151 days!

Tengah sibuk2 decipher tulisan tangan boss dalam nota keterengan pagi tadi, handphone berbunyi. Ada whatsapp masuk. Rupa-rupanya si tunang yang baru bangun tidur pukul 10 pagi, hantar image screenshot.

Dua kali aku tenung. Kali yang kedua tu baru faham. Ho boyyyy!

151 DAYS LEFT??? FOR REAL????




And I'm starting to panic! Like now!! I've done nothing. Zilch. Except for daydreaming. (And kursus kahwin! Hehe)

Baju belum. Venue and caterer belum. Card belum. Guest lists belum. Photographer belum. Mak andam belum. Pelamin belum. Door gifts belum. And guess what, exercise pun belum. Sheshhhhh.

Can we just kahwin kat pejabat agama, sayang? Haha.

Maybe I'm too occupied with the idea of marriage instead of the wedding itself. Tengah sibuk fikir macam mana nak bangun pukul 5 pagi buat breakfast dekat incik suami yang kerja shift pagi dan kena clock in pukul 7.30 pagi. Nak solat jemaah sama-sama, tapi nanti dia boleh ke jadi imam? (incik tunang, rajin-rajin praktis jadi imam now.) Macam mana nak balik kerja petang2 dan masak bagi incik suami makan. Kalau kata aku kena outstation ke.. Kerja lebih masa ke.. Laki aku nak makan apa? Larat ke weh nak masak hari-hari? Haha. Ye banyak pasal makan jelah pun yang boleh reveal. Yang lain-lain.. bahaya. Haha. Okbye.


p/s: Sayang, the fact that you have installed the countdown apps thingy in your phone, it makes me go all jelly.. Hihihi. Saya pun takde buat countdown awak oi! Syabas!! And yes, we've been officially engaged for a month now. Alhamdulillah. :))



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We've come so far..

"I won't give up on us, even if the skies get rough. I'm giving you all my love, I'm still looking up."

 :)

lala.

12 Rejab 1433

Alhamdulillah.

We finally and officially engaged to be married on the 2nd of June 2012.

Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah.

Alhamdulillah.

Who would have thought that we managed to pull things back together? Who would have thought that we 'hate' each other too much that we finally decided to get engaged.. and insyaallah, to be married and grow old and grey together. Aminnnn.

Everyone, meet my favourite annoying boy - Muhammad Izzuddin Mohd Danial, the fiancé.



That's the boy who came to see my parents last year and talked about his 'adventurous' plans to marry me and he managed to get the approval (phewww!). That's the boy who proposed me in front of my best friends on the night before my birthday. And that's the boy who bought the engagement ring without consulting me at all! Tahu tahu je dah beli. Tak sempat nak pilih cincin tunang sendiri, apatah lagi nak demand batu permata intan berlian. "Awak tengok cincin tunang awak masa bertunang nanti je ok?" Yes, he's annoying liddat.. but sweet. :)

 

What do I love about him? He's annoying, that's for sure. And I shall reserve further comments until the next post, when I'm all ready to tell the whole world the answer to the very question of "WHY HIM?" 

Thank you families. To mama, abah, kakak and adik2, as well as uncles, aunties and cousins (especially uncle ajak, kaklong and bangcik!) I can't seems to thank you guys enough. Because of them all, we managed to have a very personal and intimate kenduri doa selamat for families and close friends. Berhari-hari pening kepala, sakit belakang, sakit pinggang etc etc etc, simply to make it real.

Thank you dearest friends, (Kisso, Fiqo, Fiza Mustakim, and Zyla) for being so kind to help me out on my DIY pelamin, hantaran and desserts table. Thank you Tasnim for being so helpful in the kitchen and for doing wonders. She makes me look wonderful. Tak payah make-up tebal-tebal or beriya sangat pun boleh cantik! (Tasnim power pakai magic! Haha. Thank you bebeh!)

Also to the rest of the engagement troops, BIG LOVE AND THANK YOU from both of us.

p/s:

*I'll post more pictures later.

**12, is the perfect number to be happy with, and to be happy about. :)
*** coincidentally, today's 12 June 2012. 12 FTW!

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Love works differently in different ways..

With different people, too.

"I vow to love you, and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other."

... and that's exactly what we're gonna do. Finding way back to each other. Always.


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"The Cloud of Unknowing"

and I wonder whatever awaits us on the other end of these thick colourless clouds?

Hopefully I see you..
and I see me..
and I see us.

Insyaallah.


Semoga langit saya tak runtuh.

lala.

Hari emosi

I woke up late (I blame the bad dreams I dreamt).

I was rushing and struggling myself with the iron and my shirt. Payah gila nak iron baju sehelai tu. So, I gave up and I decided to wear my lycra baju kurung, tak payah susah-susah iron. Haha. Brilliant. But then, I burnt my favourite tudung bawal. Yay me! (and I still blame the dream I had last night!)

Sampai office, surat-surat selonggok atas meja nak kena sign. And I can't seems to find my dearest pencil case. And my note book. Pencil case tertinggal kat rumah! Demmit!

I can't work without my pencil case.
Urghhhhhh... come on!

Show this girl some love, Tuesday!!

lala.

My favourite girl!

Back in year 2009 when I was really heartbroken, Adele's was (and still is) my favourite number. Mungkin sebab suka layan perasaan... atau mungkin juga sebab patah hati yang sangat teruk, I kind of relate to her songs. Bak kata orang, memang sungguh-sungguh patah hati lah kiranya. Sanggup gigih usaha cari cara nak masukkan lagu-lagu patah hati Adele dalam blog sebab nak dengar hari-hari (don't judge.. ye zaman dulu-dulu yang letak playlist dalam blog!) Nak pulak zaman tu asyik mengadap laptop update blog (konon layan perasaan), dengar satu track, menangis... dengar satu track, menitik air mata (ye, tak padan dengan muka macho, aku sebenarnya budak cenggeng. Kuat menangis!)

That's why all her songs are very personal to me, until now. Walaupun aku dah lepas fasa patah hati yang maha dahsyat.

Hampir setiap lagu Adele yang aku dengar.. aku rasa, "That's exactly how I felt right now!" Orang takkan faham apa yang kita rasa... sebab orang bukan kita. Ceritalah seribu kali pun pada siapa-siapa yang kau rasa paling faham kau, belum tentu sebenarnya dia faham. Sampai aku 'jumpa' Adele.

Siang malam main CD Adele. Sampai panas. Sebab tu aku ada dua Album 19 (dan tiga Album 21). Bunyinya macam tamak, kan? Hah!

Yes, now that everybody knows that she won 6 Grammy Awards, it feels really good. She's pretty, she's talented, and she's one kind soul who has helped me through one of the most difficult times of my life. Salute.




Point entri malam ni cuma satu, rindu Adele. Rindu zaman Adele menjadi 'exclusive'...

Haha.

Dah. Esok kerja, jadi selamat malam!


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Salam Maulidur Rasul

Syukur.

Ambil berkat hari kelahiran Nabi S.A.W, dah selesai satu perkara.




Alhamdulillah. :)

Yang tak selesai selesai untuk minggu ni cuma hujahan bertulis. Macam biasa, sebab asyik bertangguh kerja.

Doakan. :D


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The day before my birthday..

Hari yang aku hilang macho dan menangis depan 13 orang kawan-kawan. Yes, I cried in public like nobody's business. On Friday night, 30 December 2011!

It started very messy, petang Jumaat. We (I and my forever incik Lebah) were out searching for my pilot case, courtesy of abah for my birthday present.

It's a funny story actually. While we were busy looking for the bag (and some stuff) at 1-Utama, I noticed that he was 24/7 on his phone. BBM-ing God-knows-who and I was so mad about it. Keluar dating pun sibuk nak melekat dengan phone, of course lah marah kan? Aku dalam fitting room, dia sibuk dengan phone. Sibuk BBM sampai phone habis bateri! Ye, aku marah (Ok, maybe marah DAN merajuk sikit.) Sampai habis shopping pun tak habis-habis dengan phone. Rasa nak lempang laju-laju pun ada jugak.

"Lala, kita dinner dekat Muhibbah, ok?" he said.

Knowing him for almost a decade, he's very indecisive. Very much indecisive sampai tang makan pun selalunya dia akan tanya nak makan mana (unless and until memang dia teringin nak makan something... baru dia akan cakap. Alhamdulillah sekarang dah berubah. Dah boleh decide untuk benda-benda penting dalam hidup. Experience teaches slow, at the cost of mistake(s) Hehe. :D)

Sebab tengah merajuk, aku tak bantah pun. Diam je lah. And we walked to the car.

Masuk kereta, muncung masih panjang. Sebab tak puas hati sebab dia asyik dengan phone, mampu jugaklah aku bagi sebakul rasa marah and merajuk. Puas hati.

Sampai Muhibbah dalam keadaan rasa hati yang a bit tenang.

And he suddenly pushed me towards one big round table where I saw familiar faces but could not digest what's happening. Nampak muka Anep si tunang Zyla. Blur.

"Ehh... korang pun ada sini.. let's have dinner together, shall we?!"

Lepas cakap baru aku pandang satu meja... penuh muka-muka kawan baik, Ari Ikmal, Shahrizan, Zyla Selamat, Sahrul Hanif, Hafiza Mustakim, Nadiah Amir and husband, Khairul. Hafiq pun datang all the way from Klang with his friend. And finally Shamila and Syami joining us for the celebration. (And Ari's girlfriend, Waida.) I'm blessed.

Baru aku sedar rupa-rupanya Izzuddin sibuk berBBM for this one particular event, a surprise early birthday celebration! Penat marah-marah merajuk-merajuk tadi... (sorry sayang!)

I didn't expect all this, ye lah.. bukannya hari jadi kita pun. Birthday esok, hari ni dia buat surprise macam tu.. mana lah nak sedar.. kan? Thank you sooooooooooooooo much!

*And Sha got me my favourite Jamoca Almond Fudge. Thank you girlfriend!*

Siapa tak happy dapat kawan-kawan baik macam ni kan? Makan, bersembang, gelak-gelak, sindir-sindir. Semua cukup aku dapat malam tu. Lengkap.

*Yang gambar atas dan bawah ni gambar kena dera dengan Hafiq and Shamila. Jahat!*

*With Shamila, the REAL birthday girl; 30th December*

*and yours truly :)*

The surprise birthday celebration was not the best part.

After we had our dinner, potong kek nyanyi-nyanyi semua, I received one giant birthday card from him (plus another one card inside. 2 cards like the normal tradition..)

Sampailah aku baca the bottom part of the card. Aku nampak, "The day I propose.."

Confused.


Belum sempat aku digest semua, Izzuddin dah alihkan kerusi depan mata suruh aku duduk. He bended down to his knee and he took out one sweet little box with a ring in it.


Bended down.
A box.
And a ring.


Yes, he was on his knee, and he actually proposed.

Shocked. Tak boleh bernafas.

And eventually I said, "Yes!"

*Favourite picture*

I received the best birthday present ever! A proposal. A nice wrap up to my 2011 and a very vibrant opening to my 2012. Terima kasih Tuhan. :)

We have known each other for almost 9 years. Almost a decade. Kalau ada anak, mungkin anak aku dah darjah satu. Sepanjang tempoh aku kenal dia, macam-macam hal jadi. Berapa banyak fasa yang kami lalu yang kami hadap... Tuhan saja yang tahu.

Kenal.
Kawan.
Bercinta.
Bergaduh.
Putus cinta.
Kawan balik.
Gaduh balik.
Baik balik.
Putus lagi.
Makan hati.
Makan hati lagi.
Makan makan makan hati lagi.
Kawan balik.
Kenal balik.
Dan masih bercinta.

Alhamdulillah.

So many roads, so many detours, so many choices and so many mistakes.

Aku hampir berhenti setakat mana orang kata, "Najlaa, he's not worth it. Cukup-cukuplah tu." Tapi dia kata, "Lala, tolong jangan give up on me. I need another chance. I need to fix things up."

Bila satu dunia kata jangan... aku ikut kata hati and go against it. Aku pilih untuk masih percaya dia. (Walau orang label aku bodoh. Lantak. Aku memang perempuan keras kepala!) Pointnya, aku hampir give up. Tapi tak.

Dan dia. Dia hampir give up dengan perempuan keras kepala macam aku.
Tapi tak.

ALHAMDULILLAH, WE ARE STILL TOGETHER!!

Trying to mend our broken hearts, to fix things up and patch things up. Sebab kami tahu kami nak tua sama-sama.

Insyaallah.

"Izzuddin, to the shrillest highs and lowest lows, I want and I pray that you'll to be with me forever. I pray that we'll grow old together.. so that we can take care of each other till the end. Jannah. Aminnn."

p/s: pictures courtesy of them, friends. :)

lala.

December's calling!

Favourite month of the year that is!!! :D

Pejam celik pejam celik, dah masuk 2012. Tak sempat mintak nyawa pun, and here we are, January 2012. I've been telling myself that December has always been my favourite favourite favourite month of the year.. always. Without fail. And maybe because my favourite number is '12' and I was born on the twelfth month of the year, hence I super like December, hands down!

That being said, December 2011 was the most hectic month in my office-planner. Kejar deadline submission sana sini, filing cause papers hari-hari. kenyataan saksi and everything in between. Banyak. Semua sebab nak kejar tarikh pemfailan 2011 and submission to be entered before 2012 so that judges can go holidays and enjoying their court's vacation with families AND OUR SUBMISSION. Yang seksa.. ya.. kami-kami yang kerja makan gaji untuk 'baca' undang-undang.

Ok.. resolution tahun 2012 nak kurangkan whining. Nak kurangkan mengeluh sana-sini so that aku boleh generate positive vibes banyak-banyak. Yes, aku perlukan positive vibes yang sangat banyak. Mengeluh tu perkara biasa... semua orang pun buat. Cuma aku nak belajar kurangkan whining macam mak nenek. Dah terbiasa mengeluh sampai kadang-kadang aku rasa; "That's it..berhenti mengeluh. Tak penat ke? Dah lah badan penat, otak penat.. takkan nak mengeluh sampai penat lagi?" Penat kan?

Anyway, let's go back to December. Entri-entri tribute untuk bulan dua belas memang akan penuh dengan gambar. Terimalah seadanya. And to my lovelies, thank you for throwing one awesome party for us, December and January babies. :)

*Una last minute tak dapat join.. so tinggalkan nama je lah atas kek. Hehe*

*To Lina, Husna, Syiera, Hafiz and Hadi, thank you for lingering around me for more than 13 years (and Lina, 15 years) and counting!*

Alhamdulillah.. I'm blessed to have them as friends... bunch of the most 'annoying' people on earth (and a bit kuku)! Hehehe. As much as they are 'annoying to death', they are the sweetest, who reminded me on how to stay grounded and just let me be me.. Thank you koraaaaang! :)

lala.