So I have been 21 years of age for a week and 2 days. The biggie on the 10th was oooookay I guess (with much reluctance) - the banner (what banner?) was bad, the DJ merely stood there playing CDs, and I never got to play the games I wanted so much to. All because of bad planning and organising (not my fault *shrugs*). I don't know what to say. The only thing I know is, my guests saved the day. Thank you everyone who made my biggie possible - if I were to remember my 21st birthday for any good reason at all, it would be for you.

Seems pretty difficult to believe, but I still haven't opened all my pressies. I think the element of surprise before opening a birthday present diminishes as a person grows older. So far, my pressies include 4 watches (popular gift I reckon O.O), 7 necklaces (seems like it), 2 jigsaws (I can never complete one myself), a few bracelets, some ornaments and displays, a towel with my name sewn on it, 2 David Tao CDs (rawwwrrr you guys sure read my mind!) and a very pretty musical box from Precious Thots. Now I shall have to wreck my brains on which watch/necklace to wear on which day ^_^

Everyone asked me if I withdrew my ERS already. I was like "Har? Can withdraw from ATM ah?" Apparently I get about 200 bucks? Better than nothing. Yay *waves a Singapore flag to show appreciation* -_-

Had a pretty good time with the cell yesterday. I stayed in church from 11.30 till like, *hhhhh!!!!* 5 pm, after which I went shopping for CNY clothes with DX -_- And yes, despite all that blasphemy (;p), they are still a very sweet bunch of people. They organised a belated birthday celebration for me at lunch, BUT made me choose 1 out of 3 cards with silly dares on it. I picked one which read "Sing a Chinese New Year song at the bamboo tree at the centre of the restaurant".

-_-

So I did. And if that wasn't bad enough, they forced me to do silly dance moves together with the song *goes red*.

I want to watch Naked Ambition. Not that the movie is any good (heard it stinks), but just for the thrill of being able to legitimately watch an R(A) movie without worrying if my IC will be checked. Rawwwrrrr. It sure feels good to be stopped by the ticket checker at the entrance and then flashing out my IC with a smug grin on my face which says, "neh neh nee poo poo. I am 21 already. Doesn't look like it eh? Too bad. I look younger than YOU. Bwahahahahhahahaha."

Okay I'm crazy.

Will be heading down to NUS FASS on Tuesday afternoon to crash the Jap lecture. Any free tours available? :>

It's 2.46 am, and my head is spinning.

Bed.

Don't go changing to try and please me
You've never let me down before.

Billy Joel - Just the way you are.

A year older.

Thanks everyone for the wishes, smses, icq messages and phone calls (Strangely enough, Mom kept quiet... heh). Actually, I haven't hit 21 yet. I was born at 4.17 am on the morning of January 10. Hahaha.

Oh there she goes singing me the Happy Birthday song ^_^ She just came out from the bathroom.

My favourite sms so far, from Gabby: You've turned 21. In the eyes of the law, you're independent. You start to receive ERS, and you can vote for PAP (or otherwise!). Stay lively, chatty, and cute. Happy Birthday Lynn! Oh ya... did I mention that 21 is the minimum age requirement to watch RA movies?

I don't look 21, think 21, act 21. Oh well. Shit happens.

All psyched up for the biggie. Well actually, not really. I'm always a bag of nerves.

'cos we all know in our minds
that there ought to be a time
that we can set aside
to show just how much we love you.

Stevie Wonder - Happy Birthday.

Feel better now.

I realised that all I needed to feel better was 2 rounds of Jane Monheit's "Over The Rainbow". That amounts to (6 minutes 40 seconds) X 2. Jane Monheit may not be the most popular jazz singer around, but her voice makes you happy. The way she delivers her notes makes me smile. Her music is, however, very very much unappreciated.

I swear, it took away all the hatred and unhappiness earlier on. Not that it isn't there anymore... but a huge bit just went away. That's enough.



Taken at Thai Express earlier this week, had dinner with Z. Asked the manager about the notice they pasted on the glass window - "part/full time waiter/waitress wanted. walk in for interview" The working hours suck and the pay stinks. I guess not.



But don't forget who's taking you home and in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling save the last dance for me.

The Drifters - Save the Last Dance for Me.

I can't help it.

Whenever I hear that sickening name, regardless of its context, my blood boils. It's been almost 3 years now, but some things just don't change. I guess it's just because of you, and your connection with her. What she used to do in the past. How she irritated and annoyed me to no end. The very fact that she belongs to you now. **** it.

I'm such a selfish bitch. But I guess when you realise that the person you hate most on earth starts taking driving lessons from YOUR very own uncle, you can't help it but feel terrible. You wish she would drop dead while driving in the car. You wish she would bang into a tree. I don't know why, it's just that selfish bit of me at work. I need therapy badly. Where is the connection though? Isn't it good that your uncle gets to earn extra money?

Yeah, I guess. But... just not her.

I still feel terrible.

My dear friends, remember never to name your daughter Eileen. It's just like a swear word to me. For all you know, ten years later when you read the paper, you see the headline: "WOMAN STRANGLES BEST FRIEND'S 3 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER TO DEATH, BECAUSE VICTIM SHARED SAME NAME WITH HER ENEMY".

X X X X X

Xavier Wong: I am so glad you found your special someone after so long. Time to stop dating and flirting!!! And, who cares what other people think, as long as you both are happy. As long as you are happy. You know I will always love you but don't you dare ditch me for N!!!!!!! Heh, just an early-bird warning ^_^

Kaelyn: Did you have a good TIM-e? :> Heard about the long drive around the country. Have fun!

Perrin: Still breathing?

ElmoDuck: Happy to have you back. Take your time to settle down before meeting me, okay? :>

The birthday prep is killing me. Some people just don't want to reply me. So be it. I am striking you off my invite list.

I hope everything turns out well. And no, I refuse to believe I hit 21 in 7 days. Seven days.

I am a selfish bitch.

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid of what you are.

Mariah Carey - Hero.