Another weekend has come and gone, I spent it taking my mind off work, off everything that's been happening in my life, I kept myself busy so my mind wouldn't wander, so I wouldn’t feel impatient of the things I want to happen.

Funny how I still feel stressed instead of relaxed after that weekend. I'll be going to class soon, and it'll feel like I'm working 7 days a week again. I'll be stacked with work in a while, and the never ending payment issues with my suppliers begin.

She's probably pissed at me right now; I haven't given her much time. I'm sure she's pressured as much as I am and yet, I'm failing to be there for her. My mind is too racked at the moment, I need silence and privacy.

I haven't had that in a while now.

I have to run when I get back home, I have to keep in shape; I still have a lot going for me. The family's future rests in my shoulders and I have to be strong, I have to be focused otherwise, dreams won't be realized.

For the past week I've been listening to Joe Satriani while working. I must say it calms the nerves and let’s time pass quickly. Work pretty much has been hectic these past couple of weeks, the lack of enough time for myself to recuperate is bugging me but what can we do? At least I'm getting paid and I'm looking forward to my salary this month.

I'm planning on buying a new mobile phone, it's a Sony Ericsson Z610i which was show cased in Gitex Dubai last November 2006 however, it turns out that this model isn't available in Saudi Arabia, great isn't it?

Luckily, I might get to purchase one of these models when one of our managers goes on a business trip in UAE. I really want that model, I'm practically drooling over here *laughs*.

I've recently downloaded a trial version of a video-editing software, which has a 5 star rating from effects to user-friendly, I've done a couple of small videos already and I might just purchase the full version.

I'll start that new course tomorrow, from 8am to 10am. My brother will be pissed because he won't be able to sleep in for the next few months, well until he leaves in May. He'll finally start college again, after finishing a certificate course here and working for almost 4 years now as a technical support engineer.

We're very proud of him, for graduating at the top of his class and wanting to finish a degree despite how financially secured he is with his current job. A degree is still a degree and I couldn't help but feel sorry for him on my graduation day. He took the video of my college graduation and I saw the envy in his eyes.

I want him to experience college/university life, he deserves it. I've been the luckiest of both my siblings and I will do whatever I can to get what they deserve.

Its funny how some people that made an impression of you tend to recall conversations you have long forgotten and then one day, they remind of you that instance, that memory where in you made a slight difference in her life.

It was December then, when she and I first talked and two years later she brought up that first conversation we had, that first Discovery Channel trivia I told her about.

Here I am lying in bed sneezing and I here her voice once again. "The heart stops beating when you sneeze, you told me that," and I find myself smiling thinking about how beautiful she looked on that evening, how much I wanted more of her in my life.

She's lying next to me, sleeping soundlessly as I stare at her thinking how beautiful she looks, how in love I am with her. Gently I touch her face; I kiss her and whisper words of endearment in hopes that my thoughts will fill her dreams.

I knew it will be hard for the both of us in the coming months to come, I will be leaving soon and what trials life will bring us, we'll tackle it so as long as our love for one another is there and that, we both grow pursuing our passion.

I am an idealist, I've always thought I can handle whatever will come to me given that; I have a plan ready and made. Plans change; I have to be competitive in order to be successful, no one stops learning, it’s just set in a different stage, a different environment.

Life provides us with limited choices and no matter how difficult and how trapped one feels, we have to keep our head held up high and take it on, life moves on whether you go with it or not.
My thoughts are filled with her, the moments we've shared that have long passed and the thought of being with her soon makes my heart seer. We've come a long way from our relationship and we've had our share of fights, none of us imagined how difficult it could be being so far apart.

Still, I'll make it happen, we'll be together soon enough and I pray that she becomes stronger, be more confident in herself and the love we have for each other. I don't believe she has a weak memory like what she says; I've been surprised more than enough of how she can recall a conversation we've had when I have forgotten about it.

I was chatting with a friend out of boredom at work -I have finished all pending tasks that needed to be done nonstop and haven’t eaten my lunch yet because, I'm waiting for 4:30 so that the restaurant around the corner will sell shawarma, go figure.

Anyhow, I was inquiring about any interesting blogs and this friend of mine said a name which I googled and saw this site (wikibios.com *duh*), and then I got to thinking. You see, my friend likes blogging too and I thought it would be a pleasant surprise if I add my buddy's bios (insert evil laughter) in the site, I mean, what harm can it do but attract possibly a few extra clicks on the site, right? So here I clicked and read, filled up forms so that I can make my lovely surprise and afterwards, sent a message:

Vinzi: hey have you seen this new site? wikibios.com lol

Friend: not yet, I don't like wikibios I prefer my privacy :D there are times when I hide details about myself. Hahaha!

Vinzi: Really? Did you check your name yet? >:D>:D>:D>:D

After a while…

Friend: GAGO KA VINZ!!!!

Vinzi: *GLEE*

Santa's little helper: HI VINZI!!!

Vinzi: (still typing on his laptop) …heyyyy

Santa's little helper: you're bored aren't you? *BEAMS*

Vinzi: …

Santa's little helper: want to do something fun and exciting? *GLEE*

Vinzi: (looks at the little midget)

Santa's little helper: well? (looking at vinzi with puppy dog eyes)

Vinzi: (resumes typing on his laptop)

Santa's little helper: I have presents for you! *BEAMS*BEAMS*BEAMS*

Vinzi: (mutters a cuss)

Santa's little helper: come on vinzi! let's do something fun and exciting! (tugs vinzi's coat) I have pressssiieeesssss *GRINS*

Vinzi: *smiles* sure lil helper let's play a game (opens a drawer and takes out a S&W M&P handgun) how about I play hunter and you be deer? *BEAMS*

Today is my parents' 28th wedding anniversary and my cousin's wedding day as well. They, my parents, are currently attending my cousin's wedding in Perth, Australia and I must say I didn't expect her to get married this early in life; she's 21 turning 22 this year.

Anyhow, my Aunt, -her mom got married at an early age. Early twenties too so I see there shouldn't be anything wrong with her approving that.

I should have been there however, work and lack of funds kept me from coming and some other matters. Maybe by mid 2008 I'll be able to move, I need to save up this year and prepare for that big move.

My resume has already been passed to our lawyer in Aussie and I hope in fifteen to eighteen months time I'll be able to make that next step I've been planning.

On other matters, my older brother will be getting married on September and he has an interview this month, I hope he gets it so he can be with his wife (they got married last year by a Judge) and also, be able to support himself fully without our help.

My younger brother will be going to college; he finished a certificate course here and has saved up for his big move to college life. I think he has more than three years of work experience as a technical support engineer under his belt. He's brilliant and it will be a waste if he doesn't get a degree despite the salary he's getting with his current job in UPS.

I'll be taking my vacation soon to be with my loved one; it's been hard being apart from each other. Especially when she's sick with flu and I'm not there to care for her, I want to care for her; tuck her in bed, cook some chicken soup, read to her until she falls asleep, remind her to take her medicine all that stuff.

I've been grumpy over the past week because of the cold weather. I really not the type to live in cold places, -I mean not too cold.

To be honest I'm sick right now and the meds are keeping me going however, drowsy I'm feeling right now. There's too much work to finish for me to stay home and get better.

When I do make it big, I'll retire early.