I was just thinking about my fears as I was soaking in the bath. Some of them are neurotic, I know. I have bathroom issues. I clean our bathroom at least twice a week. I was thinking whether or not the bathtub would be clean enough for me to labor in. Even though I take baths in them, Desmina takes baths, and the new baby will take baths I still wonder. I doubt the bathroom will be big enough for the midwife and Fred to be with me while I am laboring. Besides the shower curtains, although new look to me as though it can be a transporter of germs. I'm sure it is! My solution: rent a birthing tub from Jeanne. We can set it up in the living room. Problem solved there, I guess.
I worry that the baby will be breech and my dreams for a home birth will be stolen from me. In NH, midwives are not allowed to deliver breech or twins in the home. My solution: chiropractor adjustments.
My biggest fear is whether or not I will be able to push a head out. What if I tear? What if the baby gets stuck? I need a mantra. I believe in myself. I believe in my body.
31 December 2006
30 December 2006
What moves you?
The baby likes Obama! As soon as Blanket heard him speak s/he started kicking. I am going to turn my children to be Obama cheerleaders. I even taught Desi to say his name tonight. Next step, teach her to cheer and clap whenever she sees him on TV.
26 December 2006
Toddler Fashion
If she had her way, she would get to wear a Halloween shirt every day. I have three in rotation. MIL just sent another pumpkin shirt to add to her collection.
This morning she wanted to wear one of her Halloween shirts. I had to convince her that a penguin and an igloo are much cooler than any of her Halloween shirts.
Yes, those are socks on her feet. I have no idea why. She just wanted them on.
25 December 2006
Because it's Christmas,
What are your sins?
The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com
| Greed: | Medium | |
| Gluttony: | Low | |
| Wrath: | Medium | |
| Sloth: | Medium | |
| Envy: | Low | |
| Lust: | Very Low | |
| Pride: | Medium |
The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com
24 December 2006
23 December 2006
Safe keeping my ass
I put stuff away knowing that I would be sending it to people. Of course, I can't find it amidst the chaos we call our home. It's scrapbook hell in our house right now. I was hoping to ship them with today's last minute shipping.
So Adrianna, if you are reading this I won't be shipping of those tests I promised. I cannot for the life of me remember where I put those stupid things. I was hoping to send them and sprinkle it with good luck. Hopefully, by the time I find them you won't need them anyways.
Desmina was freaking out because she saw the Gameboy we were returning to K. She doesn't even play the damn thing, why the temper? She isn't feeling to well anyways. She has explosive diapers and projecting vomit. It's been over a week for the vomit, which is happening off and on. I was blaming on food, but I cannot think of what she has eaten that can make her sick. At least I don't have to have the guilt that I'm giving her spoiled food. Now the guilt has transfered to me not taking her to the doctor. I hope it passes this weekend. She cannot afford to lose anymore weight! If you know me, you know that this is the biggest struggle with her. Although she has a never filling pit when it comes to feeding her usually. She isn't eating as well. And everyone who knows Desmina that is she isn't eating, there is something wrong. Either she is sick or the world is ending. The sky, sun and moon are intact so we're safe from the latter.
So Adrianna, if you are reading this I won't be shipping of those tests I promised. I cannot for the life of me remember where I put those stupid things. I was hoping to send them and sprinkle it with good luck. Hopefully, by the time I find them you won't need them anyways.
Desmina was freaking out because she saw the Gameboy we were returning to K. She doesn't even play the damn thing, why the temper? She isn't feeling to well anyways. She has explosive diapers and projecting vomit. It's been over a week for the vomit, which is happening off and on. I was blaming on food, but I cannot think of what she has eaten that can make her sick. At least I don't have to have the guilt that I'm giving her spoiled food. Now the guilt has transfered to me not taking her to the doctor. I hope it passes this weekend. She cannot afford to lose anymore weight! If you know me, you know that this is the biggest struggle with her. Although she has a never filling pit when it comes to feeding her usually. She isn't eating as well. And everyone who knows Desmina that is she isn't eating, there is something wrong. Either she is sick or the world is ending. The sky, sun and moon are intact so we're safe from the latter.
22 December 2006
Oh shit
Holiday baking isn't going as planned. First the banana didn't make it home. I use it as an egg substitute. I ended up using soy protein; I'm crossing my fingers that they will turn out okay. The dough tastes delicious; let's just the chemistry is right.
This morning Desmina helped decorated the cookies. Of course, I'm too busy messing with the camera to notice that she has dumped half of the colored sugar on one cookie! The cookies look great though. Some are saturated with sugar, and some barely have any.
I'm waiting for the cookies to bake now. So far it's been 21 minutes...almost twice the timea than the average cooking time. But the cookies are thicker, if I'm not deluding myself.
Good! They look done. Just have to wait for it to cool.
This morning Desmina helped decorated the cookies. Of course, I'm too busy messing with the camera to notice that she has dumped half of the colored sugar on one cookie! The cookies look great though. Some are saturated with sugar, and some barely have any.
I'm waiting for the cookies to bake now. So far it's been 21 minutes...almost twice the timea than the average cooking time. But the cookies are thicker, if I'm not deluding myself.
Good! They look done. Just have to wait for it to cool.
21 December 2006
20 December 2006
Ah Christmas cheer
Can you believe we only have four more days until Christmas?
I decided to start the presents tonight. Christmas presents are going to be going to the family late , but my deadline is to finish them by tomorrow so that I can send them out by Saturday. There is no well in bloody hell am I going to the stupid post office by myself with Desmina, the Cling-on. Besides we need to make baked goods to add to the box as to off set the lameness of our presents. It's just framed scrapbook pages. We may even be cutesy and have Desmina make an ornament.
Fucking printer!!!!
Why don't you just print like you're suppose to?
It ate my paper! And now it's making a funny noise. I think I broke it. I had to unplug it to get the damn thing to shut up. I plugged it in again and it's still making demonic noises.
I decided to start the presents tonight. Christmas presents are going to be going to the family late , but my deadline is to finish them by tomorrow so that I can send them out by Saturday. There is no well in bloody hell am I going to the stupid post office by myself with Desmina, the Cling-on. Besides we need to make baked goods to add to the box as to off set the lameness of our presents. It's just framed scrapbook pages. We may even be cutesy and have Desmina make an ornament.
Fucking printer!!!!
Why don't you just print like you're suppose to?
It ate my paper! And now it's making a funny noise. I think I broke it. I had to unplug it to get the damn thing to shut up. I plugged it in again and it's still making demonic noises.
19 December 2006
Desmina's Menagerie
I call our bed the zoo now. She insists on them every night and now naptime. It's the Usual Suspects: Elmo (which of course it's the talking Elmo and if you accidentally lie on him it hurts like hell), Birthday Bear, Wish Bear and of course Wasabi by her feet. We just moved up from a Queen to a King, but lost space because of her entourage.
Oh and she won't go to sleep until she makes sure they have been tucked in and have their pillows. Sometimes she shares a blanket with them, sometimes they get their own.
18 December 2006
Didn't I tell you looks were deceiving?
What do you think of her baby powder footprints? Stupid me left the baby powder on the coffee table. I am at the computer and she is in it. I don't have to turn around; I can smell it. I tell her to put it back on the table. I think she thinks I have eyes in the back of my head. Now I know how my mom knew about all the shit I did when I was a kid. Moms just knows. They have spidey senses.
Looks can be deceiving
I love watching her sleep. It's one of the rare times when there is peace in the house. She has taken to tormenting Wasabi. I think nap time is his favorite time too. You can't see him in the picture, but he is curled by her feet. I do love her toddlerness though (at times).
Yesterday at dinner Fred and I tried to coax her to eat her risotto. She flat out told us, "I don't want it!" We were so excited that she said a whole sentence so perfectly. And of course, for those who have toddlers...there is no such thing as force feeding a toddler. She ended up eating a banana instead, which of course half of it was thrown to Wasabi.
16 December 2006
Wasabi stole her banana
That was her dream last night. She woke up in the middle of the night screaming about her banana and that Wasabi ate it. It was so heartbreaking. I had to tell her it was just a dream. Poor Wasabi, he thought he was in trouble.
15 December 2006
What was I thinking?
Runs through my head sometimes. Especially on the days when all I hear is screeching. Oops. Her water fell on the floor after swiped it off the table. Then of course more screeching for God knows what. Did I mention that she is destructive? As I am typing..CRASH CRASH... she is throwing shit on the floor. Oh and she stole my sock. My left foot is freezing. She doesn't remember where she put it.
14 December 2006
Dinner and a movie
Tonight I made vegan pot pie. It's baking in the oven now. I am going to sauteé green beans with a garlic lemon butter sauce.
If Desmina goes to bed early, we are going to watch Big Night with Tony Shalhoub and Stanley Tucci. Most people know I have a small crush on Tony as Monk. Who can resist a man who is intelligent, paranoid and clean?
13 December 2006
Me!
After speaking to three midwives, I think we found our perfect fit, Jeanne Brown. It was actually a toss up between her and another local midwife, Amy Healey. Amy just had this beautiful energy to her. You could tell that she was consumed with such love for children and everyone. Jeanne was great too. She also had a wonderful energy going on for her as well. She seems very enthusiastic in her practice and outlook on life. We went with Jeanne because of insurance. Honestly, I'm glad that we had a deciding factor for us. I do not know who we would have chosen. Fortunately, I will be able to use Amy as the assisting midwife. I want Amy's presence there as well. They both have such a special kind of energy that I will welcome during my labor.
Baby it's cold outside
Well not weather. It's actually pretty nice today minus the rain. I just wanted an opportunity to show off the beautiful view outside my kitchen window. This is Desmina's and my favorite window to look outside of. Desmina loves it because of the collie outside. She loves to bang on the window and call out to him or her. I love it because it overlooks the garden. Can you the little bench? It just seems like a perfect place to meditate. Bonus: If you look closely in the reflection you can see a picture of me and my little bump.
Alas
Our camera has arrived! It's a Fuji S6000
The memory card hasn't arrived yet, so I can only take a few pictures at a time then upload it to the computer. I love the contrast in focus between these two different pictures. This was even before I had a chance to play with the aperture. I'm still trying to figure out how to change it in the program mode.
10 December 2006
It's the Holidays
Last night we went to see Chirstmas lights. It was very heavily Christian based. I was a bit disappointed because I thought it was going to be a neighborhood of lights. Instead it was a church that put on a display of lights. It was a still impressive display though. I didn't mind the Christian aspects either.
For dinner we had baked acron squash stuffed with tofu, onions and corn drizzled with maple syrup and rice on the side. I added cinnamon and allspice to my stuffing to compliment the flavor of the maple syrup.
Okay for a little Holiday Cheer here are links to two dancing elves.
Mina
Wasabi
For dinner we had baked acron squash stuffed with tofu, onions and corn drizzled with maple syrup and rice on the side. I added cinnamon and allspice to my stuffing to compliment the flavor of the maple syrup.
Okay for a little Holiday Cheer here are links to two dancing elves.
Mina
Wasabi
08 December 2006
Happy Birthday Wasabi
Today Wasabi turns five. We didn't get to have a party like I planned. I didn't get to the planning part, being so busy with the move. We didn't even get him a present. Poor boy. He did get three treats this morning, soft food in the morning, left overs (which I try to avoid giving him), soft food with his dry food in the evening and we sang happy birthday to him several times. He got more cuddles than he usually does.
Desmina drew him a picture on her magnadoodle. Damn I wish I had the camera.
Desmina drew him a picture on her magnadoodle. Damn I wish I had the camera.
First taste of real winter
and I love it! I wish I had my camera. It was so beautiful today! It's amazing to see the trees glistening with snow. The ground was covered with a nice quilt of snow. I loved seeing the Wasabi and Desmina prints. Poor Desmina fell a couple of times while walking Wasabi. It made me realize how much we need ski pants. We were well layered so the cold didn't feel bad even though the windchill made it feel like 1 outside! So far the wind isn't as bad as Texas. Poor Wasabi was shivering his curly tail off though. I need to find his sweater, or get him a new one.
Later I put on the snowsuit that Vennittah sent Desi. She looked so darn cute in it, like a fluffy pink marhmellow. She had trouble navigating in her suit and kept falling. She didn't seem to mind though. We only stayed out for a few minutes and she got bored. She didn't seem too interest in the snow. I need to learn the secret of making snow people. I couldn't even make a ball of snow. So if anyone has any tips, I would love to hear them!
Later I put on the snowsuit that Vennittah sent Desi. She looked so darn cute in it, like a fluffy pink marhmellow. She had trouble navigating in her suit and kept falling. She didn't seem to mind though. We only stayed out for a few minutes and she got bored. She didn't seem too interest in the snow. I need to learn the secret of making snow people. I couldn't even make a ball of snow. So if anyone has any tips, I would love to hear them!
27 November 2006
Black cloud
Virginia must have bad luck lurking about. We stopped for gas today. They only offer prepay. They don't even have a slot to put your card in. Ivy goes inside to tell the lady we are going to pay with credit and if she could turn it on. I have to bring in my credit cart. There is no way in hell I'm going to trust her to hold on to my card without me being there. I go inside. The lady takes one look at me, and walks to the other room to smoke. No greeting. No one moment please. She then comes back and walks past me to go outside, walks back in and ignores me! She then tells me that she doesn't have a changing table for Desmina. Um, Okay. That is not why I came in but anyways with that attitude I am not giving you my money.
I radio Fred and he tell him that I need to go to a different gas station. He tells me to come over where he is and of course when I drive over there I miss it and get on the interstate instead. They tell me to take the first exit I see. I end up getting back on after that exit because it goes on forever and I can't find the gas stations. I stop and wait on the shoulder and wait for my dad and Fred to radio me. They do but they are not listening. They just go right ahead and take the exit. I am yelling in the radio for them not to. And they tell me to stop on the shoulder. I am already in the damn shoulder but on 80! Finally they realize that I am not at the exit and go back to 80 while cars and trucks are flying past me.
We finally get gas. My dad now wants to drive my car because he doesn't think that I'm competent enough so I ride with Fred. We follow the directions given to us yahoo to get to the hotel. It's a long drive after we exit to get to Highway 55. I am thinking, "What kind of hotel is this place? It must be a dump." Our destination ends at a gravel road. No hotel. Fred calls the place and the directions are wrong. No shit Sherlock! He isn't able to understand the woman's direction. He is too frazzled and just wants to concentrate backing up. We tell my dad to back up first and we'll follow. Of course he doesn't listen so we have to turn the huge van instead of backing up. I call the hotel back and get the right directions. We finally find the hotel and of course miss the entrance. We are here now though. Tomorrow we leave to our new house!!!!
I radio Fred and he tell him that I need to go to a different gas station. He tells me to come over where he is and of course when I drive over there I miss it and get on the interstate instead. They tell me to take the first exit I see. I end up getting back on after that exit because it goes on forever and I can't find the gas stations. I stop and wait on the shoulder and wait for my dad and Fred to radio me. They do but they are not listening. They just go right ahead and take the exit. I am yelling in the radio for them not to. And they tell me to stop on the shoulder. I am already in the damn shoulder but on 80! Finally they realize that I am not at the exit and go back to 80 while cars and trucks are flying past me.
We finally get gas. My dad now wants to drive my car because he doesn't think that I'm competent enough so I ride with Fred. We follow the directions given to us yahoo to get to the hotel. It's a long drive after we exit to get to Highway 55. I am thinking, "What kind of hotel is this place? It must be a dump." Our destination ends at a gravel road. No hotel. Fred calls the place and the directions are wrong. No shit Sherlock! He isn't able to understand the woman's direction. He is too frazzled and just wants to concentrate backing up. We tell my dad to back up first and we'll follow. Of course he doesn't listen so we have to turn the huge van instead of backing up. I call the hotel back and get the right directions. We finally find the hotel and of course miss the entrance. We are here now though. Tomorrow we leave to our new house!!!!
22 November 2006
I have been feeling what I thought was light baby flutters. Last night I felt Blanket kick! I was on the computer, chatting with Adrianna. It was a series of short kicks. I am so excited! I have this constant worry that there is something wrong. I didn't worry as much with the first one as I do this one.
I was so excited with the first one. I took belly pictures every few weeks. Right now I only have one picture of me at seven weeks. I keep meaning to take another picture, but we have been so busy! I started a journal as soon as I found out I was pregnant last time. This time I don't even have a journal yet. I don't know if it's because I don't feel as attached or because I always have that worry setting in. I am in my second trimester though so I can breathe a sigh of relief. I guess I will feel better if I can hear the heartbeat again.
I was so excited with the first one. I took belly pictures every few weeks. Right now I only have one picture of me at seven weeks. I keep meaning to take another picture, but we have been so busy! I started a journal as soon as I found out I was pregnant last time. This time I don't even have a journal yet. I don't know if it's because I don't feel as attached or because I always have that worry setting in. I am in my second trimester though so I can breathe a sigh of relief. I guess I will feel better if I can hear the heartbeat again.
21 November 2006
Toddler Magic
Only a toddler can manage to open the bottom of the salt container and have it all gushing out. I didn't even know that you could pop out the bottom of it. What was the company thinking? Why would I want the salt to come out of the bottom when there is a perfect spout on the top to pour? And of course my toddler decided to get a shovel to play in it.
20 November 2006
Unmotivated
I am unmotivated to do anything today. I haven't even brushed my teeth yet. Well so far it's just Desi and Wasabi to smell my breath. Playgroup is coming so I need to get up and do something at least. I just wanted to post real quick. How sad is that? Computer time comes before hygiene. What am I teaching Desi?
I also need to finish packing. I should start by the shit on the table. Lots of breakables for little hands to break. We had a moving sale. Only three people came. Well at least we made money to cover the ad and then some. The left over items were given away at the potluck. Well at least that is less stuff to haul away to Goodwill.
Ten more minutes before playgroup starts...better get off my ass.
I also need to finish packing. I should start by the shit on the table. Lots of breakables for little hands to break. We had a moving sale. Only three people came. Well at least we made money to cover the ad and then some. The left over items were given away at the potluck. Well at least that is less stuff to haul away to Goodwill.
Ten more minutes before playgroup starts...better get off my ass.
01 November 2006
Trick or Treat
Here are pictures from last night. We trick or treat for UNICEF since we still don't allow her pure sugar. She collected $11.66 from the neighbors yesterday and her Oma donated $10. We have a change bucket that we will probably just donate it to her. I think she did very well. She did get some candy. The nonvegan ones we handed it back out to the kids. We kept some vegan candy for ourselves. Are we hypocritical our what? Fred says that Mina would say thank you for money but not for the candy. He says she is money hungry. I think it's because he was holding the bag and she was holding the collection box.
She made one cute unicorn. She was saying "Trick or treat" all day yesterday. When we got to the houses, she didn't even say it. She did try to go into everyone's houses.
31 October 2006
This is Halloween
For some reason I have to upload the pictures to Photobucket and then I have to use the HTML codes just to show pictures.
Anyways. These are the pumpkins we carved Sunday night. We made pumpkin seeds. Mina totally digs them. She painted her own pumpkin. We had purple handprints everywhere. There is still evidence on the stove because I'm too lazy to clean it off. I kind of like having it there actually. I just love her little hands. Her pumpkin took forever it to dry. It was glistening with paint.
25 October 2006
Time with Julianna
We headed to Eugene Thursday morning. We hit the shops and then went to eat lunch. This place makes their own vegan burgers. I wasn't too impressed. It was a bit dry. Mina had tofu and rice. It was a bit bland, but it's nice they had the option.
Then we headed to see Julianna. It was a short drive. When we got there we knocked on the door. I think it was Michael on the other end who responded by saying, "knock knock." I knocked again, but still no response. Fred had to knock on the door so that Julianna could hear us. I have a quiet knock. LOL. It was cute hearing Michael.
Julianna's house is so warm! I love the hardwood floors and the windows. In the entrance, they have a mural of sunflowers. The boys were still in school so it was just Jonathon and Michael.
We chatted for a bit and then headed to the post office. Fred stayed at the house. Mina was going to stay with him, but she got upset. Julianna showed me her new house to be. It's gorgeous! It's a big project, but I know it's going to be worth it. I love the house!
Afterwards we went back to the house. Chatted, washed diapers, ate dinner, watched TV...just chilled. It was so nice to see the family get together. Mina got grumpy so we retired to the van. I think she had to nurse to sleep. She woke up several times.
Next day, we hung out some more. Julianna got the pattern from the growing green diaper. She gave me one too. I will try my hand at making a diaper. I just need to get some material. The kids colored some. Time went by fast! Julianna had to get to the house by noon so Fred and I went to the co-op. We then met her at the house. Fred loved the house too. Poor Mina fell in the driveway. She skinned her knee a bit. We then left for Portland.
Portland isn't as nice as the rest of Oregon. It's too big. We didn't get to find much. We wanted to find a cloth diaper store, but wasn't able to until the next day. It wasn't open then. We went out to eat at Blossoming Lotus. It's the sister store to the place we went to in Hawaii. The service wasn't as friendly. The server was a bit of a snob it seemed.. It was just a hoity toity place. Food was good though. We had a sunflower pate, hummus and some salad that came with it. I had the raw pasta and Fred had the BBQ tempehi. Mina had some temeph and rice.
Next day, we looked for the Saturday Market. Unfortunately, Fred had the wrong address so we weren't able to make it. We did find a good breakfast place though. The server there was really nice. She is from Arlington, Texas. She even gave us a discount at the end! I had their vegan pancakes and potatoes. Mina had potatoes and guac, and Fred had gravy and biscuits. Mina and I shared carrot juice....and she had some OJ. It was nice to get fresh juice while on the road.
Afterwards we headed to the natural baby store, but it was closed so we went to the airport. No problems at the airport. It's so much nicer than DFW though.
Then we headed to see Julianna. It was a short drive. When we got there we knocked on the door. I think it was Michael on the other end who responded by saying, "knock knock." I knocked again, but still no response. Fred had to knock on the door so that Julianna could hear us. I have a quiet knock. LOL. It was cute hearing Michael.
Julianna's house is so warm! I love the hardwood floors and the windows. In the entrance, they have a mural of sunflowers. The boys were still in school so it was just Jonathon and Michael.
We chatted for a bit and then headed to the post office. Fred stayed at the house. Mina was going to stay with him, but she got upset. Julianna showed me her new house to be. It's gorgeous! It's a big project, but I know it's going to be worth it. I love the house!
Afterwards we went back to the house. Chatted, washed diapers, ate dinner, watched TV...just chilled. It was so nice to see the family get together. Mina got grumpy so we retired to the van. I think she had to nurse to sleep. She woke up several times.
Next day, we hung out some more. Julianna got the pattern from the growing green diaper. She gave me one too. I will try my hand at making a diaper. I just need to get some material. The kids colored some. Time went by fast! Julianna had to get to the house by noon so Fred and I went to the co-op. We then met her at the house. Fred loved the house too. Poor Mina fell in the driveway. She skinned her knee a bit. We then left for Portland.
Portland isn't as nice as the rest of Oregon. It's too big. We didn't get to find much. We wanted to find a cloth diaper store, but wasn't able to until the next day. It wasn't open then. We went out to eat at Blossoming Lotus. It's the sister store to the place we went to in Hawaii. The service wasn't as friendly. The server was a bit of a snob it seemed.. It was just a hoity toity place. Food was good though. We had a sunflower pate, hummus and some salad that came with it. I had the raw pasta and Fred had the BBQ tempehi. Mina had some temeph and rice.
Next day, we looked for the Saturday Market. Unfortunately, Fred had the wrong address so we weren't able to make it. We did find a good breakfast place though. The server there was really nice. She is from Arlington, Texas. She even gave us a discount at the end! I had their vegan pancakes and potatoes. Mina had potatoes and guac, and Fred had gravy and biscuits. Mina and I shared carrot juice....and she had some OJ. It was nice to get fresh juice while on the road.
Afterwards we headed to the natural baby store, but it was closed so we went to the airport. No problems at the airport. It's so much nicer than DFW though.
23 October 2006
Coasting
After visiting Mount Saint Helens we drove along the coast. We stopped in Astoria for the night. Astoria is a very cute city. We stopped to see the Goonies House and where they filmed Kindergarten Cop. We climbed the 164 steps to the tower and looked at the view. It was a nice climb.
Next day we headed south to Tilamook. On the way, we stopped at a beach to look at the rock formations. It was so hard to keep Desmina from running into the water. She is drawn to the water. When we got in Tilamook, we stopped in for coffee. Mina had her first taste of soy steamer. She really enjoyed it. She gulped it right down. The woman working behind the counter suggested we go see a waterfall. It's the tallest waterfall in Oregon. It was only a quarter mile hike to get to the fall. It was beautiful.
Then we headed down to Salem to go see the Sea Lions Caverns. We stopped in Lincoln City to see the Devil's Punch Bowl. The tide was too low so it wasn't too impressive. Mina met a dog that loved her. Afterwards we tried to go see the tide pools but they said that the tide was too high for that. We couldn't go see the lighthouse because they wouldn't let us carry Mina to the top. She had to be 42 inches to be able to climb the steps. We just went to the Sea Lions Caverns instead. I wanted to stop so many times from Astoria to Salem, but Fred made a good point saying that if we kept stopping we would never get there. All of Oregon is beautiful.
Sea Lions Caves were fun. They took us down in an elevator town into the caverns where the sea lions come in. It was a bit eerie because it was so dark, but once I saw the sea lions I was okay. There was a few vegging on the rock. You could see them come into the cave. I paid a quarter to look into the telescope. It was so cute to see them up close. You could see them talking to each other. When we left the cavern, we could see the sea lions jumping in and out of the water. I like how uninvasive the tourist attraction was.
We stayed in Salem for the night and headed to Eugene the next day.
Next day we headed south to Tilamook. On the way, we stopped at a beach to look at the rock formations. It was so hard to keep Desmina from running into the water. She is drawn to the water. When we got in Tilamook, we stopped in for coffee. Mina had her first taste of soy steamer. She really enjoyed it. She gulped it right down. The woman working behind the counter suggested we go see a waterfall. It's the tallest waterfall in Oregon. It was only a quarter mile hike to get to the fall. It was beautiful.
Then we headed down to Salem to go see the Sea Lions Caverns. We stopped in Lincoln City to see the Devil's Punch Bowl. The tide was too low so it wasn't too impressive. Mina met a dog that loved her. Afterwards we tried to go see the tide pools but they said that the tide was too high for that. We couldn't go see the lighthouse because they wouldn't let us carry Mina to the top. She had to be 42 inches to be able to climb the steps. We just went to the Sea Lions Caverns instead. I wanted to stop so many times from Astoria to Salem, but Fred made a good point saying that if we kept stopping we would never get there. All of Oregon is beautiful.
Sea Lions Caves were fun. They took us down in an elevator town into the caverns where the sea lions come in. It was a bit eerie because it was so dark, but once I saw the sea lions I was okay. There was a few vegging on the rock. You could see them come into the cave. I paid a quarter to look into the telescope. It was so cute to see them up close. You could see them talking to each other. When we left the cavern, we could see the sea lions jumping in and out of the water. I like how uninvasive the tourist attraction was.
We stayed in Salem for the night and headed to Eugene the next day.
19 October 2006
Headed North
After we left Grechen's place on Sunday, we headed north to meet Fred's boss and his family. They live in Bellvile, Wa. His boss was totally someone I was not expecting. He had a lot more hair! They are a natural living family. They cloth diaper and home birth. I was so stoked to find that out.
He took us out to a Mandarin restaurant. It was very yummy. I had this pickle salad and a curry soup with rice noodles. Fred had some type of tofu dish.
Afterwards we headed north more. We were planning on going to Canada, but found out that we couldn't leave the area. We stayed the night just south of Bellingham. Next day we headed out and spent the day there. We did a small hike to see a waterfall, that wasn't really a waterfall. We went to the river to see if we can see the salmon jumping, but they didn't. We played at a park with Mina. It is a beautiful city.
Washington State overall is beautiful. Fred and I just love all the leaves. We don't get to see leaves like that in the south. They just turn brown and fall off there.
We ended the day by heading down south to pick up my glasses at Grechen's. Avery was asleep so Mina didn't get to play with her. She played outside a bit with Maya though. Then we headed down towards Mount Saint Helens to stay for the night.
He took us out to a Mandarin restaurant. It was very yummy. I had this pickle salad and a curry soup with rice noodles. Fred had some type of tofu dish.
Afterwards we headed north more. We were planning on going to Canada, but found out that we couldn't leave the area. We stayed the night just south of Bellingham. Next day we headed out and spent the day there. We did a small hike to see a waterfall, that wasn't really a waterfall. We went to the river to see if we can see the salmon jumping, but they didn't. We played at a park with Mina. It is a beautiful city.
Washington State overall is beautiful. Fred and I just love all the leaves. We don't get to see leaves like that in the south. They just turn brown and fall off there.
We ended the day by heading down south to pick up my glasses at Grechen's. Avery was asleep so Mina didn't get to play with her. She played outside a bit with Maya though. Then we headed down towards Mount Saint Helens to stay for the night.
18 October 2006
Mina meets Eve-re and Mikemo
When we arrived in Portland, I got Julianna's message that she would not be meeting us at the airport. We decided to stay in Portland and hang out. We grabbed some Taco Bell because we were starving since we had no time for breakfast. We left for Washington around two. We were going to meet Grechen and crew to try to make it to the Children's Theatre.
The drive to Tacoma was a long one. Mina was irritable. She is cutting four teeth. How come every time we are on the road she is teething? By the time we got to Grechen's place she was ready to get out! She was not shy at all. She totally destroyed Avery's room. Avery and Maya were at play with their dad but arrived later.
Grechen made a delicious soup. It was sooooo good! Desmina totally chowed. She had two bowls and then swiped Avery's and Maya's since they didn't want theirs. Afterwards we all hung out. Avery is so smart! It's just amazing what the girl can say. Grechen was sharing some stories that was just shocking. She knows her planets, the concept of what the universe is. I have been around toddlers who speak well for their age, but never around someone so amazing. I can't quite put my finger on it, but there is something different about Avery. She is very intelligent. Maya is just as amazing. She just draws people to her. You want to be around her. It's not just charisma, which she has. It's something magical it seems. Maya and Avery are definitely Crystal children.
We did not get to see Julianna until the next day. Grechen and the girls left early with Austin to head out to her dad's. We stayed and took showers. Michael is such a sweet boy! Desmina was having trouble with her banana and he told her he would open it for he. It was just so cute watching him peel a banana and then hand it over to her. He is a smart boy too and very verbal. Desmina's vocabulary is actually picking up from the trip. I think she feels the pressure from Avery and Michael.
We met Grechen at Mighty 0's where we met last year. It's a vegan doughnut shop. I had a chocolate covered doughnut and a glazed doughnut. It was good, but way too sweet. Afterwards, we headed to the park. Mina napped while the kids played. She was in great need of one.
We had lunch at the Pita Pit. It was not very good, but it was what we needed. We went back to Tacoma. Fred made us all chili. After dinner we all chatted a bit and then went to bed. Grechen told us something that made me cry about Avery. She asked Avery what it was like in her womb. Avery told her she was swimming like a dolphin. I was just blown away! I wonder if Desmina will be able to remember when she is able to tell us.
Next day we hung out and then had brunch at Quickies. The food was a bit pricey, but I really loved the pancakes and French toast. We headed back to their place to pack up the car and head up to Seattle and meet Fred's boss.
Ever since, Mina has been asking for Eve-re and Mikemo. She talks about Lily too. While we were staying with them she would wake up early in the morning calling their names. It's so cute. She has new names to add to her friend inventory. Sometimes Desmina will name people she knows. We call it her friend inventory list. It's just so cute.
The drive to Tacoma was a long one. Mina was irritable. She is cutting four teeth. How come every time we are on the road she is teething? By the time we got to Grechen's place she was ready to get out! She was not shy at all. She totally destroyed Avery's room. Avery and Maya were at play with their dad but arrived later.
Grechen made a delicious soup. It was sooooo good! Desmina totally chowed. She had two bowls and then swiped Avery's and Maya's since they didn't want theirs. Afterwards we all hung out. Avery is so smart! It's just amazing what the girl can say. Grechen was sharing some stories that was just shocking. She knows her planets, the concept of what the universe is. I have been around toddlers who speak well for their age, but never around someone so amazing. I can't quite put my finger on it, but there is something different about Avery. She is very intelligent. Maya is just as amazing. She just draws people to her. You want to be around her. It's not just charisma, which she has. It's something magical it seems. Maya and Avery are definitely Crystal children.
We did not get to see Julianna until the next day. Grechen and the girls left early with Austin to head out to her dad's. We stayed and took showers. Michael is such a sweet boy! Desmina was having trouble with her banana and he told her he would open it for he. It was just so cute watching him peel a banana and then hand it over to her. He is a smart boy too and very verbal. Desmina's vocabulary is actually picking up from the trip. I think she feels the pressure from Avery and Michael.
We met Grechen at Mighty 0's where we met last year. It's a vegan doughnut shop. I had a chocolate covered doughnut and a glazed doughnut. It was good, but way too sweet. Afterwards, we headed to the park. Mina napped while the kids played. She was in great need of one.
We had lunch at the Pita Pit. It was not very good, but it was what we needed. We went back to Tacoma. Fred made us all chili. After dinner we all chatted a bit and then went to bed. Grechen told us something that made me cry about Avery. She asked Avery what it was like in her womb. Avery told her she was swimming like a dolphin. I was just blown away! I wonder if Desmina will be able to remember when she is able to tell us.
Next day we hung out and then had brunch at Quickies. The food was a bit pricey, but I really loved the pancakes and French toast. We headed back to their place to pack up the car and head up to Seattle and meet Fred's boss.
Ever since, Mina has been asking for Eve-re and Mikemo. She talks about Lily too. While we were staying with them she would wake up early in the morning calling their names. It's so cute. She has new names to add to her friend inventory. Sometimes Desmina will name people she knows. We call it her friend inventory list. It's just so cute.
In the nick of time
Friday morning Desmina woke up crying. Thank goodness! We had half an hour to get ready to head off to the airport. We hustled and of course there was traffic on the way to Fred's sister, who was taking us to the airport. Fortunately she only lives ten minutes from there.
When we arrived at the airport we had about forty minutes to get our bags checked and go to security. The rule at the airport is that you have to check in forty three minutes before your flight. We barely made it! So far so good, but then there was the menacing security line. And just our luck, all but two of the checkpoint lines were closed. We were not moving an inch! I kept checking the time and holding my breath. At first I was laid back, but as it got closer to the time with our flight leaving I became more agitated. Finally they opened the rest of the lines and the line started moving faster. I had to chuck my unopened Dr. Pepper. When we passed through security we had just enough time to run to the gate. They were already looking for us. It was nice not to have to wait at the airport or on the plane for take off. But I don't think the rush and stress is worth it.
When we arrived at the airport we had about forty minutes to get our bags checked and go to security. The rule at the airport is that you have to check in forty three minutes before your flight. We barely made it! So far so good, but then there was the menacing security line. And just our luck, all but two of the checkpoint lines were closed. We were not moving an inch! I kept checking the time and holding my breath. At first I was laid back, but as it got closer to the time with our flight leaving I became more agitated. Finally they opened the rest of the lines and the line started moving faster. I had to chuck my unopened Dr. Pepper. When we passed through security we had just enough time to run to the gate. They were already looking for us. It was nice not to have to wait at the airport or on the plane for take off. But I don't think the rush and stress is worth it.
Saint Helens
When Desmina was a newborn and would have her explosive poops, we would say she Mount St. Helened in her pants. We visited Mount Saint Helens yesterday. The drive up was beautiful despite the fog. The fog actually made the view spectacular. Mountains were hidden among the fog and you can see it when the fog would lift. At one point it was so foggy, I suggested we stop because it was so hard to see. Fred said we could go on a little longer. A few seconds later the fog seemed to part and the sun was dazzling! We could finally see Mt St. Helens in the background. It was far, but we could see the smoke coming up.
We visited the two visitor centers to learn more about Saint Helens. We were only able to see the top of the crater because the rest of it was covered in clouds. It was still worth the drive. I do wish we could have seen the whole volcano. Some day...
Pictures to come!
We visited the two visitor centers to learn more about Saint Helens. We were only able to see the top of the crater because the rest of it was covered in clouds. It was still worth the drive. I do wish we could have seen the whole volcano. Some day...
Pictures to come!
11 October 2006
Dreaming
I am pregnant with my ex's baby. He is a deadbeat and I am talking to his ex. He isn't taking care of her or their children. My ex promises to marry me and take care of the baby and Desmina over the phone. For some reason I believe him, but don't want to hurt his ex's feelings. So I pretend not to.
I am in a high secure area. They are guards at every entrance and exit. I am what is being protected. I am walking around holding Desmina's hand. I feel that we are being watched, but think it's just my paranoia. All of a sudden there is an alarm. Someone has snuck in. I have to hide! There is a woman chasing me. She looks like Michelle R from Lost. She is shouting making people think that it is me who broke into the area. The fastest way to escape for me is to jump over the banister and hope I don't get hurt. Desmina is still with me. She is being quiet now, but what if she starts babbling? Am I able to jump with her? I am able to rewind time and find Fred. I thrust Desmina into his arms and run. Then jump over the banister. The woman chasing me doesn't want to jump so she takes the long way down. I am able to hide in a broom closet. Desmina is on my mind. Did I really give her to Fred or did I dream that? Everything fades away and I wake up.
I am in a high secure area. They are guards at every entrance and exit. I am what is being protected. I am walking around holding Desmina's hand. I feel that we are being watched, but think it's just my paranoia. All of a sudden there is an alarm. Someone has snuck in. I have to hide! There is a woman chasing me. She looks like Michelle R from Lost. She is shouting making people think that it is me who broke into the area. The fastest way to escape for me is to jump over the banister and hope I don't get hurt. Desmina is still with me. She is being quiet now, but what if she starts babbling? Am I able to jump with her? I am able to rewind time and find Fred. I thrust Desmina into his arms and run. Then jump over the banister. The woman chasing me doesn't want to jump so she takes the long way down. I am able to hide in a broom closet. Desmina is on my mind. Did I really give her to Fred or did I dream that? Everything fades away and I wake up.
02 October 2006
We have hope in our future
Our neighbor is a broker. We decided to finally talk to him, before we moved to set up accounts. After speaking with him, we are confident that we can set up several funds for our family. We decided to have a fund for life insurance, a retirement fund, and a college fund for Mina.
He was telling us that he tells his clients to have 3 "buckets:" a now bucket, later bucket and a never bucket. The now bucket you should try to set up money in account that equals up to 3 times your pay. I don't think we can do this, unless we sell our house with a profit. So we hope to use the money we get from that if we get a profit. The later means anything in the future: car, house, children's wedding...etc. The never bucket is your retirement and life insurance. He says that we can do it if we set aside 10% of our income every month. We live paycheck to paycheck now, but I think that we can make it work. We just have to budget better. Fred got a raise a few months ago and we just made increased our cost of living. So Fred and i agreed to automatically take the 10% out of his paycheck and move it. This way we have to live like that. Broker said that with the 10% you can retire with a good lump of money
He was telling us that he tells his clients to have 3 "buckets:" a now bucket, later bucket and a never bucket. The now bucket you should try to set up money in account that equals up to 3 times your pay. I don't think we can do this, unless we sell our house with a profit. So we hope to use the money we get from that if we get a profit. The later means anything in the future: car, house, children's wedding...etc. The never bucket is your retirement and life insurance. He says that we can do it if we set aside 10% of our income every month. We live paycheck to paycheck now, but I think that we can make it work. We just have to budget better. Fred got a raise a few months ago and we just made increased our cost of living. So Fred and i agreed to automatically take the 10% out of his paycheck and move it. This way we have to live like that. Broker said that with the 10% you can retire with a good lump of money
25 September 2006
Beautiful. Simply Beautiful
Last night, a few minutes before minute I shared with a family the birthing of their daughter. It was amazing! The mom was in the tub the whole time. When it came time to push, she knew exactly what to do. All of a sudden a gush of brown (ore green) came out. Her water broke. A few moments later, you could see the head emerging. Baby didn't cry at all. The mom made laboring and birthing so easy. Sure, she made some groans and yelled a little. With Desmina I yelled, I cursed, I cried. She gave me hope that I can do it as well. She had a very short labor, but intense labor. She worked very hard.
I cannot wait to do this again! I don't know how long it will before I will be able to though. Maybe I can work as a doula when we go to NH. It's lots of waiting and jumping, but at the end of the day it's all worth it.
Placentas are not as disgusting as I thought they were. They are actually almost iridescent on one side. The other side looks like a brain. You can even see the sac where the baby was. I am more disgusted by the idea of handling meat than I am handling the placenta. At least I know where the placenta has been. I was worried that I would get queasy and throw up. All the blood didn't seem to phase me. Now, I don't think I can bring myself to eating it like some moms do. Perhaps putting it in a pill form and everything will be OK. How do you freeze dry a placenta?
I cannot wait to do this again! I don't know how long it will before I will be able to though. Maybe I can work as a doula when we go to NH. It's lots of waiting and jumping, but at the end of the day it's all worth it.
Placentas are not as disgusting as I thought they were. They are actually almost iridescent on one side. The other side looks like a brain. You can even see the sac where the baby was. I am more disgusted by the idea of handling meat than I am handling the placenta. At least I know where the placenta has been. I was worried that I would get queasy and throw up. All the blood didn't seem to phase me. Now, I don't think I can bring myself to eating it like some moms do. Perhaps putting it in a pill form and everything will be OK. How do you freeze dry a placenta?
21 September 2006
Happy anniversary Fred
Four years ago today, Fred and I were married by the beach in Kauai. It was at noon and the sun was reflecting off the sand. I of course wanted to do it barefoot; my feet were burning. My dad walked me to the Hei'au, where Fred was waiting for me. A Hei'au is where the Polynesians worship. I married my best friend at Kukui Hei'au. As a symbol and reminder of our wedding, we keep Kukui nuts in our car.
It was a very simple ceremony. We exchanged leis, rings and drank water from a coconut. We wrote our vows.
Fred's vows to me
My Dearest Cynthia,
Today you and I are in paradise. Not just because of where we are, but because we are together. Today we will join together in a sacred bond. Two souls intertwined as one. Since the moment I met you, you have brightened my life like the sun above us. You have opened my eyes to a whole new world. Not a day goes by that you don't make me feel special. Today I am truly the luckiest man alive. You are my Eternal Soul-mate, the link that completes my chine, my Other Half, my Cuddlemonkey. You are my perfect fit, mind body and soul. You are my angel and when you spread your wings I want to fly with you on a little trip to Heaven on the wings of your love. Today I make an important promise to you. I promise to give you my eternal love. I promise to protect you when you are scared, to hold you when you are sad, and to cheer you up when you are mad. I promise to be there by your side, holding your hand through the good and bad, wherever life may take us. Our lives together and our loves will last forever. Long after the stars have faded away, our love will there burning strong. I will love you for eternity and beyond and I ask you today, to take me as your husband.
My vows to Fred
Fred,
I called you many names: Baby, Cuddlemonkey, Mio Tesero, Soul-mate.
Today I can call you husband.
You are my past, present and future.
You have a piece of my soul.
You are the angel I have been looking for, coloring my life
You're the love I have always wanted, embracing my heart.
Let's always dive together, hand in hand.
Our love will be the light to lead the way.
Our souls will be the paint to illustrate our never ending story.
I promise to share your sorrow and happiness.
I promise not to take you for granted.
I promise to fill your life with mine.
I love you today. I'll love you forever.
I'll love you until eternity.
And if eternity comes, I promise my soul will find yours and love you once more
It was a very simple ceremony. We exchanged leis, rings and drank water from a coconut. We wrote our vows.
Fred's vows to me
My Dearest Cynthia,
Today you and I are in paradise. Not just because of where we are, but because we are together. Today we will join together in a sacred bond. Two souls intertwined as one. Since the moment I met you, you have brightened my life like the sun above us. You have opened my eyes to a whole new world. Not a day goes by that you don't make me feel special. Today I am truly the luckiest man alive. You are my Eternal Soul-mate, the link that completes my chine, my Other Half, my Cuddlemonkey. You are my perfect fit, mind body and soul. You are my angel and when you spread your wings I want to fly with you on a little trip to Heaven on the wings of your love. Today I make an important promise to you. I promise to give you my eternal love. I promise to protect you when you are scared, to hold you when you are sad, and to cheer you up when you are mad. I promise to be there by your side, holding your hand through the good and bad, wherever life may take us. Our lives together and our loves will last forever. Long after the stars have faded away, our love will there burning strong. I will love you for eternity and beyond and I ask you today, to take me as your husband.
My vows to Fred
Fred,
I called you many names: Baby, Cuddlemonkey, Mio Tesero, Soul-mate.
Today I can call you husband.
You are my past, present and future.
You have a piece of my soul.
You are the angel I have been looking for, coloring my life
You're the love I have always wanted, embracing my heart.
Let's always dive together, hand in hand.
Our love will be the light to lead the way.
Our souls will be the paint to illustrate our never ending story.
I promise to share your sorrow and happiness.
I promise not to take you for granted.
I promise to fill your life with mine.
I love you today. I'll love you forever.
I'll love you until eternity.
And if eternity comes, I promise my soul will find yours and love you once more
20 September 2006
The Waiting Game
I get my first taste of what it's like to be a midwife. A client is due any day now. I am very excited! The anticipation is killing me. I have never been a patient person. I'm a little anxious, I must admit. I hope I have the stomach for it. I am very lucky to be able to be a part of her birth. If you believe in fate, then you could say it was meant to be. The midwife I am working with will be leaving soon. I was suppose to meet the client in August. The midwife found out that she was moving end of July. I was so excited about starting to go to prenatal appointments that I met the mom in June. I wonder what would have happened if I would have waited until August. Would the midwife think it was worth it?
The mom is great. She is very in tune with her body. S says that she is a great client for a first time apprentice. It is so cool to do the things that were done at my prenatals, but on the other side.
I just hope that I will be able to find someone as cool to work with as S. My plan is to go to nursing school and become a nurse midwife who does homebirths. If I decide not to home school, I hope that I can work in Desmina's school as a nurse. I will do midwifery on the side. Or I may just abandon the thought of nursing school altogether if I can find a cool midwife school in NH. It all depends how long we stay there.
The mom is great. She is very in tune with her body. S says that she is a great client for a first time apprentice. It is so cool to do the things that were done at my prenatals, but on the other side.
I just hope that I will be able to find someone as cool to work with as S. My plan is to go to nursing school and become a nurse midwife who does homebirths. If I decide not to home school, I hope that I can work in Desmina's school as a nurse. I will do midwifery on the side. Or I may just abandon the thought of nursing school altogether if I can find a cool midwife school in NH. It all depends how long we stay there.
19 September 2006
Good News!
Desmina's tests came back yesterday. Everything is normal. Well except for her urine test. They saw bacteria, which may indicate that she has a UTI. But they think it's because we did not have a sterile environment when we collected it. They think the bag was not sterile. Also her cretin level was high. She was very stressed and would only nurse. I know my supply has plummeted this month. I am going to give her acidiphilous and cranberry pills this week. Then I'll collect the urine sample. I hope they will be patient.
13 September 2006
Desi's Day
Yesterday we went to the doctor to run the tests. We really liked the doctor. She is a vegetarian and was supportive of our vegan diet. She did not say anything about us and vaxing. She was delighted that I was still breastfeeding.
Poor Desmina though. She must had a feeling that things were going to go wrong. Because as soon as she saw the nurse she started crying. She had to endure so much yesterday. She had to be pricked four times so that they could get some blood. They stuck a bag on her vagina to catch some urine. With the little blood they got, they will run a test for thyroid, liver, CBC and if they have some left over other small tests. I hope they have enough blood. They also took an x-ray, which she hated. They took a stool sample, which she graciously gave to them. I will return the urine sample today. She did not go the whole time we were in the office. I think she was too stressed. We hope to find the results out on Friday.
Poor Desmina though. She must had a feeling that things were going to go wrong. Because as soon as she saw the nurse she started crying. She had to endure so much yesterday. She had to be pricked four times so that they could get some blood. They stuck a bag on her vagina to catch some urine. With the little blood they got, they will run a test for thyroid, liver, CBC and if they have some left over other small tests. I hope they have enough blood. They also took an x-ray, which she hated. They took a stool sample, which she graciously gave to them. I will return the urine sample today. She did not go the whole time we were in the office. I think she was too stressed. We hope to find the results out on Friday.
10 September 2006
Should I Stay or Should I Go?
Fred got offered a position in New Hampshire. He will be making more money, but cost of living is almost thirty percent higher there than here. It is a wonderful job opportunity for him, but he is worried that he be stuck at this position. I am
hesitant to leave my whole support system behind. We already found our niche here, but I have always dreamed of leaving Texas behind. I was hoping it would be a move to the Pacific Northwest, not New England.
Fred kids that we should determine whether or not we moved based on if I'm pregnant or not. I find out either tomorrow or Tuesday. I already know who I would use as a midwife here. I hope that finding a midwife in NH would be as easy. I need a midwife that will do HBACs. I am hoping that I am pregnant, but I do not want that to be the deciding factor.
I am also concerned about finding an AP friendly doctor. Although, I did check out the Mothering Forums and it seems as though there are good doctors. I do not know how far I will be willing to drive for a checkup.
Fred will discuss more with his boss tomorrow. I do hope that we come to a decision soon.
hesitant to leave my whole support system behind. We already found our niche here, but I have always dreamed of leaving Texas behind. I was hoping it would be a move to the Pacific Northwest, not New England.
Fred kids that we should determine whether or not we moved based on if I'm pregnant or not. I find out either tomorrow or Tuesday. I already know who I would use as a midwife here. I hope that finding a midwife in NH would be as easy. I need a midwife that will do HBACs. I am hoping that I am pregnant, but I do not want that to be the deciding factor.
I am also concerned about finding an AP friendly doctor. Although, I did check out the Mothering Forums and it seems as though there are good doctors. I do not know how far I will be willing to drive for a checkup.
Fred will discuss more with his boss tomorrow. I do hope that we come to a decision soon.
08 September 2006
All in a day's work
and not quite done yet.
Tomorrow is Desmina's birthday party. I have been preparing all morning and afternoon. I am still not quite done yet. I am very excited about it all. It is going to be an art party. We will have a painting station, an etching station and a marble art station. I may add a marker station to the mix. What's on the menu? Raw carrot cake, vegan chocolate raspberry cake, raw ravioli, tofu sandwiches, veggies and some type of raw nut dip. I just finished making the carrot cake and baking the chocolate cake. After Desmina wakes up from her nap I'll prepare the ravioli and dip. Fred will make the tofu sandwiches. I'll post pictures of all the yummy food and festivities tomorrow.
Tomorrow is Desmina's birthday party. I have been preparing all morning and afternoon. I am still not quite done yet. I am very excited about it all. It is going to be an art party. We will have a painting station, an etching station and a marble art station. I may add a marker station to the mix. What's on the menu? Raw carrot cake, vegan chocolate raspberry cake, raw ravioli, tofu sandwiches, veggies and some type of raw nut dip. I just finished making the carrot cake and baking the chocolate cake. After Desmina wakes up from her nap I'll prepare the ravioli and dip. Fred will make the tofu sandwiches. I'll post pictures of all the yummy food and festivities tomorrow.
To worry
or not?
Desmina had her 2 year appointment yesterday. The doctor was concerned because she is falling off her curve on height. He thinks that it is time that we take her to see an actual pediatrician. I am on the hunt for a doctor that will not pass judgment on my vax free nursling. I am keeping a food log for what Desmina eats during the day. I gave him her food log from last week and he thought that she was getting a balanced diet. It's not like she isn't eating. This is what she had today.
Breakfast
2 waffles
2 strawberries
Snack
cheerios
Lunch
Rice
Beans
Guacamole
Snack
6 strawberries
Cyn handful of crackers
hummus
guacamole
cantaloupe
Dinner
1/2 taco
Rice
beans
Guacamole
She woke up at 9 this morning, had breakfast and we ate lunch at 12. We went home, she napped at 1 and woke up at around 3 or 4. We had a very late dinner, but she snacked the whole entire time. She did not eat much of her dinner. Like maybe a couple of bites of her rice and beans. But she snacked from the time she woke up until it was time for dinner. I was actually surprised that she could fit more in her stomach.
Anyways, we are going to test her for malaborption first. And then perhaps we may have to take her to go see a specialist. I would feel so guilty if it was something that I didn't catch in the beginning. Honestly, I was going to see a different doctor to see if they would test for malabsoprtion because Dr. B does not. But because he confirmed that he thought she needed it as well, makes it seem more dire.
Desmina had her 2 year appointment yesterday. The doctor was concerned because she is falling off her curve on height. He thinks that it is time that we take her to see an actual pediatrician. I am on the hunt for a doctor that will not pass judgment on my vax free nursling. I am keeping a food log for what Desmina eats during the day. I gave him her food log from last week and he thought that she was getting a balanced diet. It's not like she isn't eating. This is what she had today.
Breakfast
2 waffles
2 strawberries
Snack
cheerios
Lunch
Rice
Beans
Guacamole
Snack
6 strawberries
Cyn handful of crackers
hummus
guacamole
cantaloupe
Dinner
1/2 taco
Rice
beans
Guacamole
She woke up at 9 this morning, had breakfast and we ate lunch at 12. We went home, she napped at 1 and woke up at around 3 or 4. We had a very late dinner, but she snacked the whole entire time. She did not eat much of her dinner. Like maybe a couple of bites of her rice and beans. But she snacked from the time she woke up until it was time for dinner. I was actually surprised that she could fit more in her stomach.
Anyways, we are going to test her for malaborption first. And then perhaps we may have to take her to go see a specialist. I would feel so guilty if it was something that I didn't catch in the beginning. Honestly, I was going to see a different doctor to see if they would test for malabsoprtion because Dr. B does not. But because he confirmed that he thought she needed it as well, makes it seem more dire.
06 September 2006
Happy Birthday Desmina
Where has the time gone? I can't believe that you are already two years old! Happy Birthday, Sweet Girl! Or as you have been saying it, "Happy Up Up." I love you!
02 September 2006
Sex Quiz
You have a sexual IQ of 141 When it comes to sex, you are a super genius. You have had a lot of experience, and sex interests you so you know a lot about it. You pride yourself on being a source of information and guidance to all of your friends. Take this quiz at QuizUniverse.com |
01 September 2006
Sexually Frustrated
Lately, it seems the best actions I get are in my dreams. I have been having wild crazy sex dreams lately. Last night I dreamt that I was having sex with a professor to make an A. In my dream, it was actually Fred, I think. But the doctor was totally rubbing on me and I was getting so turned on. I don't even think I even got to O in my dream.
I also dreamt of an old friend of mine. I don't remember much about it. But we were in a game show together. We won a trip to Mexico. I am sure the Mexico part came because my BIL was on Wheel of Fortune and he won a trip to Mexico. Anyways, we won a trip and lots of money. I told him to get in the car. But in the dream it seemed so surreal. We were driving away and I just knew he was going to fade away. I told him my fear, and he told me that it wasn't him fading, but me. I had a life of my own with Fred and Desmina. I rememeber as he was saying this, I could see the images of a soda bottle fading in and out. In my dream I wanted a life with him or just one crazy night of wild sex.
I have no idea why I had this dream. My friend and I made out once, but nothing came from it. I didn't go home with him that night. I guess I wonder how he would have been like in the sack.
It's just frustrating. Fred and I are having sex. I just don't get to O. I think it's been seven or eight times. I am sure this is what is causing my dreams.
I also dreamt of an old friend of mine. I don't remember much about it. But we were in a game show together. We won a trip to Mexico. I am sure the Mexico part came because my BIL was on Wheel of Fortune and he won a trip to Mexico. Anyways, we won a trip and lots of money. I told him to get in the car. But in the dream it seemed so surreal. We were driving away and I just knew he was going to fade away. I told him my fear, and he told me that it wasn't him fading, but me. I had a life of my own with Fred and Desmina. I rememeber as he was saying this, I could see the images of a soda bottle fading in and out. In my dream I wanted a life with him or just one crazy night of wild sex.
I have no idea why I had this dream. My friend and I made out once, but nothing came from it. I didn't go home with him that night. I guess I wonder how he would have been like in the sack.
It's just frustrating. Fred and I are having sex. I just don't get to O. I think it's been seven or eight times. I am sure this is what is causing my dreams.
29 August 2006
One year ago
Hurricane Katrina swept in and stole millions of lives. Please take the time to remember them. Many people are still struggling to build their live again.
Smart Dog
This is my friend's dog, Kirby. Doesn't he make a cute beggar? I know I would certainly share my meal with him. He also is great to cuddle with, not to mention he has great taste.
28 August 2006
27 August 2006
The Quiz
| Your Political Profile: |
| Overall: 10% Conservative, 90% Liberal |
| Social Issues: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal |
| Personal Responsibility: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal |
| Fiscal Issues: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal |
| Ethics: 0% Conservative, 100% Liberal |
| Defense and Crime: 25% Conservative, 75% Liberal |
26 August 2006
Have we resorted to this again?
My daughter thinks she is a dog. I don't know if it's because she believes that Wasabi is her real brother, or if she thinks that she adopted us as parents. She has been trying to drink out of the dog's water bowl for the past couple of days. Today, she had me pour water in a bowl for her. Then right before dinner she "accidentally" poured soy milk all over the kitchen floor. Only to get on her hands and knees and try to lap it up. The child even tried to swim in the puddle. Perhaps she thinks she is part fish as well, a merdog or something.
You think that's bad, you should have seen the rest of her.
Let me just say that her bathwater was black by time I finished giving her a bath. And my floors, my poor floors.
25 August 2006
Simple Quiz
1. How tall are you barefoot? Um. My DL says 4 '10. So I'll leave it at that.
2. Have you ever been cheated on? None, I hope
3. Do you own a gun? No.
4. What do you think of hot dogs? Blech!
5. What's your favorite Christmas song? Christmastime is here
6. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Either soy mik or ice water
7. Do you do push-ups? When I'm bored
8. Have you ever done ecstasy? Nope
9. Do you like Disney World? Don't even think about it.
10. Do you like the rain? Sometimes
11. Do you own a knife? I own a few. They're all in the kitchen.
12. What do you smell like? Hmmm... right now? Hints of lavender and breastmilk
13. Do you have A.D.D.? No.
14. Full initials? CYHD
15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment. I have to pee. My nose is running. I'm bored
16. Name the last 3 things you have bought today. Burrito. That's about it.
17. Name five drinks you regularly drink. Water, Soymilk, smoothie, fresh juice, Dr. pepper
18. What time did you wake up today? 8:45 AM. Mina slept in!
19. Can you spell? Enough to get by.
20. Current worries? Money. Will my house ever get cleaned and toddler proof?
22. Favorite place to be? The water
23. Least favorite place to be? Examination table at the Gyno. Ditto what Grechen said!
24. Where do you want to go? Down Under!
25. Do you own slippers? Um. Yes, but Wasabi chewed them so they're his now.
26. Where do you think you will be in 10 years? Hopefully a midwife! And out of the Bible Belt..
27. Do you burn or tan? Tan
28. Yellow or blue? Blue.
29. Would you give up your current life to be a pirate? No. I get sea sick too easily.
30. Last time your cell rang? Never. I don't have a cell phone.
31. What songs do you sing in the shower? Depends. If I'm scared usually a silly toddler song to drown out the fear.
32. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Everything.
33. How much cash do you have on you? $10, but I owe a friends $6. So does that make my balance $4?
34. Last thing that made you laugh? I can't remember.
35. Best bed sheets you had as a child? Don't know. I did have a favourite pillow that my uncle stole. I didn't want it back anyways. It reeks of smoke. It was the perfect pillow though; it was a quilted pillow. One patch had a kitten on it. I loved that pillow.
36. Worst injury you've ever had? My C section scar. Although the back labor hurt more.
37. Where have you been out of US? Vietnam.
38. Who is your loudest friend? I don't know.
39. Who is your most silent friend? Don't know about that either.
40. Does someone have a crush on you? Doubt it.
41. Do you wish on stars? Yes.
42. What was the last song you heard? Cathy Fink lullaby
43. What song do you want played at your funeral? I have no clue.
44. What were you doing at 12:00 last night? Sleeping
45. First thought upon waking up this morning? I can breathe!
2. Have you ever been cheated on? None, I hope
3. Do you own a gun? No.
4. What do you think of hot dogs? Blech!
5. What's your favorite Christmas song? Christmastime is here
6. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Either soy mik or ice water
7. Do you do push-ups? When I'm bored
8. Have you ever done ecstasy? Nope
9. Do you like Disney World? Don't even think about it.
10. Do you like the rain? Sometimes
11. Do you own a knife? I own a few. They're all in the kitchen.
12. What do you smell like? Hmmm... right now? Hints of lavender and breastmilk
13. Do you have A.D.D.? No.
14. Full initials? CYHD
15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment. I have to pee. My nose is running. I'm bored
16. Name the last 3 things you have bought today. Burrito. That's about it.
17. Name five drinks you regularly drink. Water, Soymilk, smoothie, fresh juice, Dr. pepper
18. What time did you wake up today? 8:45 AM. Mina slept in!
19. Can you spell? Enough to get by.
20. Current worries? Money. Will my house ever get cleaned and toddler proof?
22. Favorite place to be? The water
23. Least favorite place to be? Examination table at the Gyno. Ditto what Grechen said!
24. Where do you want to go? Down Under!
25. Do you own slippers? Um. Yes, but Wasabi chewed them so they're his now.
26. Where do you think you will be in 10 years? Hopefully a midwife! And out of the Bible Belt..
27. Do you burn or tan? Tan
28. Yellow or blue? Blue.
29. Would you give up your current life to be a pirate? No. I get sea sick too easily.
30. Last time your cell rang? Never. I don't have a cell phone.
31. What songs do you sing in the shower? Depends. If I'm scared usually a silly toddler song to drown out the fear.
32. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Everything.
33. How much cash do you have on you? $10, but I owe a friends $6. So does that make my balance $4?
34. Last thing that made you laugh? I can't remember.
35. Best bed sheets you had as a child? Don't know. I did have a favourite pillow that my uncle stole. I didn't want it back anyways. It reeks of smoke. It was the perfect pillow though; it was a quilted pillow. One patch had a kitten on it. I loved that pillow.
36. Worst injury you've ever had? My C section scar. Although the back labor hurt more.
37. Where have you been out of US? Vietnam.
38. Who is your loudest friend? I don't know.
39. Who is your most silent friend? Don't know about that either.
40. Does someone have a crush on you? Doubt it.
41. Do you wish on stars? Yes.
42. What was the last song you heard? Cathy Fink lullaby
43. What song do you want played at your funeral? I have no clue.
44. What were you doing at 12:00 last night? Sleeping
45. First thought upon waking up this morning? I can breathe!
Who Are You?
Tonight Fred went to the Hotter than Hell Bike rally, Usually I am one of the biggest scared cats. Every little sound makes me jump. So far I am cool. I probably shouldn't watch CSI though. I have way too many of those shows saved onto the TiVo. You know you watch too much CSI when you start imagining what it will be like to be a suspect on the show. Of course in my daydream, I am innocent. I think it will be fun to meet the guys of CSI and give them a little guessing game.
This is me.
My friend inspired me to start a blog. I have never been good at journaling. I get distracted far to easily. I also live a mundane life and don't have much to say.
Hi, my name is Cyn, aspiring midwife. I was lucky enough to find a midwife to let me explore with her. Unfortunately, she will be leaving in October. But, not before allowing me to go to one birth in September. That is next month! Yikes.
I have a wonderful husband. We met almost six years ago and have been married for almost four years. We got married on the most beautiful place in the US, Hawaii. It was magical; it was us alongside with the five elements. Every time I hear island music, I think about our magical honeymoon. I dream often about Hawaii. The moon is always so perfect.
A year later, we decide to travel the world together. We wanted to join the Peace Corps. We get accepted and was due to leave in June 2004. Instead, we get pregnant. It wasn't a complete accident. We had baby fever and tried for only a couple of times. Well you know it only takes once. We are now blessed with a beautiful daughter who was born on Labor Day of 2004. I honestly thing that she was meant to be. I keep thinking about what happened if we did go into the Peace Corps. Her soul may have never found ours. I cannot ask for a more wonderful family.
Ok guys. I promise I will not be as cheesy in my other posts. Nursing always does that to me.
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