Stupid&DumbAss (CURRENTLY UNDERGOING "MAJOR" OVERHAUL);

Friday, September 04, 2009

THURSDAY
04 0430H SEP09
Departure Date

Suddenly feeling emotional. It's just like fighting the gigantic waves from within.

It's a long night. I just can't fall asleep. Only by keeping awake Time will seem to crawl. Many are looking forward to the trip. I want to fast forward it from the point of departure. I'm obsessed with your company.

I hope that you liked the past few days' company. I know you have not been very happy but you still put on a front just for my sake. I appreciate that. I just didn't want to ask you why you did that. I know it's because of Love.

I've thought of letting you go so that you'll be happier. But I'm selfish. I want you to share my burden. I want to take care of you. I really can't let go.

I feel we're like at two ends of the rope. Whenever we are drifting apart, the rope starts to tighten and things starts going wrong and quarrels are inevitable. But I hope the rope will always remain slack and two ends are kept close to each other.

I hope that you'll take care for now. When I'm back I'll take care of you ok?

I love you.

xx signed off at 5:45 AM

Friday, August 21, 2009

21Aug09

Friday

19:01

Today I'm on duty.

I'm bored,

my girlfriend is bored.

I'm sorry we quarrelled again.

I lost my temper.

I promised you happiness.

But it seemed to me that I only gave you loneliness.

We made it very far, but if being alone

brings you more happiness.

I shall be happy for you.

It's a long journey from the start.

It all began in Laos.

The community service trip,

the cave,

the train ride,

the repainting with bare hands

to the 1st X'mas and now our

upcoming 3yrs anniversary in 1month 17 days.

Many things we've done together and I hope

that we can continue to do things

together cohesively like in the past.

We're always trying to change for the better.

However, I think we forgot about

what we used to like about each other.

We were just always thinking,

caring, loving each other etc.

I felt very fortunate to have your company.

I miss the feeling.

.:iLOVEu:.

xx signed off at 7:01 PM

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Saturday 18-04-09 02:17AM

This week got confinement. Sian.

I'm sorry GF
=(

xx signed off at 2:12 AM

Sunday, March 01, 2009

I feel very sad right now.

We're quarrelling more often.

This is not what I wanted.

We're drifting.

You're right.

I'm always self-centred.

I'm sorry.

xx signed off at 4:22 AM

Saturday, November 29, 2008

Life is getting tougher in NS life. But all this will be over soon because either I get OOC (Out-Of-Course) or pass through to the next phase. Of course I will try my best to get on to the next phase. But nowadays as the requirements are more "water-based", I feel the huge pressure and stress of not clearing the evolutions by the end of this phase.

"Liberty" is another push factor where I want to clear everything ASAP. The earlier I secure, the earlier I can relax and concentrate on other evolutions.

I need more water confidence! Entering the 1.8m pool has been a challenge until NS came. Now a bigger challenge is posed to me and I have to overcome that fear.

But however tough the training is, I always feel better when I hear your voice at night. I feel that someone will be there for me when I need the reassurance that I am doing okay. I love you lots GF. Sorry I can't be there 247 for you to vent your daily frustrations for now, but I am willing to be your punching bag during the weekends ok?

I love you.

xx signed off at 7:43 PM

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Tuesday

09/09/08
4:13am

23months and still counting.

Went to Bugis early in the morning with my mum to the Temple. Weather here is definitely cooler than in Hong Kong in the afternoon time. And after that I went to Paragon to get my SIM card replaced.

And I had to conjure some white lies to prevent M1 from charging me the reconnection fee.

HAHA.

SOUNDS so silly, but I am on a very tight buget for the day!

Moving on from there, we met up and headed for Cineleisure for a movie.

Wall-E

The movie was okay with many funny parts in between.
However, I think there is a message the producer is trying to bring out
to the audience, which is the pollution problems in Earth may cause
it to be uninhabitable in the future.

Although the message behind was serious, it was made "friendly"
where people could just laugh it all off. And I feel that the movie
was quite ok as I personally like animated movies.

I think the sound effects was quite funny and worth the money
to watch it at the theatres. (=

BUT!

I can't get to sleep. Maybe it's cause I'll be away for around 2weeks. Though I'll still be in Singapore mainland, but I just feel so far apart from everyone else. And I know Time will just fly pass. And 2 years will just pass in no time.

By then a Man I shall become.

And I just went to shave my hair. Cause I don't really trust the "uncles" inside will do a good job and I cannot really "hiam" if I am not satisfied.

And I enjoyed the day. (=

But I shall go back to the DotA world for now.

xx signed off at 4:15 AM

Monday, September 08, 2008

08/09/08
Monday
1:27am

Today is our 1yr and 11mths! Hope you like the present! (=

I'm back from the wonderful Hong Kong trip with my GF and her family and friend!

Which only means one thing. Good things have come to an end. And with this trip ending in just a blink of an eye, I am going into NS very soon. In just less than 3 days, I will be reporting into an environment where I will be exposed to stuffs that boys go through to become a better man.

Just hope that you'll take care of yourself. I can't always be there for you from Wednesday onwards.

Feeling emotional now.

Good night. Guess you're sleeping like a log now.

Sleep tight and sweet dreams.

xx signed off at 1:16 AM