Abnormality

Trapped; Can't Reach

Something interesting happened today. But yet scary leh. Haiz. I boarded the MRT like every other day. The door did not close like how the usual “impatient” alarm will go off warning ppl of closing doors. Instead, there was a quite a long wait, followed by an announcement that there was a technical fault and they apologized for the delay. I was tinking if I should get out of the train to play safe. That was the start of my mind running a bit wild with pessimistic thoughts. Well, but I just stayed put, somehow.

The train went off. But it felt different. The wheels were making quite an unusual noise, and the train were moving at the usual speed it would accelerate. And gradually it came to a halt. Yes, right in the tunnel itself. Some ppl jerked and had to maintain their balance, as the train was slanted to the right. It was really scary. Very scary. This guy who was beside me nearly banged against the glass door. When I looked up and saw that the train carridge was slanted to one side, I just froze and wonder what’s next. Did I somewhat boarded a doom-bound train?! Hmm… the halt went on for at a minute or two, in that pitch black tunnel. We are just a one less scare from having the train lights n aircon going off.

Fine… the same announcement abt technical fault went on again, and it really did scare me. And soon after, the train went off. Once again with the same weird and funny sounds coming fm the wheels I tink, and the not-so-fast speed as it should have been. And the 2nd halt came. This 2nd time, I was already tinking if I should take out my hp and make a call, at least give my last words, just in case my life ends in that fateful tunnel, and I won’t get to see the sky anymore again. Hmmm… Yes, these were the thots tat were running thru my mind. I got really scared, and I didn’t even dare to really look up and see how others were responding. I wonder if fear was written all over my face that others might tink that I was just being silly. This 2nd halt was really longer and I was just trying to remain calm. I heard some gers giggling somewhere behind me. What’s so funny? Sighs…

It moved again… and here comes the 3rd halt. Urgh! 3 halts jus betw 2 stations?!? Something must be wrong, isn’t it? Sighs… I stood still, reminded of the recent train blast that happened in Japan. And all the gory and chaotic images I caught on movies, tv, pictures, just began to flash back in my mind. So scary. I just can’t wait to get out of the train, alive.

Finally, when the train moved, it really moved and sounded really alright. And finally I reached my destination! Phew! It was such a relief for sure. Hmm… don’t tink this is 1st time SMRT has experienced such glitches, and perhaps I should not be making such a big hoo-ha about it. Thinking back, this experience has posed me a big question mark. It has led me to ponder abt What I would do today, if tomorrow never comes? If seriously, I was left with just that little time, to make some last call/s out, to who would I call, and what will be the last words to whoever-it-may concern?

Till then, haf a blessed wk...
* jac

Fast Forward

Communication is vital

Hi my friends!
How's everybody?

Yeah, the week is coming to an end. So far, work has been fine. At least I am not complaining as much as my internship last year! Hmm... I m posted to Biz Advisory - Corporate Finance dept. Only mysuf and another SMU intern are posted there. Majority of the interns are at the Audit and Tax dept. My dept functions on a project basis, serving cliental needs. Hmm... so far, the work pace is pretty slow. I wish they can pile me up with MORE MORE MORE work. Am I crazy? Perhaps ah? In SMU, the male-female ratio is 1:3. At my dept, it's totally opposite. Including me, there are only 6 females out of 22 ppl in e dept. I didn't expect it to be so male dominated. I sense a lot of warmth within the dept itself. There is a normally a trend of high employee turnover, thus my colleagues and bosses are mostly rather young - lates 20s and early 30s. Apart fm work, I am feeling a big burden to share with my colleagues the love of Christ. It's gonna be a challenge, judging fm the fact tat interaction is mostly during lunch. But I pray that sth will happen within my short stay there. =)

I have been reminded how precious life is. Yest, I learnt tat a friend's mother passed away. It is depressing to hear of such news quite a no.of times jus dis yr alone =(. And today, I nearly met w an accident. It was jus so close. So so close. I am v sure that my life wun be preserved if I was a sec late. If I was really gone, then the last person whom I spoke to was my colleague Jasmine, and the last person whom I spoke to thru sms was David. Someway of remembrance? I shan't type out what happened, but the whole scene has locked so deeply in my mind, that I still shiver whenever I tink about it every now and then. Hmm... dis has worsened my road phobia... =( Indeed, Life is precious. Each time I see my colleagues taking a puff, I just wished I could do sth to stop them. Hmm n one of them even offered me a stick and when I rejected, he even came up w a reason why I shd, which was a STUPID one... *Faints*

Till then, the weekends are here! =)
Have a break ppl...
* jac

Marketplace Ministry

Dense Coverage

Hi there!

Tommorrow - My 1st day of work on my 2nd internship stint at KPMG. After 20 days of so called holidays, it's time for a change. These 20 days have been pretty fruitful, I would give myself, say 75/100 (???). *winkz*

It's truly by God's grace that I am given an opportunity to do internship again. I supposed I have shared with some of you all how it all came about. But if I haven't, and If you would like to know, you can always ask me. =)

Somehow or rather, being borned naturally with lazy-bones, I have decided to come up with the "10 reasons why I must look forward to work" to motivate myself.

"10 reasons why I must look forward to work"

1. It’s an honour to be offered an internship. My pleasure. I should humble myself, be diligent and exhibit a willing-to-learn spirit.

2. To gain work experience! To understand myself better and find out if this line of work is what God is drawing me towards after graduation.

3. Gain new knowledge! To get out of the classroom and textbook, be able to observe and learn how an organization manages its respective functionalities in reality.

4. Networking! To get to know new friends - my colleagues and supeviors better so as to help me in developing soft skills and maturity, and smoothen the transition from school to worklife. To share God’s love in the workplace, where in in Today’s society, stress levels have hit record levels.

5. To get used to working life! No more tees and jeans. It’s formal wear!!! No more many-small breaks, but 1 lunch break only. More importantly, being able to cope with work pressure and people relations (Warning: Work politics!). Being able to handle a change of lifestyle of having to devote the day to work, and having only nights available for personal affairs.

6. Monetary benefits! Though salary is not much and not really that an important aspect as compared to the experience gained, but I supposed I am able to give a larger portion tithes and offering for the next few months. =) With slightly more $, I must continue to exercise responsibilities in managing my finances as well plan for the future.

7. No more homework!!! I have my nights and weekends FREE so I can do whatever I want, having NOT subjected to homework, projects… etc.

8. To be able to identify with my friends who are also out on internships, that we can encourage each other and help each other along the way.

9. 11 weeks (Praying to take 1 week leave for church retreat!) will pass by very fast! Yeah… the internship will only last for 10 weeks, unless they would like me to extend my stay.

10. A whole NEW experience! Trust God for He works for the good of those who love Him.

Well, coming up with these 10 points really made me pause and reflect even more. I hope to add on to these pointers even as I go on. *hopefully* =) Feel free to contribute to my list. I might have missed out on sth! But of cuz ideas must be realistic rite? As I read thru the list, it kinda sounded like a list of objectives rather. Hmm... as for objectives, perhaps Pts 2, 3, 4 & 5 yah.

Till then... Have a gd week ahead! =)
* jac

My love

Some things can never change

Greetings to all!

There is just TOO much that I wanna say. This blog is absolutely NOT enuff man! Oh wellz, and now there have been rifes of news that a blog is actually a mass media being shared with the public, and it carries the same amount of weight if you were to write to the forum in e papers. Bloggers muz be careful w wad they say, lest they risk being involved in defamation suits. Sighs...

Anyway, I went for a swim that day and I finally hit 20 laps! It has been a long time since I ever achieved that. Went in with the mentality of doing 16 only, cuz I felt really lazy. But somehow, someway, I did 2 sets of 10 each in the end. The funny thing was that I took 50mins in all, with a 5mins break in betw. I thot I would take longer than that actually. While I was doing my 19th and 20th lap, I felt so terrible. There was this puking feeling evoking inside of me, and I still had to breathe in and out. When I touched the wall for the 20th time, the sense of relief was more than words can say. Really!

I was childish, silly, stupid ... (the adjectives go on) enuff to actually race with this guy who was swimming along the next lane. Hmm I just started and I saw him at the 1/3 of e pool already. I have no idea why I jus decided to cheong, and I eventually caught up w him when we almost reached the next end of e pool. And as for e following laps, we were swimming at the same speed. Hmm I m VERY sure tat was his toitoise speed. I dont tink I can ever swim faster than a guy. After some laps, he stopped and I continued, and the "race" ended. Sobs. WAHAHAH! So kiddy...

I don't know why I love leisure swimming so much. It has been in me since a kid. I rem how it started, when my dad brought my to Big Splash many many many years back. Perhaps I should return to that place someday to relinquish the nostagia. I swam alot during my pri sch n sec days. But not so in JC. Decided to devote time to it now in Uni, at least once a wk. I reckon I am too old to get into competitive swim sports, and I don't want to anyway. The reason is really due to lack of discipline. *lazy* I read the papers tat day n there was dis association that was treating youths suffering fm mental probs due to stress and other probs. And it encourages e youths to take up sports as that help to release frustrations. I wonder how true is that? True, I feel that my moods are elated after that. It that the reason how come I get SUCH a kick of out of swimming? I love swimming under the sun!! But I nol it's bad... should I care?! Hahah...

Till then... take care ppl.. =)
* jac