Assalamua'laykum, bismillahirahmanirrahim.
Ma shaa Allah, I really miss those times I had with my dear cousins when we were young. Alhamdulillah, all of us have grown up and currently gaining beneficial ilm' from various institutes. Well, some of us have started working, Alhamdulillah.
And now, I feel really proud of them & their achievements so far. Alhamdulillah ya Rabb, for their success in various sectors. Although we don't meet often as compared to the past due to our busy schedules, I'll always remember them in my duas. In shaa Allah.
Surah Ali Imran ayah 103

"And hold firmly to the rope of Allah all together and do not become divided. And remember the favor of Allah upon you - when you were enemies and He brought your hearts together and you became, by His favor, brothers. And you were on the edge of a pit of the Fire, and He saved you from it. Thus does Allah make clear to you His verses that you may be guided."

SubahanAllah, we as Muslims, should stand firmly together & strengthen our ukhuwwah. Afterall, we are brothers and sisters in Islam. & should we love one another for the sake of Allah swt. As a Muslim brother/sister, we should help one another and visit him/her when they're unwell. Pray for their success & happiness. All of these is a reminder to myself first. As a human being like myself, we tend to forget. 

Instead of feeling jealous or angry towards a Muslim brother/sister, we should pray for them goodness. This World is temporary, there is no time for envy, jealousy and anger. What do you get from being envious of someone? Pahala? La! No! You don't get pahala from being envious of someone. So instead of gaining sins, we should really calm ourselves and dzikir. Remember Allah swt and in shaa Allah our hearts will be calm and tranquil.

& May  Allah strengthen the ukuwwah between us Muslims.  Ameen. 

Bukan mudah untuk melupakan. Bukan mudah untuk meneruskan.
Demi Allah, aku tidak kuat. Namun, kerana Allah s.w.t, kerana kasih-Nya terhadapku,
aku harus kuat.

Setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. Sesungguhnya Allah swt telah menyedarkan
diriku dari terus mengharapkan sesuatu yang tidak pasti. Apa yang telah diaturkan oleh-Nya lebih baik daripada apa yang kita rancangkan.

Bersyukur padamu ya Rabb.

Alhamdulillah, I'm thankful for my Os results. Thank you ya Allah! :)

I've finally completed my four years of education in secondary school and officially graduated. Throughout the four years, I've learnt many life lessons. However, 2012, really changed my perspective towards life. I've learnt that success doesn't fall from the sky. To be honest, I was about to give up after facing countless of difficulties in the new subject combination when I was in Secondary Three. It was such a treacherous and bitter experience for me. All I ever hoped for was a pass then. I was unable to carry out the concept of work hard, work hard and work hard. I was weak. I was too lazy to even flip my textbook and start doing the questions in my assessment books. As Ramadan drew closer, reality sank in slowly. I started to  questioned myself, What am I doing with my life? What will I be in the future? Am I a true, practicing Muslim? Or am I just a muslim by name? It hurts me so badly as I reflected on all my wrongdoings in the past. All along, I was wasting my time and taking my life for granted. I was deeply saddened by my attitude then.

I thank you Allah. For giving me the chance to change into a better muslim. For allowing me to learn from my dreadful mistakes. For waking me up from this hazardous daydream. As I looked at my Os results and compared all the grades with the ones in my report book, I was greatly grateful. I improved in my grades and I wouldn't have achieve this without Allah, my beloved Ummi, my caring teachers and my friends. I thank them all for all the love, care and moral support for me.

I had submitted my 12 choices the day before. I was completely overwhelmed as I began to think about my future. Ya Allah, I'm finally 17 years old and I'm heading to a new institution to continue my studies. I Thank You for allowing me to further my education and gain more knowledge in dunya.

Furthermore, I hope that I'll not be too absorbed in gaining knowledge in dunya and forget akhirah. Indeed akhirah is very important in every Muslim. I aspire to be a productive Muslim, who is able to balance akhirah and dunya. In sha Allah.

And as I await for another result in the next two weeks or so, I aim to make full use of the time and spent it wisely. To be honest, I'm really anxious and nervous to find out which institution I'm posted to. I'll accept openheartedly whichever course I'm selected to go to. Because indeed, everything happens for a reason, and there is always a Hikmah behind it. Allah is the best of planners.

And (the unbelievers) plotted and planned, and Allah too planned, and the best of planners is Allah. Surah Al-Imran. (3:54)
 
Wherever we go, whichever paths we take,  May Allah swt always guide us. 


May Allah swt guide us and bless us all on the straight path and grant us Jannah. Ameen :)

Assalamua' laykum. Recently, I've been pondering, "What is my purpose in life as a Muslim?" Many might think that being a Muslim is just praying five times a day and doing all the obligatory conduct, such as fasting in the month of Ramadhan, pay Zakat and perform the Hajj in Mecca. I've read articles on the web explaining in detail: the real purpose of a Muslim. He who submits his will towards Allah and lead his life as explained very elaborately in Quran and in the sayings of our beloved Prophet Mohammed ( peace be upon him) and in doing so, if he disobeys, should fear Allah and seek forgiveness, and always aim for the rewards of the eternal life. The truth is, we must always have faith and trust in Allah swt, and being pleased with Allaah `azza wa jall no matter what happens is from the greatest signs that a believer is a sincere & strong believer. On the other hand, I'm still trying to be a better Muslim and to always remember Him every step of the way.

I'm a servant Allah swt. I commit sins and I'm ashamed of myself. I wondered how many times I've disappointed Allah swt in the past. Yes, we all commit mistakes in our life. Once we've realized our mistakes and turn over a new leaf, Allah swt will forgive you. As said in the hadith, On the authority of Anas, who said: I heard the messenger of Allah, Prophet Muhammad s.a.w say: Allah the Almighty has said: “O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you. O son of Adam, were you to come to Me with sins nearly as great as the earth and were you then to face Me, ascribing no partner to Me, I would bring you forgiveness nearly as great as its.”


Masya' Allah. The love of Allah swt toward us is tremendously great. No one can ever love us more than Him; because He is the creator of the worlds. Wassalam.

As I browse through the old photos of us, I felt a sudden surge of anguish and sorrow. I miss all those times spent with you. I miss those girls 'talk'. You knew all the right things to say. I still do remember those times we battled with the exhausting training, numerous taxi rides, the countless bus rides with you and hanging out at our favourite fast food chains. But now it was never the same again. I can never understand till now how things took a huge turn. We are distant now, far from best friends. I guess we're strangers. We didn't even talk often nor do we even joke around like we used to. I felt awkward and so do you. Perhaps you wanted a change. Well, maybe you're sick of the same old people. But I don't blame you. It's your life; your choice. It was even more worse when people started to notice our abandoned friendship. Questions were raised and I had to answer every bit. Maybe they've ask you too. I would be lying if said I wasn't affected at all by our sudden breakthrough. I was. I was at my wits end during that period of time. I had no one to confide to. Because all along, you were the one I turn to.

Alhamdullillah, our broken friendship made me closer to Allah sw.t. It was Ramadhan when we started to fall apart. The nightly prayers and the dzikir made me calm and taught me the true meaning of friendship. It may be hard to find the perfect friend, but with Allah swt, in shaa Allah, He will find for you one. Just be patient, and nature will take its course. Though we may not be the best of friends, I'll always pray for the best for you. Thanks for the memories. :)))

I'm trying very hard to focus. But it just seems to be going nowhere. I've been surrounded by nightmares lately. And it's the same dream everyday. I'm really afraid right now. I don't know why. The same person have been appearing lately. I can't seem to talk. I was tongue-tied. & the dream seemed so real. It's like I'm actually in it. It gets irritating & annoying because I can't seem to understand. Why. :/

Allah, guide me on the right path. Protect me from the evil shaytaans. Amin.

Headed to the hospital today to visit grandaunt. But before that, I went to The Central to buy some Sticky for Megan. It was my first time going there. Argh. It was kind of difficult to find the shop. Well, at first, I expected the shop to be sorta big, like other candy shops (Candy Empire, etc) However, to my dismay, it turned out to be quite small. The sweets are placed outside, and the whole factory took up most of the space.

Lesson learnt. :D Guess I'll have to pre-order online first cus that will be much much easier.

Another sad moment in the hospital. Argh. :(
Grandaunt was really sick and helpless. She was quite stubborn at first, cus she refused to take her medicine when the nurse fed her. She finally did, after much persuasion by her beloved sister. Grandaunt was unable to eat nor drink too much water cus her windpipes are clogged. The doctor and her daughters warned not to give her so much water cus she will have a high chance of contracting pneumonia, a fatal disease in the lungs and she might choked as her windpipes are clogged. But... what saddens me the most is that she kept on pleading for water. Her faint voice was asking for water as she was so dehydrated and her throat was dry. Her beloved sister could not bear seeing her helplessly asking for water. In the end, my grandmother gave in and gave her some water from the cup and fed her through the sponge with a tube attached to it. My mother told her to be strong and look on the bright side. She nodded in acknowledgement. I watched as my grandmother wiped her teary eyes, sister-love. They went through all odds together since young. They did everything together, vacation, same clothing designs. It is sweet, seeing them talking and bragging about their children and grand-children. & most of all, their everyday life. But.. that was all in the past.

I've realized the importance of life. The people around you, especially your loved ones, they're significant too. (: