All in life on you depends.

If one day you suddenly realise, under totally unprepared circumstances, that the yummiest, most gorgeous piece of eye candy you've been drooling over and fantasizing about for the past few weeks officially and eternally belongs to someone else, does that totally increase that person's appeal because you know he can never be yours, or does the supposed 'value' of that person drop to nothingness since there is now no more excitement to anticipate?

So in a manner of speaking
I just want to say
That just like you I should find a way
To tell you everything
By saying nothing.

Nouvelle Vague - In A Manner Of Speaking.

P.S. It's not like I really care what other people think, but just so everyone knows, he is NOT in his forties with three kids, a house and a dog.

You made a fool of me.

Random photo post, after I finally decided to upload pictures (since CNY *gasp*) from my camera.

In chronological order...

CNY visiting. If you think this is a pointless photo with three women and one teenage boy, look again at what ALL three women are doing. And you thought only young people were addicted to technology. One of my 'bwahahhahahahaa' CNY moments this year.

We had to resort to doing silly things in the car while being driven to our 'visiting destinations'.

The routine madness one day before flying back to Melbourne, with all my things strewn over the floor :D

Japanese curry, cuzzie-style (uh, this should last a week or two).

Drenched by the rain at the uni's Asian Night Market last Friday, but sausages (and a piece of delicious man meat :D) saved the day!

Fried udon noodles, cuzzie-style (this should also last a week or two).

Our (very) well-stocked kitchen for the impending war.

Dinner last night at Krua Thai II - what we call 'the best Thai restaurant out of Thailand'.

Haru-chan and me acting meek and timid (well actually it was to hide my extra large face after the dinner).

The four of us... Happy Birthday Aa-chan! ^_^

Pon and Zi.

I lost my wallet today; I wonder if it will ever come back...

Shengxia Guangnian.


Selection #2/3 for MQFF 2007 - definitely one of the best Mandarin films I've seen in a long time. A relatively strange plot, but brilliant acting and fantastic ending nonetheless. The only gripe I have about it was the way they spoke - sitting through 95 minutes of Taiwanese-style Mandarin, which I often roll my eyes at because it's so 'lazy', was quite a pain.

And yes, I cried. We both cried (duh!) :D

Now I just need #3 "The Gymnast" to end my Triple Choc Pass with a blast! ^_^

I give "Eternal Summer" 4.3 stars out of 5, plus a strawberry cheesecake for stealing our hearts, and tears.

“你还记得吗？
我们的关系是开始于一个规定的。”

~ 盛夏光年~

Cut Sleeve Boys.


You know, when I was very much younger I used to be super in love with Steven Lim (NO, not the disgusting Singapore Idol eyebrow trimming one!!!). I remember being intensely smitten with his character "David Tay" from that ancient Singapore drama "Growing Up" (because he was so cute la). My Dad and I would watch it together faithfully every Sunday evening with our takeaway dinners, with me secretly wishing for a future boyfriend who would be exactly like him. I was actually a little heartbroken when I first found out he was ... ahem (BAH teenage girls!).

Just when I thought he has disappeared from the screens for good, one of his movies comes to Melbourne for the MQFF, and obviously I was dying to see it!!!! I mean, I couldn't possibly pass up on a chance to reconnect with "David Tay" right? :D Apparently he's now more 'open' about his sexuality and playing characters closer to his heart (as opposed to a uni student with a nurse girlfriend - Fiona Xie :p). Watching an ex-celebrity love in a movie yesterday felt really nice, a little bit nostalgic even, but it was also my first time watching him portray a gay man and after almost ten years of not seeing him onscreen... that kinda needed a bit of getting used to O_o

"Cut Sleeve Boys" gets 3.75 stars out of 5 from me.

Paper doll.

I was tidying my room when I found a letter that I had very intentionally left amidst my crazy pile of papers:

"I won't say good-bye because I still think I would accept your emails when you need me. But not often! Only sometimes."

Instinctively I felt like tearing it up and be done with it, but I was thinking that ten years down the road I will stumble upon it once again while cleaning my room, read it, and go "Haha!!!".

Those seven months will definitely be ranked #1 on my "WTF WAS I THINKING" list. But we grow and learn from these things, and I'm glad I did.

And it'll be just as quiet when I leave
As it was when I first got here.

Rachael Yamagata - Quiet.

Reason why.

Rachael Yamagata. American-born German-Japanese (I think) lady who sings the best melancholic, broody songs that speak to my heart.

On the very front page of Rachael Yamagata's website, I was once again reminded of this...

Next performance:

Mosaic Music Festival
March 17th
8pm
Esplanade Concert Hall
Singapore

For obvious reasons, Piggy and I are unable to attend the above event, and it's absolutely causing the both of us severe and genuine unhappiness.

Oh Rachael, how you have broken our hearts... we demand that you come to Melbourne soon!!!!!!!!!! :(

!$#@###@$@%%!!!!!!!!

And I'll find a way
To see you again.

Rachael Yamagata - I'll Find A Way.

Quiet.

Email from the IT in-charge at SMAC always comes with the following signature, and the last line ALWAYS cracks me up.

This e-mail and any attached files are confidential. If you receive this e-mail by mistake please notify us now and don't use, distribute, forward, print, copy or deal with it in any way. You must virus scan and test the information before loading it onto any computer. Whilst we have taken all care we cannot warrant that the e-mail and the files attached are free of a virus or any other defect or error and we won't accept liability for any loss or damage caused by software viruses or malicious scripts. Any personal information must be dealt with under the Privacy Act 1988 (Cth). And if you've read this far, you need a life.

LOL!!!!

And if this ain't love.

I totally understand that as school kids most of us are guilty of this at some point, but as far as being in a classroom situation is concerned, and especially at university level, nothing annoys me more than people talking amongst themselves when the lecturer/tutor is talking.

And I have realised, to my dismay, that it is almost always the Aussie students who are doing so (yes I am blatantly pointing my finger).

I was in a lecture on Monday and trying to listen very hard as I was seated at the last row, and while Sensei turned her back to write on the board, people started chattering away at the top of their voices, laughing, giggling, etc. They did not stop even after Sensei started to speak again, and from my bird's eye view from the top I could totally see that it was the local students who were the disrespectful ones, while the international students (who pretty much stuck to their own little "Asian international student" groups, but hey, at least they were paying attention) were listening attentively, or at least it seemed like they were ;)

The chattering from the lecture continued in today's tutorial for the exact same subject, and poor Sensei had no choice but to very exasperatedly tell us that we were noisy and to keep quiet, which I thought was pretty embarrassing considering we were all doing an advanced level subject. I can imagine that frustration of trying to get a message across, only for your voice to be drowned out by other people talking ABOVE yourself.

This subject is not the first one in which I'd experienced such impolite behaviour towards a teacher, and strangely enough it was only in Japanese-language subjects that I've come across this (Japanese 2A immediately comes to mind). I wonder if it's because female (and Japanese) teachers seem more easy-going/less strict/less aggressive, so people take that for granted?

I am actually rather thankful that international (Asian) students like myself were brought up in environments which emphasised respect towards teachers and superiors (even though I didn't care much about these values then), because now it totally reflects on who are the ones who practise basic classroom etiquette and those who ignore it. It just makes me feel like, okay, so the education system in Western societies allows more freedom for choice and cultivates more room for creativity and all, but surely there is something just as important that they've failed to properly teach their kids at school?

So SHUT UP already, all of you.

But you knew I loved you.

The very first post-summer thesis meeting with the supervisor this morning triggered off a conversation, as well as certain memories of the previous semester that I will forever remember, and some that I would rather forget.

Sitting in front of a desktop in the computer lab with suddenly so much to say, then led to an act I thought I was no longer capable of - somewhat impulsive in retrospect (and I totally look down upon myself with complete disdain just thinking about it), but I guess ultimately I got the response I had wished for, and I should be satisfied, if not terribly overjoyed.

In some ways I can't wait for April/May to arrive and the potential possibility of what could or might happen, but at the same time I am nervous and anxious as hell, because the mere thought of it, regardless of whether it eventually materialises or not... absolutely KILLS.

People
You can never change the way they feel
Better let them do just what they will
For they will
If you let them
Steal your heart from you
People
Will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew I loved you
We could have shown them all
We should have seen love through.

George Michael - Kissing A Fool.

Quid pro quo, yes or no?

Despite all that controversy surrounding the 1999 movie version of "Anna And The King", it is a movie that I really liked and will always remain one of my favourites!

.... Hmm, even though the Thai characters were portrayed by our familiar Singaporean actors and actresses :>

How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one waltz away from all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone?

Joy Enriquez - How Can I Not Love You.

It ain't over till it's over.

(Special thanks to http://gaelgarciadaily.livejournal.com)

Gael with Eva Green presenting an award at the recent Oscar's

Uh, and Diego, I love you too... but seriously - LOSE THE FUZZ!!!



And for those who are interested...


Video of Gael and Eva presenting the award. Note how Gael tries to stifle a giggle after he realised the double meaning in a certain part of his speech ;p Cute!

X X X

So guess what, the resident movie buff (i.e. ME) was glued to the TV for almost four hours (ugh) watching the 79th Academy Awards on Monday. Not that there were many awards I cared about (uh, stuff like Best Costume Design and Best Sound Mixing...?), but there was quite a handful of eye candy in their suits and expensive designer evening gowns. And is there any dress that Cate Blanchett cannot wear? Make her wear a potato sack next year -_-

Anyhow, it's the fourth day of the new semester and I've been feeling ...... okay. As far as my schedule goes, I have a grand total of SIX hours contact time, which is obviously very very little, BUT that also means I have LOTS of independent study to do (and not forgetting the thesis). And knowing how unmotivated and undisciplined I always am (take this moment for example, I am updating my blog?!), I fear for my future. It definitely is different this year, what with the sudden disappearance of our favourite local (Singaporean) food cafe on Lygon Street (WTF!)... I am also missing the people whom I used to see all the time in my classes, those who have either gone home for good or doing other subjects now.

On a much brighter note, today I made friends with two new postgrad students from Chinese Studies. They seem nice and all and I look forward to getting to know them this semester, but pity they are female. Hee hee!!

...... which is a good thing of course, so I won't have any unwelcome distractions at this crucial point in my academic life! ^_^

Here we are
Still together
We are one
So much time wasted
Playing games with love.

Lenny Kravitz - It Ain't Over Till It's Over.