Its amazing how much fun it is. We bought it for Desi's second birthday. Its mulitpurpose: Doppler,tape player, voice recorder, Desi-megaphone (like she really needs one), and my favorite: KARAOKE MACHINE! We finally put batteries in it again after a few months out of commission. When we first got it, we just used the batteries that were already in there. (It was a thrift store find.) There was not enough battery juice to play tapes so Desi did not discover the wonder of the tapes until yesterday. She knows now that CDS do not fit in a tape recorder, and those tapes of Mommy's do serve a purpose. You don't just get to pull the tape out and watch Mommy wind it up again.
I put in some music, some 80s, some oldies, and some old jazz. I showed her that you can sing while the music is playing. Next thing, I'm having more fun than she is bellowing out Ella Fitzgerald, Madonna, Garth Brooks, The Angels, and other great sing-a-longs. Desi is looking at me like I'm crazy. I did teach her they lyrics to some songs and she did humour me a little.
I was thinking, this is how I want to bring the baby in the world, singing in an old Fisher Price tape recorder. I just hope my midwife will forgive me for my horrible singing voice. I have to try to convince Fred to sing too. Perhaps we can all have a sing-a-long marathon!
28 April 2007
26 April 2007
Love is
Reading a book together even though you had read it for the umpteenth time.
Desi has a ton of books. I am an avid reader and I hope to pass it on to her. I guess like all of, we have our favorites. She can read "Pumpkin Patch" from memory now. Some of her favorites are "Pigs in Love," "Baby on the Way," "I Need a Valentine," "Curious Geroge"( I change the words around a bit...zoo is animal sanctuary,) "Boo-Boo Book" and "Opposites."
Happy Love Thursday!
Desi has a ton of books. I am an avid reader and I hope to pass it on to her. I guess like all of, we have our favorites. She can read "Pumpkin Patch" from memory now. Some of her favorites are "Pigs in Love," "Baby on the Way," "I Need a Valentine," "Curious Geroge"( I change the words around a bit...zoo is animal sanctuary,) "Boo-Boo Book" and "Opposites."
Happy Love Thursday!
22 April 2007
Happy Earth Day!!!
It will be a beautiful day today! Hopefully we can get out and enjoy this lovely weather. I hope to do a cache and pick up trash along the way. It all depends on Desi. She has been clingy all morning and now is taking an early nap.
19 April 2007
Today's hypno session was brought to you by
Pooh, Piglet and Eeyore too.
"Let go," my hypno-therapist tells me. I'm a bit annoyed. Am I getting my money's worth? Come on, I don't want to work on relaxation. We have been doing this for the last three sessions. I'm also slightly perturbed by Fred too. How can he bring him into a state or relaxation so quickly? He needs to help me relax and doesn't need to sit and be hypnotized as well. He has proven himself quite adapt at self hypnosis already.
I'm just annoyed in general. Pooh is very simple. He doesn't let little things bother him. This guy is yapping, the music is annoying, at least Fred is being quiet. I hear Pooh giggling. He is totting along holding Piglet's hand.
"Let it go. These small things don't matter."
"I won't go to a session next week. What's the use? I can work on relaxation at home. They just don't think I can do this!"
"Let it go. Let things be."
"How come we aren't working on Fred being a partner? Instead he just sits there."
"Let it go. You're letting those things annoy you."
I sink deeper and deeper. Releasing the strings of my annoyances.
Guess what happens? My hypno-therapist sees that I am in such a deep state of relaxation that it tries something new: glove anesthesia. I am aware that he is taking my hand and stroking it. I am aware that he is pinching the skin. Ha! He thinks I can't feel it. It doesn't hurt. Its time to bring us both out.
He asks what I remember. I tell him that I felt him playing with my hand leaving the part out about the pinching. I want him to think that it worked. He tells me that he was actually grabbing skin with his nails and twisting. Hmmm...I guess I didn't feel that. Points for the hypno-therapist AND me!
Know what else? Next week we will work on birth breathing. I guess the little fluff ball was right.
"Let go," my hypno-therapist tells me. I'm a bit annoyed. Am I getting my money's worth? Come on, I don't want to work on relaxation. We have been doing this for the last three sessions. I'm also slightly perturbed by Fred too. How can he bring him into a state or relaxation so quickly? He needs to help me relax and doesn't need to sit and be hypnotized as well. He has proven himself quite adapt at self hypnosis already.
I'm just annoyed in general. Pooh is very simple. He doesn't let little things bother him. This guy is yapping, the music is annoying, at least Fred is being quiet. I hear Pooh giggling. He is totting along holding Piglet's hand.
"Let it go. These small things don't matter."
"I won't go to a session next week. What's the use? I can work on relaxation at home. They just don't think I can do this!"
"Let it go. Let things be."
"How come we aren't working on Fred being a partner? Instead he just sits there."
"Let it go. You're letting those things annoy you."
I sink deeper and deeper. Releasing the strings of my annoyances.
Guess what happens? My hypno-therapist sees that I am in such a deep state of relaxation that it tries something new: glove anesthesia. I am aware that he is taking my hand and stroking it. I am aware that he is pinching the skin. Ha! He thinks I can't feel it. It doesn't hurt. Its time to bring us both out.
He asks what I remember. I tell him that I felt him playing with my hand leaving the part out about the pinching. I want him to think that it worked. He tells me that he was actually grabbing skin with his nails and twisting. Hmmm...I guess I didn't feel that. Points for the hypno-therapist AND me!
Know what else? Next week we will work on birth breathing. I guess the little fluff ball was right.
Love is
Giving your baby brother or sister early zuberts.
Playing with your sibling in the womb to try to make it move.
There is always room for Mina on Mommy's lap.
And my favorite. While sitting in my lap, she tenderly touched my belly and said, "Baby, I love you!"
Happy Love Thursday!
Playing with your sibling in the womb to try to make it move.
There is always room for Mina on Mommy's lap.
And my favorite. While sitting in my lap, she tenderly touched my belly and said, "Baby, I love you!"
Happy Love Thursday!
18 April 2007
Its a
Girl!!!!!
If you remember, my SIL is pregnant as well. She had her ultrasound today and I'm going to have a niece!!!! Heather said that the baby flashed a peace sign, just for us. Hopefully she will send pictures and I'll ask her if I can share.
If you remember, my SIL is pregnant as well. She had her ultrasound today and I'm going to have a niece!!!! Heather said that the baby flashed a peace sign, just for us. Hopefully she will send pictures and I'll ask her if I can share.
Her little piggies are crunchy!
If you remember from a few posts ago, her piggies liked to eat certain foods, all vegan of course.
Today she added a new spin. "This little piggy went to the chiropractor! Pretty soon she will add, "This little piggy stayed at the commune."
Today she added a new spin. "This little piggy went to the chiropractor! Pretty soon she will add, "This little piggy stayed at the commune."
16 April 2007
Blech
Weather feels awful today. Its suppose to be spring! I am physically and mentally drained as well. I am just too tired to do anything today. Yesterday the drive back from the midwife was beautiful. The snow flurries didn't bother me, even though its mid-April. The trees looked quite pretty covered in white. Even when the electricity went out yesterday, I didn't blink. Today though I'm annoyed. Its windy and rainy, in the low 40s. I'm jealous of the people wearing short sleeves. It would have been a good day for splashing if we didn't have this wind. I just hope it warms up soon. I was talking to my downstairs neighbor who insists I am going to pop any minute that my body is holding out until we get some real spring.
I keep counting down. There are two countdowns in my head.
First is five more weeks until I'm full term. The other one is two more weeks until the baby can be be delivered at home by NH law. With no signs of labour I am sure I will make it to at least 37 weeks, not worried on that. Anytime I feel a slight twinge, I take a swig of water.
Its a lazy day for me and lazy post.
I keep counting down. There are two countdowns in my head.
First is five more weeks until I'm full term. The other one is two more weeks until the baby can be be delivered at home by NH law. With no signs of labour I am sure I will make it to at least 37 weeks, not worried on that. Anytime I feel a slight twinge, I take a swig of water.
Its a lazy day for me and lazy post.
14 April 2007
My results
What religion is right for you quiz
You scored as agnosticism.
You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof). Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.
agnosticism 96%
Buddhism 88%
Paganism 79%
atheism 71%
Hinduism 58%
Satanism 50%
Islam 50%
Christianity 46%
Judaism 33%
You scored as agnosticism.
You are an agnostic. Though it is generally taken that agnostics neither believe nor disbelieve in God, it is possible to be a theist or atheist in addition to an agnostic. Agnostics don't believe it is possible to prove the existence of God (nor lack thereof). Agnosticism is a philosophy that God's existence cannot be proven. Some say it is possible to be agnostic and follow a religion; however, one cannot be a devout believer if he or she does not truly believe.
agnosticism 96%
Buddhism 88%
Paganism 79%
atheism 71%
Hinduism 58%
Satanism 50%
Islam 50%
Christianity 46%
Judaism 33%
12 April 2007
Breathe in relaxation
words from my hypnotherapist.
Tuesday's session went well. I realized that tuning the guy out works best for me to get in a deep stage of relaxation. I was able to become self enlightened again through Noella.
Breathe in good, breathe out bad. Use my yoga breaths. I'm underwater. I am always able to breathe in good energy when I'm underwater. Swimming, floating, just being. Now I am in the clouds. Carebear land, but there are no Carebears, just rainbows, soft clouds and people I love. Wasabi is there and I am breathing in his scent. I loved the way he smelled when the sun kissed his fur. Noella appears. I am resisting she says.
"I miss you Noella. Are you happy?"
"I am happy."
"Are you playing with Wasabi?"
"Wasabi and I love to play. Stop changing the subject. You need to trust and open up. No one in this room wants to hurt you. They want the best for you."
"I don't know about the guy in the chair. I hear him shifting in his chair. Is he getting up?"
"No, he is just moving around. He will stay there. You need to trust him. He wants a positive outcome for you as well. Remember you came to him for help." At this point I can feel the tears in my eyes. I am just overwhelmed with love for Noella. Memories dance in front of me, like a movie.
"Come back," she says to me.
"Will you hold on to my baby until the time is ready?"
"Baby is listening. You tell Blanket to stay. Remember to trust and open up."
I feel open. I no longer feel vulnerable to my emotions. I feel safe. Everything will go as planned.
"By the way, it was you all along."
Time to open my eyes.
Everyone is still in their chair. I still feel safe. I now feel empowered. I was in control all along because I let go. I let things just be.
Tuesday's session went well. I realized that tuning the guy out works best for me to get in a deep stage of relaxation. I was able to become self enlightened again through Noella.
Breathe in good, breathe out bad. Use my yoga breaths. I'm underwater. I am always able to breathe in good energy when I'm underwater. Swimming, floating, just being. Now I am in the clouds. Carebear land, but there are no Carebears, just rainbows, soft clouds and people I love. Wasabi is there and I am breathing in his scent. I loved the way he smelled when the sun kissed his fur. Noella appears. I am resisting she says.
"I miss you Noella. Are you happy?"
"I am happy."
"Are you playing with Wasabi?"
"Wasabi and I love to play. Stop changing the subject. You need to trust and open up. No one in this room wants to hurt you. They want the best for you."
"I don't know about the guy in the chair. I hear him shifting in his chair. Is he getting up?"
"No, he is just moving around. He will stay there. You need to trust him. He wants a positive outcome for you as well. Remember you came to him for help." At this point I can feel the tears in my eyes. I am just overwhelmed with love for Noella. Memories dance in front of me, like a movie.
"Come back," she says to me.
"Will you hold on to my baby until the time is ready?"
"Baby is listening. You tell Blanket to stay. Remember to trust and open up."
I feel open. I no longer feel vulnerable to my emotions. I feel safe. Everything will go as planned.
"By the way, it was you all along."
Time to open my eyes.
Everyone is still in their chair. I still feel safe. I now feel empowered. I was in control all along because I let go. I let things just be.
10 April 2007
Hey good looking, whatcha got cooking?
Who got in the sugar?
Cream sugar and 1/2 cup margarine or canola oil.
1 cup sugar
Add a pinch of salt...just a pinch. Thank goodness most of it ended on the counter.
What was I thinking to let her do the salt?
1 tsp vanilla
1 tsp baking soda
2 cups flour
Blend
Mash 4 ripe bananas and add it to the mix and blend.
Sneak as many bites of bananas as you can, because once it's blended it become part of the batter.
Mix dry cranberries or any dried fruit that you think will taste scrumptious
Bake on 350 for 18 minutes to 22 minutes.
Yields one dozen banana muffins.
09 April 2007
This little piggy had:
strawberries, cake, strawberry cake, sandwiches, chili, avocado, sushi, nori...
D insists I substitute these foods in place of roast beef. It started off as tofu and then somehow evolved. I have to do the whole nursery rhyme over each time she names a new food. The game can go on and can be quite redundant. I think her piggies eat as much as she does, if not more.
D insists I substitute these foods in place of roast beef. It started off as tofu and then somehow evolved. I have to do the whole nursery rhyme over each time she names a new food. The game can go on and can be quite redundant. I think her piggies eat as much as she does, if not more.
08 April 2007
Children's Heroes
Fred was watching some old Western type movie last night and it got me thinking. Cowboys have been replaced by wrestlers and comic book characters. The violence doesn't stop or begin there. Humans are obsessed with destruction. Ever been stuck in traffic because of the accident on the other side of the median?
Perhaps its just the circle of life that draws humans. We all like to hear a sappy story with a happy ending.
I think we do it to feel a connection to each other. We all live separate lives; our worlds brush up against each other at the supermarket, in traffic or on the bus. But its only for a brief moment. Its the destruction and the creation that draws the one thing we all have in common out of us: emotions. And for more than just a brief moment we can all hold on it together.
Perhaps its just the circle of life that draws humans. We all like to hear a sappy story with a happy ending.
I think we do it to feel a connection to each other. We all live separate lives; our worlds brush up against each other at the supermarket, in traffic or on the bus. But its only for a brief moment. Its the destruction and the creation that draws the one thing we all have in common out of us: emotions. And for more than just a brief moment we can all hold on it together.
06 April 2007
Do I eat too much chocolate?
Her: Baby nurse mommy?
Me: Yes, baby will share with you.
Her: Share.
Me: Baby will bring more milk. What does my milk taste like?
Her: Chocolate!
Now I don't know if that's true or not or if she is just saying random things, but it was sweet to hear that my milk tastes so good.
Me: Yes, baby will share with you.
Her: Share.
Me: Baby will bring more milk. What does my milk taste like?
Her: Chocolate!
Now I don't know if that's true or not or if she is just saying random things, but it was sweet to hear that my milk tastes so good.
05 April 2007
Love is
buying your pregnant wife chocolate milk, chocolate mint bar and chocolate ice cream bars!
Happy Love Thursday
Happy Love Thursday
Jealousy?
While reading Welcome with Love:
Looking at the part where baby's head is emerging.
"Leave baby in there!"
Looking at the part where baby's head is emerging.
"Leave baby in there!"
Relaxation
I have been going to see a hypnotherapist to help me relax and prepare for birth. I have been to two sessions. I haven't been able to go under hypnosis yet; Fred on the other hand, is quite successful. Fred isn't the one giving birth.
This piece is something that I envisioned during the first session. The hypnotherapist told us to imagine going down an escalator. Well, since D was with me during the vision exercise, I didn't feel safe going down an escalator with her. I imagined flying through clouds towards my baby. I don't know when the clouds metamorphosed into rainbows. They sky is a bright blue with hues of pinks, violets and green near the umbilical cord. We are still attached. The baby is lit by the sun, rays of light exploding behind him or her. I am diving through different colors of the rainbow closer and closer to relaxation. Holding my hands out to catch my baby. I see the rays of sun in between my fingers. My hair acts like a cape to help me glide down towards my goal. The top of the baby's head, which we can't is enveloped in purple as is my birth canal because purple represents power.
I sketched the bottom using, D as my model. I couldn't decide whether to use water colors first for the sky or to color the baby and me first using colored pencils. I decided to use water colors. I loved how we were both blank canvases surrounded by a sea of color. I should have taken a picture. I almost decided that the piece was done, but decided to complete it. Originally, I was going through rings of, prisms but it changed to different colors. I like how the orange and red rings blend with the sun rays.
03 April 2007
01 April 2007
Life and Death
I am searching the internet to find the perfect birthing necklace. I think I found it.
click
I was thinking that I will get a tattoo of it as well for my motherhood tattoo. I was deciding between that and this.
I decided on the tree. For me the tree also symbolizes my Noella. She had a tattoo of the tree as well. It's only fitting I think. I miss her deeply today.
click
I was thinking that I will get a tattoo of it as well for my motherhood tattoo. I was deciding between that and this.
I decided on the tree. For me the tree also symbolizes my Noella. She had a tattoo of the tree as well. It's only fitting I think. I miss her deeply today.
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