now, i saw weird things while i was waiting for the bus.
not sure if it was the location of the bus stop,
or people just have their quirks.

for example

1.an old man who choose to sit 3cm away from another man, when the bench is almost a metre long. even when the victimized man kept on looking at him and laughing his head off with his companion, the old man remained undisturbed.

2.a couple beside me choose to be in their make out position, or at least that's the vibe they gave me. the woman had her two legs on the thigh of her man, and the man was carrasing her leg and feet. and her "coffeshop" is opened the whole time..

3.a pervetic old man looked at me as he walked from one end of the bus stop to the other

so are they weird or are they not?!?!

my day has been met up with weird people today.
these and another incident when the old chi ko pek client of mine purposely counted wrongly the number of documents i handed back to him. when i got worried and observed him, he was happily counting away in front of me. his expression is like "hahahha! i fool you!!"

why does the world have weird people such as these?!?!?!

it has been a long time since i felt that my weekend was GREAT...
started off with friday when we celebrate a colleague's birthday at Fish&Co
we asked the waitress to sing her happybirthday song
and surprised with a cake. how sweet can we be right?
to end the nite, we had coffee at tcc.
we shared our childhood days
e.g being a prefect, being a geek and being notorious
and all of us had a good laugh!!
then saturday, i had my usual laughing sessions with my boys..
young and innocent boys who don't care anything else but aircon.
it was continued with yet another coffee session
but this time two wonderful peeps!
chatted a lot about stuffs
ranging from career, relationships to investments.
conclusion: sticky boys and girls (personal joke)
and today....
we had a cousins breakfast gathering at the sis place
supposed to have tuition but it got screwed,
so off to pedicure i go..
and i went exercising...

i think i have spent my weekends quite well.
have you?

of being not fat

when i wake up at 1.30am to have a cup of chocolate milk
and all because i have been tossing and turning
for the past 1 hour or so....
it sucks when i can't fall asleep
and yet i have to be at the client before 0830.

please eyes and brain...
just shut down for the next few hours or so...

life is back to the norm again.
my parents have left for Jakarta after being here for around 2 months
and i am back to living it up or should i say alone here.
it's funny how when i am alone here,
i wish my parents will come over..
but when they are here,
i have this feeling of having to re-adjust my life for them.
but oh well, that's life isn't it?
we always think that the other side of the fence is greener...

but oh well, my life is back to
work.gym.cathechism.tuition.meetingupwithfriends.fridaysdinner.
and of course
selflaundry.selfcleaningupthehouse.selfcooking.watchingdvds
as of 1 may 2007,
i am starting to love my life again!!

schedule for the day:
gym with hsia
steamboat with choir peeps
and sad to say
going over some tough sections for my current engagements

have i said that i have gotten a brand new laptop at work?

wooohooooo.. sweet escape!

i hope i have spent my money correctly....

lallalallallalla

it's 2 more days before i am off to my first step to
C H I N A

yes, the place to be in now!

can you feel my excitement?

it's one week off from work
it's one week of a vacation
and
it's one week away from home

love it love it!

but of course, it's burning some hole in my pocket...

and should i sign up for a package??
*deep thought*

to be read... next time...

Ten Secrets to be a better person
The FIRST secret - the power of THOUGHT. Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think about. Loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships. Affirmations can change our beliefs and thoughts about others and ourselves. If we want to love someone, we need to consider his or her needs and desires. Thinking about your ideal partner will help you recognise her when you meet her.

The SECOND secret - the power of RESPECT.
You cannot love anyone or anything
unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself.
To begin to gain self-respect, ask yourself, What do I respect about myself? - To gain respect for others, even those you may dislike, ask yourself, What do I respect about them? -

The THIRD secret - the power of GIVING. If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! The more love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of yourself, freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. Before committing to a relationship ask not what the other person will be able to give to you, but rather what will you be able to give them. The secret formula of a happy, lifelong, loving relationship is to always focus on what you can give instead of what you can take.

The FOURTH secret - the power of FRIENDSHIP. To find a true love, you must first find a true friend. Love does not consist of gazing into each other"s eyes, but rather looking outward together in the same direction. To love someone completely you must love him or her for who they are and not for what they look like. Friendship is the soil through which love seeds grow. If you want to bring love into a relationship, you must first bring friendship.

The FIFTH secret - the power of TOUCH. Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of love, breaking down barriers and bonding relationships. Touch changes our physical and emotional states and makes us more receptive to love.

The SIXTH secret - the power of LETTING GO. If you love something, let it free.
If it comes back to you, it's yours, if it doesn"t, it never was. Even in a loving relationship, people need their own space. If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to forgive and let go of past hurts and grievances. Love means letting go of our fears, prejudices, egos and conditions. Today I let go of all my fears, the past has no power over me - today is the beginning of a new life. -

The SEVENTH secret - the power of COMMUNICATION. When we learn to communicate openly and honestly, life changes. To love someone is to communicate with them.
Let the people you love know that you love them and appreciate them. Never be afraid to say those three magic words: I Love You Never let an opportunity pass to praise someone. Always leave someone you love with a loving word - it could be the last time you see him or her. If you were about to die but could make telephone calls to the people you loved, who would you call, what would you say and .. why are you waiting?

The EIGHTH secret -
The power of COMMITMENT. If you want to have love in abundance, you must be committed to it, and that commitment will be reflected in your thoughts and actions. Commitment is the TRUE test of love. If you want to have loving relationships, you must be committed to loving relationships. When you are committed to someone or something, quitting is never an option.
Commitment distinguishes a fragile relationship from a strong one.

The NINTH secret - the power of PASSION. Passion ignites love and keeps it alive. Lasting passion does not come through physical attraction alone; it comes from deep commitment, enthusiasm, interest and excitement. Passion can be recreated by recreating past experiences. When you felt passionate spontaneity and surprises produce passion. The essence of love and happiness are the same; all we need to do is to live each day with passion.

The TENTH secret -
the power of TRUST. Trust is essential in all loving relationships. Without it one person becomes suspicious, anxious and fearful and the other person feels trapped and emotionally suffocated. You cannot love someone completely unless you trust him or her completely. Act as if your relationship with the person you love will never end. One of the ways you can tell whether a person is right for you is to ask yourself, . Do I trust them completely and unreservedly? - If the answer is no -, think carefully before making a commitment.

i am well and dandy and not doing anything much at work
the whole day was spent trying to do my self-appraisal
and i realised that it is not an easy task
to sound humble and boastful at the same time.
it's a balance between the two.
*pull my (curly) hair*

but knowing that i have 2 more off days to my many many off days
and having a senior telling me that i am an efficient assistant
has indeed made my day!! or should i say lighten my blue Monday?!?

and of course thanks to the dear daddy
i have 3 wonderful magazines
that i have been wanting to have my hands on!!

so off to my self appraisal and magazines i go....

and have i said that the Phanton of the Opera is great?
*masquerade.. masquerade*

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hasn't been updating but all i can say is that i am in a sheer mood of joy now...

first thing first, i am an aunt of a very cute nephew. Welcome to the world, Nathalvyn! For those who are curious, you can view his pictures here! Babies are just adorable. I wish I could be like them, sleeping and drinking all day, without a care for the world.... dream on, franny!

I've decided to study again, so off to CFA exam i go this coming december! Even though it's a good 9 months or so away, it doesn't hurt to start now. Hearsay that it's tough, but i would like to experience it myself first before i can say it myself. It's the same thing about my job, all I heard are the bad things, but when i experience myself, i can only conclude that it's human nature to complain and keep mum all the good things inside themselves. so conclusion is: experience life as it is, don't just listen to the others.

Also my holiday plan is OUTTTTT. I'm happy that I am able to divide my vacation time between parents, friends, and soon enough, my family. Still can't decide between july, august or december though to go back to jakarta...

all rightie... i'm excited to start the new week. cause it's a new job, it's a new area of concentration and dad is not around this week, which means, i get to sleep with my mommy this whole week! call me a childish-working-adult! cause yes, i am one!

have a good week, all!

parkway has robbed my wallet...

2 skirts in a day
and another shirt on the way

gosh it rhymes!

but it's bad for my wallet
and especially bad that i am buying all these
in front of my parents
who forbid me to shop too much
after seeing my sister's stock
of clothes that are left here in our house.

and i am going on and on
without any punctuation cause
i am hungry

so bottomline is

parkway has robbed me!

since the last time i blogged, many things have happened...

like V-day spent with my wonderful bunch of colleagues;
CNY was lazing around with the sis and
caught protege which was fantabolous -a must watch!
had the experience of becoming a sister in Yach's wedding
and lastly, starting my Lent by miracolous meeting the crush in church!

*not sure if it's a crush, but when your heart go dabamdamdoop upon seeing him,
how would you describe it?*

so anyway, aside from the crush, something tells me that there is more
that i should be looking forward to this year!!

like 2 weeks in july/aug in the heart of my hometown...
being a tai-tai whose time is filled with appointments for
massages, pedicures, manicures, hair-do
shopping and pigging out..
yabadabadooooo...

life is definetely to be EXPERIENCED!

Princess Hours MV - Destiny

What if I never knew
What if I never found you
I'd never have this feeling in my heart
How did this come to be
I don't know how you found me

But from the moment I saw you
Deep inside my heart I knew

Chorus:
Baby you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be my destiny

I wanted someone like you
Someone that I could hold on to
And give my love until the end of time
But forever was just a word
Something I'd only heard about

But now you're always there for me
When you say forever I believe

(chorus)

Maybe all we need is just a little faith
'Cause baby I believe that love will find the way

(instrumental bridge)

Baby you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart and soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as I far as I can see
From now until eternity
You were always meant to be my destiny

last night i had the greatest nightmare
i dreamt that my administrator asked my colleagues and i
who was going to be the next one to tender
and in a sheer of a moment, i replied
"it will be ME, in a month's time!"

in my dream, after i said those works,
it daunts to me that i haven't even found a new job
i became worried and frantically asking myself what job i should apply
and i realised that there's really no single job that i can name immediately

so there it goes..my dream
and perhaps my realisation to stick with what i am doing right now.
after all, which job will allow me to have
2.5 weeks of unpaid leave on top of the usuals?
which job allow me to have more than an hour's break?
and of course, travel to and fro from one place to another?

for now, it's my job and I!

one month has passed

the month of January seems to have passed in a jiffy. before i know it, it's already February! and which means.. it has been one month since i was located in Suntec. Many of my colleagues have asked me when i will be coming back, i guess, my MIA in all the lunches, dinners and drinks have made them missed me. Even if they don't, at least, that's the feeling that I have with them. My reply has always been "i'm coming back soon..." Indeed, i will, cause next week will be my last week in Suntec.
I will miss my suntec food court, marina square food court, pork chop rice in shaw, free lunches with the sis, tuesdays' half price waffles and the long walk from the bus stop to the client.

this past month has lots of happenings too. first off was the slight rise. more to go to my travelling fund!! lots of cleaning up the house cause of the visit by the relatives. some family time with the parents short visit. my cousin's wedding and of course, the encounter with the useless-cum-bootlicker senior (ok, maybe he was not that useless, for he drove and brought us to vivocity to have nice hk lunch and bakuteh-cum-beancurd-lunch. i do give some credits for that)

the most memorable time was the lots of girl-talking with the cousins. it's funny how we used to be playmates when we were small kiddos, then strayed apart when we were in the stages of growing up, and just last year when i was back for a month, we grew closer again. we could talk for hours and hours about everything - work, relationships, personal stuffs. we are all shopaholics who would shop and shop till we drop. even though we chose different paths of career, there is always that one thing that we all loved which is flexibility. we talked about travelling aspirations and i do hope something fruitful will come.

so there it goes, my one month in 2007. so far, it looks good and dandy. more exciting things to come in this great new year!!

and did i mention that i will be looking forward to my Saturdays with my brian, xylon, naomi, andre, marcus, alexandra, victoria and whoever else that i did not remember... they are the cutest thing!!

sometimes, it takes another person to do something that is uncalled for to make you swear to yourself that you wouldn't do what the person did as it would just trouble other people but yourself.

you see, i've a senior who is going away in a matter of weeks. 1.5 weeks to be exact and he would not be with the firm anymore. but on this very job, which happens to be his second last job, he could not care less to lead the team. he allocated himself very few sections, he had no intention to review it and he is not at all responsible. at least to me, he only knew how to be a boot licker to the manager and say flowery words to us to make us feel elevated. but to me, enough is enough.

so today, he asked me if i would be able to finish my parts by this friday. and i gave him an answer "i don't know" and he murmured "how could i say to the manager i don't know". at that very moment, i felt like asking to do some introspection as to what level of contribution and responsibility has he done in this team to have the cheek to give an answer to the manager. and after he smsed the manager "we will try", he said to us "at least, we have given him a positive answer".

as a person who have principle, i hope that i will never ever compromise myself like that. be responsible when you have to be and be accountable on the things that you do. don't just laze around thinking that going away is an excuse to your low standards of work.

this is the first time that i ever rant so much about a senior; my colleague has to put up with my complaints everyday everytime something occurs. i do hope that when i look back at this post in the years to come, i won't be doing the very same thing as what he did.

no wonder manager Y said to someone who was leaving to "do your last job well or you can expect to have zero job offers".

i wish someone can tell this particular senior that very same line.

put three young ladies together in a room
and you will create lots of havoc and laughter
plus, of course, late night chattering sessions.

i can finally breathe

the week began rather gray for me.
MANAGER came down
and actually stayed with us till late at night
for two whole days.
my record for staying out late was broken
half an hour after midnight!!
work was reviewed on the spot
everything has to be all done and dandy
in a jiffy.
i felt like i was in a camp
4 people go everywhere together
lunch-dinner-lunch-dinner-lunch.
partner even came down!!

but thank goodness, everything is DONE!!!

i only have one thing to say.....

i so wanna kill my senior SOON!

can't believe i am saying this

but i am beginning to like my job....





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i don't know what has gone into me lately,
but i am starting to enjoy what i am doing.
i am loving the flexibility, mobility and what not.
seeing how a sucker i am in getting my figures matched,
right to the very cent,
i am a crazy auditor in the making!

can't believe i am saying this

but i am beginning to like my job....






i don't know what has gone into me lately,
but i am starting to enjoy what i am doing.
i am loving the flexibility, mobility and what not.
seeing how a sucker i am in getting my figures matched,
right to the very cent,
i am a crazy auditor in the making!

i am at client's place
and i am damn sleepyyyyyy
i have been yawning for the past 30 mins
and i have to wait for another 3 hours for time to pass...

sleepysleepysleepy

my days have been slow...

With the days coming so fast, I thought I should just take note of the things involved in Project 27:

1. change the bed linen of my parents' room
2. clean up the house
3. change the bed linen of the sofa bed
4. take down all the extra pillows and bolsters and what have you
5. hide some of the shoes outside
6. clean up the house
7. neaten my roon
8. clear my unironed clothes
9. make eveything neat and tidy
10. call up the make up guy to confirm the number of people
11. send bed covers for laundry
12. plan routes and eating places

all these are to prevent unecessary remarks made by the relatives

i can't believe i am saying this


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i am excited about WORK!!


bring it on, Finals!!