
NUR
AINI SULAIMAN ♥
temasek
polytechnic
s
tudent
information technology
nineteen 88 ♥
♥♥
dun expect too much
from me
ENJOYS endless walking
i want: to wake up really late on SATURDAY and SUNDAY
i eat: banana, pisang goreng, banana split, kerepek pisang, pengat pisang & banana leaf
i hate: alarm clock, handphones and sleeping w/o the radio turned on
i love: walking and people that love me
i can't: cook
i can:hardly make a decision
i drink: water (fullstop)
i live for: my future
i wish: for a long and healthy life for every single person i know
i play: a fool
you are: my rival, my friend, my family & my lover
so: erm..let's have breakfast together? Ohh, maybe lunch?
Sunday, October 11 at 3:20 AM
Facebook, im so gonna crush you down!
Why?? Why Facebook? Why must it be you?? Im so hating it right now. Grrr.. I feel exposed, i feel people are all KPO and i am disgusted with the fact that i am actually kpo about their lives too. Looking at their photos, looking at their wall posts..i felt too much. Some are boasting, some are over emphasising their happy life like there is some kind of competition on who got the most happy life. So it makes me question myself, am I jealous or what. If i am, why should i be? Yah, why Aini???
I’ve told myself that when i joined facebook, im only gonna post pictures for pple who wants them. But i got curious and started to find pple i know and added them. Some are friends that i’ve not been keeping in touch for so long. Some are the ones that i had conflicts before. I just wanted to know what they are up to now...but facebook allows me to find out a lot more. And i have to think 2, 3, 4... 5 times before i publish any pictures or any posts coz pple might have opinions, being judgmental or unsatisfied. Going in to Facebook, I felt sick and sometimes afraid and it’s totally unnecessary.
And im really glad that my blog is much much more on a low profile. That’s why i dare to write this up. There are only a few who knew that my blog exists.....Liya, Azreen, Shiqin and a few other classmates, and also Nurul, Farah, Wani, Hani and Rehman. That’s it. My cousins from my dad side don’t have any clue at all. My brother doesn’t know. Neither do my friends out of TP. And what i’ve talked about earlier concerns pple who dun have my blog link. Coz those pple knows all about me. Too much until sometimes i felt embarrassed with them. They’ve seen me angry. They’ve seen my tears, all about me that is bad and ugly. They just know too much. And i feel that they dun have to know anything more. So.. im free to talk about my feelings toward them. Freedom of speech is mine.
Im gonna stop here coz if i go on i’ll be having doubts to post this up later on. It’s just...during times like this, i just wish that this world, on this century that i live in, is not, in reality.... technologically advance. I wanna live in the cave.
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Friday, October 9 at 3:40 AM
The long way to nowhere
That’s what i feel about my life. I’ve been doing some serious thinking lately. I’m 21 and what do I have achieved? There’s not much i can tell. Maybe none. Academically, i’m still on a stepping ladder. Im not working so it means that im not independent financially. I couldn’t even work part time to support myself and that’s really a shame. So at the age of 21, i’m definitely not living my best life.
I need to sort out my life! What should i do? Go and find a part time job? But......(sigh) and there’s always a buT. I dunnoe if it’s an excuse or if it’s nnot an excuse, but i just can’t manage my time. I dun even think i know the meaning of time management. You’re right, that’s definitely an excuuuuuuse. I’m confused and unsure if IT is an area i wanna pursue for my career. I dun wanna work with java. And people with rational mind would definitely think that i’m the kind of person with full of excuses, full of impossibilities and even irresponsible. Arghh..i’ll be damned!
Let me just continue, and i’ll look at the bright side now. I’ll be for sure not looking for a part time job. But to compensate that, i will save. I’ve not been spending a lot since the day i quit my job but i have not been saving either. So, im gonna do some serious savings from my pocket money. I’ll spend as little as possible on food coz food is my biggest spending. So that way, im gonna have a sense of being in control of myself and learn discipline which i dun have right now. That’s important to me and that’s what i wanna achieve. Anyway, savings are good to start at the earliest age. So that’s one.
Next, plan and start ASAP. That’s for assignments and projects. No more last minute work. It’s hard to fall in love with java but i will not complain much about java anymore after this post. I’ll just go with the flow, if java asks me to plunge down, for you java i will. This will go on for two years. Then after i’m done with this diploma i’m gonna hunt the area that i want. And w/o anymore choices i’ll have to work while study. Coz by then i’ll be 23 and i have a responsibility to earn money no matter what & where. Period.
That’s it. I think, I have some ideas where my way should lead. I’m left with a week plus before school opens. So, have fun till the end.
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Tuesday, September 29 at 12:28 AM
Time to update!!!I really have to update now. Now! Now right now!! I’ve left it abandoned for so long coz im stuck. Believe it or not, im really stuck in writing out my life. There are actually things to write...starting from the end of exams to my brother’s birthday to my new born baby nephew, iftar and exam results....but i just couldnt type them out. I wrote them halfway through and my mind went blank.
But today im gonna write it till i complete it. Just bear with me for awhile ok....coz some of the things are a little outdated (happened before Eid). I’ll try to write each event as briefly as possible (if possible).
1. Last day of exam, I went searching for my brother’s present with Liya. And that brilliant girl suggested that i buy for him a soccer ball.. That’s exactly what I called a perfect gift. I never even thought about it at all! Thank you, thank you, thank you Liya!!!
2. That night i went to my older cousin’s house for iftar and saw for the 1st time my little nephew which was just almost 2 weeks old. MashAllah...i really dun need to say how cute newborns are..... you guys know.
3. My brother, Muhaimin (or whom i call Mamin), had his birthday a day before my friend’s birthday, Muhaimin (or min). Ha!! And i forgot to wish Min happy beday coz i was still struggling to wrap my bro’s present at that time. Anyways, Happy belated bday min!!!!
4. I went bazaar only 3 times.
5. The only cookies i made for Eid this year is koko krunch cookies. See how lazy i am.. Actually i dun mind making cookies but i do mind measuring the flour, margarine, sugar..sugar..sugar.. Not to mention sifting the flour...i always did it 3 times like chef Wan (or is it chef Ismail??) That’s the earliest stage and that’s the messiest part. But i love beating margarine, the flour and eggs and playing with the dough (my fav!) and it’s ok getting messy at these parts. Wanie, you have to wait till next yr for my choc chips..( sorry..)
6. I had iftar outside of home once with my cousins.....and we hang around till 1 am. I was too afraid of ghosts or killers or rapists out there to go home. So i overnite at my cousins’ house. My aunt was really mad and she spit it all out the minute she opened the door. I felt so bad...moreover it was ramadhan.
7. Since the end of school, I’ve been listening to Michael Jackson’s songs, watching his music videos and interviews thru YouTube and Michael Jackson’s death investigation in ET every single day w/o fail. I would talk to my mum about things that happened to MJ though my mum is not interested in a single thing about him. Listening to MJ songs has become my daily routine during the holidays. And now i can seriously feel his lost. It’s a big and wasted lost coz i’ve never appreciated MJ when he was alive and had never known his songs before. But i do now and im so loving it. R.I.P.M.J.
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Wednesday, September 23 at 2:58 AM
A Rose for Everyone : A Special Dedication
I am dedicating this rose for the celebration of Syawal, the successor of ramadhan.
I wish all Muslims a very happy & peaceful Eid. May Allah (S.W.T) accept our good deeds, forgive our transgressions and ease the suffering of all the people around the globe.
Salam Aidilfitri.
Mohon maaf zahir & batin.
Have a fun-filled Eid with your loved ones..!
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