Okay. So I know it's bad for my health and bad for my body, but I simply had no desire to eat alright? And it wasn't like my stomach was grumbling that it needed food. Nor was I tired the whole day either. Hence I skipped breakfast and dinner yesterday. >.<"
True that I did have an egg for breakfast but that doesn't really constitute a 'big' enough breakfast to count as one right? So what does it matter if I wasn't even feeling hungry, and I didn't feel like eating either? And somehow time managed to pass until around after 1pm, and I was a little hungry. So I had some fruit, and then ate lunch at like 2pm. It was a fairly big lunch, and so as you can guess, I skipped dinner. It wasn't like I was starving or anything, and eventually I forgot about eating until it was nearly time to sleep. And eating within an hour or so before sleeping doesn't really appeal to me, so as a result, I didn't eat anything. Surprise surprise.
Again, it's just like what's been happening lately, maybe part of it is to do with all the stress of final assignments due and having to study for exams and what-not that is changing my eating habits. I don't know why and I know it's unhealthy, but I can't help it if I'm simply not starving alright?
Or is it simply because I'm sick?
So. From today, there are still 18 days until exams start for me. And another 5 days after that until I finish them. Eeek~ I can't believe it actually. At least I have already started studying. I'm more than half-way through physiology topics, (5/8 yea!) but I still have three other subjects to get through (oh no!)
Anyway, so what's been up lately? Nothing really I suppose. Unless you count the addition of a younger brother in my 'family', and the proposed addition on a caucasian (yes Jiejie, I'm looking at you xD) and the put forward older brother, just waiting for him to agree now, there hasn't been much else.
True as it is that as I've been studying, I've also returned to my drama watching times, and oh dear, that doesn't bode well for my exam study... xP But somehow I have learnt to control myself (to a certain extent), and I have at least managed to fit in some study.
Now all that is left I suppose is to continue studying, which I will attempt to do so with much enthusiasm and watch that I don't spend too much time doing things that are currently unnecessary and can be done later, like after exams. That's it for today xD
Ever had those times when you suddenly realize that a whole lot of time has passed and you don't even remember how you passed those days? Well lately I've felt like this a lot. I mean, it's already, (nearly) halfway through the year, and I haven't accomplished anything. Nothing of note anyway. Which made me realize, that I'm pretty much already halfway through my degree, (of this year and of my course actually eek~) everything still feels the same.
Exams are in one month. Less than a month actually. I will be finished by this day next month. Which, in a way, seems like a fairly long time, but at the same time, I should really get started on studying for them. And I told myself that I was going to start studying earlier, and (hopefully) achieve better marks for my exams than I did last year. (Which were fairly dismal in my opinion... >.<")
But as of right now, I am content to continue taking a little break from the stress of having assignments, since mine are all done and handed in!!
I PROMISE I SHALL START STUDYING FOR MY EXAMS SOON!!!
So. The past few days have been fairly uneventful. Nothing much is coming up, and nothing much has passed. Unless you count the realization that mid-years are next month. I really should start studying for them, but as always, I feel that a month is quite a long time and that I still have heaps and heaps of time to prepare.
If only this was the truth. But it could be worse. I could be planning not to study at all, but I will. Somehow, I will bring myself to sit down, open my textbooks and concentrate. But I find it hard these days. Is it because everything seems to blend into each other, so I lack the motivation (as my friend puts it) to simply do anything at all?
So I've been a little 'I can't be bothered' lately.
Bite me.
Have you ever had those times when the weather just happens to reflect your current mood?
Today is one of those days.
Overcast, cloudly, dark.
COLD.
I'm somehow a little bit happy, yet not.
At the same time.
Does that make sense?
Can you understand what I'm feeling at this moment in time?
And once again.
Another day has passed.
Another day wasted.
Gone down the drain.
When does this cycle end?
Until the end of days?
Or simply never?
I don't know why.
I don't know how.
I don't know when.
But I simply don't care.
I've been that way for the past few weeks.
Added my appetite's been off lately too.
It's just weird.
And yet.
No surprises here.
I don't care anymore.
