went to sch for nothing today! damn stupid. waste my time there. had b stats tutorial. the sunny phua just went through with us what questions will be coming out for the test. its really damn stupid. everything ended in less than 40mins. even the time i take to go to sch is longer. waste of my time.

went to sp after that to find raymond they all. walked all the way to the business sch to find jarett and zk. then jarett waited for me at the gate there. went to the library. so hot man the weather, luckily got air con. but if i had known, i wouldn't have gone down to sp. i saw vivian in the library today. jarett told me that when i went to meet him. i pretended not to see her. but she confirm will see me.

went to play billard at hougang plaza after that. haha. wth man. we spent one hour playing only one game. i got 159 pts. i think got the 2nd. jarett got 200+ pts. wth man. damn funny we play. still talk cock ard. really miss those times we talked crap and finally today can be happy again. that stupid raymond! always making us laugh with his crappy words. and oh ya! i told them a joke i saw on the web ytd. idiot! they suan xiao me lo. say damn funny then laugh sarcastically at me. arGH!!

went back home after that. damn boring. then watch tv slack ard. now here to update this blog. sians!!

missing u

today is quite a lousy day for me. why do i say lousy? cos i don't like today. don't know why. very sian. nowadays i just feel very sian very easily. i don't know why too. i think that life is very meaningless. perhaps because i don't have any goals in my life now. i just can't find any motivation in whatever i do, including studies. i just hope something, or even someone can start to change my life.

had my o comm presentation. actually i didn't really prepare much for today. i even forgot to prepare those questions. miss tan had me doing the topic, 'cca participation and personal growth'. actually, i know nuts about it. i don't know what is personal growth. but luckily i asked sherman and jia quan about it before everything started. i started off very nervous. in fact i was nervous all the time. i tried to smile to calm myself so that the 'cheerful' style of mine will remain in me. but luckily i did better than last week. last week's was a total flop. wth man. nvm don't talk about it.

then went for b stats lecture. before we even reached there, we were told it was over. wth. luckily i didn't walk up the stairs. then went to have lunch at canteen 1. had chicken chop. hmmm.

went to library to pass matt his student card. then saw flo there. fell asleep while studying in the library. omg man. i think i was really tired. then called zk ask him go back with me. hmmm. this is how i spend my day. kinda boring.

life is weird, isn't it?

today is madness day!! very tiring lo. i just completed my stupid econs e journal. thanks everybody who has helped me! really greatful to u all, if not i sure cannot complete. hees. i wrote about demand and supply, elasticity and market equilibrium. very idiot lo.

lets talk about today. didn't go for the lectures as usual. not feeling well in the morning when i woke up at 7.30am. so decided to pon. but went for the cip lecture for a while. then went to have lunch with florence and kevin. hees not bad la. cos i ate!! very hungry lo in the morning. had b stats tutorial after that. i tell u, its damn boring!! i hate the tutorial. see the face also sian 1/2 liao.

after sch, discuss about the OB thing. then went to Lot 1 and watch...The Maid. the show is scary only at some parts. will suddenly have those scenes that will make people shocked. but the storyline quite boring. one thing..the maid is not bad looking. haha!!

i think i shall end here. very tired. hope tmr wil be a nice day. i'm hungry...

haven't been updating for quite a week already. too lazy already. many things have happened in this one week.

she asked for a patch on thursday, saying that everything was a fake. she just wanted to test our relationship. the friendster account, the new relationship of her and louis, those words she hurt me are all 'fake'. but how do she expect me to trust her again after lying to me last time? she forward msged me sms, called me etc. i told her i really needed time to consider the patch. how to be together when my trust for her is gone?

the next day when i was in the bus back home, she smsed me. told me that she had given up on waiting for my reply. actually i was feeling wth. if u really wanted me back, u should have waited for my reply right? somemore i did told her that maybe i will tell her the following week. though i felt quite sad, i know i will nv regret my decision. she's no longer the vivian i used to know.

perhaps its because louis neglected her or what. thats why she asked me back. after he made her happy again, she went back to him. thats what i think. i just feel that omg! why am i used as a bait? is love really such a cruel reality? if this is true, i will rather have no love life. and at night after she replied me, her msn nick changed back to old nick. once again, i'm disappointed in her actions. how i wish i can forget this girl..

nvm, i shall talk about other stuffs. got back my o comm test results. i got 30/40. sad, i aimmed for an A. how the hell did i get a B. but nvm, i must strive for my next table topic next week. did badly for my table topic today. should talk about employing the disabled. but instead, i talked about employing the elderly. what the hell was i thinking!!! maybe i'm really too nervous at that time. i'm the first to go up. but i know thats not the reason to do badly. i was really blank in the one min i'm given to think. haiz. but nvm!! i can do it. so can u, sy. don't be too sad over it.

played pool after sch with kevin and sherman. drew with kevin 1-1. but i won very tyco one. cos he hit in the white ball. quite fun ba. but really damn idiot. i was damn unlucky. sherman knows why. haha.

went back home and slp after that. was damn tired. worked until 4am like that at Liang Court last night. the night scenary of singapore is really nice. i was sitting at the singapore river, enjoying the breeze and the moon. but the moon wasn't full last night. but at least got stars to accompany it. took bike back. reached home at 5.45am in the early dawn. slp at 6+ ard 7am in the morning. had to wake up at 10am to go sch. damn tired. but not bad la. i earned money! at least i can buy things with the money. =)

got to know this girl more recently. hmmm. she's a nice girl and she is a gd teacher!! haha. cos she taught me econs once, not bad la. i understood some. arGH!! hope i can improve in my econs. very jia lat man my econs. i thought i knew demand and supply only. but wtH! i don't even know that. hope God bless me man. i promise i will read up on my econs. give me the strength!! hees.

anyway, i think i'm ending here. quite a long entry today. haha. stupid day...

i realised 24 hours a day is short. things can change dramastically in just that 24 hours. that 24 hours may seem long, but it may seems short too. its just like i'm given such long hours to study my cip test. but i still haven't touch. another eg, matt's friend met with an accident and lost his leg. all these can really change one's life.

today is a short day for me. i can finally be myself when i went out. went to west mall's mac to do the cip which is due tmr. spent a couple of hours there. had mac and then went to amk to find zk after finishing. then we went to had chicken rice for dinner. went to hougang mall after that. walked ard lo then finally went back home. no one was at home. don't know where they go also.

everytime when i'm at home, i will only be in my rm, my small world. using this lappy and sometimes on the phone with zk. thats why when i'm outside my small world, i will tend to talk crap and be 'mad'.

i am kinda disappointed and sad now. someone(my good brother) told me about what vivian said to him. after i read the chat log, i'm disgusted at what she said. 1) she told him she suffered the most when we broke up, struggled with herself and let me go. last time she said until like everything is my fault and now she's telling him all these. 2)she also said i called and scolded her. but the fact is that when i called her, i didn't scold her. i told her i won't forget what she did to me and that i felt very disappointed in her. i only scolded her when i changed my msn nick and scolded her a fucker and put her full name down. i don't deny that. 3)she said i pressed her for a patch and didn't give her time. omg man! i did gave her time. we broke up on a sat. i told her i would give her till ard mon/tue(i forgot when) for her reply. she told him she wanted to tell me on the spot she can't. i know perhaps she don't want to hurt me further. but why did she want to ask me to give her a week when she already likes another guy at that time?

i just feel that things are unfair. what she said isn't tally to what actually happened. she asked me whether we can be close friends. actually we could, i badly wanted to be her close friend. but what had she done? she lied to me knowing i will be more upset. she understood me the most in the world at that time. how i wish everything in my mind of all these unhappiness be gone in just one second. i don't know what she's thinking now. there are 2 possibilities. 1)she really wants to be friends with me. 2) because of the negative perspective that people have of her now. i hope its the first one.

haiz. why is it that things are going this way?

as usual, played soccer at the street soccer court again. today didn't play as well as last week. but not bad la, scored quite alot today. but had 2 bad falls today. first, i don't know how i kicked the ball and i step on it before i land in the ground. then after that, got this army guy damn physical, don't know how the blue hell he kicked me and i landed on my shoulder. its damn pain at first but had to act i'm fine. if not very weak. =x but bled abit. now blue black on my left shoulder. then got this malay team. got this guy damn xia lan. see him damn buay song. very hao lian like that. luckily we won them all 3 times. then got another guy. wth keep pushing like mad. so lousy play until like that. insult soccer man. and they are from BOWEN sec. they sucks!

today many funny things happen. first jarett. when kelvin go and take the ball which flew out, i saw this taxi and say, wah got people take cab come sia. then raymond say, won't be our people la. they where got so cum. then jarett walked out of the cab. wth man. damn funny lo. joke of the day man.

slp the whole day after i reach home until went out again to kel's house to watch epl. man u vs everton. had dinner with jarett and zk before that. yea! man utd won 2-0. not bad. very happy. hees.

sian sia now. don't know why also. she seems to be keep coming back into my life. i don't know why i'm feeling so sian when i think of her. perhaps she really hurt me alot. why did she still bother to talk to me when she wants me to leave her alone last time? i know she really wants to remain friends with me. but i don't think can. perhaps i will try. and keep trying....

hmmm didn't blog ytd. very tired and worn out. lets talk about my day ba. today woke up quite early to go to sch. meeting up for cats project. damn early lo 10am. luckily i woke up at 8.56am. cos my hp alarm clock don't know why not working. if not i sure reach later. cut all those cardboards to make those coasters and photo frames. they are very nice. then had cats and s&w.

but today kinda not serious in playing. perhaps the attachment is over le ba. thats why. then anyhow play lo. then can relax ma by talking crap. if not i will get mad over studies. haven't really been touching my notes and books for a damn long time. especially my econs. and i still haven't study for my incoming ocomm test. sians. next thurs test already. went back home after sch lo. today is quite a boring day.

ytd very fun. played soccer with a volleyball with xue fang, michelle and one more guy. scored alot. cos they don't know how to play. so fun. =D but reached home very late last night. then very tired.

feeling very sians now. just now she called me. but i didn't pick up. i came online and she said hi. she asked me whether i still treat her as a friend anot. actually i wanted so much to say a yes and a no. a no because of what she had done to me. a yes cos .... i also don't know why. but until she said about how my friends look at her in sp, she feel very bothered. i have decided a no. if she wants to be a friend with me, it should be because of who i am and not because of how my friends look at her. thats what i think. thats why i didn't reply her. i hope God will let me forget these unhappy memories in my mind.

because behind every footprint, there's a story

this week is a terrible hell week. got test and so tired!! got up today very early at 7am. still very sleepy lo. don't know why. still have to go for that stupid ob lecture. maybe not going next week liao. very bo liao lo. go there also talk cock only. should have rested at home and zZz.

took back b stats test today. omg man. i got only 32/60. sadded. but at least i passed la. the next coming exam must pia harder liao. now only got 24% out of 100%. hope God will bless me. hees. sch is quite boring today. nth special happened. except my toe was damn pain for almost the whole day. stupid lo. should have cut my toe nails the other time. now regret also no use. whose fault? my mother's la. that friday night slp so early for what. caused my toe nail to break the next day when i play soccer. arGH!!!

but today quite happy la. hahaha!! don't know why also. hees. zk today also mad one. tell me he farted in class. funny lo, don't know why people are farting so much nowadays. maybe the weather hot. lol. but he damn funny la. imagine he fart! sure very cute. omg man, i'm becoming a gay.

just did my e learning tutorial for o comm. die le la. the deadline over le then i just submitted nia. omg man. should have done earlier. =x

k la, think i stop here. pray that tmr will be a better day!! haha =)

happy birthday singapore!! today is singapore's 40th birthday. my nation has grown one year older. hees. lets talk about my day ba. i think today is quite a f up day. haiz. sians.

went to wee yang's house play pool. got 8 people go sia. stupid lo so many people go at the same time. then have to waste time waiting. luckily is free if not i won't be playing man. then i team up with zk. not bad la we 2. managed to win but also unluckily lost some matches. zk say i improve sia. not bad la. at least i'm better. =) then saw jiew kwang. long time nv see him already. he still nv change, except for the new pimples on his face.

after pool, we went to kel's house watch ndp. quite stupid la. but luckily saw chee lee, rm and ah lee on the way there. asked them and kb along. if not only me and zk very weird. then the whole gang of us went up his house. he was shocked. cos he thought only me and zk going and nv expect so much people to go. quite nice la the fireworks. how i wish i can go and see. but actually wanted to ask someone out. but didn't eventually.

went to hougang plaza after that. cos they playing dota. me and zk just watch them play lo. cos we 2 know nuts about that game. saw leonard and his friends there also. went back home when i feel sleepy. but on the way home at 504 saw yi wei, li xi, ah long and his gf playing bball. then i borrow ball from one of them and practise shooting alone lo. quite lousy la. shoot damn long then finally got one ball in. then went back at 10.30pm. mum keep talking but i nv pick up. if not sure @#$#$^%$^.

then reach home wah damn angry with her. i told her i hungry. she nv even give me money for today to eat. then she say my business. only got white rice lo. pls wtf. expect me to eat that only? come on man. i'm still growing and i need to eat more to grow bigger in size. i won't forget how she is treating me now.

then just now online vivian talked to me. wth man. she told me about how my friends reacted when they saw her in sch. say they don't treat her as a friend anymore and like a stranger. pls lo. how they want to react is also none of my business and its something i can't control right? what makes me really angry is that she said she's not a coward and can face reality when i said i'm in np not in sp. kao she's just going one big round saying i'm still a coward and i can't face reality. bloody hell man, i'm already forgetting her and she's now talking this crap. just hope she can wake up her senses and don't talk crap to me.

why the hell are females creating problems for me?

today is a good and bad day. haiz. lets talk about the bad part first ba. the b stats test today is ARGH! don't know what to say. i study the confidence level de chapter then none of the questions came out. then those questions i see liao also -.-". don't know how to do. but luckily as time passed, thank God i can remember things slowly and do the test. if not sure die. damn stupid lo every question 5 marks. don't know how the darn teacher set the paper. just hope i can do well. think my A is flying away from me.

nvm enough of the bad part of my day le. haha. now its positive part!! wow today went to mediacorp. watched the superstar!! hees so happy. cos can see silver! she's real pretty but too bad she didn't do as well as the other 2. stupid sia the xinhui. she got the highest 41.5 and she sang like dots lo. then silver got 31. sadded. just hope silver can get into the next round ba. =)

had the s&w attachment today. played 3 matches with other classes. though lost all. but nevertheless, had fun. though me and kevin at first played to win, but when i see the girls' attitude and form, i knew things were bad. so i just played my very best to get the ball over the other side. i think only me and kev really put in effort to play. but nvm la. over liao. just hope i won't forget how to play volleyball. next time can still play at beach. lol.

anyway, today is quite an enjoyable day. haha. silver!! hees =p

woke up damn early today at 7.30am. cos passing bel my dreamweaver at hougang green and going to play street soccer after that. very hungry when i was at mac. but don't want to spend money.

then after that took 159 to the street soccer court. reach there liao they still not playing. wth man. 9am still not playing. hai me rush there. but nvm la, in the end still got play. play with those army guys again. lol. they damn lousy lo. nv win us. wah i today score a goal damn nice one. i will nv ever forget that goal. lol. first time score that type of goal. lol. nicer than jarett's version. but broke my big toe nail today. so unlucky. too long liao then forgot to cut. heng nv bleed. but almost half of it is broken. lol. bathing that time wah piang. buay tarhan.

went to woodlands after i got home. actually planned to study at the library. but in the end, went to mac. then study a while liao, steph and i went to hougang plaza play pool. damn funny lo. study less than 3 hours then play until 6 something. then zk came and find me when we playing. lol. that bastard! lol. no la jkjk. then after waiting 161 with steph, zk and i went to mac sit down talk talk. then walk back home lo. tiring day man.

just just woke up from a short slp. hope brain can work better later. got to pia for my stats!! haha. people jia you man. aim for an A. stupid the other time got 34. can get 40 de lo. the mean i go put 40 instead of 20. if not i can get A instead of C liao. sadded man. hope no more careless mistakes le. haha hope everybody can do well this time. lol.

stupid blog. ytd i typed so long then got error. then lazy to type out everything again. haiz. but nvm la, over le.

now is lunar 7th month. lol scary right? but nvm la. i nv do wrong things. those "things" will not find me. today woke up quite late. at ard 10am like that. mum ta bao nasi lemak. boring lo everytime eat the same breakfast. only got chicken wings. scared later eat too much chicken wings i will also grow wings. (haha crapping). then went to sch lo. can't slp in bus. stupid lo should have brought along my b stats textbook or notes. wasted my day. cos after sch went to sp with kai wei. he said mun hon playing soccer then go see him play. shouldn't have gone. firstly, waste my time. stayed there till 9pm leh. secondly, i saw her at sp. sian lo. my mood went down when saw her. really shouldn't have gone. should have went home straight.

wah today crystal sang in the lecture 26. not bad. first time heard her sing a full song. quite pro sia. she was one of the judges for the ECE Idols.

then today like injured my ankle and knee. sian lo. left ankle then right knee. haiz. don't know whats happening to me recently. got headache and pain all ard my body. stupid devil in my body. hope can okay soon. pray for me people!!

just got back home. cos went out and meet pk and kok ming for a chat. cos pk still don't really know why i broke up ma. so just now we talked alot lo. about his bgr and sch stuffs also. then we talked alot of crap at the 24 hour coffee shop near my house.

lets talk about my day ba. quite tiring ba though i slept early last night. don't know why also. headache has been becoming worse day by day. hope it will be okay soon. then in sch quite boring today. at first very down and sian and tired. but as time goes by, mood became better. wah the kevin today drove another car. haha not bad sia. jealous. cos he got cars i don't have. passed jojo my o comm notes after the b stats lecture. hees =).

went to play pool at bukit timah plaza after sch. zk also came along. sat in kevin's car. that stupid kev. say he very lousy but still not bad lor. not like me. wah like noob like that. haiz. go there throw my own face nia. lol. then had kfc after that. not bad la. eat le then i full full. went back home ate again. lol. must eat alot liao. cos i very skinny like monkey like that. hope i can gain fats asap. if not be monkey forever. lol.

anyway think i stop here le ba. may God bless everyone and wish i will grow taller soon. hehe!!

today was a very tiring today for me. maybe because its a monday ba. then very lazy to go to sch. was very energetic before i went to slp last night. can't slp lo. then keep lying on the bed. slept quite late last night, ard 3 something. then today had to wake up at 7am.

sch was okay today. went for a swim with matthew. very fun. haha. swam 10 laps only. very tired and hungry after that lo. then afterwashing up i had chicken chop and chicken rice. haha. in the lecture i fell asleep. like a pig sia today. eat liao then sleep. lol. so funny. then today face red red for a few reasons. think matthew and sherman know why ba. but don't keep laughing at me la u 2. i will sad de leh. haha!!

then went to supercut and cut my hair. haha. i find it really weird. but it was cut by a stylist named olivervia. raymond and zk say she is a good cutter. but then i find my hair now weird weird one. haha. just hope tmr people won't laugh at it ba.

then ytd earn de 100 bucks left only 20 something. die liao lo. i spend so fast. haiz. then now my head is very pain. dont know why also. may God bless me man. hmmm. k la, i think i end here already. haha. tata~ =p

tiring day. woke up quite early today when i slept last night. cos got to work today. 2nd uncle came to fetch me at 9am. so early lo. today worked at the singapore sports sch. not bad la. today i quite efficient. did things fast and steady. then nv tio shoot by them. luckily today ended fast. around 12 something we ended everything. but i had to wait till 2 plus. cos must wait for my pay. my wait was worthwhile. i got my pay after i got out of the car. not bad leh. i got $100. so happy. but have to pay zk money. that time he lent me first to buy shirt. then return my mother $20. yesterday borrow from her to go out. stupid lo. don't know how to give me is it? haha. then $9 to kel tay. forgot why i owe him also. but nvm la. at least my debts are cleared.

then wanted to sleep in the afternoon. then got one mad person keep calling my house. i lazy to pick up. finally when i picked up, he hang up my call. angry lo. argh!! then went back to sleep. within 3 mins, got this mad old man. keep hammering metal. wah buay tarhan. when i go and see my window, he left already. omg man. i'm like not fated to sleep at that time. then i went to eat ice cream lo.

then online until now. helped out jo on her dreamweaver. hope she can finish it soon. cos very late already. tmr she go sch sure very tired. hmmm. then at the same time i study econs. hope can understand the stupid perfect competition. haha. okay, shall end here for the day. jia you jo! =)