Sunday, October 18, 2015

回头看了看，我们一起写的部落格。发现好久没有写了。也发现好像以前写的都在说我们之间的争执。虽然快乐的时光很多，可是，好像生气，难过的时候也一样的多。

最近，自己就一直在想。也不知道是不是胡思乱想。就觉得，我们在一起，到底适不适合？

希望下一次，自己登入这里的时候，是对我们更有信念的时候。

Sunday, November 02, 2014

Thursday, February 28, 2013

So it has been 3 months with my N2s (dating from 1st Dec 2012 to 1st March 2013) and I wouldn't say it has been a breeze.

From taking over certain kids from the other N1 class, to helping them as well as my former kids improve behaviour and discipline, to meeting my transferred child from ACC, to learning more about the old and new parent's expectations, to inquiries during Tea Session and even to lessons (core curriculum, Phonics, & the latest is Readers), some of the worries that is constantly worrying me is that I may not be doing enough and I may be compared to the other N2 class teacher.

Every time I see her doing some materials, I will worry if I don't do the same, will my children lose out? If I dont use her method, will my children learn slower or not as effectively? When I discipline my children, I will worry am I being too harsh? Should I be more relax? But what if I relax, and their discipline goes out of hand?

Today, early in the morning, I receive an email from R's mummy with the title 'R's Progress in Phonics' and my first thought was oh no, does the mummy have questions to ask me? Or does she feel her child is not learning enough. Background info I got from my Chinese partner as well as the other N2 teacher who were the child's former N1 teachers, Mummy is someone with expectations and not easy to talk to/deal with. However, from my exchange with her, I haven't encounter anything unpleasant. But nonetheless, I was worried. To my surprise, it was an email of commendation. She thanked me for the effort put into teaching N2 England in their phonics and that her child has learned all the letters taught so far and shown a keen interest furthermore. Also, the child is able to apply the phonics of letters, for example, when asked what does "pumpkin" start with, she is able to answer correctly just by listening to the sound of the word.

As a teacher, it is heartwarming to receive recognition from parents for the work I put into teaching children and nothing is more heartening than knowing that these children are able to apply what they have learnt in the classroom into the world outside of the class. I have also received comment from a colleague that R's behaviour has improved a lot, no more loud cryings as heard previously in her N1 class. And comments like this made me feel that my direction of discipline may be harsh, but it could do good and improve my children for the better.

I may not be the best teacher in the school, I may not even be a teacher who teaches best but I will teach the best of what and how I know.

Sunday, December 02, 2012

Tomorrow is the day, class promotion day. Didn't feel much about it until now. Although it's holiday programme now, no official curriculum which means time for me to adapt and learn about the curriculum, I still wondered how would tomorrow be like, how would this entire month be like.

Shifted furnitures and exchanged toys/resources last Friday in preparation for tomorrow and I have to say, the event last Friday left me feeling happy and loved even though I ended work really late and was late in meeting the boy. It was a relief to know that I have colleagues who would offer help readily when I need them. I know I would definitely miss Arin. Even though we are only split into different classes, who knows how often we would talk. How she 'reserved' toys/resources for me and gave me her extra mobile on Friday really made me realize how she takes care of me in situations in such subtle ways. To others it may not mean anything, but to me, it means a lot.

Thankful; this is how I have been feeling since Friday till now. Thankful for all the helpful colleagues. Thankful for the support I get from my love, always ready to be there for me and listen to me rant. Thankful for my parents who still buys meals for me, does things for me. Thankful for friends who understands my work life or at least try to understand. Thankful for all these people who does these simple, small things that mean so so much to me.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Finally the news of new classes next year has been released and I'm glad to be able to take the age group of my choice and gain new knowledge and experience about the school and the curriculum.

Relief and excitement aside, of course I am afraid that I would not be able to cope. 24 children is no joke. Curriculum materials, Field trips, Portfolios; these will probably drive me nuts. And the very fact that I'm taking the N2 would also mean more emphasis about academic from parents, more planning as they have Builders and Phonics blah blah blah.
I would say, since I made the choice, and I may grumble along the way, but I will take it as it comes my way. It will be very different from what it is like this year. Being thrown into a 3-men(or rather women) class and then being expected to do things that I didnt even have a choice in. Although it is indeed scary to know it will just be me and my Chinese partner, at the same time, it is also liberating and refreshing; Freedom and independence awaits me.

Let's just say I hope 2013 will be great year, not just for me, but for all of us too.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

Yes, as the title suggest, I have just recovered from food poisoning, or maybe still recovering.
Just regained my appetite and finally managed to finish a whole portion of food for dinner just now.
Been soooo long since the last time food poisoning invaded my life and it was the worst so far.
The feeling I got in my stomach when I vomit, it's as if my stomach has a mind of its own and won't stop punching itself.
Yes, that scary.
But this experience really helped me learn to appreciate my loved ones more than ever.
The worry in my parents' eyes when they saw how much I was suffering, how much time, money and effort they took just to ensure I'm being well taken care really touched my heart.
The time that dear took out to come over just to mostly watch me sleep when I know he could spend the time on much more useful things. The effort he makes to come over early, buy me lunch and all just to ensure I'm at comfort is equally just as touching even though they were just small gestures. But without the heart, he could easily have chosen to not do these.
Really grateful that I have my parents and boyfriend around to take such good care of me, probably the reason why I am able to recover so quickly despite being in such bad condition just 3 days ago.
And of course, thanks for the concern my BFF, Yi, cousins and colleagues have shown towards me as well. Good motivation to get well yea!
BFF's way of motivating me is telling me that we will go for ikea once I recovered. I think it's her favorite method, using food to get me to be/stay healthy:)
Supposed to meet Xinyi Jie for dinner but postponed cuz of the condition. Not only was she understanding, she even suggested having Chinese cuisine as it will be easier on my stomach, loved~

The not-so-nice-nor-glam issue aside, I think I've finally been confirmed!:) hahaha
I'm done with the appraisal (yes, again) and this time no extension, so yes, I think I'm safe?
But of course, I still have so much so much more to learn, know and be in control of. And I'm glad there are indeed some people around who are willing to give a helping hand instead of all words no actions.
So yes, I'll look forward to becoming wiser and a better teacher for my children! :)
Till the next time~

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Its been very long since I last post something, almost 3 months..