oh~~~

nothin beats bein caught in a bad romance

been some time..

at some point in time,everyone needs to be reminded so as to stay on course.

childish

flames to dust,lovers to friends,why do all good things come to an end?
we are not supposed to only be experiencing all the goods in life as we will end up not treasuring them.

wake up ur idea kid. u have absolutely no rights.

standard protocol. u guys dun even think abt the efforts i put in for all of u. year after year. i cant seem to sense much sincerity from any of u. maybe i had been foolish.

thanks for the eye opener. it is a brilliant gift.

LCYT my favourite.
same ppl same traits same agony same persistence
frens,good frens,best frens?
simple issues,complex emotions,zero feelings

heaven should start havin dollars rain soon

tiffany400chaneldior.

i wana paint smiles on ur faces. genuine ones.

Sunny

25,26,27sep rocks :) haven felt like that in long. Every wish granted. Very much wanna say that it's all enough but u noe i' d b lying if I said so. When has enough ever been? Hehe u noe I Noe u Noe. There's more upcoming. Stay tuned baby

so its finally said n done.

Praise to You!

i cant stop him from talkin to me.
i cant stop those ppl from cutting in.
i cant stop ppl from labelling.
whether u wan to believe it or not,its really up to u.
our paths wont cross n someday everything's gona seem so silly.
u've done nth wrong to judge.
pathetically,im jus the one being used as a shield.
as an easy target to blame for everything that's gone wrong.
as a toilet bowl to contain all the shit.

nonetheless,one experience is better than none.
dun ever stupidly take tings at face value nor jump too much into ur own conclusion.
both ways,u're stil the fool.
one cant change. the other cant change. there wun be any changes to the present,much less any improvement.

here it is,once again.

sucks

bitterness of damn price discrimination.
whoever never felt that way.
sighs.

HOW? :(

no im not talkin to him.
do not get me involved.
i hate sandwiches,similarly,that feeling of being a sandwich

dun understand y ppl manipulate nothing,y ppl trus nothing.

none of my business anyway,so dun make it mine

the ship is sinking.
it jus hit the tip.
it needs to be salvaged

treasure n cherish

dun throw things away unnecessarily
look again,look harder.
brush off the dirt n u might uncover what lies beneath.
easier said than done, i noe.
but right now im convicted to that belief.
it wil never be something called RESTART in reality.
i cant lose lessi.

a guy with no perspective=not very useful
a guy with too much perspective=prideful
Thank God Ima Female
-,-

i miss u much much much much much

bye u

hey u love u bye u.

once again

oh well did some stuff

if there's a word called salvage in my life,it's b pretty miraculous.
not as everyone is as forgivin.
no one is.

hopefully the innate ability to climb up after a fall wil b in u.
thats the most consoling thing to hear?

haa.

btw do not label people as who they are when u dun even noe wtf happened.
who noes karma may catch u up someday

a not so stupid person vs a not so stupid person
outcome jus boils down to who is more stupid

eh,i tink he is jus horribly stupid tryin to act smart.
or perhaps im too stupid to think that he is

nature vs nurture

too many questions eventually turn into doubts

i believe im a result of nurture not nature

it is not in my nature to swear but i stil do

things have very much been different from before

cry all u want bitch

guilt free

i choose to believe that not everyone wil be a de cun jing chi person
but its rather difficult
i tink i might actually b one such person
constantly pushin my limits at times
keyword is: at times.
when i should be trying harder, i dun.
oh well
ima gona jus live with wad i have
restrain all desirable but unattainable thoughts
for now :)

buay steady

sian
i wanna watch where got ghost

moderation

this blog is so extreme. cos the owner is
either im extremely happy and finds a need to pen things down or the other way round
i constantly realise that i have to moderate my feelings but it aint easy
maybe this is good,cos when i love,its wholehearted.

so this shall be a dull n mundane post
the day started off really well
woke up in my beloved blanket with the aircon stil on
making me so grateful that im alive
:)
there's a pig in my house
cant believe there's someone piggier than me
sometimes its so frustrating
cos im awake n HUNGRY
while the pig is stil sleeping which means i cant get my food
and when the pig's awake, it wil be looking for food at a faster rate than me
argh.
nonetheless this is a cute pig and i want it to stay with me for life!
cant find a pig thats so adorable and wont shit everywhere

im tryin to plan a hk trip alone,as well as a birthday party.
birthday's easy. hk is more challenging
when i get there im hoping to bring a C a GG and one LV back. :P
stil trying to make that happen
WOO!

somehow swensens' one for one deal no longer entice me today
is it because i had it yesterday?
most likely.
i wanna have dim sum
but there's nothing that serves dim sum buffet here
should i go chinatown for yum cha?
ok,i shall sign off with this mind blowing question

lotsa love,pig

fcuk u

its because of a useless fcuktard that hurt me.

either u wake up or u leave.

the latter seems more probable.

wads the big deal with everything abt u

soon u're gonna realise shit deal or jus no deal when u lose everything

fcuking sell fish moonger

face it

im not someone who feels good knowing that another person out there probably detests me.
so i attempt to always clear up the mess.

maybe i was wrong in the past
nonetheless i dun wish to let it carry on.
no doubt our lives dun intersect,
but stil im sure no one feels good abt havin someone not liking u for some reason or another
perhaps its jus my libra instincts
to always balance up eveything
hopefully that an apology wil resolve everything

recently saw someone
someone whom we mutually didnt really like each other in e past
suddenly when we saw each other, we were all smiling n chatting
it feels really strange
but i gues its much better than having to avoid each other and say shit
i saw that person

i'd very much prefer my peaceful lake rather than the stormy seas where waves can take u either to a new island full of surprises or drown u. thats really scary.

my underwater's pics r stil not here :X

i mis ade. suddenly i feel that she's missing somehow
hopefully we'l both be free for each other.
biscuit is gone too.
i wana be gone as well

im so gonna leave this place on my own to bring something good back

stevie wonder

woah im actually amused.
airing my confidence right round.
shall post up my underwater world pics here soon
personalise this blog a lil.
haha,im so happy.
u r so defeated :)

shopping spree's gonna begin again next week!

birthdays

many bdays to come!
there's ade's,kok's n mine
din reali bother abt bdays except for e presents
dun find any meaning to that day.
nonetheles im gona organise a chalet this yr as it has been twenty years since i las organised anyth on that day.
dun rmb havin any elaborate celebrations
wil give out more notices soon!!
wel i certainly to c u again there for one more time
perhaps one last time
haa.
no bad blood. jus miss ya thats all.
n i realised,i dun need anyone to love me like u said
i can do it better for myself

went to sentosa's underwater world ytd
reinforced my dream of becomin zoologist
playin with animals n talkin to them seemed like one brilliant idea
then again,bein in the defence industry seemed really cool as shown in transformers
for now,its best to get that D piece of paper first
BOO

present

jus when i made up i mind.
lets now c how this wil go.
wad an easy way to make things clear.

hurhur bitch

heaven drop me some wadever i need :)

byEEEEEEE

baby. harsh harsh.

oh fcuk. this is harder than i thought.
damn.
why did i do such tings?
why did i wanna find out so much
why did i wana c so much
why did i choose to go thru all these shit?

right from this moment,everything has changed.
shit. this hurts

i mean nothing
or rather
i have been nothing all these while.
shit shit shit shit shit

:((((((((

fcuk. fcuk. fcuk.
why am i crying so damn hard.
gosh

hushed.

ghosts

u were afterall once a bitch,werent u?
should have known better how things work
spoilt.

new month

first day of june signifies alot.
probably one of the best days of 2009.
i so cant believe that day came so fast.
really blessed n fortunate n lucky :):):):)
though im kinda in a pool of shit,im stil feeling happy

sometimes being nice is so easy
yet ppl jus choose to doubt
how silly to judge based on ur personal past n biasness
instead of objectively viewing the person.
i dun deny that i might be guilty of that at times.
thankfully things have improved for the better

there are many flaws of myself which i find pointless to deny
possessive,clingy,dominating,sceptical and the list goes on
i wonder is it jus me or there are ppl like me.
more importantly,can anyone actually tolerate these behaviour?
much as i wish to transform myself n make someone's life better off,
i find that im always falling back on where i begun
making no progress at all.
its arguable that this was actually the results of someone else's actions
nevertheless it is frustrating for me
i wanna do good to myself n to ppl ard me
why cant that opportunity be presented to me?
i feel so denied of the chance
a unique n so very special relationship lost jus like that
such a shame.
on the contrary,i should actually feel glad that i learnt a lesson here
enriched a great deal of my mind
shaping part of my thoughts n actions nowadays
i consider slightly more carefully abt issues
i make it a point to process information longer in my brains
before making any move.
this doesnt seem like me,i know.
since nth is absolute,it is jus right that i morph into something different
something more amazing n better than before
:)
i wonder why am i ranting so much
n i decided to come clean
i wana b heard
not by anyone but jus that someone
i really dun care if this message might ever get across to anyone
but being able to be myself matters more.

now now,
where did Goofy go?
how come the entire orchard road oso dun have? :(
stupid lah. wait wait wait. now its gone.
somethings jus CANT wait.
now i noe.
SALE is on EVERY corner nowadays.
can wait?
haha,is the answer obvious enough?

aiyo~

why am i sick again?
booboo

perhaps its a golden opp for me to jus rot at hm and sleep,as i've always wanted
hehe :)

GG,i hope i can get u tmr.
Goofy,i hope i can get u tmr too.

that wil pretty much complete my may days n round it well nicely.

but but but
there are so much uncertainties.
hope my goofy doesnt run away.
dun mind GG being jus a dream for now.

oh man oh man

its all arranged by Him
Praise the Lord

LL

today i made several bad decisions
felt quite down momentarily

nonetheless it was a pretty good day :)

at least my decisions were not as bad as some weirdo's



looking forward to GG :3

the part where the end starts

i cant take it any longer

thought that we were stronger.












u dun deserve anything anymore.

LOSER

i dun wanna talk to u.

i need u out of my life.

as soon as possible

lib?

yay i got audition in my lappy
very noob at it though
oh i heard econs paper was difficult
i heard poa was difficult too.
haha
im a poor gauge so gotta listen around.
such a pity there's no bell curve in this system.
its fairer this way i gues.

did i mention,
amos looks like einstein?
he probably is a transformation of albert.
haha i would so love to make frens with him
will catch amos next year when i c him again

hehe. thats supposed to be a not so happy statement.
but i deserve it.
so i shall accept it.

oh no food at tamp one is nice n yummy.
hehe

ANGELS N DEMONS.

i so wish to be like robert langdon
smart n intelligent.
however given a choice,i'd prefer the title of a bimbo.
for,ignorance is always bliss.
:D

coming

hoho exams are jus round the corner n im sick.
great.
its gonna get more painful when i c the results?

haa.

i wana acquisite c C:

thank u

thank u for bein so simple at times that ur innocence touched me.



Thank u. :)

G and T

hohoho. Im back. This time better. :)

hehe i smell beautiful fresh air awaiting me every min.

Nowadays alot new shows n even more to come. Oh man. Shall watch 17again tmr. My idol w e same bday as me!! :p

I simply adore my lecturer. Pink blue purple looks good on a tie. ahaha.


I will work hard to unfold the story of G and T. Definitely,not maybe. :D

do the things u have to

here i am,once again :)
hearing some 'please dun leave me' song on the radio.
so emo!!!

please please dun leave me.

heartless
i hate this part right here
insomnia

aptly describes me.

God bless!

sherman..

is wad im gonna name my son next time. haha im really intrigued by this name :)

im so tiredd
but i cant sleep
really too much in my head.
wish i was stil 'babiting'
why cant everything be as simple as ABC

literally crushed.

the best you've never had

tonight's perfect cut was good..
everything should remain at square one..
or even back to the origins.

enough is enough

tell me why

why did things turn out that way? i meant well.

sometimes its only good if u spare a thought for urself n no one else.

ignorance is bliss.

i hate wadever im feeling right now.

watchmen

woah! thought it was gonna be a boring show,but it proved more substance. kinda long n draggy though. managed to stay awake throughout the whole movie even when i felt really tired! hehe. the characters intrigued me to continue watchin. portrayed different varieties of mankind on this planet. hahaha. had a really bad sore throat for the past few days. been raising my voice out loud n hanging out late. good times i would say :)

the watchmen show really got me thinking.

dear diary

its been so long since i last came here to visit u
been busy?
nah, more of lazy i would say.
very caught up with alot of stuf
thinkin too much.
probably i wish everything will be simplified
but apparently its getting worse as the days go by
too much demands, wants and needs to be fulfilled.
with poor prioritising skills,
everything ends up in a mess.
im finding a way out of all these
n i believe soon it wil be fine
real soon.

im thankful for my vibrant and so very colourful life.
may it continue to fill me with joy n happiness.

move along

trying to get on with life fast.

i wanna watch red cliff 2!