-- been too long pretending --

Oh well.. here i am for my first and proper post after so longgggg. Let me start with the usual, say ARMY. It has really been an eye-opener for me ever since i enlisted back in July last year. Seen many many different kinds of people from all walks of life. While some are your true friends, there are also some that are just worth hi-bye. BMT was probably the best time? I will never forget my buddy and the rest. It was an awesome 8 weeks and 2 days spent at Leopard Coy.

And came 22nd Sept 2009, i reported to OCS Warrior's hall for my in-processing to OCS itself. What an experience i will say for the first day. Buddies in Golf Wing was splendid, couldn't have been any better i would opine. As we all know, Change is the only constant in life; i was posted to infantry wing, Alpha for my pro term. 5 months with a total stranger, how about that? Just gotta swallow the pride in and adapt to life. Talking about winning a Sword, who doesn't want to win it? But i must say that i WAS ready to go beyond my limit to get at least a Sword of Merit. I WAS determined. Notice that i used the word WAS? Because all that fighting spirit in me just died. The fire just turns into smoke that blocked myself from my own goal. However i know that deep inside me, i wasn't giving my best in many things that i did. Why so? For a bigger purpose i will say. Seeing selfish people around me, just makes me feel tired of trying to fight to be the best. When i thought i had made a very good friend, i was wronged. Slapped right in the face. I choose to think, i am the fucked up one. I don't understand people and yet i want people to understand me. How selfish. At the current state, i really am speechless. But i hope that one day, things will be better. At least, that is what i really want and i am looking forward for that day. Hopefully i am not putting so much hope, Cos' like me, One tends to disappoint too.

On a brighter side, 22 more days till i commission on the 19 June 2010!! And for comms ball, arghhhhh, forget it. Alright i will stop for now. I'm getting sleepy! Dammit, the only thing i do when i book out now is SLEEP! fml.

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/27/2010 07:18:00 PM

REVIVED AFTER CLOSE TO A YEAR OF SILENCE.

will update soon. more of a life lesson. (:

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/09/2010 01:24:00 AM

i shall update paragraphs by paragraphs. (:

My last update was on Friday the 29th, yes there was no update due to me being in hell for the weekend. It was damn shag until i won't even care if the world's gonna end all! After saturday's training, i managed to "rest" (which does not mean i get to sleep a wink at all!), then followed by 42km marathon aka Sundown. It was hellish. Seriously. BUT my timing improved. like really WAH! 5hours37mins leh! Okay lah given that i never train. -_- After the marathon went back straight to Kallang for Np's training and followed by SAFSA's training. One word for the hellish weekend, STEAM!

And and i went to cut my hair. Finally i felt damn sick of my fringe! And decided to cut back my old hairstyle. Mohawk! Yeah, view it in facebook if anyone is interested! HAHA.

I'm busy watching drumming videos in youtube. High possibility that i might be drumming for June race. =/ Oh well, i want to contribute, and if this is the way i contribute best, why not? (:

37 more days before i enlist. It seems faster than i could have imagined. But before i go in.. i really want to talk to you... on my handphone... I'm waiting for email! I'm loving it. Just like the M1's advertisement, I LIKEEEEEEEEEEE IT! HU HU! Okay not funny.

Till next time, hopefully with pictures. Actually there is. but im damn tired naoooo to upload so i shall go sleep and die tmr. kthxbaiiiiiiiiiiiii!

HAI left the world of darkness on 6/05/2009 12:12:00 AM

Life and Care. I was being random at www.dictionary.com and so i decided to type them out. There were too many answers for me to like copy it out. We live in this world once. It's a principle i live with each and everyday. I do what i want, i love who i want and i care for whom i think might deserves it. But too many a times when in life, i made a little too many small mistakes that might lead to a major upset later on. Falling in love with people i know i shouldn't and stuffs like that. But feelings; it's not something which we can control. It just happen.

Do we, small little earthlings in this world practise what we preach? Or do we even some times take a minute out of our seemingly busy schedule to think of something/someone that may need our care and concern? Has that person been showing you much care for you and what have you done back to him/her? Some times a simple Thank You and a Smile, will brings us to a long way in the future. But if we choose to ignore and just be oblivious to it, we might not feel the pain the one caring is feeling. And then it is time to ask ourselves again, Do i want to be treated that way? Am i choosing the people that i think should be caring for me? To me personally, i don't think that is right. It does not kill to care for others, But i will say, if you cared too much, you will get disappointed. For not everyone in this world think exactly the same. Similar i will say yes, but not exactly the same. If everyone were to think the same way in this planet Earth, there won't be this 2 letter word name, IF. And once again, that's life.

This is a relatively long and wordy post. I don't know who and how many people are reading my blog actually. But if you are reading this very line, i supposed that you have already read the chunks of words above. And for that i Thank You with a Smile. I must learn to start opening up and that may do me some good in a way or two. Let me just end this by saying, how many times actually in our life, do we really sit down and ponder about the ones around you. Like really about every single one. Cos i'm starting to do that, and i realised that i've cared too much for some people that it became oblivious to them and that some people, or rather we human beings are bad at practising what we preach.

Take care people. Life may sucks, but if we just take that extra little effort to ammend it, it may just be beautiful. Worth a try :]

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/29/2009 12:48:00 AM

Finally another chapter ended. It has been a wonderful 3 years being a Ngee Ann rower. All the ups and downs, the problems, the happiness, the glory, the downfall, the bittersweet of a team. It all comes to and end. The name of "Champion Batch" will always remain in every each of us. Coached by a wonderful, inspiring, motivating, never-say-die-spirit, Both Ah Huat and Wilson has guided us well. A very BIG THANK YOU to them. As the saying goes, the only constant in life is change. And every beginning has its ending, while every ending is the beginning of something new.

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/27/2009 07:25:00 PM

me and wen wei. what can i say about this guy!? hahaha. he loves torturing us. but it's for our own good.
train hard shawn! (: shot 1.
shot 2 with shawn.
shot 3 with shawn. but still, train hard. haha! (:
me and kee chuan aka Tuna! i will see you July 13 in a place called TEKONG! HAHAHA.
me and PUI HONG. hahahaha! (:
me and vege boy! shot 1.
shot 2.
shot 3 and he look so gay.
okay dun flame me, me and Trey took lots of photo due to the camera being so blur and this is the best shot i think? hahahaha! and this FAVOURITE JUNIOR is and always being a fucker. What's new? hahaha. Train hard Trey. Don't let words from others bring you down. =]
another shot.
one more.
with the vege boy and trey.
they seems amazed by my long wooden paddle. LOL
okay one more with my strongest junior. WHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
with khai hung. keep bugging me to take photo. so yeah only one photo will do! hahaha. all the best to you! (: and this picture is diff from the rest cos he edited it. im not so free to do so. hahaha!


Okay this is mostly pictures with my few juniors. Didn't manage to take photos with lots of them too. People like DAMIEN dunno run where. IDOL (weijie) dunno also go where! den many more suddenly like run awayyyy. hahahaha! I will upload more photos with my batch of ppl when i got the picturessss. =]

And as for now i need all the strength for tomorrow's duel. (water trial aka PK). Wish me luck readers! (:

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/25/2009 06:23:00 PM

yes, it's not bus number. If i didn't remember wrongly it should be 52 days before enlistment. Kinda looking forward to it. (am i speaking the truth? God knows).

Tomorrow, okay today, will be the day where i will be officially graduating from NPDB. It feels sad to be leaving. 3 years seems to past damn fast. Wonderful memories i will say. There is no escaping from this exit. Every Ngee Ann rowers that had survived for 3 years, will have to go through this painful exit. But it's the flow that we have to follow. For i know, i had done my part in making history for this team. Be it good or bad ones, it will still be a beautiful picture paint in my mind.

Alright, will blog again tonight or something when the pictures are up up uppppp! Hopefully i can really take alotttt of pictures cos there is training before that. And training is always tiring, like it is supposed to be. So no complaints. (:

On a happier note, i must thank Chee Kee for helping me get the crocs! THANKS ah! I can't wait to look like Ronald (Susilo) NO!? Ronald McDonald i mean. Cos my Crocs is RED CAR-RER!! (colour! -.-)

Bye to whoever is reading. (:

HAI left the world of darkness on 5/23/2009 02:15:00 AM