hm...
i shall note down whatever was in my mind when i bathed juz now...
ytd n today wasnt v great... felt quite down... some stuff juz pulls me down... not so bad though... i didnt have energy to go school ytd, and today, i went school, juz didnt have energy to go class.. so i studied in library n roam around nj... coz today is officially my last school day in school... argh... darn...
it was 2 years ago... Mr Chow, the senior boarding master of Raffles Institution Boarding School told me that... you'll appreciate something much more when you are going to lose/leave it...
what have i left...
Indonesia and my 16 years worth of memories... wasnt too hard... i had a tough life back at home... i even remembered i couldnt wait to leave indo when i was about to go... only after few years, i start missing my family... maybe to some extent, few close friends i ever have... but now, they may not even remmeber i lived...
Dunman Hostel and RELC bridging course... my first 2 months in singapore... new faces... a bunch of people that i called family... most probably coz all of us were strangers in this alien land... 50 solid friends from indonesia.
RI and RIBS... RI was easy... i was looked down and treated like a useless illegal immigrant... haha... RIBS was tough though.. i spent most of my 2 years there...the bond w the people there was strong.. triple bond with 2 phi bond and 1 sigma bond... The teachers there was like my parents... but they all are gone..
NJC and HCIBS... HCIBS is gonna be easy... i'll have small argument with simply every staff here... i am juz too open and i believe in what's right... haha... but i think the staff dont like feedbacks, coz it highlight their weakness :p
NJC... Soon.. gonna leave it soon.. today was e last classroom day... and yes... it's over... i've fought the battle.. and i've lost... 8 months of fight is finally over... and i found myself here... missing all three goals i've had... maybe i'm a total loser... cant even accomplish 3 things in such a long time... but maybe there wasnt enough time... maybe i wasnt good enough... maybe it wasnt meant to be... there are a lot of maybes... but i've learnt to take things easy... at least easier...
--i juz dont have the stamina.. i didnt train enough... going as far as semis is good enough... playing good games with my best buds was fulfilling enough :)
after NJ i can still play badminton
--i started late... what matter is i didnt give up although everyone, every odd was against me... i did improved quite a lot though far from my dream.. i hoped i will leave a good name in NJ...
there's still time before As...
--a strong friendship is forged... one that is special and i believe, unique...
i'll come back to singapore... and i hope things will be the same.. take care...
well... every ending is a beginning...
and i wanna make this ending a good one, so i'll have a nicer beginning for e new life...
yeap...
gonna study till i die... haha... it wont happen...
coz a good friend of mine once told me... " why die? study so hard alr, if die b4 exam damn wasted"... lol... thanks for the advice! you may not remember u told me that, so are so many other things... maybe that's coz u have bad memories :p lol... but i'll always rmb every small little thing... coz they matter to me =) if i forget... er... that's because i've keep that sweet memories in one small corner of my heart :p so i have right to forget, but not you... haha...
talkd to shawn tan han kit n shu ying juz now... man... couldnt stand it... walking out of school was painful... it's over... haha... i've expired from NJ... a place that i call home more than anything else...
no one will ever understand how much NJ means to me... no one will...
thanks
for e memories...
everyone
if i say i love you people, i'll be gay...
but guess wad...
i am gay...
i love you people... thanks for making NJ so comfortable to live in.. and i'll hate you for making it so hard to let go.. haha...
time to mug =)