God, i know u see it. :) no matter who thinks what. For those who knows me will know. For those who don't, it's either you find it out, or you just don't care. :) it's alright! :)

i really feel that i'm showered by God's grace and blessing. I have been blessed by Pastor Lilian for a bible. :) My 3 bibles were blessed by others. if anyone wants a Chinese bible. Can get it from me. :) although this 1 week dint really experience God much. But i strongly believe that, God really love me. :)

Hi guys, seeing u guys still tagging my blog, i feel very happy.

1stly, i have to say sry la.. cos horz, i really got alot of things to do. don't have time to blog lehz. my exam coming soon. then me quite busy with other things lorz. :)

2ndly horz, u all can sms me de ma. if u don't have my number, u tell me. i give u lorz. :)

but i really miss u guys lehz. Tern, ur exam starting soon. muz jiayou wor. 2 more days to ur exam. muz chiong liaoz. hope to hear ur gd result kk? i also gonna have exam after my 2 weeks brk. lol. during the 2 weeks brk horz. i will study and study. u all wanna date me, can la. advance booking la kk? lol.

k la. that's so much for today. see u guys around. tk care.

love u guys lots. Jesus loves u guys! nitez.

So many days dint come online and blog, and i see my tag board is not moving. so sad. everyone is so busy nowadays. but nvm. today is a public holiday and today is Phy bday! Here i wanna wish her a Happ bday!

This few days actually nth much happen oso la. it's quite normal lorz. nth much special. Mayb just that what i pray i did really get it lorz. Thanks Lord for that. :)

Tml will be another hol for me too. cos tml i dun nid to go sch anyway. hahz. den i will be somehow bored at home. this few days i'm feeling ver lazy. dunno y. kip gg utube find movie and watch. cos too sianz le. hahaz.

i'm somehow like blogging for the sake of blogging. actually not really la. just feel bored, so wanna write out smth ba. hahaz..

God loves u guys. ---> Kahwai and Yu Huey. :)

Thur, i did went for movie with Siong they all. we watched 200LB that show. at the end of it was quite touching. but, that day i wasn't really in a ver gd condition. so i dint really enjoy that show. so anyone who wans to watch it, can try to ask me. hahaz.

Fri, today nth much happen in sch, but i went for the cell grp for the 1st time. it was fun. and i learnt many things. i'm really amazed that even long b4 i believe in Christ, i had that mind set alr. did anyone who's reading ask urself, why are u born in this world? i did. and i got 2 ans. and 2 of the ans are really fits into smth. it's really amazing.

i really feel like sharing with u guys.
- There's no correlation between size and significance.
- Impression without expression causes depression. ( actually i dun understand this ) anyone understand pls tell me. :) thanx in advance.

i really think i still learn not enough. sometimes becos of some really small, tiny, minute matters, i still can get angry. i'm trying to learn :) and this will be a nv ending learning journey. :)

That's all for today. i hope u guys wil enjoy ur everyday life. Nite, swt dreams and tk care.
God loves u, and i love u too. :)

Wow, so many days nv post anything. let's start from...

Monday, wanted to go sch, but cant get up, so slack the whole day at home. and i received a news from my fren. but i guess is a gd decision for him ba. Thank Lord for that. he will be happier each day i hope. but somehow another fren is sad. cos the 1st fren nv tell her what happen. ya.. so.. erm.. lidat lorz..

Tue, nth much happen, late for 1st lesson. den lesson till 8.30pm. went to mit the 2nd fren i was toking abt. cos she was still sad.

Wed, off day from sch. den waited for this fren for hrs. but it's ok. during the hrs of waiting. i learn many thigns from a book. :) den after that went to C.O. lol. then after that went home and meet SIong for bball. then we play awhile, it started to rain. then we sat at the void deck and chat. den after that went to eat our dinner. tok to him regarding many things lorz. that's all about it.

Tml Siong they all will be gg for movie, dunno wanna go or not. dun feel like gg anyway. so most prob wont be going la. Siong paisehz arhz. but mayb there's changes ba. see how lorz. u got them with u le. i think ya.. lol..

tht's for all. God bless you guys and God really loves u guys ! :)

I'm v happy, cos i acknowledge God to be my personal saviour and let Him plan for my life. that's v gd. i experience his presence for many times :) I'm a Christian! :)

today went to chc in the morning, despite slping for 3 hrs. i still mangae to wake up at 8am. :) today i learn many things from chc. after that went home for dinner. then went to coos. :) i will be joining coos. i'm glad nat willing to join me for service next sun. :)

Today quite a tiring day, after service, went to compass pt to mit Siong for dinner, after that went to play game. today i'm just basically 'slping' on the court. lol.

KahWai and Yu Huey, paisehz lorz. Anyway it's Siong's fault lorz. lol cos i dunhave the 2 of u's contact ma. lol. if u give me den next time will invite u 2 de. lol :) ---> gd way to get gals no. lol:)
ok la, i gona bathe, cos just reach home. and i'm stink right now.

God bless u guys. Good Night. Swt Dreams. Take care! :)

just heard nas_choir got a silver. it's somehow expected. dun ask me y, just got that feeling. :) then my batch is the only history maker. lol.

today nth much happen, i mean fri, just feeling unwell. cos got slight headache. schedule lesson till 5, but went home at 3+, so i went home to slp. actually Siong and Phy asked me go eat dinner with them, but i dint, cos feeling unwell. but they later came to my hse for dinner. :) Quite touch anyway. :) thanx guys. then we sent her to her fren hse, den had a chat with Siong till 1+am, few days ago, smth happen. not between us, but did affect us abit. so now i guess everything is over. :) We are even closer :) Praise the Lord :)

Somethings i feel the changes. either change for the better or worse. but anyway, i dunwan to think so much, i let Him to plan for me and direct me. :) so i just be a happy person. :)

Later in the morning 8+, Siong gonna comemy hse for bball. lol. i'm wondering whether he can wake up or not. but he said can, so i shall wait for his call. lol. i guess nth much to blog about and i'm gonna slp le. Nitez, swt dreams and tk care. :)

God loves u guys and i love u guys too. :)

Can't seem to slp. dunno why. although slpy, but dun feel like slping. lol. So thinking come here to write smth. Today Choir gonna have their syf. but i cant go down support them. haiz.. sad.. Hope they will bring back a Gold.

I guess we are not as natural as the past. lol. dunno y i will think that. perhaps through the things u said in the past and now ba. xiang hui dao guo qu. zhi you meng li neng hui wei. Nitez. swt dreams.

wed and thur dint have time to blog. let's catch up with that.

Wed was a ver simple day. went out to simlim with Siong in the morning. then went to tp had our lunch, cos he had presentation. then waited for him. then that sch is extremely noisy. after that we went to his hse for dinner, follow by bball at my hse there. :) that's all for my day. and that night, when i wanted to do pull up. the moment i hang onto the bar, my leg cramp -_-'''. had difficulties coming down. lol.

Thur went back to sch. had marketting lesson, i guess it's not ver difficult ba. Cos at least i like that subj. morning b4 i went to sch, i suppose to have my lunch at home. but my wisdom tooth there ver pain, maybe is my throat cause de ba. until i dun feel like opening my mouth. haiz.. then sch was alright. got a ver bored lesson. perhaps is the lecturer's style of delivering lecture ba. cos he just simply read from the notes. -_-''' and the module credit is 6, so i muz get A for that subj. but how? i cant even concentrate. i was slpin. haiz... then went home, suppose to have dinner. but when i see food, i have no appetite, os my teeth really ver pain. arrggg. wanted to play ball just now, but Siong nv come, and i was too tired, so instead of taking dinner, i took a nap. But i'm hungry now... and i dun feel like eating.

today is Yun's bday. just sms her. i sms at 12. but too bad, someone is even faster than me. When i sms her and reading her reply. many things pop out from my memories. haiz.. when sms her, the feeling is so weird. dunno y. what's the feeling i also dunno. Fang bu xia ma? dun think so ba. then what izzit nehz? sometimes i really ask myself. izzit so impt to find out the reason? i also dunno. haiz... What ever it is, things had passed, cant return. things had done, cant be undone. Sianz... FAN la.. dunno why suddenly lidat..

Take care everyone......

just back to sch not long ago! poor me, today have to study from 10am - 8.30pm. Today nth much happen. just that today i'm super duper blur, do things can do wrong, hear things can hear wrong, say things can say wrong. but lucky, eat things nv eat wrong. lol.

Today i'm abit tired. but tml i'm off from sch. Praise the Lord! hahaz. today is the 2nd day i attended sch. and i realise 1 thing, out of 6 subj i'm taking. at least 3 subj i'm not familiar with and don't really understand. I was so shock lorz. this sem is quite tough, comparing last yr and this sem, last yr is really close 1 eye can do de. :x

But i'll try my best to get the grades. I hope that my marketing is not as stress as Siong's marketing. i see them everytime need to chiong for this and that for marketing. i really don't like it that way. but hopefully everything will work out under His guidian(dunno how to spell).

Nth much to blog, so i guess i gonna end here. Tern, all the best for tml's paper. and God bless u guys!

Tern, how's ur exam? Everything alright? I hope so :) Miss ya! :)

Btw, i ask ppl should i change blogskin, nobody wanna ans me. So i ask u, should i change? hahaz.

Nitez everyone. Take care arhz. :)

I just woke up. :) i'm rather tired after i got home. so i went to slp. hahaz. i'm not pig kkz, just ver tired. lol.

I guess i got a good slp, and i'm refrsh! So i come here and blog again. i dunno why, i start to like blogging. hahaz.

Now i wanna tell u guys somethings, but first, u muz set ur encoding to unicode to read it. :)

我虽然不一定能在你们伤心和绝望时，第一位出现。但是我一定会是第一位因为你们伤心而伤心的人。我不能因你们感到绝望而绝望。因为我想为你们带来一个新的希望。在这个世界上，有些人希望你伤心和难过。但与此同时，有些人却会因为你的伤心而伤心，因为你的难过而难过。

有些人不懂得珍惜手边的幸福，常常却盲目追求不可能实现的梦想。当幸福远去时，才悔不当初。别忘了曾经关心过你的人，也许只有他，才会真正的用心在你身上。

Dunno why, just feel like posting this 2 sentence. anw, i think i better go and eat dinner. then i gg play bball with Siong. lol. My mama ask me a ver funny qn, "You everytime meet Siong, his gf will jealous ma?" lol. i dunno lehz. Dor, if u happen to see my blog, pls tell me the ans. :) lol. but nvm la, u noe he always so gayish de. so it doesn't matter. only i'm the one who is in danger nia. :X. lol

God bless you guys!

Just came back from sch not long ago. waiting for my heater to get hot b4 going for a bath. I came to blogger page, and i was blur. dunno why they need to cr8 this and that again. But i'm sure there's reasons behind it la.

Anw, lol. today dint have much things happen in sch. ytd night i was too excited and can't get to slp, so i was like having a 2 hrs of slp. but surprisingly, i didn't feel slpy or what. dint throw my temper or what. hmmmm.... i guess i know why :)

And today my time table is rather funny. in fact is for every monday. 1 hr in LTR, follow by ELQ. We have to do this throughout monday class. which is like walk here and there. to the same place. -_-'''

Today i dint meet her. hahaz. who is the her this time? lol. erm, it's a girl lorz. lol. i saw this gal during the last 2 sem. we will be so coincidently walking passed each other often. i dint really notice her in the 1st place. but 1 day, i walk passed her 3 times. and she was wearing white color shirt. So she caught my attention. Then Siong ask me to go and ask her number. lol. i did want to ask during the last sem, but no chance. so thinking no fate or smth la. lol. :) and anw, i also dunno any detail about her. cos i just see her nia. PLAINLY SEE nia.

PS: but horz, those who read my blog. pls dun think that i'm tiko or what lehz. She's a pleasant looking gal, thin(mayb can say skinny ba). hahaz. just like erm, want to have the feeling this sem see her again. lol. but horz... this is perhaps PLAINLY admire her beauty nia.

Admire is different from like. Like is different from love. :)

but saying the truth arhz, comments pls arhz. Am i too hua xin or what?

Love u guys!
Hope still can see her again during my poly life :)

Today i will be going to sch. Yeah, i'm back! i wanna use my result to glorify God. 3.7GPA.

Mei, all the best for ur exam! :) nth much to blog at the moment. this 2 days just plainly resting at home. not much of activities. not even use fone and computer. :)

Now i shall put my studies in the 1st place. You and i will always be friends. It's only depending on u. whether u still want it or dunwan it. :) Those days will remain in my memories. :) i was happy :) it's a happy memory! :)

Now i'm someone who afraid to reach out. So for those friends, if u guys wanna noe me more or wanna be my friends. den put out ur hand to reach out to me. i dunwan to lose u guys too. :) qi guai horz, zi xiang mao dun.

You guys must be happy ok? u guys happy den i will be happy also le. :)

All the best to everyone! God loves u and i love u too :)

yoz everyone, i just woke up. i have been slping for 12-14hrs for the day. woohoo. it's really ver ver ver ver long i dint have such a good slp. and ver ver ver long dint have dreams le. lol and today i did. dreams in fact is ver fantastic. in real life, things which are impossible to happen, in ur dream is possible to happen. wow, does that sounds amazing? i wanna tell u guys 1 thing. just now i dreamt, but i forgot what is the dream le. -_-''' lol.

Feeling slapping me ya? lol. that night at kbox also lidat. they ask me to choose song, so i take the controller wanna press, then i turn back tell them. ehz, i dunno how to choose lehz. lol. wahahahah. they were all like -_-'''. lol. then got 1 guy said, wahz kaoz. i see u take the controller so wu sehz, den u say u dunno how to choose. lol.

now, i gonna go brush my teeth and gonna have my only meal of the day. lol. :) i wanna slim down. can ppl teach me how? lol. my target is 55kg, now i think i 65kg ba. That's all for today i guess. later gonna play bball. lol.

God loves u, and i love u too. :)

Sry guys, this few days are rather bz, i just reach home not long ago. ytd went to kbox till morning, i mean thurs nitez till fri morning. hahaz.

we reach at about 1o+pm, then end at 6am. lol. we sing till the lungs gonna burst liaoz. at last, this bunch of peeps noe how to appreciate my voice. lol. they say my singing ver nice wor. lol. ytd went to kbox is also partly to celebrate Yu Long's bday.

This few days really nth much to blog about. Btw, on fri is rather an unlucky day for me. something happen which i dun feel like mentioning here.

i really feel that we are drifting further. i tried to save that. but u seem to cant be bothered somehow. or maybe is me who is too sensitive. :) but isn't it what i wanted it to be in the 1st place? why am i feeling so unbearable at this stage? lol. perhaps, if it's really fated to be in this way, it shall be. Sad. :'(

Ytd came back rather late, so i didn't update any post. I guess i'm back to the square one again. lol.

Just realise, sometimes things we do out of our care actually is ver selfish, we thought we care for others, but in another hand. ppl might feel hurt through the way we care. sounds chim ya? but i'm just realise how fortunate can someone be. sometimes really hope miracle can happen to me.

Is love really so important? i was posted with this qn. my ans is YES. y? perhaps she knows the ans. sometimes, i also dunno what i want. Let's say $ vs true love. which 1 will u choose? if i'm posted with this qn. i will be stuck, cos this 2 things are important. but which is more? maybe for now i will choose true love. but in the future, dunno.

Is outlook really so important to make a perfect guy? sometimes i really idol God, cos i think he's the one who will not say if u can grow to 1.70m jiu hao. if u can slim down jiu hao. if u can.... hahaz. sometimes even my mama also think so, also tell me the same thing. but to human, i guess yes. outlook is ver important.

God, i really love You. Is u who won't think that i'm imperfect. is u, who send Siong to me. Is u who always help me at those critical moment. Is u, who is watching me being bad, being lonely, being selfish, being self centred, being agressive, being impatience, being rough, being criticise. But U dint abandon me cos of what i did and how i behaved. Instead, u teach me to be gd, u send a ver true friend to me, u let me learn to put others b4 self ( though i still learning), u let me know that i'm not living alone, so have to care for others. u let me learn how to be patience, u teach me ways to take the criticism. God, without u, i confirm there's no such Wenqi in this world. I really want to glorify u, i just want 1 more miracle to happen. 1 more miracle that i wish to happen. Am i asking for too much? Sry God, i think, i can only ask the miracle to happen from u. cos U r a miracle creator.

I think my life is not meaningless, just that i don't really treat those aims as a meaningful things. Maybe those aims are for me to give hopes to others, give care to others. give love to others in His Name. After typing this post, i realise that God really loves me alot. God i love u too. But i'm still thinks that God u love others more. God loves me by his own way, and which is not the way i expect it to be. but i know, the love he gives will be 100%.

God, i guess i know what's ur ans to my qn. i guess i know what to do le ba. i shall focus on other things which can glorify U. I guess u still dunwan me to go into it. is becos i still got alot of things have not learn well ba. God, next sem i will get 3.7GPA. and i will tell everyone that this is the result God gives it to me. i want to use my next sem result to glorify u. I hope during the process, if i'm drifting apart, please guide me back.

God, I love You.

last night, went out with ex wrkmates. We went to cineleisure to watch Sunshine, it's not ver interesting, and i almost fell aslp. -_-''' the show ended at around 3. then we went to have some tea and had some chit chats. think we are growing old, though they are older than me. lol. :)

i guess, the 3 of us, our life is not much of a meaning. but we have the same thinking, we rather die than falling sick. lol. :) cos in sg, medical expenses is super duper high, no choice la. we this type of commoners, where got $? some more the gst is going up. which means, death rate = higher. lol. i'm just kiddin.

so i reach home at around 5, slp at around 6am. after that i went to cut my hair. My friend help me cut de. Erm, he cut not bad la. lol :) then after that went to find Siong, and we had our dinner and we went to the library. :) then now i'm home blogging. :)
5days left! time flies ver fast. but things which not suppose to be mine, will nv be mine. :)

this morning i suppose to wake up at 7.30-8am. but i was late. lol. cos i need to go somewhere. but in the end, i did go, but i took a cab. and i dunno what day is this, cos it was so jam at around 10am at CTE. -_-''' then after that meet my fren and pei her go collect pay. after which i went home to slp and just woke up :)

my bro is sick, dunno how he is. i hope he will be fine by tml. i guess he has overworked. hope God will heal him. :) phy, pray for him :) and i read a email. which i wan to share with u guys.

MAYONNAISE JAR and 2 CUPS OF COFFEE

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day is not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

Next, the professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand ! filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "YES."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand.

The students laughed.

Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The golf balls are the important things like God, family, children, health, friends, and favorite passions things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else -- the small stuff.

If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.

The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So... Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Praise and Worship God, Communicate with God. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. "Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

So now, for those friends who is complaining u have no enough time for this and that. everyone has only 24hrs. Do the important things. Cherish while u still can.
6days left! :'(

today i went to phy church. it's call the Church of Our Saviour. today is ester day. btw, till now i still dunno how to spell ester or esther. -_-''' but nvm. today i learn alot of things. and i did touched by God, but i didn't walk up to the front. Let me share what i learn with u guys. :)

-God sees beyond ur looks, He sees inner soul of urs.
-Sometimes when u r close to somebody, it's not becos they are knowledgeable or clever, it's becos they care for us. :)
-God will forgive ur sin, but not punish the sins u have commited. ( for those free thinker like me, if u came across 1 point when u heard ppl say God punishes, then i think u should think about this sentence.)
-God doesn't care what degree u holding, but he cares how much 'degree' u giving to Him. :)
-until today, then i noe, christianity is not a religion, but it's a relation with God.

PS: The God mention here is the God u believe in. :)

on top i mention i did feel touched, and i did have to urge to drop tears and going up to the front. but y i didn't? i still holding back to alot of things. :) i wan to see a miracle before i commit to anything. :) alot of ppl tok abt miracle, so i wan to see. i dunno whether Jesus Christ heard what i asked him. but i hope he did. cos i'm waiting to see a miracle. :)

i'm ready to open to all, for a God who can show me miracle. i shall put my trust in Him!
7days left!

sry about it, i reach home quite late, so i didn't update in time :). suddenly i realise that for this 2 weeks i got and learn many things. and i'm really glad. :) but if it means that i have to lose something. i also have to admit to fate. :)

But can i choose what i wanna lose? why muz always be that case? haiz.. things haven confirm yet and yet i'm so pessimistic. lol :) Let me ask u guys 1 qn. If i really gonna die, will u really miss me? How long will u miss me? How much will u miss me? will u cry for me? lol :)

sry, i'm just being stupid. :) if i really gonna die. i hope that u guys will live happier. take all my happiness and put into u guys' lives. :) Dun cry for me. i dun wish u guys sad and esp sad for me. :) i wan u guys to smile :). if u guys wanna see me, i will be everywhere. :). i will wish my ashes being throw into the air and sea. :) i love nature. i love u guys too. :)

suddenly, i really hope she wont like me, cos i dunwan when she really fall for me, then i have to go or what. :) i dunwan to see her sad :). so if u guys noe smth, pls dun tel her :) thanx 1st arhz. i think i really falling for her more as each day pass by. i noe i cant, and i'm really trying not to. anyway, i will do the necessarily things for that.

anyway, 7days left! u guys mux take gd care of urself horz. nitez, swt dreams!

today didn't have much things happen. just a very simple and lazy day. today got back mp3 from Siong, then all day stay at home and rot. then didn't go out or what. just stay at home and slp, tok on the phone and use computer. what a boring day! but tml should be a better day ba. :) Hope you guys out there will have a better day than i do :) tk care! btw, i haven eat my dinner yet. lol. now waiting for Siong for dinner, faster come, if not i gonna faint le. lol. then later will have ppl cry for me de. den i bu ren xin how? lol :)

9days left!

Ytd, i went to find phy^no2 and phy during the afternoon, then have lunch at tp. after that we went to bugis. then went to plaza sing.

btw, i thot my mp3 i bought 3 days ago spoil. so siong and me went to the samsung service centre at PS. then i realise that mp3 service centre is no longer at ther. it has moved to jurong. -_-"', it's really far for me. and we dint really have time to go there cos the place closes at 5.30pm. so we decided to go to t/m to have dinner with siong's mama. but in the end we went to bedok eat. after that, we went to tamp shop shop. dint really buy anything. lol. but siong, his bro and me went to watch movie at 10.30pm.

we watched Mr.Bean. it's quite a lame show, but it's quite funny. but i won't go and watch again. lol. i'm waiting for pirates. and i wan to watch 300. it's quite a nice show from what i see from the advertisement. so hopefully there's someone willing to watch with me b4 it close lorz.

she was feeling unwell and her teeth are painful. i can't really do anything about it. the only thing i can do is to an wei her and try to divert her pain lorz. Hope she really tk gd care of herself :) 9days more :)

i dunno y tonitez i have so much to write, just went to bathe and think. perhaps i'm really selfish also. cos if u ask me to sacrifice for those who i dunno, i'm sure to reject.

i kip complaining that no gals really like me. but come to think about it. am i someone who really deserve her to love? if she don't love me. i'm sure there are reasons behind it. maybe it's really cos i'm not up to the standard of being a simple bf.

i'm now learning to be patience and refrain myself from using vulgarities. i'm trying to be a better person. i'm trying to be a 'love able' person. i hope to change for the better. and i hope that my effort is paid of. of cos is not because what i want then i want to learn. simply because i wan to be a better person and a better bf. :)

Hope everything will go smoothly for u guys. nitez all and take care. Tern, all the best for ur result! :) Gor may not be able to stand by ur side, but i will always support u kk?

y am i feeling sad? i also dunno. sometimes i really dun like my own mouth. becos most of the bad stuff coming out of it will have higher chances of taking place. but gd things will nv be in this case. y lehz? y muz it be this way and not e other way round? haiz.. 1st time really hope it this way. haiz..

when did i become so emotional? i must be strong so i can help whoever is in need. :) i'm trying my best. but however, somethings really beyond my power of helping. i dun really wan to see this hting happen. hopefully it will be better. haiz... i think i dint really have a gd life, so i really hope those ppl whom i care will have a better life than me. till now i dint really say out what's the reason for me to be sad. i sad because i think i cant really help my friend. for what purpose or reason, it's not gd for me to mention here. haiz..

some ppl will ask, when did wq become such a kind person? lol. i also wonder. maybe i'm really bad to some ppl ba. sry abt it. haiz.. but maybe u guys out there who still dunno me well enough ba. :)

sometimes being strong and always standing, it's really not easy. sometimes i really will fall. but lucky i got Siong. i really muz thanx him for staying beside me whenever i need someone. but i noe he will have his own stuff to do and etc. sometimes i really did think, do i really need a gf? i think i still need ba. y lehz, i really dunno. sometimes i really feel ver tired. phy and mental. haiz..

i'm someone who is not gd at words, not gd at comforting, not gd at praising, not gd at expressing myself. maybe that's y till now still cant find someone who will like me ba. haiz.. am i really that bad? bad until really no gals willing to give me a chance. haiz.. why am i so emotional atm? because i'm a human, i'm a guy. i really need what a human and a guy needs.

i really hope those ppl who i really care will be happier every sec of their lives. sometimes think bak to the past, think of those unhappy stuff, i really feel v sad. perhaps i shldn't rehearse it. but mayb by thinking of the past, will make me wanting to make others happier. i did many wrong things in the past, i hope those friends of mine will nv experience that. becos the guilt that i had, is really pestering me.

why do i need a gf, maybe becos i really need someone to rely on. to lean against. i guess i need her moral support. but at the same time, i really wondering will i be able to give her the happiness that she deserve? will i make her to have a better life?

sometimes when people tok about Jesus Christ, he's so great. (btw, i'm a free thinker.) then when i heard about Buddha, i think he's great too. Jesus Christ is great, because he take away everyone's sin to put them into his own body. the feeling of having a sin is really bad, moreover he took away all the ppl's sin. haiz.. Buddha cut his flesh to feed the eagle, because the eagle is hungry. if nowadays human, when they see the eagle, will they do the same? i think they will shoot the eagle down in stead. haiz.. even sometimes to other human body that u don't know, u also wont sacrifice ur ownself to save them. cos human are really SELFISH!

sometimes i really thinking, if i have the chance, i really wish to die for everyone, i really not afraid to take all the sin or sacrifice my body for people. there will be ppl out there asking, u tok only la, as if u will lorz. u got so wei da ma? maybe u r right. when real situation comes, maybe different case. but i really did think of that.

To: My Gf to be.
i will really love u with all i can. i will try my best to be the best bf u have. i'm a human, i will not be perfect, i will try my best to make u the happiest person with all i can. thou sometimes i maybe in wrong, i hope u can understand, because i don't have any experience in this. but i will try my best. just for u. sometimes when i throw my temper or do anything that hurt u. pls forgive me. sometimes i really stress until i'm out of control. just tap my shoulder and i will noe that i have u as my support :) after i have think through the things i have done wrong, i will do the sweetest things to cheer u up.
From:Qi

Tern, next time when u really got a da sao and i really v insensitive, u muz really remind me of this. i noe the chances of me having a gf is ver slim, so i muz hold it tight, i dunwan to let it slip by just because of the stupid things i do to her.

Siong, u also muz remind me lehz. i told u before de. ok?

that's all i guess for the night. I hope that my friends will have a happier life than me. :) I really wish to cheer those friends who are not in gd mood or feeling sad. but i dunno how. what i can do is just to stand by ur side. Hopefully u will get better. :)

i'm sure there are still people out there will rmb my blog :). cos some of them told me my blog is full of spider web. i dint really have much time to blog. :) lol. maybe it's just an excuse for not updating. but anw, i know u guys will be understanding. :)

Let me update u with my stuff. Last post of mine saying that i wanted to get gd result to go jc. hahaz. but in fact, i got a very lousy result for my 'o' lvl. However, i learnt quite alot of things from it. so i guess is worth. now i'm studying in Nanyang Poly Mechatronic course. it's an engineering course, mixture of mechanical and electronic stuff. After getting the poor result, i dint get into any sch, so i appeal lorz, and i took this course cos i also don't know y. lol. but ok la, my gpa still acceptable ba. 1st sem i got 3.375, 2nd sem i got 3.552. Next sem my target is 3.6-3.7. Hope u guys out there will encourage me and support me, ok?

As those who noe me better, will noe that i always heart broken, the doc glued bak most of the pieces, but some already can't be found, cos it has broken into many many tiny pieces. In the process of chasing a gal, i always learn alot of things from them, heart broken is what i always learn. lol. but anw, i'm afraid now. really afraid!! afraid of being hurt again, afraid of putting in effort. i'm losing faith in relationship. that's bad, but atm i guess i'm still straight. lol. BEI AI SHI XING FU DE, AI REN SHI TONG KU DE. so i now really have tis mentality. i will choose to wait. i really like the word waiting. hahaz. maybe by waiting can really train up my patience. Why do i say all of this, i will tell u y.

Recently, i met a gal(shall nt mention name, though she will nt be reading it. :) ) through my fren, Siong. this gal really fits in almost all the criterial of my image of a gf. Then maybe some ppl will say, if u think she's a gd gal, why dunwan chase? hahaz. i wanted to, but i'm too afraid. i also can meet most of her criterial, but 1 of her criterials i can't meet. is to be a Christian. i dunwan to be come a Christian because of wanting to chase her. i wan to do something because i think the thing is worth doing it. and i believe and have enough time to commit in it. now i can't commit as i'm still studying and i'll be wrking on wkends. So i guess i have to let this chance slip through. i'm facing the same prob again, the gal i like will NV like me bak. i don't know about this gal, but i can sense that in her. mayb i'm right, or mayb i'm just so lack of confidence in myself. lol. but whateva it is, my school is starting soon. so i guess i will put all the love and passion into my studies ba. :) cos me and her oso of a diff sch, so after i start my new sem, i guess i wont be seeing her so often. so i guess it's a gd thing also ba. And 1 last thing, recently i can't really rmb clearly ppl's faces. does that mean that my memory is becoming poorer?

After saying so much, dint really tell u much of that gal, er... She's not v pretty. once u see her, u will think she's that kind of guai guai de, 'du shu de liao'.but she's crappy when u noe her. lol. she's understanding, whoever is her bf will be v fortunate. but she has sad stories la. and i really despise her last bf. She's clever, but has a blur look. So don't judge a book by its cover. i got shock when i know she's so clever. not as in studies, but in thinking. :) she's funny at times, and sometimes will say cold jokes and luff at things for no reason. and sometimes sot sot de. She appears to be v soft, guys see le oso want to love and protect her those kind. but horz, i really don't rmb v clearly of her looks. don't know y? Perhaps just dunwan myself to step into it ba, and dunwan myself to 'wu ke zi ba'. i guess is better in this way ba. but if i noe she like me. i will like her back in double or tripple. and with all i can. :)

Actually i know her not v long, but feeling quite close to her. maybe is just like close fren feeling ba. sometimes close till i got the feeling of we are a couple. but i noe i think too much le. but i really enjoy the feeling. i will do my best for this 2 weeks. after that i will get bak to reality. But i guess i'm already getting bak into reality now le. don't need to wait till so long le. :) Those out there who is wrying about me being heart broken again. Thank You. i think i wont ba. cos i rather let the chance slip, rather than hurting myself. if i don't take care of myself, nobody will take care of me. YAO BIE REN AI NI, JIU YI DING YAO CHENG WEI ZHI DE BIE REN AI DE REN.

This post is very long. i think i become more and more naggy le. hahaz. Now i really rotting at home, anyone see this post now, can call or sms me de. :) Hope to update my blog often if possible. :) And now den i noe, blog spot cant see chi language.

my blog got spider web liaoz.. lolx.. so long nv come and blog.. haiz.. actually nth much happen ma.. mayb got things happen la, but just i dont notice only.. i lost 5 kg le sia.. lolx.. 5 kg lehz.. few more days, i will be taking my chi o lvl.. haiz.. sianz sia.. dunno can get distinction not.. muz study hard le lahz, but everytime i said that, but still slack.. haiz.. what's that man... WQWQWQWQWQ wake up liaoz.. wana go jc, still lidat.. eat shit la u.. how to jio ppl lidat.. dumb lehz u.. haiz..

hahaz, so long dint blog le, such a disappointment to those ppl who constantly read my blog, i'm so sorry.. hahaz.. haiz.. life has been the same for these days, hopeless for me.. lolx.. result kanasai.. but i will buck up de... lolx.. at least i still have some motivation.. haiz.. lolx.. how r u guys? ----> who read my blog.. hope u guys are fine.. come and create more havoc if possible.. hahaz..

Hoping for a better tml..

wahz liaoz, my that damn com, got prob sia.. new com oso got freaking prob, thanx tern for ur concern, my leg no prob le lahz, can play ball long ago le.. lolx.. just getting mc for p.e, so dunwan to run the 2.4 ma, so tiring sia.. lolx.. next week so many tests.. sianz... tml need to go simlim again, nehz nehz.. sianz, i wanna go tuition one lehz, tue go cant see janice, sianz.. lolx

today my eng oral ish screwed up again, haiz... think gonna enter eng ssp for sure, already got 1 damn ss ssp le.. kaoz.. today no need to run 2.4.. hahaz.. tml got math test, sianz.. so tiring.. feel like slping, but dunwan to go slp.. lolx.. Smile everyday, u dunno when ppl will love ur smile..

Hoping for a better tml..

today i wore slippers to sch, lolx... den no need do napfa.. lolx.. today her head injury not so obvious le.. thanx God.. but she today dun seem to be happy, haiz... today just a normal day la, nth much happened in sch, except got chased out of class by sim kuku, cos alot of us dint do her compre.. kaoz ehz, is she erase de ma, den i thot no need to do de, den i bo chap her.. lolx..

Hoping for a better tml..

haiz... today damn suay, sprain my ankle, but i think it's somehow worth it lahz... can a diff her, not really diff her lahz, but just i did not see that part of her for quite some time le, i hope to see that more.. lolx.. but if in exchange of sprain leg and kana hit by ball, i htink it's worth lahz.. lolx... i muz be sot le, kana hit by ball on the head for too many times today lahz.. lolx.. tml going to get a com.. yeah.. lolx..

Hoping for a better tml..

yeah, choir got a Gold for syf, we've made it, a bench mark in the history... yeah.. thanx to those ppl who have supported us, the teachers, conductor, the choir, seniors and all my frens.. thanx to you guys.. Seniors, i did not let you guys down, i have done what i promised and said.. i'm leaving the choir with no regrets.. thanx to you guys, without u guys, i wont have the motivation to challenge the Gold.. lolx..

Hoping for a better tml..

ytd play bball for almost thw whole afternoon till evening. so tired.. but fun though.. lolx.. was thinking if the whole class can play together, then pull their fren along, that's will be great.. lolx.. but ppl bully me sia, always say i foul de, lolx.. but nvm lahz, it's a game ma.. today lehz, haiz.. i forgot to off the gas stove after i cook the noodles, then i went to read book and slp, after that went out.. kaoz ehz, what has happened to me sia.. haiz.. keep doing the wrong thing, but not on purpose though, haiz.. then make the wrong choice, maybe really wrong, but dint regret though.. lolx.. i oso dunno what i talkin sia.. just hope to be a normal fren with her ba..
tml is my syf le, hoping to get a gold ba..

Hoping for a better tml..

today after cca, played bball till very late. lolx, then damn tiring, tml still gonna play again. lolx. my skill sux.. lolx. just that i dont have talent in it lahz.. lol.. Monday is my syf le.. dunno what result i would get.. haiz... but hoping for a gold.. A Gold for myself, for my cca.. God Bless..

Hoping for a better tml..

have been quite busy lately, don't have time for anything except cca and studies.. lolx.. no choice la, result kns, then the damn com router got prob, lolx.. so suay this few days, but just hope can get a gold for syf.. btw, since ks u got read my blog, i wish you to win all ur matches kkz.. good luck..

Hoping for a better tml..

yoz yoz, finally i come back liaoz.. lolx.. ytd we went to paint our classroom, hahaz.. quite fun lahz, lolx.. haiz.. need to buy present liaoz.. but horz, dunno buy wat lehz.. haiz.. Shu Min arhz, u just copy the link and paste at the last part of ur blog template there then got song liaoz.. i oso dunno how to teach u lahz, u so blur blur de.. wahahahaha... opps.. ok lahz. next time see u online then teach u.. lol. but i seldom come online sia.. lolx.

Hoping for a better tml.