goodbye 2006 and hello 2007

i can't wait for 2007 to come and say goodbye to 2006.
i am awaiting for the new challenges and experiences.
bring it on 2007!!

but before that, let me just do some reflections of 2006.
firstly, it was the last semester i had in school and ironically,
the best term i had in terms of my grade.
then i had my graduation trip to the land of kangaroo
with 2 of my best mates in uni.
quite an experience to be sleeping in a same room with old ladies and
funny incidents which i have mentioned in my earlier posts.
when june came, it was the wedding of the sis and the bil.
june seems to come and go especially with me
being in jakarta for a good 1 month.
had a lot of re-bonding with the cousin.
good in a way, cause i was losing a sis, and got another older sis.
by the time i came back here, it was my graduation.
had another trip with the parents as a way of
showing my appreciation to them.
and before i know it, it was time for me
to start another phase of my life -WORKING!!
the exact date was 15 august.
i was rather apprehensive at first cause i didn't know anyone.
but 4 months after, i can say that i have made a couple of colleagues
whom i can call as friends at the same time.
there is a slight change this year with me
celebrating the xmas eve with my friends
but i had a great time with the greatest foursome in the world.
reminds me of Grey's Anatomy's izzie, yang, meredith and omalley.
yes, we will be friends for life, darlings!

so yes, when the clock struck 12 tonight,
i know that i am in for a great year ahead.
work, travelling, family and friends.

Have a Happy New Year, peeps!

last day of leave

am using the new blogger..
haven't found any new functions though..
will look hard into it and make changes to my blog...

for now, shower here i come and it's time to SHOP with my sis!!

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mission was unaccomplished.
i didn't get anything from the shops
found a few dresses and a pair of pants for work,
but there was something about them that made me hesitate
haven't managed to get what i want
sad. sad.
was hoping for a change to get something from Shu Uemera
but i guess i am meant to be a M.A.C user cause
the colour that I want from Shu is out-of-stock
and M.A.C has better-serviced salesgirl.

even though i walked for almost 9 hours,
i only managed to get
1) a pot of vapour eyeshadow
2) some undies
3) a bottle of shampoo

managed to save, instead of my initial plan to splurge.
*give myself a pat on the back*

my horoscopes in 2007

OVERVIEW:
Gemini thrives on change, variety and mental stimulation. You will attract these in all areas of your life, making for a very exciting year. Use your talent of looking at your emotions objectively to come to terms with them when you don't understand logically what's going on in your life. Emotions are like events to you, and you have the ability to categorize them well. Your ability to feel connected with people will help keep strong relationships going this year. Treat life's challenges as projects and you will inevitably figure out what's going on.

You will make long strides in your career this year -- as long as you keep faith in yourself. The energy you put into your work will allow you to experience many material blessings in your home environment. Pay close attention to your own creative ideas. Many new inspirational ideas are coming your way and you will benefit by putting your ideas into action in your career. It's important for you to be recognized and feel appreciated for your efforts.

You attract a variety off people with your great charm, and you have a natural ability to gain admiration. You'll feel energized by the opposite sex. For most of the year, communication will be top priority, and you'll be asked to articulate your inspirational ideas in some kind of writing project. Friends and family are key in helping you manifest your desires, especially in the latter part of the year, and the chance to deepen your relationships with them makes you very happy!

CAREER:
In 2007, you will have great opportunities to reinvent yourself in your career. Boredom with conventional approaches pushes you to express your idealistic motivation rather than your worldly success. Resources are available to you and your sense of value is strong. You have a strong urge to define which resources create security, safety and comfort for yourself and those closest to you. You will work at establishing your own personal authority and will reinvent yourself in a larger way. You have the analytical ability to communicate your needs clearly, and you'll find that you are satisfied monetarily in your business dealings.

You are shrewd in business and can succeed in almost any profession you choose. Having faith in your mental powers and cultivating a positive attitude is something that serves you tremendously well. You integrate wonderfully with others, and this enables you to function powerfully as part of a group. You may be drawn to social, humanitarian, religious or political groups and will easily align your own ideals with like-minded people. Your awareness of the importance of connectivity impacts those in your circles, and opens doors to sharing goals.

You are able to direct your inspirational ideas in ways that reveal compassion on a global level. This opens up possibilities for community work. Change is the name of the game this year, whether it's changing careers or restructuring your career to be one of more compassionate service. Put more emphasis on the needs of others -- as well as your own -- and this promises to be a very fulfilling year.

LOVE:
Your magnetic power attracts love and influential friends in 2007. You want to be around people who are as high-minded as you are. You are much more in need of sharing yourself in a one-on-one relationship than ever before and, lucky you, an adventurous lover is in store for you as your radiance attracts someone very special during the first three months of the year. With all the mental challenges of work, caring for yourself and attending to your partner, it's a good time to relax and have fun, too. This relationship couldn't have come at a better time.

Important opportunities are coming your way, so you'll benefit from taking chances and deepening your relationship in unique ways. The spiritual harmony you feel in this intimate relationship will be exhilarating as you share your dreams together.

Toward the end of the year, you will strive for balance and it will be natural for you to want more of a commitment. Engage in activities that help you explore the creativity welling up inside. You'll need plenty of space to think about your creative projects and how best to fulfill yourself. Commit to what you enjoy most!

2nd day of leave

i had a good day today.
woke up at 10
got ready
off to the hairdresser
started doing my hair at 12.15
chitchatted with my hairdresser
whom i could now addressed as my friend
flipped through FEMALE and HERWORLD
chopped off most of the bleached part
*now hoping hair would grow faster
so that all bleached part could be chopped off*
left the place at 4
went over to another beauty parlour at 4.15
was falling asleep inside
processed done at 5
retreated to simei to get hair products and mouse
*i am vain, thank you*
mrt-ed to tampines
went over to NESS while waiting for YJ
nearly bought a blue cardi but changed mind
dined at fish and co
nostalgic walk at TM and Century Square
*the place that i practically walked on every friday 5 years ago*
time check 930
rode home on the mrt
waited for bus for the longest time
arrived safely at home at 1030
i wish everyday could be like this.
yes, once in a while, i do dream of being a tai tai.

blog hopping has some use.
like when you come across a meaningful post

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if abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz is being represented by numbers, it will be 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9,10,11,12,13,14,15,16,17,18,19,20,21,22,23,24,25,26

as we are all looking for perfection = 100%

but God wants use to have more than 100%

if we have

knowledge = 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5= 96%

love = 12+15+22+5=54%

luck = 12+21+3+11=47%

all these do not add up to 100% to be a perfect person

the word that adds up to 100% is attitude.

but God wants more of you.

Love of God = 12+15+22+5+15+6+7+15+4= 101%

therefore with the right attitude will bring you to somewhere and be successful. however, you must have the love of God to earn the 101% potential in you.

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nice one, aint't it?

and can the rain just stop?

feeling: *cold*

a long xmas post

so xmas this year was spent rather differently from the usuals.

first is the fact that i don't spend it with my parents
cause i didn't go back for the holidays.
my parents are having their own overland tour,
starting TODAY ending on my dad's birthday,
with 2 other couples and NO KIDS.
I reckoned i should have my own arrangements.

second was that xmas eve was on a sunday this year,
which meant that i had to go church twice last sunday.
so sunday i went to church with the sis and saw terence, the colleague.
lunched at prawn mee and lounged around the sis house.
went home to get my laundry done and a much needed nap.
i was after all going to stay up the whole night.

at 10pm, jun came over to put her stuffs and we head out.
me to midnite mass and her to ps to meet up with char.
this year, i went to midnite mass at sacred heart.
somewhat different since there is no candle, in replace of that was a lightstick.
i would still prefer the candle, although it would bring back memories of easter 04.
*blah.*
Fr. Paul Tay is a jolly old priest who gave out fruit cakes as a symbol of
Jesus' birthday.
One innocent girl who sat in front me asked "how old is he?"
(he referring to Jesus)
and i giggled when i heard this.
it made me and my sis counted back how old Jesus is really is.
and of course, i looked forward to 2007 when i will be reunited back with kiddos on sundays. *yeah*

after mass, we headed to Clarke Quay. me to meet up with the rest;
sis and hubby wanna chill out on xmas day.
afterall, this is their last xmas together before my nephew is due.

did you know that Coffee Club at CQ is damn posh looking?
i love it and would want a comeback.
we walked over to the new outlets of the Cannery,
and i was like a tour guide to the other 2 who went "ohhh" and "ahhh"
as we walked past KandiBar, the Clinic, Fashion Bar, and BarFly.
after passing by all the outlets, we decided our first stop would be FashionBar.
had hazelnut martini there, which was replaced by blue berry because char couldn't stand it.
talked cock over drinks and when it was about 2 or 3,
we wanted to go to a dancefloor!
thinking that KandiBar would have, we proceeded there, but too bad, there isn't.
walked in, and came out.
then we went to BarFly.
curious to see what's inside.
it looks very glam and posh
so we retreated back to our mission: "find a dancefloor"
went to MOS n after knowing the cover charge is a good $30 we decided to dish the idea aside.
so we went back to BarFly.
walked in, given the menu and decided "this isn't what we want"
and we walked out and headed to BaKuTeh.

so i daresay that xmas day was spent on going in and out of pubs
to finally decide on Bakuteh...
after having our stomach filled up, we went home at around 5ish.
again, we talked cock and decided to sleep only at 630.

the guests woke up and left at around 9
and i quickly made a phone call to the parents to wish them a merry xmas!
after the call, i went back to sleep.
woke up at around 11, got ready and went to sis house
to deliver their xmas presents.
we had lunch at the HardRockCafe cause it's one of the few outlets that
would serve Turkey for lunch. it was a filling lunch
cause as we watched the Holiday, i was half falling asleep.
had gelare for desserts or some sort and with that, it was time for me to go home.

Today, being the first day of my leave, was supposed to be in Jb with the girls to do some shopping, manicure and pedicure. but what was meant to be was not to be because 1) it was raining heavily 2)our bodyguard fell sick.
so instead of being in jb as i have imagined it to be, i was at home watching my dvd, reading my book and being a plain lazy arse at home.
contemplated almost the whole day about getting out of the house and
finally at 430pm, i msged the girls "let's just brave the rain. meet at 6pm at orchard mrt. i am sure there will be some great post xmas deals"
so my first day of leave is sadly in singapore, back to old orchard road.
i pray the rain stops and that there will be a good deal to satisfy my first day of leave.

have a good holidays everyone!

mood: *hopeful*

there are some days that you think it's a bad day
something goes wrong
you hear shocking news
you were disappointed

and today is one of those days.

tomorrow is MONDAY
which means i have to work
and i have to get up early.
no more sleeping in like
what i have been doing
this weekend cause
of the flu bug
and the fever.
flu bug has not
gone away,
but a girl has to do what a girl has to do
to earn some $$ so that she can shop for more bags,shoes,clothes, make up.
yes, i am a bimbo in disguise.
despite me being sick, i still went to town
to get the peep toe that i have been eyeing.
case is closed.
i am a bimbo.

i need to sleep now.
good bye world!

it's funny how i am on a quiz spree on a friday nite

anyway, i am out of JURONG!!!
no more going to the west!
3 weeks of feeling being tortured there
has finally come to an end.
i hope it was a good end,
although some parts of me
is telling me that
it was not a very happy ending.

i am beginning to think that
i may not have perform at my optimum
and i may not have treated my senior
very nicely.

but i should let bygone be bygone
cause i can't control what people think of me
or can i?!?

someone said to me over dinner that
i was at fault for not treating the senior nicely
and in turn he not being nice to me.
part of me is not caring so much about that,
cause seriously, you can't possible treat everyone as your superior.
you have to earn it to be respected.
but another part of me is feeling guilty
for being an assistant who
tells my senior his forgetfulness, his careleness, etc.
i can't help it for being frank.

so now i am in a confused and sleepy state.

but that aside, i should just sleep now
and look forward to a great Monday
when i will be having a meeting over breakfast
*yooo hoooo hoooo*

everyone, there is such things as free lunch!!

Your Luck Quotient: 83%

You have an extremely high luck quotient. Not only do you consider yourself lucky, probably everyone you know does too. But you're smart enough to know that you've mostly made your own luck. By being positive, open, and flexible, a lot of luck has come your way!

How Lucky Are You?

Your Birthdate: June 20

You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride. Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing. When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it. It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious. Your strength: Your warm heart Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions Your power color: Black Your power symbol: Musical note Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

the journey to the west is finally here.
i told myself that i would be wearing pants when i am there.
but just 2 days of being there, and i am itching to wear skirts.
goodness gracious me!
what a girly girl i am!!

*awww*

my senior is quite protective of me.
always making sure that i take the same cab,
eat my lunch, and go back to the office with him.
lucky me!!

another senior on the job is a replica of Kunnie.
they have similar expression when they smile;
they have the same crap coming out from them
and of course, they are the kind that can make people feel at ease.

but being in the client's place is quite sucky!
sharing one meeting room with 5 other people
and half the time the other 4 make lots of noise.
lucky my senorita asks me to come back....

all rightie.. report from the west is over

You Are Most Like Charlotte!

You are the ultimate romantic idealist You've been hurt before, but that hasn't caused you to give up on love. If anything, your resolve to fall in love is stronger than ever. And it's this feminine optimism that men find most appealing about you. Romantic prediction: That guy you are seeing (or crushing on)? Could be very serious - if you play your cards right!

Which Sex and the City Vixen Are You?

went to MezeBar with the colleagues yesterday. it's quite a nice chill out place, with understated elegance. The songs that were sung by the live band was relaxing too, not those loud musics that we usually have in clubs. Among the 6 of us, we shared 2 bottles of red. they were good! and the wasabi chips were addictive! another hang out place on Fridays.

2nd person in out group will be leaving 2 fridays from now. it's sad to see people leave. it's like us in "Survivor". but I guess, it's something that we all have to live with, cause sooner or later, we ourselves will leave that place.

the question now, who will be the 3rd? however, before we hear another tendering, we just have to enjoy each other's company. i hope that as we move on to another level, we still have this bonding and could still chill out together.

mood: *blah*

is this luck?

i came to office disgrudgingly cause the day that i would be assigned to a client all the way in jurong port is here. imagining the next one month in an industrial park is bleak to me. as bimbotic as it may sound, i was sad cause i would only be able to wear the new dress in a month's time and which alien would wear a dress in a factory?

but to a sheer stroke of luck, fate or whatever you called it....

my senior told me that we aren't going this week!! this means that i have another week in town, and i could don my new dress this week.. and my stay in the other end of the island will only be 3 weeks!! no skirts for 3 weeks is still okay, as long as it's not a month!

schedule might be quite tight, as my senior kept on warning me since a month ago, but i think it will challenge my capabilities, put me in a better perspective of the industry and increase my tolerance level to another notch. i mean, reporting in 2 weeks?!?!? oh no!!!!

and yes, this week, i would have to sleeep a lot, as warned by the senior, who is jolly man. but at the preview of my schedule, i don't think i would ever be able to store sleep..

tues: meet fang
wed: nb @ 730pm
thurs: lo@730pm
fri: the usuals

all rightie.. now i am off to store my sleep.

one more dress to my collection..

and hello, jurong!!

i will be there....

i am not sure if i have made the right decision
but...

hello kiddos!!
i'll be with you next year!!

yabadabadoooo

mood: *contemplative*

it's November, baby!!

time passes by so fast.
before you know it, it's the last 2 months of the year 2006!!

i think this has been a great year so far.
sure hiccups do happen.
in fact it happens just yesterday
but am glad that everytime something bad happens;
something good will come along the way.

it's like the One above telling me that
"After every storm, I'll send you a rainbow"

thank You..

and a peek of the prospective (after a month) sure brought my day yesterday...
but a peek of the horrendous ex-manager made me feel guilty..

see what a peek can do to you?!?!?!

goodbye. i'm sleeping at 1012, earliest i have slept
cause i have a brekkie appointment with my colleagues.

goodnight.

it's been a long time since i updated my blog and out of a sudden, i have the yearning to do so. Life for the last 2 weeks have been quite a breeze and that's because client is always on leave... but i guess it wouldn't be so much of a breeze next week when we have to rush everything out. The parents are in town now and i have the privilege of having home cooked meals when i got home.. i guess i missed out a lot on that one, considering that when my parents are not here, i have to cook myself. had a short getaway trip during the weekend with the whole family. it had been a lonnnng time since we have that, and it's just nice to be with everyone in a foreign land. sadly, i couldn't do any shopping cause it's really not a place to shop. still looking out for places and travel companions to go somewhere this year end. main motive is to shop but have been hearing that year end is not the right time to go hk and taiwan... urrghh.. any other place i can go? i don't feel like going bangkok again cause i have been there and done that this year.

i am so looking forward to the weekend. need a rest and some family time before the parents go back.

tatta! i am OUTTT

as much as i want to be the girl who have fringe
short fringe coming down my forehead thingamajing
i know i can't.

my mum has brought me up in an environment that forbids this
such that when i am a working adult
i myself can't stand fringe that covers my view

i am a girl who like to put up my hair
with a pin or two, even it means looking like a primary school kid
and have a clear view.

so the next few weeks or so,
till my hair obediently grow
i will be looking like that primary school kid
who has bobby pins all over her head

thank you to my hairstylist that i would never visit again.

i had my first taste of staying late cause of work last week.
2 days in a row i left the client's place at 11.
my tolerance level has certainly went up a knot.
now, i shall not take it for granted when i can leave at 5.30-6pm.
it's a LUXURY for someone in my field.

if last week was hell,
this week was HEAVEN.

i managed to go home at 5.30 yesterday and 6.00 today.
how lucky a girl i am!
i don't have much things to do except clearing the review points
and read the strategy for next week.
this is mainly because the person that i'm supposed to help,
still has nothing for me to do. so kowtow to that person.
thank you for giving me a breather.

so i have no complaint about work
except.........

i wish a certain person would just goooooo away from my work life.
if you don't want to shoo, the least you could do is just shutttt your mouth,
stuuuuffff it with lots of tissue paper
so that it would stop you from sprouting nonsense about people.
you are not as pitiful as you make it sound to be...
go awayyyyy and stop asking for attention...
it urrks me that a 22 year old is still behaving like a secondary school kid!

all right, enough ranting. me shall sleep.

i can't believe i am saying this
but i MISS SCHOOL!!!!

it's been a really long time since i last updated.
one of the reason is because i've gone in to client's place
which means longer working hours.

the earliest time that i've knocked off is at 6
and that is because i've a "meet the executives" session back in the office.
besides the long hours at work
everything's been quite dandy for me.
first client is not as nasty as i've expected to be.
first team seems to be quite on the ball.
we have our share of fun!

my work was reviewed over the weekend
i'm crossing my fingers and hope there is no major major flaws in it.
tomorrow the senior is giving it back to me and
for now i can only hope that i won't get many review points.

one checklist was done last week.
another one has to be done by this wed.
judging by the amount of work that was done last year
i have LOTS to do.
i guess i've to stay longer tmrw.

all rightie...i'm hitting the sack now.
goodbye and goodluck everyone.

sometimes you have friends who treat you badly in front of your not-so-close-friends and you began to wonder whether these people are your friends. would a real friend treat you that bad? would they put you to your lowest self?

the question that i am pondering is "why are they doing this?", are they just putting up a front so that they could look good and you don't?

well, i don't know whether i am being sensitive but at least this is how i have been feeling for the past few days. no doubt, these people might have their own credentials, but if every time i have to put up with snide remarks, i don't think i would like their company that much.

so please... respect me as much as i respect you and there would be peace in the world.

i can't believe that i've been working for 5 weeks already. tomorrow is another friday when my colleagues and I will party after work. it's funny how i am getting used to working life. waking up at 7 in the morning and get out of house by 8, sometimes a little after 8. squeezed with the crowd and stand all the way from home to office. take part in the change alley race in my heels, shortcut to arcade and walah!! i reach office.

what i am not used to is the feeling of being invisible. they don't us and we don't know them. luckily someone initiated to start a campaign "to be visible and you need us". and i am very supportive about it cause in this world, we have to show people who we are. at least that's my opinion.

lunch is more or less there, but there's not much choice to choose from. i usually go to golden shoe, banquet, circular road, far east square. if you have any recommendation, feel free to let me know.

allrightie, i am going to sleep now.

the last phone conversation that i had with my mother
made me rethink whether i have made the right decision
to go back this coming weekend
for my cousin's wedding.

sometimes, i am just annoyed with my mother for
not understanding how outspoken i can be.
and what's wrong with letting my hearts out to her??

gggrrrrrrrrrr

i had one hell of a week in Penang.
first was getting up at 4.30am so as to be at the airport at 6.00am.
the flight was not smooth and I couldn't get back to my sleep on the plane.
but my colleagues and I stil managed to take a decent pic before training starts



in my opinion, training was overloaded.
so much information to be absorbed at such short time.
plus, we had to answer questions in which
some of them just rattle off from their printout notes

my team can't be be bothered



we answer those that no one could find from their notes.
we did all right. thought not the winners, but team effort was GREAT!!

when it comes to evenings, we were the most awake!!
we had fun trying out
*asam laksa
*bakuteh
*char kwie tiauw
*prawn noodle
*steamboats (twice!!)
*tau sar pia
*mc d
*manicure and pedicure


*silly games that made us HIGH!! (the pic tells it all)

so, that's my 2nd week of work in summary
and am looking forward to more great time with the company!!

mood: *high*

my first week at work

training for the past one week has been great.
i learnt a lot more about what is inside the financial statements of banks
and gosh!! the accounting entries looked daunting at first,
but all is good after the trainers sort them out for us.
as usual, only some have sunk in my brain, so
i do have to do some revision on my own.

albeit entering the workforce, i still manage to squezze in some time for fun.
it was celebration of my 1st day with the sis and bro-in-law on tuesday;
dinner invitation on wednesday;
long overdued meet up with yj on thursday;
friday being the last day of gfs training,
the whole group of us had a drink at 4.30pm at brewerkz,
then i went for birthday dinner at sarabel with the sis and bro-in-law,
continued with gelatos-to-die-for at meidiya;
saturday was shopping day with the sis around suntec, citylink and raffles city, movies at the padang with sec4 classmates, and caketime at menotti's!!

i am hoping that i would have this much funtime as (real) work sets in.

so today, i decided to have some time at home, cleaning up my house and packing for my trip tomorrow.
i pampered myself so much that i only woke up at 9 this morning.
i kept on telling myself that i need some rest cause i will be leaving at dawn tomorrow and i can't rest much this evening as i will be meeting up with with my cousins, aunt and uncle who are visiting here.
reasons, reasons, reasons...

anyway, have a great week ahead to all while...
i am looking forward for a funfilled week with my fellow new-joiners!!

mood: *excited*

day1

my little black dress, my littlematchgirl bag, my u.r.s companion
i am glad the first step in my career path was great

eventhough i was falling asleep halfway through the training,
the materials reaffirmed me that i have made the right choice.

looking forward to 2nd day of working life!

mood: *determined*

finally,

after four months of travelling

23april-13may:
sydney,melbourne,tasmania
13may-26may:
singapore
26may-27june:
jakarta
27june-11july:
singapore
11july-17july:
chiangmai, bangkok
17july-04august:
singapore
04august-12august:
jakarta

...

the time has come for me to say hello to


i'm so excited to start work!!

...

one week before i'm off again to Penang

i love my life!!

goodbye singapore!

It's finally DONE!!! done done!!
the long overdue videos of moi parents when they went on a trip to Holy Land.
me being a lazy ass have postponed it to almost 8 months..
Bad fran! *shakes finger at myself*

After seeing tonnes of their photos on many sleepless nights,
i have one more goal in my list:

-to go to the Holy Land-

It's a really beauty, i tell you...
you will walk in the very same piece of land that Jesus walked on..
and how sweet it would be to have your wedding vow renewed at Cana
the place where the first miracle was performed;
the jugs of water turned into wine on a wedding....

it made me all excited that i have another plan in my list!

*yummies*

twas another great day today.

woke up at 7 o'clock, and the funny thing is that i immediately got up, without having to lie back on the bed. i think my body is undergoing a practice that it ought to follow once 15th AUG comes.

after having breakfast and reading TODAY, i proceeded on to check what i would need for my PR application. It seems that I have to do a lot of photocopying of documents. then i continued with tidying up my so-called "careeer guide", basically some newspaper articles that I found rather interesting. after getting my hands all black and dirty, the guide is done and ready to be read by none other than me. then, i helped dad to do some errands. once all are done, i took a shower and prepare to go out to meet my dearest friend - Fang!

as usual, i am late. we had lunch at sakae cause that's one of the outlets that have vegetarian menu. we took a walk around bugis as someone is in the search of a receiver, quite funny though that at this day and age, there are still receivers around. when Fang left me for work, I went to Kino before KB lesson and found a book. "Romantically challenged" is one nice book that i will look out for this coming Friday. I wanna get it!!

after the great workout I had, I went to do groceries and happily made my way home, cause I was going to prepare dinner for the sis and the bro-in-law. We had a simple "Japanese meal". They left early as the sis wanna catch the 9 o'clock show at home. As i waited for it to come on, I sat there thinking what should I do. and suddenly, the thought of neating up my shoes came to my mind. so i watched the show and tidied up my shoes at the same time. It's all neat now, and my collections are ready to be worn..

i really can't wait for the 15th to come. i have prepared my work clothes, shoes and bags. i'm all for it now. come 15th come...

i'm in my super duper efficient mode
and i can't believe it myself!!

i want to stay this way.

2 more weeks to work commencement...

so after 4 days of cleaning up what used to be my study room, it is now smashingly clean and starting next week, i can call it my NEW ROOM!! i am so excited to start sleeping there, as I have made myself a little corner to read too!! so no more reading on my bed.

while clearing up my junks, i chanced upon many letters and cards that were sent to me by my friends. As i was catergorizing them according to the year that I received it and bundling them up, I opened some of them and nostalgic memories rushed through me. If it wasn't the cards and the letters, I would have forgotten that I have made an impact to someone's jc life (but we have lost touch and i am now trying to contact her again), that i spent a lot of time with Medz after As and that my very-old crush is such swettie while i was on exchange that he sent lotsssss of cards and VCDs (and feeling a little guilty now for not having much contact with him ever since THE choir incident, that i want to have a get together soon).

words said through card and letters have certainly made an impact to my life and made my day...

so now, to get myself out from this emo syndrome, i shall go and bathe, then after which prepare dinner.. cause the mother of my future nephew and niece is coming over for dinner tonight!!

tata!

just 1 week after i come back from the land of tom yum
and
just 2 days after the parents have gone back
.....
here i am checking out airfares back to jakarta

I told myself that if it hits anything less than $180,
I will want to go back before the start of my career life

but as of now

valuair: $191
adamair: $213
and i am still checking out Lufthansa

give me cheap tickets please so that i can

- have a haircut with my favourite stylist
- a great wax and threading without feeling guilty
- 5 hour massage and scrub at the comfort of my own home
- and of course, to see my parents and my partner-in-crime cum shopping partner - my cousin

..........

this is despite the fact that
i have been flying around since 23 April that
when I told my friend I will be away again in end of August,
she went "you're flying AGAIN?"

i am loving this photo!!

thank you girls for the great SMU experience!!

off for a holiday with the parents tomorrow....

yippie yay!!

but weather forecast at weather.com tells me that
there would be thunderstorms for the next 7 days...

bloody h*ll!!

i am in the right city...

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Extroversion |||||||||||| 46%
Emotional Stability |||||||||| 40%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Accommodation |||||||||||| 43%
Inquisitiveness |||||| 30%

You are moderately reserved, moody, organized, moderately egocentric, and non-intellectual, and may prefer a city which matches those traits.

The largest representation of your personality type can be found in the these U.S. cities: Boston Area, Long Island, Greenville/Spartanburg, Washington DC, New York City, Baltimore, Philadelphia Area, Los Angeles Area, Orlando, Cincinnati, Louisville and these international countries/regions Switzerland, Hungary, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Ukraine, Guam, Thailand, Austria, Singapore, Portugal, Slovenia, Brazil, South Korea, Denmark, Malaysia, Philippines

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When I started this blog, I swore to myself that it would never be tainted with any mention of the ex. However, the msn conversation that I had with it last night has been bothering me the whole time that I feel that I have to put it down to let it go.

One thing for sure, I can't stand the fact that he never changes.

1. He's still full of himself
Thinking that he has the quality, he has been job hopping. This of course makes me quite glad that i'm no longer with him, cause if I am, would i ever feel secure with such a guy? Thank God!!

2. He thinks that he has the right to question my family
He asks about my parents and how they are doing. Right, he wants me to think that he's this nice guy who is still concern about my parents. But too bad, I think that he's just making conversation. Cause it leads on to the question of whether my sis is married. I was surprised when he threw me that question, cause I never ever tell him anything about my sis. He said that I mentioned about my sis' engagement a year ago. But the fact is a year and a half month ago, the exact time when we broke up, there was no news about my sister's engagement. And he could put that in my mouth!! it's still the old him who puts words in people's mouth. Well, this just proves another point - he checks out my sister's friendster!! what the *&*%?? Why are you checking her out. Please, just stay out of my life and my family!! cause we have no relationship. Your life is yours and my life is mine. so PLEASE STAY OUT!! I only allow people who are worth to be my friends to have the privelege to know about my life and my family.

3. He thinks that he deserves all the attention
He started msging me at around 1a.m and I was then talking to my other friends. Of course, I would prioritised all my other friends to him, the lowly bastard. It took some time for me to reply to him, and he started asking why. And so I replied outrightly that I am talking to friends who are worth to be my friends!

All right, I finally managed to get it out of my chest.

Actually, the things that I encountered the last few months have made me realised how blessed I was to have a God who showed me out of the relationship. If I were to analyse the future of previous relationship, it would have been:

1. clash in family - his parents being the elderly kind and rather old fashioned, who put educational backgrounds and job titles in top priority. plus, his mother is so cynical!! *wew*

2. no future - he thinks his job hopping does him good, but i think it just goes to show how he is never satisfied with what he has. And it just goes to show how "loyal" he is to anyone. *double wew*

3. not being religious - being full of himself just goes to show how he thinks that he's the best and that he can do everything himself. I would want my future husband, whoever he is, to be religious. May not be some church leader, or anything, but just someone who is humble and put God and family before himself.

This post is getting longer than it should. I will make sure that this is last post that I will have that ever mentioned the ex..

mood: *optimistic*

Dealing with the Quarterlife Crisis

by Peter Vogt
MonsterTRAK Career Coach

Article provided by MonsterTRAK

When high school pals Alexandra Robbins and Abby Wilner, now both 25, got together over lunch several years ago to catch up on their lives after college, they were both ready to tell some glowing stories about how well they were doing.

"At first, we both said we were having a great time," recalls Robbins, an English and American studies double major in college, now working in the Washington, D.C., bureau of the magazine The New Yorker. But before the conversation went much further, the fronts that twentysomethings often put up vanished. Both women admitted they were feeling unhappy, confused, and somewhat adrift.

"Then we started seeing that many of our friends were feeling the same way," Robbins says. "And there weren't really any resources to help us deal with what we were going through."

So Robbins and Wilner decided to create one themselves. The result, based on their own experiences and several hundred interviews with fellow twentysomethings who graduated from college in the past few years, is their book, Quarterlife Crisis: The Unique Challenges of Life in Your Twenties.

It goes without saying that when you interview more than 200 of your peers, you learn a few things you'd like to pass along to others. For Robbins and Wilner, their book and its accompanying Web site are vehicles for doing just that. They also welcomed the opportunity to offer career and personal advice here--particularly for those in the middle of a confusing, demoralizing quarterlife crisis.

Here are a few of Robbins and Wilner's recommendations:

Don't have a career plan? Don't worry
You don't need to freak out if you have no idea what you want to do with your life, stresses Wilner, a Web administrator in Washington, D.C., who majored in psychology in college. "I temped and got a taste of various fields and companies out there before I settled into my first permanent job," she says. "So don't let those external pressures get to you, don't think that all those people with plans have everything figured out, and don't think of it all as some kind of race and that other people are ahead of you. We all backtrack at some point as we make shifts in our plans. That's just the way it is."

Separate a job's meaning from its trappings
"Forget about how much money a job will pay you, forget about societal prestige, and forget about what your parents and friends think about your job," says Robbins. "You have to figure out what's meaningful to you in your career, and what will warm your heart and make you want to jump out of bed each morning."

Robbins knows what she's talking about. Three weeks after she graduated from Yale University, she took the first job offer she got after being "completely seduced by the trappings. The pay was wonderful, I liked the people, I had my own office with a door, and my commute was only 15 minutes."

There was only one problem: "The work sucked," she deadpans.

She lasted for eight months but was miserable the whole time. Don't make the same mistake, she stresses.

Scared, lost, or clueless about your career? You're normal
Maybe you're questioning yourself and your place in this world more than ever. Maybe you're barraging yourself with intense self-interrogation, as Robbins puts it. Maybe you're filled with anxiety and fear. And maybe you believe you're the only twentysomething who feels so confused.

You're not, Wilner emphasizes.

"One thing I honestly wish is that I had done the research for this book even earlier, because that in itself helped me tremendously," she says. "Listening to everyone's experiences, anxieties, thoughts, fears, hopes and dreams…so much like my own. Who knew?"

It took Robbins and Wilner hundreds of hours and conversations with their peers to learn that they--and their peers--were normal. You are too.

"If I had known back then what I know now, I wouldn't have beaten myself to a mental pulp so frequently," Robbins says. So neither should you.

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I had a fantabolous first (after i came back to town) weekend!!

First was Friday when I woke up early to attend the morning NB class, after which I had lunch with my sis and bro in law. Then after faxing the hotel the stuffs that my dad asked me to, I went out again, first stop was daily mass at St. Peter and Paul. They were having their feast day Tridum. It's such a coincidence that whenever I attend their daily mass, they always have their "special treat". It was no doubt one of the greatest daily mass that I attended where I was reaffirmed of my believe that I should get a life partner who is also a practicing Catholic. The priest mentioned that statistic show that a marriage, with only one church going and one not, usually ended up in a divorce. I was also priveleged to witness many couples who renew their vows.

After mass, I walked to Plaza Sing and by golly! i met Ph on the way. We were crossing the traffic light in the opposite direction, she looked shocked to see me, i was surprised to meet her, but we only managed to say Hi! Then, I met Jun, Kun, KK and gf and walked to YMCA to watch the Budak Pantai performance. Later on, Char, Dan and a girl, joined us in the queue. As always, Budak's performance was hilarious and enjoyable. Once it ended, me and char proceeds on to Alley Bar to watch the soccer match between Germany and Argentina. It was the first time that I went to watch World Cup along with many of their fans in a bar and it was quite an experience! To see people shouting and screaming to root for their favourites. Yimei, being a workaholic, dropped by her office first after the performance before joining us more than halfway through the match. We witnessed Germany's victory and went home at around 2.30.

My saturday was spent with my collection of clothes. I realised that I do have lots of them and spent the afternoon revamping my whole wardrobe. It's now sparkling clean and neat!! my mum is going to be shocked when she sees it on Wednesday afternoon!!

The plan on Sunday was to go for 9am mass, tuition at 11, Bazhang's place then meet the sister. But my dear student cancelled the tuition because he wants to watch the 3am match and needs more sleep. Me being the nice tutor decided to let him off this time. So I went to attend mass at 1215 to find out that my favourite Fr. Lukey is gone to Rome (why oh why?!?!?), Bazhang's place to have a feast of chicken filled with ham and cheese, rosti taste alike potato, pork knuckle, pasta made by Jus and of course, the unforgettable mushroom soup!! It was a feast!! oh yes, dessert was ice cream with rambutan and blueberry sauce. Then as everyone else contine feasting, I had to make my leave to meet the sis.

We went to Clementi to settle the photo studio thingy. And after spending an hour being two aunties buying some household needs, we proceeded to Holland V. I was still full because of the feasting and she had her fill in church, so we had apple crumble and Hawaiian Freeze at Essential Brew.

So that was how my weekend goes... tomorrow is another week... and i am so looking forward to it!!

enjoy your week!!

mood: *crazy*

i think i should put "organizing my stuffs" in my weekly routine cause seeing the amount of rubbish that i just cleared just now, while revamping the arrangement of my accesories and make up kit, have made me realised how disorganized a person i am.

*shake my fore finger at myself*

back to my work -> back to "summer"-cleaning!!

back in town...

Touched down last night after a whole month of holidaying in Jakarta. Woke up only at 9 this morning and lazed around. I felt really tired despite not doing anything, cause yesterday was per norm... perhaps it was all the last minute rush that I had to go through yesterday.

The plan was to get the graduation gown from the vendor's office this morning. But as the hot sun is right on top of me, i wouldn't want to move from my chair which was in front of the computer. I looked out the window and I began to miss my chauffer....cause back in jakarta, he would drive me around and I don't have to put up with the scorching hot sun.

mood: pampered

the wedding woes

I didn't know that the preparation for the wedding reception is such a headache!
the amount of things that have to be settled and the nitty gritty of the whole event is overwhelming. Now I know why the mother has been so stressed up the last few months and i am stressed up at the fact that she has to be so stressed up.

i think i know what i want when i have my own wedding - I just want it to be as simple, as less headache as possible. I don't understand why it has to cause so many people to have headaches when it is supposedly a joyous celebration! i don't know if it's the whole indo culture that cause this wedding to be at this level.

the schedule for the week is filled to the brim. now i just wish that it would be over soon so that I can do some shopping myself. yes, call it selfish if you want.

since back here on Friday, I had only gone shopping a few times to settle the outstanding shopping list for the wedding and of course in between window shopped for myself and bought A bag. One very nice bag... i love it and can't wait to use it.

All rightie.. i have to go now to see the dermatalogist and go for my facial. Goodbye

chance upon this...

Come to Me, My friend
I call you to a deeper surrender of yourself
I call you to come to Me
I call you to come to My freedom
Unloose your heart
Surrender again to Me today
Come to Me, My friend
I will give you all you need
Believe and trust in Me
I know you will not understand
Only know My way is the perfect way
My plan is a perfect plan for your life
Turn yourself to Me again today
I wish to deepen My life in you
I wish to give you My love
My friend, I want to transform you
to make you a new creation,
ever new, ever changing
I want to bring you into a deeper freedom
I want you to believe in My power
to transform you, to heal you
Do not limit what I can do
There is still so much MORE
I want to do with you and through you
I call you to a deeper faith
that I may be still
more powerful in you

(Written by Father Jim Ferry, quoted on his Memorial Card when he died in 1989.)

this passage speaks a lot to me of what I should do... Thank You God for allowing me to chance upon this passage...

the initial plan to have a simple dinner with just char and jun turned out to be quite a gathering in which all of us had a great dinner at Kenny Roger's (MACARONI & CHEESE!! had not had that for a very long time) & our usual hangout at TCC to have dessert because we have extra money and of course a good laugh over "BradPitt&TomCruise suits", covering oneself with plastic bag, what to with extra money, "it's just me!" and etc.

we should have more of such impromptu gatherings!!

the sweet-tooth monster has been bugging me ever since i was in kangarooland.

i have cravings for chocolates and more chocolates.

lucky for me, i bought lots of chocolates back

but i know i can't possible eat all of them up now!

go away sweet-tooth monster....

back in town

the graduation trip was fantastic!
the company, the sightseeing, the sceneries, the bushwalking and the feeling of being a tourist.
there were lots of memorable experience:
running after a ferry
losing (nearly) a $1000 worth of PDA
having a photoshoot
sharing a room with old ladies
hearing a roar on our way back to hostel
being on a harbourjet
sleeping on the upper bunk for 18 nights straight
being the last 3 passengers to be on board
meeting extraordinary people
taking lots and lots of photoshoots
making sandwiches

ahh... no words could describe the experience..

mood:

just a quick one

1. i am done with 2 papers, left 1 more paper on Tuesday. yooohooo.. i can smell f.r.e.e.d.o.m
2. i had quite an experience this Easter, starting from adoration on Holy Thursday, mass on Good Friday (the icing was the glimpse of only-i-know-who) and an unbelievable 4hour Easter Vigil (but the cantors were great and FrLukey is just too cute to be a priest lah)
3. daddy was here for a short transit but I didn't manage to spend time with him, but am crossing my fingers now that he'll get me what i want in the mainland
4. i am starting to get a clearer picture of what i have been learning for the past 15 weeks. gosh! it took me that long to learn, eh? i was complaining about theprof to the sis when i realised that it wasn't his fault, it was my lack of comprehension. he wasn't a badprof after all. my fault.
5. i can't wait for Tuesday to be over cause i've lots of plans including another glimpse of only-i-know-who before my holiday.
6. i think i have to get back to my notes.
7. let's have a greatilicious week!

this is pretty much what i have been doing for the LAST ONE hour, instead of the whole day. i have wasted one whole day by 1st making a wasted trip to the embassy of the kangaroo land, 2nd going down to the library to photocopy and to leave the original there (how clever can i be?), 3rd blogging this whole nonsense down!

on a totally different note, i just heard GOOD NEWS from my sis-in-christ cause she celebrated her birthday with her family and a him. I am dying to know who is the "him" and she's not replying to my sms.

okay, i should be more like him

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took this from my upcoming travel buddy!

when i left my house this morning, it feeels like it has been forever that i was cooped up in my nest. i beginning to like the feeling of being able to walk under the morning sun and getting all sweaty. i think i am recoverring! but the cough is still there and maybe getting worse. cause now, i cough non stop like an old lady. i could cough for 3 mins continuously! is that a talent in disguise or what?

so today i went with watt for consultation. cleared some of the doubts that i had with the prof who wear berms on a non teaching day.. too bad he walked so fast into his office that i didn't get the chance to see if he has leg hair or not. me and my fettish for guy's leg hair.. hahhaha....

then after the consultation, i attended mass at the neighbouring church. it seems weird that the one who i don't quite like last time become someone that i kind of look forward to during mass at the cathedral. and no, it's not some gorgeous hunk. it's just some priests whom i had some issues with when i was dealing with FIDES. his sermon today on the whole Da Vinci Code thingy made a lot of sense to me! he mentioned that he's going to talk about the Gospel of Judas when he has the time and i am soo looking forward to that. i think it's just a fiasco, some fictional author trying to make money out of free thinkers.

anyway, i think i better log off now and get my eyes back to STRATEGY.

Worthy Opponent

Yeah, you want the guy, the raise and the great apartment, but
you take a more calculated, amicable approach, and it winds up
working in your favor (e.g., showing just the right amount of
enthusiasm for a weekend work project or using sugar lips to
get a friend's great real estate agent). "You have a healthy sense
of competitiveness and know how to go after what you want
without alienating everyone," says Lois Frankel, Ph.D., author of
Nice Girls Don't Get the Corner Office. "If you see your
peers being promoted at work, you're not going to find ways to
undermine them or walk off the job because you feel
undervalued. You'll take a step back, ask yourself, 'What do I
need to do to advance?' and devise a strategy."


Another go-getter trait: "You're not threatened when friends
shine, whether it's looking great or having a new car," says
Susan Shapiro Barash, author of Tripping the Prom Queen:
The Truth About Women and Rivalry. "Rather, you use their
victories as fuel to enrich your own life." With your enviable
confidence, no wonder you look like you have everything you
want...and usually get it.

--------------------------------------------------------------
i did this quiz in the Cosmopolitan website and that was what i found out about my competitive level...there are lots more quiz there which i'll do when i have the time.

last night was bad. i hardly sleep cause of the pain in my throat. at 5am i woke up and felt like vormitting all the phleghm out, but of course could not as all were stuck to the throat. bad feelings, i tell you. then somehow during the struggle to get it out, i affected my ear. so now it's blocked.

so this morning, i relented. I went to the doc. he gave ear drop too to clear out the blockage. the weird thing is that he did not give me any antibiotics, which i thought i would need it since i can somehow feel that every part of my body is inflammed. But who is the doc here right? so i drank all my medicines already, and feel a tad better. i think i'll be stuck at home for the next few days, with my medicine, my notes, my blanket, my bolster and myself. how anti-social can i be!!!

go away flu bug!

mood:

the feeling of being sick just suck big time. i hate the fact that my throat is so pain and that the pleghm refuses to get out of it. it hurts my lungs and practically my whole body when i have to cough. and when i cough, i sound like an old lady's cough. being feverish is another pain in the ass cause it makes me just wanna sleep under a thick blanket. with all the medicine that i am consuming, it makes my mouth stinks!

i hate being sick. and of all time, it has to be at this very moment when i am preparing for my exams. urrrghhhh. go away virus!

you say, God says

You say: "It's impossible"
God says: All things are possible
( Luke 18:27)
You say: "I'm too tired"
God says: I will give you rest
( Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: "Nobody really loves me"
God says: I love you
( John 3:16 & John 3:34 )
You say: "I can't go on"
God says: My grace is sufficient
(II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm 91:15)
You say: "I can't figure things out"
God says: I will direct your steps
(Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: "I can't do it"
God says: You can do all things
(Philippians 4:13)
You say: "I'm not able"
God says: I am able
(II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: "It's not worth it"
God says: It will be worth it
(Roman 8:28)
You say: "I can't forgive myself"
God says: I Forgive you
(I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: "I can't manage"
God says: I will supply all your needs
(Philippians 4:19)
You say: "I'm afraid"
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear
( II Timothy 1:7)
You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated"
God says: Cast all your cares on ME
(I Peter 5:7)
You say: "I don't have enough faith"
God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith
(Romans 12:3)
You say: "I'm not smart enough"
God says: I give you wisdom
(I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: "I feel all alone"
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you
(Hebrews 13:5)

the effect of a good music is a mystery to me.
i was feeling a little bored, so i turned to browsing people's blog, friendster, etc.
then when i saw the picture of the lao ah ma in ph's blog,
i remembered "Da Chang Jin" and i play the soundtrack that ph sent me.
it was therapeutic!
Now i am fully energized to study for my last so called quiz.

with my parents being in town....
i eat LOTS and lots of good food.
yesterday we went to old restaurant along Katong
that sells good old char siew and pork.
we had roast duck and nice tasty wanton for dinner.
i had rice dumpling for breakfast today
and mouth watering sashimi and other Jap food for dinner.
of course, not to forget the Japanese cheesecake and muachee....
then just before we left Parkway Parade,
we had waffles at gelare...

talk about sinful pigging out...
i think i would have gained loads when they leave town.

... and i receive good news today!
thank you to the Man above! *muacks*

also i am damn stressed out cause
there are lots to do and so little time...
i shall borrow Ph's line -
everything is eventual.
and talking about Ph remind me about
my love for my 10-11 tv timeslot.
i feel so motivated after watching it.

... and this is sooooo random
that i better stop!

the tweeny in me

suddenly, i'm feeling like a tweeny again -
that's when i have crush on someone from a distance
and cursing&swearing another girl who is getting closer to him.

okay, maybe it's not a crush, it's just a lust.
a lust for someone who's beyond my reach?!?!?
urrrghhhh
what's wrong with me?
i should stop having a crush or a lust on anyone.

it's bad for my health, my mind, practically my whole wellbeing.
but again this someone is too perfect to be unmentioned
cause the checklist is all ticked,
and even have extra ticks on it.

bla... i hate this feeling...

i am trying to recall what i did when this happened to me years back.
but i can't recall. what i recalled is my list of crush/lust:

sec 1: HOhohoho
sec 2: sarsarsar
sec 3: sosososo
year 1: the bv&dhs boy and the "toad"
year 2: tctctctctctc

so much of my twenny life and i should get back to my book
cause the macho prof is giving us a quiz next week.

mood:*dorky*

had one of the more relaxing weekend this week.

after getting concussed on friday, i had an early night. 1 am was decent enough, considering that i sleep at weird hours these days. but still, the 8 hours was insufficient for me to recover and my head was still heavy at 9am on sat. crawled out of bed lazily and dragged myself to school for a meeting. finally reached school at 10plus and i had meeting till 1plus. seems like the project is progressing at a good pace, and i really do hope fri's presentation will turn out well.

sis sms me to tell me that she would having lunch at ps, and i took up the offer to tag along with her and her beau. i had a great appetite that afternoon and i had mediterranean pizza, lasagna, chicken wings, salad and soup... what a sinful lunch. then sis was telling me that both of them had tickets to "Failure to Launch". i (again) want to tag along cause i badly want to watch Sarah Jessica Parker. lucky for me, my bro-in-law was nice enough to give away his ticket to me! how lucky i am!! Failure to Launch was ah okay. not that great, but it does lift up some spirit in me! Little Match Girl was having a sale and i couldn't resist but bought myself some stuffs. 2 skirts and a bag. Had a japanese ice cream, but it was not that great. i had a great saturday despite the busy period. hehhehee. had an early night again cause i still could not recover from the bad night i had on thurs.

though today is a sunday, i woke up at 730 to go for a breakfast party hosted by Bobbi Brown. the breakfast spread was mouth-watering.... the make-up expert was also experienced aka he gave us lots of tips and is one of those sessions that i think i did learn something. the new make up range is nice, but the balance in the bank does not seem to agree, so it has to wait eh..

then i had tuition in which my tutee went on and on from his trip to hk, his cousins, his pets, his neighbours. oh man! he's one of the noisiest boy i ever met! it took him like 30 mins to tell me all that... what a good listener i was to 15 year old rantings!! watt cancelled the meeting today cause she had some urgent matter to attend to, so i went home to do some stuffs attended evening mass. the little girl behind me was irritatingly cute, cause she screeched as she sang the hymn! but it's a nice feeling to hear little kids sing hymns.

now, i am sitting here typing and watching the final of dunnowhat star thingy on ch8. My first time watching and i think the winner wins cause of his 6packs and average looks.

all rightie, i think next week will be a good week! i'm starting the week by having a meeting with watt,annie and alex, and then i'm off to see my sis and beau having their pre-wedding shots. parents coming to town on thurs and i end my week with presentation. i have a good feeling bout next week and i have to get some drinks now..

have a good one, everyone!

mood: thirsty

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the horrid last weeks of school

the number of hours that I sleep
this week are countable.
sun: 4 hours
mon: 4.5 hours
tues: 3 hours
wed: 4.5 hours
thurs: 2 hours
and i'm surprised my brain can still function!

the cause of this lack of sleep
is none other than
2 individual assignments
1 project presentation
and of course, work-in-progress of other projects!

i am deprived of everything ranging from
sleep, social life, good food,etc
and my only consolation is that
it's the last week of schools, franny!!

i think i will miss the horrendous life of an undergraduate!

nnnnn i happened to meet the "inspirator" (again) today
and we stopped for a short chat.
somehow that short conversation
made me lengthen the "list".
oh! it's going to be hard fulfilling "it".

all rightie, i shall watch the 9 o'clock show
and continued with "A Jewel in the Palace".
i am such a tv-whore
and this entry is so incoherent...

mood:*tired*

friday - saturday

this is the 1st day of the week that
i can sleep
before 2am!
*yippie yay*

this week has been a busy,hectic, tiring week
lots of things have happened this week, such as:
*met my eye candy in church (after 2 weeks)
*went for a spiritual talk *met up with fangky (finally) and her colleague
*started my highly-paid tuition job *snigger*
*talked to a certain someone who gave me lots of inspiration
*went for a follow-up check up with the doc
*waxed and threaded
*stared at my computer to do the financial model
*finished one of my assignment way way before the deadline

but then, i can't go sentosa tmrw cause of the tons of work i have at hand
*booooooooooo*

anyways, here are some photos from the BBQ last saturday
at the Queen's palace a.k.a my house



off to bed for now...

mood:*exhausted*

i wanna read this, but i have no time yet.

weekend does not look good :(

weird things happened to me. like an unknown number who sms me in the middle of the day. so it goes like this

97838***: where r u?
me: who are you?
97838***: zijen. u want lunch?
(i would't mind if it's free :P)
me: i think you've got the wrong number.

but this zijen is so persistent that she has to call again to check whether i am telling the truth. she asked if it was the number of "mike-dunno-wat". ahhh.. so she was calling a guy. but to her disappointment, it's a girl who picked up. boo boo.

STOP thinking, brainy!

i just got back the result of my quiz and i am in an extremely happy mode! This is one of the few times in my university years that I managed to get above 85%!! what a reason to celebrate! but which got me thinking whether I am taking the right major or degree. *what a silly question to ask when I am in my last sem right?* but really, I seem to do better in other subjects, except accounting subjects. For example, in previous sem, my score for international econs is comparable to an econs major student. The score that i just received is also satisfying, considering that i do better than someone who is 100% attentive in class, while I skip a class, don't do assignment and barely listen to 80% of the class. I read on my own and I can still understand it, no problemo as compared to some accounting modules.bla. whatever the case is, I have taken a second major and I should stop thinking about being in the right place!

Another "did i make the right decision" thought came across when I met my manager last wed. It's quite scary to note that she wants to "book" me in the same job that I did when I was an intern! it's scary because the place is like an iceland. the accountant is a grouchy old lady who still uses the traditional accounting book. the book can be rather complicating. and all my seniors are gone. so many reasons to scare me!! on the contrary, it is nearby a very nice loh mee place and accesible to good food which means i will have a good lunch when i am on that job. but that is only one good reason to keep me happy! arrghhh. a partner commented that he was surprised I still come back. OoOoOooO. does that mean that he also knows about her? so did i make the right decision?

*sigh*

i should stop thinking... if only i could tell my brain to "STOP THINKING" and "GET DOWN TO WORK!!"

mood:*mellow*

i am feeling restless right now
i feel that everything that is going on around me is not right
and i can't seem to express my feelings to anyone,
except The Guy Above
.bla.
i hate feeling like this
i hope it will go away soon

i wondered if i had been a bad friend for the past few years that I was not fully aware of the sadness that my friend had to go through. if only i had opened up my arms, like now, maybe things wouldn't be so bad.

sorry, my friend. i really hope that your misery will go away soon.

mood: *contemplative*

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break is over for me, and it's BACK TO SCHOOL tomorrow!

funny how it feels that the next 8 weeks would be my last weeks of being an undergrad years and before I jump into the bandwagon of the glitz and glamour of the corporate world. woohoo, talk about the corporate world, there is a cocktail party or sort this coming wednesday and I have no clue of what to wear. (fang: if you are reading this, i think i can't meet you on wed, cause i totally forgot about this event. sorry.)

so the break came and go just like that. i think i didn't do a lot of work, only managed to clear equity assignment and started a bit on IB. the only group meeting that i had was for strategy, because my groupmates from entrepreneur finance played me out!! can you believe that, they think they are still in some secondary school or what.

the day goes like this. I could sense that i was going to be 15 mins late, so i msged A to tell him that I would be late and was apologetic about it. When i arrived, it was another group in the room, and it says "interview room" so i thought there was a club that was having an interview there. I called A to ask where he was, and in his sickly voice, he said that he had told B that he's sick and couldn't come. like what the #%@@! why couldn't he reply my sms by telling me all these #%@@ right? and i didn't have the heart to scold him, cause he did cough while we were on the phone. Then i called B to check whether he's in school, and by golly, he rejected my umpteen number of calls! what a #%@@ these two guys are! so i came to school at 10am just to get such things from #%@@ people. And I am rather stress now, cause we have yet to come out with anything for this 40% weighted project! eekss arrkks! i will have to pull myself together for the next 5 weeks or so to get it done!!

but the night made my day. dinner at Bz's house and we had fried rice, chickie wings and fondue!! then we proceeded with our game of mahjong. luck was not on my side, till it was the last game at 6plus in the morning!! urrghh, if only.....

the torturous thing about playing mahjong through the night is the morning/day after. reached home at 7plus and slumbered on the bed till 11plus. theoretically, i only had 4 hours of sleep, but i thought that if i slept through the whole day, the night would be another torture for me. met the rest again to have dinner at Pasta Fresca and watched Bz in action. Bz didn't look tired at all, despite the lack of sleep that we all had and I wonder how he has so much energy!

and today, i had dim sum with the sis and her beau, cause a certain someone kept on cancelling our dim sum appointment. other than the yam puff in C-jade, the others were yummy! we were in love with the porridge that we had to have another serving! we were in a rush to get to church to attend the indo mass, but to my disappointment, the eye candy is not around today :(

all rightie, so there goes my weekend and break. may you and I have a great week ahead!!

mood: *bouncy*

I carry your heart with me

by EE Cummings

i carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done by only me
is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate
(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is
you here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root
and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart
(i carry it in my heart)

break is here..

and i am
off for a church camp for the weekend..
then to sentosa for another retreat
and back to my own sanctuary to do a thousand pieces of work...

but all work and no play makes me a dull girl..

so,
i would be enjoying a feast with the dim sum dollies on thursday;
playing my tai tai game on friday, while having fondue (courtesy of bazhang),
and off to see a concert on saturday.

oooo... so excited... *jumps like a lil girl*

my planned break is here!

a tribute to my mum...

yesterday was not just a V-day to me, but it was also my dearest mummy's birthday. so what is it about my mum that made me love her so much?

for sure, she's the most computer savvy mum that I know of. She uses Yahoo!Messenger and sms to communicate with her daughters; she is the only one in my family who utilizes internet banking, something which this daughter of hers do not use so often. Sometimes, she would also use Yahoo! Voice.. how cool can my mum gets!

She is my inspiration to all my matching earrings, bags and shoes. She even provides me with another cabinet so that i can stuff all my bags in there and was thinking of getting more shoe racks for our countless sandals and shoes. She thinks that we should go shopping once in a while, but of course, we must know our own limits.

She gave me freedom and supports me in everything that I do. She doesn't mind me doing my silly stuffs cause she trusts me. And I have to say that even though she knows that in some ways I may have betrayed her trust when I was on exchange, she closed one eye and just glad that I am "OKAY". When I am feeling down, she would pick me up with her own rendition that "it would be okay".

no words can amount to how much she has sacrifices for me and my family and I am just glad to say that my mum is the bestest mum for me!

mood: *thankful*

on another note, I am now in a mugging state of mind. it's strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance, strategy, finance for me!

i am feeeling extremely tired now, but am waiting for my equity notes to be printed, so I thought why not pen a thought or two.

These two days have been rather hectic, I have minimum rest and am on the move almost all the time. Yesterday I had 0830 class, stayed in school to do some self study cause I have 2 mid terms next week which I have done minimal reading one, had tuition, went shopping for a little present for a great buddy and then I had a nice gathering with the choir peeps, first at Skecthes and later we proceeded on to TCC. We have yet to figure out whether TCC stands for The Coffee Connection or The Coffee Connoisseur, but the dessert there is fantastic, just take a look at the pics!!

(post picture here, when i have the time)

and today, again I have 0830 class, met up with the nice bod prof that i mentioned, went for a haircut, window shopped at bookstores (do you know that the Bras Basah Popular is looking good now?), finally met my sis for dinner and shopped for our cousin's birthday present. By the time we can finally go home, my legs were all jellied and I HAD to sit down! I don't really care about all the ah-mas and ah-gongs on the bus cause I felt that I do deserve to sit down! Lucky at that time, there was no ah gongs or ah mas...

and ahhh... as i recall the discussion that we had with the good bod Prof, i am beginning to drool...Even with some plain-looking tee shirt, he looks good..what more if ..... hahhahaha.. ok, besides have a great bod, he's also damn nice and friendly.. He was so sincere in helping us and probed us with questions to guide us with the business plan that we have to come out with. And not only is he concerned with how we do for project, he also made sure that we are coping well with the class and school... like how many prof would bother to ask you those kind of questions?!?!?! also, he really ask like one-on-one which level we are in, what we are studying and what not...I think so far he deserves to be one of the few nicest Prof that I ever have...after the discussion, i felt quite bad for not doing my reading. This weekend, i shall and i should finish them up.

all rightie. my notes are ready and i am off to lalalalla land. good night everyone!

mood:*sleepy*

It is at times like this that i think God has sent angels to protect me and I really want to Thank You, God, for sending me those angels who have listened to me and given me advice. I'm glad that I have them to guide me to do the right thing and prevent me from being shaken by a devil-in-disguise.

You all know who you are and I just want to Thank You once again for being there for me.

mood:*thankful*

today, i am a naughty girl again. i decided to prolong my weekend, myself. so instead of heading down for class, i went for a swim. during the swim, i began to think of what i really want out of my life. i swam one lap, two laps, and nothing came across my mind

i seem to live a life with no goal in my mind. yes, i would want to have a great job & fantastic salary, upon graduation. but there is something else that is missing. there are many elements of life that is not there. i began to ponder on my own definition of "great" and "fantastic".

what is my dream-job? would i prefer to meet up with people or do an analysis? would i like a desk-bound job or a mobile one? would i like to be questioned or questioning others? would i want to spend long hours in my job? i swam a few more laps and these questions were still unanswered.

i am begininng to get worried.

i don't want to start on the job that is waiting for me, just to realise that is not what i really want. but if questioned what i want, i can't answer it myself. what is wrong with me?

is just a stage of my life that i have to go through, the stage when i am about to graduate and not knowing what to do. or am i just too worried to swim in the competitive working environment?

i wonder if anyone else is experiencing the same anxiety as me...

mood:*worried*

i know it's 20-days late
but the year is still rather new, right?
if any of you had to face any stumbling block in these 20 days,
forget about them and
i wish you will have a BLASTFULer year ahead!

every year, most people will have new resolutions, etc.
but for me, i think i have an eye for something in this new year.
guess what it is?

an eye for mature and charming guys!!!

I daresay that I am lucky enough to have 2 of them as my Profs!!

one is down-to-earth, can talk anything under the sun,
likes to drink beer and eat rice cracker
i think his sideview look a tad like Dick Lee.

another one is a nerdy-and-scholarly looking,
great build for a Prof,
the kind that can wear anything and still look good.

and to add to my collection of eyecandies,
i saw another one when i caught
Memoirs of Geisha yesterday
tada!

i think he looks damn good for his age.
Can you even see that he's 47??
perhaps when you see the wrinkles,
but if you just squint one eye...
he's damn cute lah!

feel: *naughty*