Saw this article in a forum. I think it's quite true to an extent. The guy writing this must be very emo and angry. LOL poor guy. Alright, here it goes.

Death of a Nice Guy

Women are always saying how they want a nice guy, someone who will open up to them, spend time with them, do nice things for them, in general, be there for them. Bullshit.

Next time I hear that from a woman, I will say exactly that. Bullshit. Because you don't want the nice guys. Sure, you can say you do all you want, and maybe you can trick yourself into believing it too. But the truth is - you want the jerks. You want the guys who show an interest in you, then back off for no apparent reason. You want the guys who don't call you for two weeks, and when they do they swear up and down they're committed to you. You want the ones who don't talk to you, don't open up at all (and you want to change them to boot!) If you do find a nice guy, you make sure he's unattainable. He has a girlfriend, or he's gay, or he doesn't want a relationship at all. Basically, you want what you can't have.You know how I know this?

I used to be a nice guy. Yeah, I'm the one you always come running to when the jerks screw you over. I listen to your problems, I offer advice. Like all nice guys before me, and the countless ones after, I'm always there to back you up. I tell you how pretty you are. I tell you how fun it is to spend time with you, how cool you are, how you deserve great things. You say thanks, briefly, and then continue to rant about Jerk #2873.I tell you over and over that you deserve a better guy, and there's always that "but…". Then you call me up at 1 in the morning some night just to tell me how he finally called you after two weeks, and how happy it's made you. You make excuses for why he's been ignoring you. You make more plans to change him. "If." And, do you know what the worst part is? This is the guy you're attracted to. This is the guy you're willing to get physical with. This is the guy you're willing to lose your virginity to. You make a big deal about how you're not a slut, and you won't just kiss any guy. But you admit that you would go all the way with this guy. Or you want to. Or, you already have. No, you don't want a nice guy. And don't give me that bullshit about "a good man is hard to find." There are millions of them out there. Probably hundreds around where you live. And I'm willing to bet you know a few.

You know that guy you call at any hour at night to talk about your relationship triumphs/problems? The one who always compliments you, makes you feel better about yourself? Is always willing to drop whatever he's doing to satisfy your needs? What about him? No, of course not him. He's not enough of a jerk for you. And the worst part? You don't want him now, but you will. When you get older, oh, say 30, and the ticking of your biological clock gets louder and louder, and you realize you can't play these bullshit games anymore, you stop going for the jerks and find the closest nice guy you can find.

Wait, I take that back, the absolute worst part is that we let you do it. We've been starved for your attention since puberty, and now we're all too happy to get it. We're nice guys too, so we accept you when you come around, instead of giving you the cold shoulder in return you've been giving us for 15 years.I used to be a nice guy. Fuck that. I took the phone calls, I dished out the compliments, I listened, I gave so much advice, shit, I should have a doctorate in psychology conferred to me right this instant. I used to be a nice guy, and I figured that I didn't need to actively look for a girl - that if I just got to know people, some girl would get to know me and really like me and develop an interest in me. I thought that I would make for an ideal partner, I'd open up with you, and be there as much or as little as you wanted me to.I used to be a nice guy. What did that get me?

21 years of my right hand and softcore porn on Showtime. So, fuck it. Fuck it entirely. I'm not going to try to meet women and get to know them, and to hell with the phone calls at one in the morning. Next time you start bitching to me over the fact that he hasn't called in a week, I'm just going to smile at you and say "Ok." In fact, maybe, I'll tell you to call him. Better yet, go over to his house, and drop your pants for him right this moment. Save us all some time. I feel the desire to be that good, dependable, caring friend slipping rapidly away. And I like that.

My sleeping habits have changed again. Hope it will change back when school starts.

Having my LAM test next week. Hope I will do well. Or rather, hope I will study hard for it. I think I have lost interest in studying for the time being. Maybe it's because I'm in my final year already. But shouldn't I be more hardworking since it's my last year in NP? Hmmm. Hope I will be enlightened by some wise people to make sure I study hard. WAHA.

Didn't have the mood to study so decided to go driving just now. Cancelled my slot for next week and booked the 8.50pm timing. Drove badly. AHH hope I won't repeat my mistakes.

Gonna play football with my peeps on 7th July. Been a long time since we play together on the field. Seriously, the thought of us playing again really feels good. Reminds me of the wonderful past that we had.

Working tomorrow. Hope I will have more work on weekends so I will have lots and lots of money.

The Quarter-Life Crisis

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

I have found another new love, DRIVING (=

Driving for the past 2 days. WOOTS! Drive auto car for the first time today. It's alot easier to drive. My left leg felt useless.

Went to jog after driving. O my. My fitness really dropped already. I wonder what's my timing like. But never mind. Just hope I can do well in my NAFA.

Interesting chats I had with cia and fang.

1) Cia
ciA* says:
tmr i sure crash
vin. says:
aha
vin. says:
then i will go for funeral
vin. says:
for free curry chicken
vin. says:
Waha

2) Fang
vin. says: you look nice in the pic
fang says: what pic?
vin. says: your primary photo in friendster
fang says: who is nice?
vin. says: you and xin yi are nice. but her boobs are nicer! WAHA

LOL I think they are funny.

Talk about today. Went to Fx's church concert at Paya Leba with Kw. The thing was okay. Was looking forward to see hot chicks. But okay la, no hot chicks but got nice people.

SIAN. Project tomorrow, some more it's at Little India. Nice place huh?

I thought I will wake up very late today. I slept at 6plus in the morning. And I slept for less than 6 hours.

All I was waiting was my driving session at 8.50pm. Feels nice to be in a car again. But haven't drive for like a month. My driving skills become rusty already. Luckily things went well and I'm going to be on slope next lesson.

My NAFA test is on the 16th next month. The person who called me told me that everything will be done on that day. Hope I can do my 2.4km run first. LOL my aim: not more than 10mins. I remember my record was 8.20mins. That was when I'm in Sec 2 training for the Orienteering competition, running with Raymond. Time flies. Been 5 years since 2002.

Anyway, anyone wants to buy anything from Fossil? Please tell me if you are intending to. Cause I need to spend more than $200 to get discount. The watch I want to buy is only $135. So to the nice people out there who are reading this, PLEASE BUY SOMETHING FROM THERE, and of course MUST TELL ME! THANKS! (=

Having my 2 weeks break now. But got one thing to do, to study for my LAM. Of course, I will only start some time next week. Been slacking at home. FM, TV and sleeping. Lovely.

Played soccer on Sat night. Talked about eerie stuffs. O MY. I was freaked out after listening to new stories and the things that happened to us last time.

I WAS REALLY SCARED!

Bascially not doing much in the hols. Watched Pirates with the 3 girls. The show is okay only. I didn't watch the 2 parts in front.

Slept at 12plus am last night, and woke up at 4.15pm when Shy called me. Can't go back to sleep after that.

Guess I have found a new love.

.... AND THAT IS....


...SLEEP!!!

My SIS is dead. Should have studied more for the test.

Kbox after test. I slept towards the end. Was damn tired cause I slept like only for 4 hours the night before. LOL then off to dinner at Newton. Had lots of food.

Then when I was going to take my medicine after reaching home, I saw something on the letter.

"Please have light food ONLY one day before the examination (porridge etc)"

I was like WTF?! I ate so much Zz. But didn't care much, just eat the medicine.

One of the nurses today was very pretty. I find her very hot. O MY GOD! She's tanned and really good looking when she smiles. Luckily she was there in the room, if not I think I will be in more pain when the stupid needle is my my flesh. LOL kept talking bout her until Kw kinda fed up. WAHA.

Off to PS for my first meal. And then to Habourfront for dinner which is like 30mins later. Went to this chinese restaurant. The food there is average only. Not really nice.

And home sweet home.

2 weeks of break. Hope can go more driving (=

If I were blue, would you be there for me
And whisper in my ears that's ok
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight
And say you love me one more time

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me
And touch my lips with tender loving care
Would you die for me, would you run with me
And never look back

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there

If I will wait, would you still think of me
And wished that you could hold me now
Would you die for me
Would you run with me
All the way

Would you be there to love, to be with me
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be the one
To take my breath away
Would you be there to save my soul tonight
Would you swear that your love is always true
Would you say that you'll always be there
To kiss my pain away

~would you be there

Common tests have kicked off. SOM paper is rather easy except for the MCQ part. But I think I will still do well overall. SIS paper next. I don't know anything about SIS cause I never go for its lecture before until this week. WAHA may God bless.

Back to Montfort after the test. My first time back there since I got my Os cert. I got a weird feeling when I stepped into the compound. Things still look the same after 3 years. But memories still stay.

Went out and chilled around with Kw. Long day.

SHAGGED.